2. It burns like Hell, Haru April/May 2021
Entering the house, facing Haru, Rin's mood somehow darkened. He stood in the manner of a brave soldier, but he noticed his legs weren't that steady anymore. The strong emotions have burned his insides long ago. How the hell it continued to burn inside him for so many days?! With Haru right in front of him, within a reach, the powerful, conquering energy stagnated and began to turn towards him. He wasn't lovable. He was an object of one-shot lust: shattered dignity and a broken heart.
Just about Five days ago, Haru had returned his daring kiss and has had him. Every touch of his hands and every kiss he had given him, intimidated his mind. Rin had lost, because he wanted what had happened, desperately. Afterwards he couldn't stand not hearing from Haru, who even have left his room after their clash, without a word.
The entrance was quite dark. Some pale light coming from the living room fell on Haru's body, but his face remained hidden. Haru spoke in his usual calm manner – Rin; but didn't move. Rin felt his tears already streaming uncontrollably. Still, he managed to control his voice as he led all his remaining energy towards his voice.
It took all the meaning of my life, Haru. I've waited for your call for days …
I passed out and found myself in the medical room and was kept there overnight. His nervous voice disappeared within his uneven breathing.
Stillness.
With a fast move, he grabbed Haru's shoulders, pressing him towards the sliding doors. Haru's head broke a whole in that shoji. It wasn't painful. He didn't fend off, letting it happen. Rin pushed him inside the living room. The force of their bodies shoved the shelf.
I came to take you! Rin said through his clenched teeth. His emotions throwing sparks and flashes: You took me! Now it's my turn, Haru. I've wanted this… You … Rin's voice sounded electrified. His fiery aura filled up the room. His tears wetted face boldly leaning towards Haru's. Only now he comprehended Haru's frozen astonishment.
You …This … I… wanted this for merely 6 fucking years! Are you ending me?! - Rin's voice went louder. He pressed his body on Haru's and felt Haru's heart racing. Their breaths uneven. Just then Haru pushed him back and freed himself easily, as he already felt, Rin didn't use force to hold him. Stepping aside, Haru almost fell over the table and kicked it away. The old, massive table crashed against the wall with a banging noise. Rin leapt over and pressed Haru again, this time towards the nearest wall. It's my turn now! Rin's right hand enclosed rough Haru's backside; his left hand touched his face.
No! Wait! No! Haru exclaimed. Calm down! Just calm down, just … as he spoke, he realized Rin hasn't been holding him firmly. Merely, he was holding Rin's waist steadily. Rin's tearful face and eyes burned inside Haru's soul, imprinting their unforgiving marks. Haru felt and thought: This wasn't right, it shouldn't be like this at all! It wasn't what Haru has wanted, to make Rin and himself suffer so greatly that their insides were burnt and their souls ready to leave out their bodies.
Calm down?! Rin mocked in disbelieve. It burns like hell, Haru! Rage grew a new inside him. Haru noticed as he was always aware of Rin's prodigious scale of feelings. He aimed at Rin's face, pulling towards him, ambushing his mouth and stuffing his tongue deeply inside Rin's in coarse kiss.
When they first kissed, few days ago, they kissed long and gently. They kissed for hours before slowly undressing and having sex. It was Haru's first kissing and thus he had to practice without a pause to please the gentleness of Rin. Now he captured Rin's rage in his sincere, powerful kiss. His blood rushed at Olympic speed, racing the yearning of his body to a devastating point. Their hands went all over their bodies. The moment Haru sensed Rin's responding, his movements went daring very fast. He unbuttoned Rin's jeans pulling them swiftly down while going himself down, hearing Rin's astonished voice of some kind of demand or a No, he continued. Rin, Be quiet! - Haru called him clear out. The heavens opened up for Rin, placing him on a cloud of pleasure he had never expected could exist after all. The let out of Rin's havoc was naturally a noisy one. And it didn't matter, though the slide doors to the patio were open. The outside was clad in quiet darkness.
Haru took his shirt off, spitting into it, while raising on his feet and holding Rin gently. Rin's face radiated a magical glow. Eyes shut. Although not looking at Haru he found his mouth and kissed him softly. Slowly coming to a piece of functioning mindset, Rin whispered sweetly in Haru's ear. You're godly. It really is my turn now, Haru.
Hmm, Haru sighed in a soft voice. Grabbing Haru's arms, Rin pulled him towards himself, bending down and kissing his neck with a sharp tongue. He continued exploring Haru's bare upper body and beyond, making Haru's breath speed up. Just then Haru spoke kindly: Rin, give me a second, please.
