Dear Mr Harry James Potter,
Hi Harry, if you're reading this letter, I'm gone and I'm never coming back. That may come across as brutal but it's been five years since we have had any contact and I feel as though I deserve to be honest. You're probably wondering why bother writing this letter. But as i thought of you as my brother i thought you deserved to know how my life turned out…
That day I came to the burrow still haunts me to this day. I was so upset with my meeting at the ministry. Imagine finding out your parents still don't remember you. I came to the burrow to see you. I NEEDED YOU but to be turned away at the door because i didn't fit into everyone's post war plans. Did you know my parents died that day? Muggle car crash. Ironic isn't it. That day I lost everything. I wasn't too cut up about my parents as i knew i was never getting them back but it still hurt and then to be shunned from what i thought was my true family, that's what broke me
To this day i still can't tell you what went wrong. I left you know but I doubt you did. I went everywhere, I tried to find somewhere for me but I never did. I've now been on this planet for 25 years now and I still haven't found a place to call home. To be honest with you, I thought I did. It was you Harry. You were home. My brother in all but blood but I was never good enough was i. Never good enough for anyone…
I'm writing this to express my thanks to everyone back home. You, Ron, Ginny and the rest of the Weasley's.I thank all of you for everything you've done for me, for being my rock in a world I never thought could be real and for taking me in when I had no one else to go to. After that one night I was almost attacked. I called your house, Home. I felt safe there. It was a bubble of happiness, of joy and of love. And despite the fact i know i should hate you all, just like you hate me.i can't.
Im sorry
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough. I'm sorry I was always the second choice. The one thing i'm not sorry for is sticking by you, Harry, through everything, because it means that any kids you all decide to have will grow up in a safe world and maybe they would know their Aunt Mi is looking out for them.
I gave this letter to my lawyer to deliver to you, after my death. Yes you heard that right, death. It's such a bland term now as we've practically seen everything at this point. I'm not scared about it. I knew it would happen at some point but at least now i've got no one to worry about and it's on my terms.
You probably think im stupid. The 'Brightest Witch of the Age' crap. You may ask yourself why I didn't come back. I couldn't handle rejection one more time. I'm sick of only being needed, not wanted and I've finally had enough. I couldn't let you see what utter bollocks my life turned out to be. Glamour charms only a go a small portion of the way and the mudblood scar is practically invisible now. But who cares anymore but then who really did.
Maybe i'll see you in another life harry. Maybe I'll be good enough for you all. So my family, my home away from home i say goodbye.
So to my brother, my best friend and my better half.
I'll love you forever,
Hermione x