A/N I don't own twilight or the characters

After I hung up the phone I went to my closet and for the first time I cared about what I was gonna wear I didn't even care about that kinda stuff when I was with...Him .

But With Jacob it was diffrent because he acted on his feelings. Showed me that he liked what I was wearing or what I looked like .

I knew Jacob liked me in anything but I couldn't ignore the burning heat in my stomach. When I thought about Jacob seeing me in something much diffrent then what I useally wore.

I opened the bottom drawer of my dresser where I keept all the things mom would buy me that I wouldn't dare to put on.

I found a Emerald green bikini with white shorts that barley covered my bottom I blushed when I looked in the mirror ,it was much diffrent then what I was used to but I did look good in it and was excited to seen Jacob's reaction.

I thew on a cover over me made the pack some sandwiches fruit salad and my famous brownies . I checked the time it was close to 11 o'clock I decided it was time to leave I jumped in my truck and my mind drifted off as I drove to La push .

I didn't know what to do about Jacob if I should start a relationship with him when my heart still belong to someone else . He deserved better then that he needed a girl that could give herself fully to him .

you could be that girl if you just tried my subconscious told me...could I be that girl ?should I try to be that girl for him? what if I try and I couldn't do it and I hurt him ?

I could lose him forever but you could lose him to someone else to my chest started to ache and burn thinking Jacob kissing another girl the way he did with me last night " fuck no " I told myself that's not happening I thought selfishly .

I need to make up my mind this wasn't fair to Jacob . I pulled up to first beach stepping out of the truck gathering all the food I made for everyone .

I walked down the beach finding the pack already there .

"Hey Bella let me get that for you " Jared said Grabbing the cooler from me .

"Thanks Jared where is everyone " I asked him .

He smirked "Jacob's in the water " pointing at the ocean I blushed of course he knew what I really meant .

I turned toward the water and my jaw dropped Jake sure was in the water looking like a fucken model he was running out of ocean small drops of water running down that beautful sculpted stomach of his .

I gulped and quickly turned around I walked over to the girls telling them hello I laid Out my towel. I turned toward the ocean and was met with a shirtless Jacob

"Hey bells " he said crushing me in his bear hug .

"Jacob...can't ...breath ...need air "

He laughed in my ear and I shivered I felt his lips turn up in a smile as he loosened his arms but didn't let me go .

"You smell really good bells so sweet did you put on some kinda perfume " he said while he put his face in my neck and inhales.

Me and Jake was always touching each other a little to phisically for a friendship . So the pack didn't pay attention to our display of affection but I could feel the energy between us is diffrent and wondered if the pack could to

"Uhm...no just took a shower last night" pulling away from him " can you put me down now " I said poking his cheek .

He smiled even wider and put me down I pulled off my cover revealing my bikini

I think I heard Jacob whisper a " Fuck me"but I couldn't be sure When I looked up Jacob eye was focused on my chest and stomach I seen him swallow hard

"Y-you...you look really nice today bells" he told me in a husky voice

He words did something to me it was a normal thing for him to say he always told me how nice I looked or how pretty I was but the way he said it with desire and the way he was looking at me like he wanted to eat me from

The inside out I stared to felt that burning in my stomach again

The way he was looking at me was new or did he always look at me this way and I just never noticed

" thanks Jake you look pretty good yourself " I said his eyes snapped to mine . I knew we were both thinking the same thing that mind blowing kiss in my kitchen .

" damm Bella you look hot girl " Quil said . Throwing his arm around my shoulder breaking the trace between me and Jake .

Jacob narrowed his eyes at Quil but he just ignored Jacob " now where are those yummy brownies you made me " .Quil asked taking me to where they were setting up the food and making the bonfire .

" I made them for everyone Quil not just you " I said elbowing him in his side giggling.

"Wow Bella and here I thought I meant something to you but no you gotta cheepin our relationship like that "

I rolled my eyes " are you always this dramatic" I ask him.

"Yes he is...it's even worse when your inside his head " Seth said walking up to us I laughed .

I was happy the pack wasn't acting off with me I was a bit worried they would be upset with me .

I sat down on the sandleaning my back against a log . Jacob came next to me I turned my head toward him examining his face he really was beautful He caught my stare .

"You okay bells? " he asked concern in his voice "Yeah why wouldn't I be ?"

"I just know you were excited the leec- Alice that Alice was around and I don't know I guess I didn't expect you to be so...okay I guess " he explained .

I looked into the fire for a little before I answered him " I'm okay to be honest I'm a bit relived she left I'm gonna miss her and I would love for her to come and visit again ...but I feel I need this time to figure...( I glanced at him in the corner of my eye ) "some shit out and it's hard to do that with her here you know " I told him .

He seemed to like my answer cause kissed my cheek then jumped up smiling saying he was gonna go get some of those brownies before Quil and Paul ate them all .

"You know he really likes you right " Leah said sitting a few feet away from me but close enough to have a conversation .

I was a but surprised that Leah was talking to me she gave me the impression that she didn't care for me much ." I uhm...I know I like him to " I told her.

"No I'm talking about write your name in his notebook thinks about you 24/7 lestin to songs that reminds him of you like like you " she said .Looking into my eyes there is no humor in her eyes or voice so I know she is speaking from the heart she knows this because she seen it in the packs mind.

I blushed then I looked over to Jacob he was laughing with the guys pushing embry outta the way to keep him from stealing Jacob's fruit .

" I care about him to " I replied with out taking my eyes off of Him I wonder if he is lestin to our conversation

"We'll you better figure out how much you care about him cause we don't wanna see him get hurt we know your leeches came to visit so if your using Jacob to buy time before they come back you should just leave now " she said in a calm voice but her eyes were intense

I started at her for a few moments thinking if these were Jacob's fears that I was just using him it seems everyone was lestin to our conversation because It got quiet real quick

Jacob walked over glaring at Leah " Leah that's enoug- "

"No Jake you can't just let her lead you on and continue to use you if that's what she's doing she can't think everyone is gonna be okay with her hurting you and trust me the more you let it linger the worst it's gonna get " she said loudly .

"I'm not " I said with confidence staring at Leah straight in the eyes " I'm not using him to buy time I wouldn't hurt him like that I get why you would ask and be concerned for him but Im not going anywhere anytime soon " .

Leah looked over my face and nodded her head once . She got up to make her a plate and everyone started talking and laughing again like nothing happen .

I turned toward Jacob who was smiling down at me "You wanna go walk down the beach and finish our food at our spot " .he asked tucking my hair behind my ear .

I nodded my head he got his pate and handed me the one he made for me . We started walking down the beach .

I reached out and grabbed his hand in the corner of my eye I seen the suprise looked on his face looking down at our joined hands he smiled my Jacob smile but didn't say anything .

We walked to our drftwood sitting on the log . We ate in comfortable Silence never letting go of each other's hands Jacob broke the silence first .

" Hey bells I was wondering...well I was think that maybe..." he was stuttering his words looking nervous

"Spit it out Jacob "

"Do you wanna go on a date tomorrow night "

He rushed out the words so fast it took me a minute to understand what he was saying

I smiled at how nervous he was and the flush to his cheeks was adorable

"Yeah Jake I would love to " I told him

"Cool I'll pick you up at 7 " he said smiling down at me

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