Rin opened his eyes and stared at him. Haru moved away. Step by step, in a very slow pace. Rin followed with his burning eyes. While walking towards the open doors, Haru dropped his sweat shorts, together with his underwear, tossing them aside. His perfect body motioned like the waves of a calm nightly ocean. His soft skin glowed in the mixed-up lights of the moon, the glass-lantern and the night lamps inside the living room. Watching Haru's seamless formed marble backside, Rin stared struck by lightning. He had always looked on quite a naked Haru when they swam. He witnessed how this adorable body has transformed and reached this perfection. His mouth dropped when Haru closed only the left part of the sliding door, turning around to face him: It's your turn, Haru said calmly. Much stronger lightning struck Rin again. He died, and resurrected.
Rin took his pants and shirt off, tossing them aside. Next, he approached Haru. While taking those four steps, he witnessed how Haru's face brightened up while staring at him, holding his breath. Rin was vibrating due to those eyes of Haru. He had calmed down a bit. As soon as he touched Haru's glowing, marble skin, his calm dissolved and tears stained his face. They fell in a tight embrace. I want to kiss every inch of your body, Rin whispered through the wetness of his tears. Slowly they went down laying on the tatami mats. Haru on his back. Rin leaning towards him. You're godly, Rin whispered, still unable to stop his tears. Haru touched his tearful face gently, pulling him down, kissing the sides of his eyes and tears away.
Afraid to harm Haru, as his teeth were much sharper, he placed his tongue before them, to build a protective shield. Haru's scent and taste drugged him to lose his brain cells all over. Once again, tears streamed and now, they were wetting Haru. In this pleasure state Haru's body motioned like waves, moved by a gentle breeze. Rin, stop; - he whispered. Rin looked up afraid he might have hurt him.
All is well, Haru spoke in a gentle manner. Lifting his body, he turned around, placing his marble backside before Rin's fiery eyes. Struck by the heaviest lightning imaginable, Rin died, resurrected and start sobbing. His long-time desire was about to become reality right in this moment. Rin always thought of himself being a brave one and now all bravery he could've ever summoned, was needed. To him, Haru has always been someone sublime, pure and dignified.
Was he able to cross the line? The first time they had sex, he barely touched him, but let Haru do this to him instead, because he told Haru, it was his longing.
Rin felt too overwhelmed to bare the splendor of this action. His tearful face wouldn't stop giving him away. Altogether this gave him a painful blow, which freaked him naturally more out. Unable to hide anyway and not wanting to ruin Haru's moment, he moved aside with a wild beating heart. Haru embraced him, calmed him while kissing his eyes. All is well, he whispered with a soothing voice.
Clearly, it's You, who's the Male part; Rin sighed, guessing how stupid his words sounded.
We're even! I want this! I'll wait for you. Haru said gently. Rin nodded with a deep sigh out. Next moment Haru took the initiative. Naturally Rin got him, as he wanted very much to give Haru satisfaction.
Haru felt the pleasure overcoming him too soon and searched his brain to control himself a little more. Of course, the picture of his favorite ugly fish, worked for him instantly, allowing him to dwell for a little while longer in the sweetest pleasure imaginable to him, beside swimming. His heart opened up widely. Haru has kept these yearning feelings too long, buried very deep inside his Soul. Every movement now buzzed him almost unbearable. His eyes fixed on the perfect muscles of the body before him. Haru adored Rin's longer hair which now sticked sweaty, on his perfect neck. Rin's soft skin was glowing covered in thin sweat and moon light. Above all, feeling Rin's vibration, his heat, transferred him in another dimension. Rin moaned in pleasure and Haru guessed in a bit of pain, too. When he looked closer, he recognized some red mixed with the other fluids. Seeing this, his blood rushed. In that moment Rin said something he didn't hear, as the rush of blood had numbed his .
What, Rin…?
I love to feel you.
Haru caught a sight of the core of the Milky Way. Self-confessing, he understood, he never felt like this before and he wanted to feel this sensation of life for as long as he lived.
When he came back to his common senses, he met Rin's vivid eyes full of stars and joy. Haru rested on his shoulder. Placing a kiss on Rin's shoulder he closed his eyes again to dwell in the sensation that still vibrated in his whole body and to rest for a while. Your eyes are beautiful, Rin. Astonished Rin, laughed light heartedly: So are yours, Haru. Every time I look into your eyes, I have the feeling to dive into the brightest blue, of the most, clear see. Haru's heart skipped a beat and he shivered. He couldn't even imagine such words and connect them with himself.
