II.
Akemi Homura had wished for Madoka to live. She had wished to be able to be Kaname Madoka's salvation, and yes that was a wish for any time, any place, any world, any space, to make come true. She had wished to protect her, to save her, from everyone, everything.
Except she hadn't factored herself. She never ever factors in herself. Not in timelines where she doesn't make the wish and especially not in timelines where she does. Akemi Homura is too used to seeing herself as weak and helpless, as small and minute in the grand scheme of the good future.
She is wrong. She is so very wrong, each and every time.
The first few times, she could make the argument that it was someone else's fault and not her mistakes that caused her Madoka to wish and die and wish and die. That she's not an influence, a part, a pattern.
Even now she doesn't want to.
And yet the last timeline Miki Sayaka's accusing eyes on her were an itch, an irritation, and not her problem.
What if she…
No, she couldn't couldn't think of that. It wasn't important.
It couldn't be.