hi I was hit with a bout of inspiration enjoy the first chapter of spirits and bluebells in the span of an hour and I have to take a little break I'm here to write again

I do not own Harry Potter all right go to JK Rowling

It's been three years since I met Mr. Fuji I visit him almost every day and he has been nothing but kind to me since we've met he gives me gifts mostly books, and he let's me eat at his café for free, or at least he tried to I felt too guilty for it and felt like I was mooching off of him. sometimes I even stay over at his house for weeks at a time, he has a spare room that he lets me stay in and keep some of the stuff Mr. Fuji gives me in there but I always feel this crushing guilt when the Dursley more Specifically Vernon beat me and lock me in my car for a couple of weeks or months.

I want to tell Mr. Fuji what's happening to me where I go for long periods of time with out explanation but I can never get the words out it's like something is preventing me from being able to reach out for help that wants me to be victimize " ...there ...is..." I can still remember the stupid horrible lie that I told Mr. Fuji when I was gone for two months during the summer and not hold my face at all to his café

Flashback

I had managed to get out of Pirate Drive and limp to Mr. Fuji's café, mr. Fuji notice my arrival since he was at the front of the café serving as a waiter today and he had a look of shock and fear on his face when he saw me "Lass what happed to you where have you been!" The old Asian man exclaimed rushing over to check over my injuries. A wave of shame washed over me and tears prickle my eyes and I as a murmured the words " I'm fine it's fine you shouldn't care."Mr. Fuji look at me like I was talking gibberish. " what are you talking about Bluebell?! Of course I care about you why wouldn't I care about you why would you say something like that."

Mr. Fuji called to his workers to holed down the fort while he took me upstairs to his apartment building to get me patched up as he got working on my injuries he got a scared look on his face and then looked at me with a serious expression more serious than I have ever seen him before " Lass I now you don't talk about your family life and it's a touchy subject for you but please answer me honestly when I ask, do they hurt you your family? Is that why you've been gone for so long? I promise you I won't judge you for it but you need help if it is the case. please I beg of you Bluebell let me help you." New tears swelled up in my eyes at Mr. Fuji honest and heartfelt words, The voices had led me to Obito Fuji for a reason maybe he was here just save me, The hope from that thought swelled up in my chest. ' tell him tell him you can be safe and happy for the rest of your life' my heart singed I had open my mouth to tell him everything about at my home life with the Dursley's about how the beat me, starve me, and lock me up in a cupboard under the stairs. but the words that came out of my mouth " I don't have a home I live on the streets I got these bruises from fighting off some street thugs I get hurt all the time."

end of flashback

Whenever I try to tell him the truth something that plays off of that lie I told him that day comes out of my mouth without my consent. I feel like a puppet on strings I'm I'm not even in control of my own life anymore or at least not in complete control of it Mr. Fuji now is always trying to get me to live with him permanently he even got me in to martial arts so I can better defend myself I even got to learn parkour. i've got an a lot stronger thanks today lessons and the muscle I have gained from it wall is small and lean and childish helped a lot for out running Dudley and his grunts and you can almost not tell that I'm malnourished. Mr. Fuji is always trying to feed me and keep me at his apartment, wanting as to be a family. no one aside from the voices have ever been as kind to me as Mr. Fuji I want so desperately just to stay with him but it's like some invisible force is constantly drawing me back to Pirate Drive Number 4.

When I asked the voices if they now what's happing to me they say " ... compulsions ... placed...by ..bad ..man..." when I try to interrogate them further your voice is get muffled and it's hard for me to hear them. But if there is One thing that keeps me going it's knowing that eventually I'll be taken back to my world a world of witches and wizards to go to the school I learn how to use my power. In the future I can escape my tormentors, be free it was these thoughts, these hopes that kept me going even in my darkest times.