Hello my readers; here I am again with another story. This one is based on the self harm and suicidal tendencies and anorexia that younger children, teens and young adults are sometimes struggling with or pressured into by the internet I've been suffering with mental health issues since I was young myself as well and then I first wrote Edge of the blade about Maxwell and then later a view after I really got into it I wrote Throw me of the edge about Izzy. Finally this month after covid 19 and my wisdom teeth got taken out among other things it all got too much and I wroteI a new story on auto pilot or something, this was Emma will use her voice...
Then after some spam reviews I got the idea to write another novel; like nearly 2-4 years after my first novel got published. I'm gonna call it My story so untold and I hope you guys will think it's any good. Before we start the first chapter I wanna give a shout out to my dear friend: Fanfics on fridays; girl tyvm for your kind review on Emma ... which helped to motivate me into writing a new novel at last...
Here we go then...
Chapter One:
Emma-Lilly was so sick sick sick of it all, of the fact that every single time she dared to be bold and speak up or stand up for her boundaries or her own self worth - people would just get mad, yell and cause a scene and then drop her as a friend or acquaintance again. People had ditched her over and over and when this happened or when she was bullied like this or in any other way the people who cared for her just let them do it and sometimes even punished Emma if she tried to say something back in her defence.
With her family there was a lot of heartache and drama with her father was distant and never straight out told her he loved her or let her have her limitations. Emma time and time again tried to connect to the only good thing in this mess- her little brother, Jullio, but in spite of all her efforts, she was like not really allowed to see him or bond with him...
One day all her heart ace led to the fact that, the then 13, year old Emma-Lilly was alone surfing on her laptop randomly wheb she decided to switch over to save mode and explore some heavy and dangerous topics on YouTube; She found videos about people with a low self-image just like her, (slightly) disturbing things like: videos about people who hurt themselves by; cutting, starving themselves or having thoughts of suicide of just not being alive anymore. After a while these things didn't scare Emma-Lilly anymore no; they started to appeal to the young teen girl and, since she was pretty far gone at that point, she decided to take the next step:
She went into the bathroom and stole one of her dads razors and the family scale, ran back into her room and locked it...
Then, acting almost as in a haze, the girl picked up the razor, put it to her stomach and cut it all over...
At first when the blood started to tickle out of her wounds Emma-Lilly just watched in awe, but after the tickles turned into a straight out flow is when the young girl started to come to her senses, but it was already too late... THE DAMAGE HAD BEEN DONE... and the young girl fell to the floor with a silent tud...
Nearly five hours later Emma-Lilly woke up very groggy, dizzy and weak and rubbed her stomach to find her finger wet and sticky. This confused her and so she started to crawl to the nightstand to turn on the little light on it. When the lamp flickered to life, the little teen got the fright of her life when she discovered that her stomach had fifteen deep cuts and her hands, arms and a big part of her floor were covered in dark blood, her blood she realized with a shock and this is when the tears came. Fortunately this was the exact moment that there was a soft knock on her door and Clarissa-Jane called out her name three times, before Emma-Lilly dared to answer. The Young teen did this, because she knew that in a mess there was always her older step sister Clarissa-Jane (or Clary), who then always lovingly called her Emmy. After all Clary was her best friend and her protector; the one she could always turn to when she felt like she was losing it...
When the door finally opened and a very pale, bloodied and tear stained Emmy appeared, Clary almost screamed bloody murder, but then remembered their dad and just fell to her knees with her arms in the air as if in silent prayer. She exclaimed: Emmy what have you done and where is all of that blood coming from? At this the young teens lips started to tremble and big tears rolled down her cheeks and onto her neck and arms. Clary took her little step-sissy by the arm, not caring about the blood that now got onto her hands as well, and led Emmy into the dark bathroom where the older girl first turned on the light, then the tab and then closed the door behind them and locked it silently...
Half an hour later the older sister walked out of the bathroom with a now clean and bandaged, but still naked Emmy in her arms. She took her to her own bedroom where she put her down on the bed and began to rummage through her old clothes pile to find something that would fit her step-sissy and then Clary dressed her and pulled the blanket of the Emmy...
Then Clary set to tearing out the bloodsoaked carpet from her the young teens room and quickly walked back to her own room where she was glad to find Emmy sleeping peacefully...
About a month later Emmy ran to Clary crying when for the upteened time she had been bullied by one of her two bullies in the street of the institute. The bully had been waiting for her outside in the garden of the institute and had yelled at her when she tried to finally stand up for herself and stand her ground. The mean girl told her that she never cared for or about anyone but herself, but it was not true at all since Emmy alwáys hid what she wanted, felt or cared about in service of what another friend needed, yeah that was the twisted thing, this bully had started out as her friend at first and been nice to her, only to stab her in the back a view years later- not once but over and over again... But then there was also a guy who had once hit on her and when she turned him down is when he really began to bully her. She had been bullied for years. Plus when Emma came to live with her dad, it only got worse, cause there the bullying intensified and she started to feel depressed for the first time. Because of her depression, Emmy lost nearly all the friends she had and all her relationships just left her broken and bruised.
She was just too, too broused too hurt to depressed and yeah that what she told Clarissa while the tears were once again streaming down her face,and neck and arms
Emma had really gone to hell and back and then back again, she told Clary and to make things worse a deadly disease had taken root in the Shadowworld and therefore all of the institutes were on lock down and she was shot off from the outside world... I mean yeah not going outside meant no bullying, but how could she train to be a proper shadow hunter when she could even fight demons and keep the people safe?
Clary did her best to console her, but for the first time the older girl failed and because of this things started to get really bad for teenage Emmy, because her own demons were taking control and so she started to diet and really severe self harm. Plus the young then started to wear dark makeup around her eyes and lips and became very pale and very thin in a short period of time...
This went on for a little while until one day Clarissa secretly came to visit her and found her skinny to the bone and covered in bloody streaks and scars all over her arms and stomach...
Clary, naturally, got the biggest shock of her life and wrapped her up in blankets in a haste and ran with her all the way to the city of bones where she hoped to find a silent brother that could help...
NB: Remember you are never alone and every life is precious and beware of the dark web...
Also, I'm sorry for the heavy topic u guys, but I want to raise awareness and I wanted to write this story for a while. I hope you guys follow, favourite and review and follow this one just as loyal as MLS LOML…
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