Jellal's POV:

Two things woke me up. Sunlight coming through an unblinded window

"Great Jellal, you forgot to do it again"

However, there was one more thing: The smell of blood.

I had no idea what happened. I looked at the leg in the bandage and it is fine, but I felt a shooting pain on my back. I got up, quickly put on my sweatpants, but I noticed blood under my fingernails.I started to be afraid, I turned the tension towards the bed, and there is a horror view, half of the sheets are tinted red. I reached back and my fear was fulfilled.

" I scratched the old scars, the most hideous memory from my past life. For years, I've tried to hide it with a camouflage spell, cheating myself and everyone else. Now there's nothing I can do about it, everyone will see it whenever possible... Erza too! No, just not those scars. What am I going to tell her? She doesn't know ... She doesn't know how they beat me."

The usual crying in this case turned to uncontrolled hysteria. I ran into the bathroom to clean my face. I cry, watching myself in the mirror, tiny veins in my eyes, puffy eyelids, dry lips.

I don't want to know how high my blood pressure jumped then.

"I can't ... Breathe. Will I die soon?" Yes, I thought that my wretched life would end in a moment

...

With a clenched fist, I hit the wall. I felt this blow from my wrist to my collarbone.

- "Get a grip! Enough of these lies." The relief I wanted immediately came. I felt dizzy with pain and acid from inside my body leapt into my throat, right into the sink. The nightmare lasted for about two minutes and another 20 minutes. Cleaning took minutes.

My nostrils pinch from the mixed scent of detergent and vomit

"So what was this stress for? I panicked like a little boy"

I rinsed the cloths and hung them on a balcony string

"They will dry quickly because it is still warm. If only there would be no storm again ...Although it's nice such weather for intimate moments "

I thought with a smile, but woke up

- "Well, what the fuck am I thinking ?! I have to throw away the sponges so that there is no scandal in the building."

Any t-shirt on, a large bag in hand, I tap my forehead with my open hand because I forgot to put the linen in the laundry.

My compulsive behavior does not allow me to function normally.

"Come on fucking divine. The elevator stuck."

It's just great that I have to take the stairs from the fifth floor. I had neither the strength nor the desire to use magic in such matters.

"Meteor? Just to throw the garbage out. There is no such possibility"

I was laughing at myself as if I was mentally ill. Sometimes I wondered whether I should go to a psychiatrist and check my mental state

...

I go back to the apartment, a bit out of breath, but the fresh air has had a good effect on me. I can hear my stomach rumbling, I think I got hungry

"Maybe I'll finally eat something normally"

My hands are washed before I start preparing breakfast. Nothing greasy, only vegetables on the sandwich and herbal tea to improve health, a little honey for taste. I feel better now, silent, I almost fall asleep on the kitchen table when suddenly the doorbell rang

"Who comes so early?" It surprised me a bit.

I open "WHAT ?!" I can't believe my eyes.

"Hello, Jellal" Erza was standing in the hallway with joy written on her face.

"Er ... Erza? What are you doing here?"

"I went to a pastry shop and decided to visit you by the way"

"Okay, but how did you know where I live?" I was acting like an idiot now, I confess.

"Hmm ... I have good spies." She winked a flirtatious wink at me, holding her finger to her mouth. I could guess who told her about it, but I wouldn't interfere too much

"Oh, ok... Come inside"

I was even glad that she came, I planned to meet her, but fate gave us a better gift.

...

"It's nice here," Erza said, delighted

"I have a mess." I was scratching my head.

" Do not worry about it"

"I ... I wanted to tell you that I live in Magnolia"

"How long?" She watched with suspicion.

"For four months"

"It's been a long time I didn't know about this."

"I'm sorry, Erza"

"Okay, never mind anymore, let's eat the cake"

"You have to forgive me, but today I can't do anything sweet"

"Are you feeling unwell?"

"My body just refuses to obey"

"Oh my God, poor thing," She came over to me and then my heart was fucking hard like it popped out of my chest.

"I didn't want to screw up such a beautiful situation with she hugging me, but again I felt a prickling on my back. Physical and mental suffering is back, what am I going to do now?"

"Jellal, are you okay? You look like you are in pain" Erza was worried about me and I had the thought to run away, but nowhere

"It's not good," I told her

"What's going on ?! Tell me"

"I won't hide it from you anymore"

"But what is it, Jellal ?!"

"I ... I love you, Erza"

"What?" The words hit her heart, I saw her brown eyes sparkle with tears.

"It's true, I loved you, I love you and I will continue to love you while I live. I want to be with you, only thanks to you I feel happy, you made me trust myself. You have been the love of my life since I met you."

"Jellal ... I love you too" More and more her hands tightened on my shoulder blades, but at that moment it didn't matter to me

Erza, can I ask you something?"

" Yes of course"

"Can I kiss you? "

"Jellal, you don't have to ask that. Do it"

I've never had it so much. Erza is a cure for my demons, I feel the heat from her mouth entering my body.

"I want more of this sin, I will not regret ."

Author's note:Jellal is very afraid of people's reaction to the fact that he has scars on his back because of the harm they have done to him in the Tower of the fact that in a 100-year-old quest he said that he felt free, his life is not so beautiful

You'll find out soon

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