One body, one mind, one soul

by Lizbear7

Tobias is struggling with his thoughts and clouded head, and what he should do, which direction to go. Tris on the other hand has the thought crystal clear in her mind, she wants more. She longs for her connection with Tobias to deepen into the cracks of their relationship, but she worries about the consequences it may have. But maybe it is just what they both need.

2. Chapter 2

Tris

I can't stop thinking about what Christina said. I don't know if this is something I want to do, or something I feel compelled to do. I want to give Tobias everything, every part of myself, my body, my mind, and my soul.

"So last week, when I was out by the fence, I thought I saw something. Like something big. But I don't know if it was my eyes playing tricks on me or what." I hear Will start a story about his 'adventures on the fence'. They get old after a while, hearing the same thing week after week gets boring.

"you ok?" I hear Tobias say softly. I can feel his hand rubbing my knee. "you barley touched your muffin, and you seem out of it." He says. "yeah, I guess, just pre-occupied in thoughts" I say. I don't exactly want to tell him I want to have sex, at least not right now, not here. "Talk to me." he says bringing his hand off my knee up to my hands. "I just... I just want to be closer closer with you. become one." I know it sounds odd, but I don't know what to say, and I don't want to lie. He kisses me, its softer then usual, but still lovely.

Tobias

"Four, Will, Tris, Christina, and Zeke..." Uriah says. "ok, so You guys want to come over later? I was thinking we could play some Candor or Dauntless." It does not surprise me that this is what Uriah wants to do. Its all he ever wants to do. "Sure." Christina and Will say this in unison laughing and blushing. I look over at Tris, she looks uncomfortable. "maybe.." I say. "hey I think Tris and I are going to go take a ride." I say. It is kind of a weird way to leave a conversation, but something is clearly bothering Tris. Tris and I walk toward the train. "Hey, you look uncomfortable." I say. "what's wrong?" I ask. She is messing with the hem of her shirt. "nothing I guess." she says. Something is clearly wrong, but I leave it alone for the time being.

We hop onto the train shutting the door behind us. I don't think I care where we go, just that were alone. "um..." Tris says, rubbing her forearm. "so I have been wanting to ask you something, or at least talk to you about it." She says. "so, how do you feel about sex?" They didn't teach us much about sex in Abnegation other then it was for a married couple and for the soul purpose of re-producing, and surprisingly, it does not come up too much in Dauntless either. "I mean, I have never really thought about it..." She is looking at her feet as we sit on the train floor. "are you ok?" I say. "yeah, I just was wonderin-" She starts but I cut her off with a kiss. I know I asked her if she was ok, but she clearly just wants sex. She is longing for something else, something neither of us has ever experienced before. We break away.

I search for her big beautiful eyes. "Tris, I am ready if you are." I say. Although I honestly don't know if I am.

I don't know what prompted her to ask this question in the first place, as she is not really the 'sex wanting' type. I want to give her every part of myself, I want to become one with her, even if I am ready, I don't know that she is.

The rest if the ride if fairly quiet. I hold Tris close, my arm wrapped around her small body, her head on my chest. I feel like she is a necessity. I can't live without her. Like she is a part of me.