"Elliot" I breathed out. All of the memories good and bad came flooding back. My mind must be playing tricks on me. This isn't possible. He was gradually getting closer and every step he took my breathing seemed to hitch.
Before I knew it he was standing right in-front of me but before he got to say anything to me we were approached by Captain Morgan. "I'm Captain Morgan can I help you with something?" He asked Elliot. "Captain Stabler of Organized Crime." He said showing his badge then offering him a hand to shake. That took me by surprise. Captain? Organized crime? "Oh right! I heard they were getting a new Captain. Well this is Captain Benson of Special-" Captain Morgan was quickly cut off by Elliot. "Victims Unit. I know." I stood their quietly listening to this current conversation still in shock. "So her reputation precedes her?" Morgan gave me a look of 'damn look at you go' I just shook it off and decided to shut this all down. "Actually we used to be parters. Captain Stabler...nice to see you again." I nodded at him and put on a fake smile I knew he would be able to see right through but Captain Morgan not so much. "Oh well I bet it's nice to be together again. Anyway back to the case." Elliot and I exchanged glances mine was full of anger and annoyance along with hurt where as his was sorrow and something I couldn't quiet read.
Both Elliot and I agreed that with it almost being 12 it was just better to go home and meet at the precinct tomorrow so that's exactly what we did. On my way home my mind was racing a mile a minute. I had actually just seen Elliot the Elliot stabler for the first time in 10 years. My emotions were all over the place I wanted to be happy to see him but I was so pissed and angry. I was hurt and I just couldn't comprehend any of this.
When I got home I quietly hung my purse and jacket up, took my shoes off, and put my keys on the table. I went into Noah's room and just stood their and watched him sleep. He was till so young and pure and had nothing to worry about. I decided to walk over to him and I placed a gentle kiss on his forehead "goodnight sweet boy, I love you." I said as I got up to leave his room. I went to my room and decided it would just easier to go ahead and jump in the shower. As I got out I changed into a old NYPD hoodie that I had and a pair of sweatpants and then went to tidy up the house a bit . After I finished that I got ready for bed and laid there. After about an hour of tossing and turning I was finally out.
Beep Beep Beep Beep* That was one of the most dreadful noises I had ever heard. I quickly leaned over and turned my alarm off and got out of bed. I went straight into the kitchen starting the coffee pot then heading back into my room. I quickly brushed my hair and pulled my makeup out of the drawer when i heard the coffee maker stop. I grabbed the mug Noah got me for Mother's Day that read "Worlds best mom" and poured it in along with creamer. I went back to my room and pulled my hair back before starting on my makeup. I didn't do too much makeup but enough that I looked awake and presentable. I was more than happy with my makeup then moved on to hair. I decided to pull out my curling iron and to just add some loose curls to my hair. About 20 minutes later I finished my hair and went into my bedroom. I pulled out a pair of black slacks along with a gray blouse and a black blazer. I took my coffee into the kitchen and decided I would see if Noah wanted breakfast. I walked into his room and he always looks so peaceful. "Hey sweet boy do you want to eat breakfast with me or do you want to sleep in and eat when Lucy gets here?" I said as I woke him up. He didn't have school today so I figured he would want to sleep in. "I'm to tired." He said as he cuddled into his blanket more and fell right back asleep. I kissed his forehead and headed back to my bathroom. I quickly brushed my teeth. I walked back into the kitchen and dumped out my coffee now that it was cold and washed my mug then waited for Lucy. She got to the apartment about 30 minutes early so I decided it would be easier to just get into work early. I slipped on my gray jacket and was out the door. It was darker than usual and storming but weirdly it gave me a sense of peace.
