A/N: I don't own Harry Potter
This is for the Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
Assignment #6 Defense Task #1: Unforgivable Curses: You can fight one, if you're super strong, but one of them can torture you to insanity and the other kills you dead immediately. Probably avoid.
Prompt: Write about avoiding something or someone. (Severus is trying to avoid his feelings for Lucius)
Word count: 370
First thing's first,
I do not have a crush on Lucius Malfoy.
I do not dream about his arms wrapped around me.
I do not think about his hair blowing a soft spring breeze.
I do not picture him in nothing more than a pair of emerald green robes,
loosely held closed by the clasp of a green and silver tie clip.
I absolutely do not think about that robe coming undone and fluttering
to the white tiled floor of the prefects' bath.
Secondly,
I do not find Lucius Malfoy attractive at all.
His long blond hair doesn't nothing to me as it catches the morning light.
His deft fingers curling around the potion vial as he and I work
on a project together despite me being years below him.
There is nothing attractive about his smile.
There is nothing attractive about the way he walks with grace and ease,
his robes fluttering around him.
Third,
I can not be attracted to Lucius
he is my friend!
He is the first one to show me kindness despite my past.
He was the first one to believe in me.
He was the first one to whom I admitted my interest in the same sex.
I can not be attracted to him, can not tell him these things,
for it would destroy our friendship.
Finally,
I can not confess how soft his lips look,
how I want him to take me in those deft hands of his.
I can not confess how his voice sends shivers down my spine every time
he says my name 'Severus', how it sounds like a purr coming from his mouth.
I can not tell him these things, despite the way he looks at me,
despite the way his lips are coming closer and closer to mine
as we kiss, before breaking apart.
No, I can never confess these things for he is to marry not for love,
but for family connections, for an old idea that I feel
has become obsolete.
I will never admit I love him with all my heart,
never again find myself longing for his arms,
because I could never bring him the pain of
loving what he is destined to lose.