Raven's POV
I was at my house, already wearing my pj's even though it was only 5 in the afternoon. I grab a glass of Cognac and sit on the couch. I just got out of the phone with Abby and i was fucking angry about the news she gave me. It has been 7 months since the accident and they told me they will get the best surgeon from the country but they were never able to put a hand on her. So since then, I've been stuck with this stupid thing on my leg and hand. I threw my phone beside me and let out a sigh before I turned on the TV. Anya stumbled through the door with some food in her hands. I should have texted her to not come because I wasn't in the mood to see anyone.
"Hey, girl...how are you?" She walks toward me as she removes her coat.
"Better than ever" I say coldly with sarcasm. She sighs and sits beside me.
"They still didn't find her" she guessed. I grab my burger from the bag and lean back.
"I need my fucking hand and leg back. I can't keep living like this and not be able to function at 100%! I have fucking company to run!" I hiss angrily before I take a bite from my burger. I have a Luxury car company and all my clients are giving me a hard time because I can't get my team to deliver on time. If i don't fix this asap, i will also lose my company.
"They have connections everywhere ; China, Russia, Canada. Everywhere and they can't seem to reach her. If I can get my people to look for her, I will!" I continue and she shakes her head.
"Raven"
"I just need to make a few more calls or even ask Clarke to look for me. Hell, i'll even pay them if i have to" i stand up and start to walk around. She stands up too.
"You never take the time to think before acting. You always spend your money way too fast and for nothing…and now you spend money on something you don't have the control of" she sighs before she continues.
"Maybe it's time for you to stop and just have faith in Abby. She will figure something out like she always does." I look at her angrily.
"No! Right now, is exactly the time not to stop at anything if I KNOW I can find the help that I need when the freaking hospital can't do their job! Because as you can see, I'm not getting any better with my mobility!" I lash out. She throws her hands in the air.
"This is not about your medication anymore, Raven! This is about you getting better physically. I'm not asking you to give up on that but to at least give them time. Like they said, it's not something that can be fixed in one day" she explains camly, approaching me.
"Sometimes, it's not everything that can be fixed" I look away from her, fixing the floor.
"My life without my hand and leg…" I started to say.
"Is still life, Raerae. You know this is not the end for you. There are other things that I'm sure that can mean something to you" she adds separately. I laugh bitterly as I look at her and she frowns.
"Like what? You?" I say coldly. She takes a step back, giving me a confused look.
"I think this is the part where you will take that back and apologize for what just came out of your mouth" she retorts through her teeth. I chuckle as I grab the bottle of Cognac and pour myself a glass. I take a long sip.
"I think you should leave" I nod to the door. We stared at each other; I knew she was trying to hold back her tears.
"Ok, good. As you wish! I can't stay here and watch you destroy yourself." She says, grabbing her coat angrily from the couch.
"Too hard for you to handle, right?" I sip from my glass. She turned around and walked toward me. We stood really close to each other. Anya and i , it's complicated. We had so many ups downs in our relationship or whatever you call it.
"Yes, it is! And what you doing right now is not very nice of you. It fucking break my heart to see you like this. More importantly since the night of the accident" she spits, not holding back her tears anymore.
" no, no, don't you dare pity me again" I push her softly by the shoulder.
"I'm not" she points her finger angrily at me. I walked closer, so now she was stuck between me and the door.
"Oh, no? Then what the fuck are you doing? It seems like a pity to me. You bringing me food, cuddling with me or even kissing like we're back being a couple" i retort.
"We.are.not together and never will be again. Hell, we were barely a couple. You love sad stories because you get to do what you love. Is that what I am to you? " I say before I continue.
"Oh, Raven, i'm sorry this is happening to you. She finally needs me and I can give her the help she needs. Another human I can have to work on." I mimicked." YOU CARE SO MUCH MORE ABOUT ME since the accident, don't you?" I scream. My veins were pumping through my body and at the same time I was feeling a bit tipsy. She shakes her head, looking away from me before she pushes me away from her. Tears were rolling down her cheeks. There was a moment of silence between us.
"I'm out of here" she threw the pair of keys I gave her a few years ago on the table. She grabs her bag and slam the door behind her. I threw the glass against the wall before I sat down on the floor where I started to cry.
"What did i just do?" I whisper to myself.