Here goes the 7x08 white space, not sure how I feel about it, but I worked in a few conversations with Kev and Hailey, so there´s that. Hope you enjoy?!
Kim and Adam sat on the couch watching a movie and having beers, it had become their new usual, since they had left together after the flesh eating bacteria case, they had been hanging out whenever they had a chance. Halfway through the movie, Kim looked down, only to find Adam now asleep on her lap, she could hear him snoring quietly. She smiled, and then carefully put a pillow under his head, before standing up slowly, trying not to wake him up. He stirred a little bit, but then got back to a comfortable sleep. Kim got into bed with a smile on her face, knowing that Adam was sleeping on her couch just made her content.
She woke up early the next day, Adam was still asleep, but she started the coffee pot and began making them breakfast either way. When the coffee was ready, she lightly tapped his shoulder, he slowly opened his eyes and sat up. "Good morning sleepy head", she said as she handed him a cup of coffee, "The movie was boring" "Yeah, because you didn't fall asleep in the middle of it", they both chuckled at the comment. Once breakfast was ready, they sat down on the couch and ate, then proceeded to get ready to go to work.
Voight had sent them on an early operation, Vanessa and Kevin were going undercover so they could arrest some drug dealers. On their way to the warehouse, Kim made them stop at a restaurant to buy food, Adam thought it was weird, but just went along with it, giving her a funny look when she got back in the car, "What? I´m hungry" "Kim, we literally ate breakfast twenty minutes ago" "Your point?" "Fine, whatever". He watched her as she ate a bunch of fries and took a big bite of the chicken sandwich she had gotten. "You weren´t lying when you said you were hungry" "Yeah, I wasn´t" Their banter kept going until the suspect ran away and they had to chase him. As they reached a fenced area, Kim squeezed through the fence, cutting her arm. As she was running, a foul smell reached her nose, she immediately knew it was a dead body, she turned around, only to find the body of a woman who had been badly beaten, she was dead. After the rest of the unit showed up, they decided to pursue the case. Meanwhile, Voight sent her to med to get checked out.
After the doctor stitched her up, she came back with some test results, she didn´t understand all of the technical terms, but that changed when the doctor put everything into simpler words.
"It means you´re pregnant, around four weeks"
"Are you sure?"
"One hundred percent, maybe don´t go squeezing through any fences, and congratulations"
Kim just stood there in shock, her eyes burned with tears that threatened to spill, but she managed to keep her emotions at bay. After she left the hospital, everything was fuzzy, she was pregnant, she couldn´t wrap her head around it. As she came back to the district, she could feel herself tensing up at the idea of confronting her coworkers, especially Adam. Luckily everyone was too focused on the case to notice she was acting weird. She could feel the room spinning, so she decided to go to the locker room to take a breath. She didn´t notice Kevin had followed her. "You okay girl? You seem off" "I´m fine, everything´s fine" He looked her in the eye and slightly twisted his head, "You sure, you don´t seem okay" "I´m fine, I promise". They left the locker room and made their way back to the bullpen. She was lost in her thoughts when Voight´s voice pulled her out of them. "Burgess, Ruzek, go talk to the parents." . She felt her heart sink, she had been hoping not to be paired with Adam, but now she was stuck with him for the rest of the day. They still have a case to solve, all she could do was burry herself in the case, and try to forget about everything else. After a while, they realized there was a woman missing, which complicated the case, when they caught a lead, Burgess and Ruzek were sent to track down the suspect.