I arrived at the precinct only to see a few officers . I gave them a slight smile and went into my office. As I set my purse down and took out my lap top I processed the fact that I would have to face Elliot again today. I let out a sigh and just leaned back in my chair that was now facing the window. I listened to the rain come down an watched it hit the windows. After about 15 minutes I got an email. I turned back around in my seat and unlocked my computer and saw that it was from Him. Of course it was from him. It read 'Dear liv, Good morning. I am emailing you in regards of today's schedule. My team and I should all be arriving at about 8am. It will be nice to see you again -El' I rolled my eyes and sent back 'Captain Stabler, Thank you for informing me about your schedule for today. Remember to have your team bring all information on this case that you have. -Captain Benson'
I was trying my best to be formal. I hate that he still uses that nickname for me. He lost that right but I have to be professional and just hope I get the point across. I began briefing myself on the case and before I knew it; It was 7:50am. I hadn't told the team year that we would be working with Organized crime so I had to rush to do that. I walked out of my office and walked in the middle of all their desks. "Okay everyone I have an announcement." Everyone's heads turned and all eyes were on me. "What going on cap?" Fin asked as I took a dead breath. "Last night I caught a case and was informed that it was Sarah Howley and that she was murdered. Her murder is somehow linked to something I'm unaware of so we will now be working with the Organized Crime Unit." Looks were being exchanged and I knew that no one else know about Elliot being Captain but it really didn't matter. "You mean Sarah Howley our rape victims from yesterday? She was killed?" Kat asked as her voiced cracked. "I'm sorry to say that she was." Kat nodded at me and sat down in her chair as fin spoke up. "When are they getting here?" He asked. I looked down at my phone and it read 7:58am "Anytime now. Everyone remember they are here to help us and we are here to help them. We all need to be respectful and work as a team."
Everyone nodded as the elevator dinged. I took a deep breath as my back was to the door and I heard a group of people walk in that could only be Elliots team. I turned around and plastered a fake smile on my face. "Hello Everyone I'm captain Benson and before we go any further would any of you like to tell me where your captain is?" Everyone looked at me in shock even my own team. They all seemed to have a look on their faces of 'who does she think she is?' And 'did she really just ask that?' Just as one of them were about to speak He Walks through the door. "Sorry I'm late I had to take an important phone call." Elliot said. I glanced at fin to see his jaw on the floor and before I knew it I was going on with my speech again. "As I was saying I am Captain Benson of SVU. I have been here for 22 years and this is my team Officer Kat Tamine." She smiled at all of them. "Detective Amanda Rollins." She nodded her head with a slight smile. "And last but not least Sergent Odafin tuttuola." He smiled at most of them until he got to Elliot than his smile dropped. "Yeah but you can all just call me fin." He said. They all smiled back at the squad and then Elliot began. "I'm Captain Elliot Stabler I have been at Organized crime for about 2 years now and this is my team... " he went on to introduce them as I spaced out.
When I was snapped back into reality Elliot was paring people up to work on stuff. I smiled at all of them as he finished and walked back to my office. I knew he would follow so I don't even bother saying anything. I shut the door and sat in my chair as he stood their awkwardly. There was a long still silence that he didn't dare break or so I thought. "Liv-" I quickly cut him off. "Captain Benson." I said as he looked at me confused. "Huh?" He asked. "It is Captain Benson or Olivia. Not liv! We are co-workers right now so it's either Captain Benson or Olivia." I said with rage in my eyes and a loud voice.
"Sorry Captain Benson."
After about 2 hours of filling everyone in and everyone investigating. Everyone was on a lunch break that was Exocet for me and Elliot of course. I don't think he had the nerve to ask me to go to lunch with him and I certainly didn't want to. "Captain Stabler I think I found something." I turned my laptop towards him and came to his side of the desk and sat in the chair next to him. "Sarah Howley has been in a relationship with Ryder Lee for the past year but the weird thing is that every Thursday night at 8:30 she makes a withdrawal from her bank and then she goes to Central Park and comes back about 30 minutes later. So maybe she was meeting up with her dealer and things went wrong the other night? Sarah just doesn't seem to be the type of girl to do that. Anyway I was thinking we could go and ask Sarah's boyfriend and her close friends if they know anything about this." I said as I switched between tabs on my lap top. "Let's do it. I'lol drive." He said as we both got up and put our jackets on and excited the office.
After a few awkward car rides and talking to friends of Sarah's we got what we could which wasn't much and decided to let these people grieve. "Do you want to go get lunch. I know you haven't ate and If you have the same eating habits as you use to them you also probably didn't eat breakfast. So lunch? As co-workers." Elliot said as we got back into the car. I loved that he remembered the small things about me and as much as I didn't want to go and have lunch with him. I was hungry and it was convenient. We ended up at the dinner that we both knew so well. We use to come here all the time when we were partners. We parked the car and seated ourselves in the booth we always use to sit in. This felt comforting and familiar. We both quickly ordered our food and drinks.
As the waitress walked away Elliot was fidgeting with his fingers. He always did that especially when he was nervous. "I'm sorry."