Every day in my life I wonder how I did I end up in that place with all those other women. My life was so messed up that I can't even go outside and just look at the sun rise just because I was scared that I would be kidnapped from some mysterious man. The way I lived my changed it was very horrible that I was living my live-in fear. The only thing I could do was taking care my husband and children when they got home from school but could never spend time family outside of the house. It was felt like people were watching me whenever I go in my house, but nobody was ever there.
People may think it easy to come back home after what happened to me. But nobody knows how hard it is to sleep at night when all you can think about is that man abusing you and beating on you in your sleep all night long, constantly waking up every hour without any sleep it makes life difficult to just even get up the next morning, but people don't understand that part of it. Sometimes I wish that what happened to me never happened because my life would be normal and full of adventure, but this is not what anyone could ever imagine but I guess we have to roll with lives pushed. I may not like the life I have but it may help other people in their struggle with this same problem.
I may start to help people with the same struggles as me once I get better with my own struggles. Because there are other people just like wondering how to survive the storm and I want them to understand that they are not alone in this obstacle of life. And I want everybody to know what people go through in that situation.