The case was rough, everything was starting to weigh on her. Adam started talking about his nephew while they waited for a suspect; that was the straw that broke the camel´s back. "I'm pregnant." "What?". His head started spinning at that moment, that morning they were hanging out as just friends, and now she was telling him she was pregnant, "Yeah, the, um, the doctor, she ran some tests while I was getting stitched up this morning. So I am pregnant.". So many thoughts ran through his head, he couldn´t even form coherent sentences, "Is it?" "Yes." "From the night after…" "Yeah, after that night." "Okay." He had so many questions, he just needed more clues, more information, so he could know how to react, "You're sure that" "I don't need this." "Okay. Sorry." "I'm sure." Shit, he thought, he didn´t want to overstep, but he also couldn´t just ignore this, "Huh." "Yeah.". He should probably ask her what she wanted first, that always worked, right? "Okay, what do you wanna do?" "I don't know, Adam. What do you wanna do?" I don´t know, that wasn´t helping, not even a little bit, what the hell was he supposed to say, "I don't know. I'm kind of playing catch-up over here. Um I mean, do you want a kid? I know when we were together, you said you wanted kids." "I do want kids. Someday." Someday, okay, so now what, offer her his support, don´t do anything, the latter seemed wrong, if he was a good person he had to be there every step of the way, at the end of the day he was the one who had gotten her pregnant, "Well Okay, well, listen. You know, whatever you decide, I'm gonna be there and I'll support you." Luckily their suspect showed up at that moment, she couldn´t face all those questions at that moment, and he needed to figure out how to help her, they both needed time to think.
A few hours went by, they had finally found the victim, but now there was a child missing. Kim ended up at med, talking to the victim, she made a mental note to make an appointment, she wasn´t sure, but an abortion seemed to be the only option that wouldn´t force her to turn her life upside down. Telling Adam about the appointment was harder than she thought it would be, but he wasn´t mad, a reaction she had expected. She was actually baffled by the way he approached the situation, he probably was as confused as she was, he didn´t seem to have an opinion on the subject, and just agreed with everything she said, which, to be fair, didn´t help much.
As soon as they caught a new lead, Kim´s heart started beating faster, this case was taking a bigger toll on her than she thought it would. When they found their suspect at the store, and he died before they could find out where Henry was, she started to lose hope, so when they finally found him, she let her instincts take the lead, opening the door with a log of wood and picking Henry up, after giving him insulin. Waiting at the hospital with the kid was really hard, she kept daydreaming about being a mom, and then trying to snap herself out of it. When the victim arrived to be with her kid, Kim was left with more doubts than before, maybe she wanted this, maybe she was willing to make the effort, but she needed to be sure, and making that decision proved to be extremely hard. At the end of the day, she found herself laying down on the locker room bench, staring at the ceiling. Adam walked in after a few minutes, "That was a tough day, you know?"
"Yeah, it's a bit of a tough day."
"I don't want you to be alone in all of this. I think you should let me drive you to the appointment."
"Yeah, that's not necessary."
"I know that you're a strong independent woman and all that, but I care about you, and I want to be there for you."
"Having this baby would be so hard, Adam…" "I'm not trying to influence you either way."
"Yeah, let me finish then. Maybe it's selfish of me, with this job and being single, but I don't want to miss the opportunity to be a mom. And I don't want to make a decision I might regret."
"Okay, what does that mean?"
"I don't know what it means Other than I…I cancelled the appointment."
"Okay. All right. It'll be okay."
He looked at her one last time, before putting on his jacket, and heading home. Her world was spinning, she could feel the tears burning in her eyes and, for a second, it seemed like she had forgotten how to breathe. She closed her eyes, trying to pull herself together, but it was of no use, a sob caught her throat and she just let the tears flow. Hailey walked into the locker room a few minutes later, she knew Kim was emotional, but she had never seen her like that. Hailey slowly approached Kim, putting her hand on her shoulder. "What´s up?", Kim answered shakily, "I´m fine"
"Sure, looks like it"
"It´s nothing, I promise"
"Hey, it´s okay if you don´t wanna talk about it, just remember you´re not alone, okay?"
"Thanks Hailey"
The detective grabbed a box of tissues she kept in her locker, and handed it to Kim. She took them, her tears finally stopping as she wiped them off her face. "Thanks Hailey" "Hey, it´s okay, just know that I´m here for you, whatever it is, I´m sure it´ll be okay" Kim threw a lazy smile at Hailey, before standing up and leaving the locker room, she got into her car and started crying again, it was going to be a long night.
When she arrived home, she went straight into the shower, wishing the running water would help her clear her mind. She spent an hour in the shower, before making her way to the bed and laying down, starring at the ceiling, she should probably have eaten dinner, but she wasn´t sure she could keep anything down. Her mind was filled with all sorts of thoughts, about the baby, Adam, the job…It was almost too much to process, once again, she let the tears flow, crying herself to sleep.