Rin, you are more beautiful than me, you've always been. Everywhere, all eyes are on you. Haru stopped as he found himself embarrassed. Rin liked the conversation and answered quickly with a bright voice: To me, You're godly. I lost at the sight of your marble body stretched out infront of me, obviously.
Shut up! Haru interfered. No trace of annoyance of course. Rin looked at him with amusement. You saw me losing it. I will never manage to … Rin stopped himself from pouring out such foolish words further, as he noticed Haru was staring at him with a strange expression. You Do Want, Haru spoke in a teasing manner offering him a further approach. Rin stared at him. Haru's words raised a bonfire and melted his insides. Finally, the Closest together he had dreamt of was happening.
Rin moved his body upwards placing himself in front of Haru's body. Gazing at each other. Rin's expression had calmed and turned into a gentle one. Haru had opened up, enticing him to dare. His energy field captured Rin a new, causing his heart a crazy beating which naturally lead to overwhelming.
Rin, he heard his name and looked in Haru's eyes. Stunned by the obvious longing of the one infront of him, he truly loved. Again, Haru called on him, leading him to his next moves, daring him. Haru's voice lifted him up. He followed. Because Haru has observed him intensely, he sensed Rin might lose it again.
Suddenly Haru lifted his perfect, athletic body with a gracious ease. While moving up on Rin's leap, he didn't expect such a solid pain to struck him and give him pleasure simultaneously. Rin grabbed Haru's back with his fast reaction holding him up. The night had become so colorful. Rin felt all colors of the rainbow had spread around them.
In his overwhelmed -state, Rin self-committed, even now, Haru was the One on Top and he wanted this so badly from Haru, for the rest of his life. New mixed-up colors were added to the flashy Rainbow.
Two exhausted athletes were now laying close to one another. Haru exhaled kissing him gently everywhere within his reach. Rin had soothed his sobbing. Shortly after, both of them fell asleep in a short nap. Haru woke up from the chill air and the hardness of the floor. When he moved to close the doors of the patio, the first rays of pale blue had appeared in the sky. Rin was watching him looking sleepy.
Let us go to bed please, Haru spoke.
I need to go to the bathroom, Rin answered drowsy. Haru nodded: I'll make the bed; Don't shower please. He turned to Rin before going upstairs. Rin widened his eyes. What?
I like your scent, Haru answered with his gentle voice. He went to prepare the bed, adding one more pillow and a blanket. Afterwards he also needed to go to the bathroom. They shared one toothbrush this time. When Haru entered his room, his eyes fell on the muscles of the arms and chest stretched out in his bed. He smiled soundlessly while moving under the covers. Rin grabbed him for an intense kiss. When he was released, Haru noticed once again his lust blooming, but sensed his body was overly tired and some spots rather sore.
Haru looked at Rin, asking: Does it hurt? Rin chuckled by this surprising question. Yeah! It hurts very well and I love it. And you?
A bit. Sleep well. - You too, Rin replied. Both exhaled a deep breath simultaneously and started chuckling. Rin, are you really ok with that pain? I'm… Haru searched for the right words, his voice concerned.
Rin grinned. I am ok. I love this pain.
Let me take a look… I'll fetch some balm; Haru lifted up as he wasn't convinced by Rin's manners of manly coolness. Rin pulled him back easily.
I found the balm already in the bathroom and applied a bit, he chuckled. Don't worry, I really love that pain. Besides. The first time, five days ago, it was way worse than now. Now Rin laughed making Haru close his eyes and look away.
It's my greatest dream came true. What's a bit of soreness? Rin appeared amused and relaxed. Fine, Haru replied, adding: Your greatest dream is to win the golden medal at the Olympics. Rin kissed him to stop him from talking. Correct! I can finally say it loud now; I have two greatest dreams. Actually, they're three. Haru shook his head, covering his eyes with his arm. What's the third? He asked naturally. Rin shook his head. I'll tell you when we manage our first year. Haru raised his head to stare at him with a strange face. This time he couldn't keep his cool. We managed already about six years, what's different now, apart from sex? He sounded a bit annoyed. Rin widened his eyes: It's not just sex, for me at least! Aren't we closer than ever!? After a pause Haru responded: You're right, I'm sorry. To me, since I met you, you always have been a part of my life.
After the 10th good night kiss, they closed their eyes. Haru seemed to had fallen asleep instantly. Overly tired but exhaled, Rin watched him a short while and whispered: I want you to fuck me for the rest of my life.
Love you, Haru.