NOTES:
Sorry for not posting in a while, I had to finish a large project at work and I was finding it hard to get into the right mindset to finish the next chapter. Either way, I hope you guys enjoy it!

Kaneki had not been able to face Touka as naturally as he used to ever since that incident.

When he came down from the breakroom that day, He had expected her to knock him out, kill him, drag him across the floor like the violent woman she was, but surprisingly, she did nothing of the sort. She was as normal as she ever was, as if nothing had happened. As if none of the pleasure they had shared moments ago had transpired. It got Kaneki thinking whether he really had dreamt the entire thing.

That's impossible. He thought. Touka had called him out, hadn't she? He had felt the warmth of her touch, he felt his beating heart and the rush of adrenaline still pumping in his veins as he walked down from the breakroom and into the cafe.

Still, Touka hadn't shown any indication that anything had happened between them. In fact, she seemed calm. Calmer than him. Kaneki thought it best to just go with whatever Touka was doing. Despite having this nagging feeling that he should probably address the whole incident.

A few days had already passed and he was getting really restless. He convinced himself he would at least try to speak to Touka about what happened. If he had dreamt the whole thing, then it wouldn't hurt to just get a good beating from her, at least his mind would finally be at ease.

Two days later, they were finally able to share the night shift together, he mustered up enough courage to talk to her. He tried to start conversations with her as normally as he could.

'So, uhm, Touka-chan. How's school doing?'

Touka looked up at him, coffee cup in hand, ready to serve it to a customer.

'Pretty shitty as usual, why?'

'What's the matter? Is it about schoolwork again?'

'Yeah, we have to read this dumb book and write a report on it, or something'

Kaneki perked up upon learning this. Perfect!

'I could help you with it, I-if you want...'

Touka studied his expression for a bit, and it took a while for her to respond. Kaneki felt like an eternity had passed, waiting for Touka's answer had never felt this awful before.

'I guess... You can come to m-my room later. If you're free... after this' She said softly as she looked down.

Kaneki felt a sigh of relief escape his lips. He managed to give her a soft smile. He's hoping he won't mess this up with Touka.

So the long wait until their shift is finished begins.

They haven't exchanged much talk afterward, and the moments flew by in the most excruciatingly long way possible. Was it the weight of anticipation playing with his perception of time? Kaneki isn't sure. Soon enough, customers started to dissipate and it was time to close up shop.

Touka had told Kaneki to close up the shop by himself after she had finished with the dishes and the dusting. She untied her apron and headed upstairs to her room, not looking back at the half-ghoul. All that was really left to do was to place the chairs on top of the tables, turn off the lights and flip the sign from OPEN to CLOSED.

Kaneki felt relieved to do so, at least he would get a few more moments to get his bearings and his wits about before actually being with Touka.

He practiced all sorts of lines in his head.

He wanted their relationship to at least make some sense. What were they? What did everything even mean?

They've almost gotten all the way. They've kissed, touched each other, tasted each other.

'What now?' He thought. Did it even mean anything to her? He desperately wanted to know. She had been acting like nothing happened, but then he remembered the flush of her cheeks that day, how passionate her kisses were. How her tongue danced with his in their moments of ecstasy.

It meant everything to him. Touka was his first everything. The first girl to teach him about his new body, the body of a half-ghoul. She meant a lot to him and besides his physical attraction to her, he can't deny the brewing feelings within him as well. Touka was brave and caring, despite her tough exterior. Why else would she have gone to look for him during the Tsukiyama incident when no one else bothered to? No one had ever looked his way, or care enough to actually notice when he was missing.

But she did.

Touka always did...

He breathed a sigh, trying his best to calm his nerves as he stands in front of her door.

'Touka-chan' He called while knocking on her door.

No answer.

'Touka-chan, I'm done closing the shop, Can I come in?'

Still no answer.

He decided to let himself in since the door was unlocked and when he entered, he was met with a half-frozen Touka, reaching for the door handle, clad in nothing but her bathrobe.

Cheeks flushed red, probably from the warm water she took her bath with. Touka is standing inches away from a wide-eyed Kaneki.

She was in her bathroom seconds ago, when she heard Kaneki knock, she rushed to wrap the pink bunny bathrobe over herself and tried to hurry towards the door. Reaching for the doorknob, Kaneki had already barged in before she could turn the handle.

Her heart was betraying her... beating so loudly, she could swear the half-ghoul could hear it.

Before she could stumble from her own embarrassment, Kaneki beat her to it.

'S-Sorry Touka-chan! I didn't know you were still busy. I-I'll come back a little bit later...' Kaneki muttered, flushing scarlet as he tried to look away from her.

Feeling her embarrassment fade a tiny bit, she managed to hold onto his right arm as he was about to turn away.

He paused when he felt her grip, and slowly tried to return her gaze.

Touka felt the familiar feeling rushing back into her system. That feeling of wanting to be wrapped in his arms, have him take her, and slam her against the wall.

Sure, she had tried her best to hide her embarrassment ever since that day in the breakroom. Flashbacks of their bodies acting on their instincts. How it felt wrong and right at the same time. She had almost given herself to the half-ghoul, and as much she wanted to deny it, she liked it.

There was no doubt that she hated him at first, he was a complete coward, he was weak and he needed protecting all the time! But, he was also gentle and kind. He was brave when it mattered and when he needed to be. Despite knowing Tsukiyama could have easily torn him to shreds, he tried his hardest to fight alongside her, he fed himself to her in her weakened state.

She wanted to be with him, but she just didn't know how.

'Maybe this is my chance' She thought to herself, as she gazes at a wide-eyed Kaneki in front of her.

She was never good with words, if she were, they wouldn't be in this situation in the first place.

'Fuck it. Just say what you want!' She scolded herself.

'You can stay' She finally spoke.

'O-okay' Kaneki answered in a daze, not quite remembering how to blink. How can he? When the girl of his dreams was standing in front of him, asking him to stay with her, a fiery look in her eyes as she does.

Things never go the way he expects whenever he was with her. One moment she was holding his arm, the next she was touching his hand.

She moved slowly and placed one of the ties of her bathrobe in his hand.

He almost jumped.

'T-TOUKA-CHAN, What-re you...'

He looked at the tie holding her bathrobe together and slowly tried to meet her gaze. It doesn't take a genius to know what that meant.

She was asking him, to undress her... and he decided, undress her he shall.

She took a step backward to eventually guided him inside her room, still not letting go of his hand.

Kaneki can only follow, like the helpless little puppet he is, strung around the finger of this purple-haired Goddess in front of him.

Once they were in her room, she sat down on her bed, pulling Kaneki along with her.

He knelt down, his knees creasing the mattress as he did. He positioned himself across from her. They were now seated in the middle of her bed, face to face. As if driven by instinct, he pulled on the tie that Touka had given him.

Slowly unraveling the knot of her robe as he does so, he tries to lean forward and he rests his head on her shoulder, breathing heavily against her neck.

Touka could feel the warmth of his mouth, breathing inches from her neck. It was all too much and too little at the same time.

'What... what are you doing, stupid?' She spoke, sounding a little raspy, as she herself was breathing a little more harshly by the second.

'Sorry, Touka. I'm... I'm feeling a little dizzy' Kaneki spoke against her neck. Her robe had been untied, revealing her damp chest to him.

He took his time, and touched the curves of her waist, slowly pulling her closer to him, she now has her legs draped over his.

'Why? Are you scared?' She asks, as she wraps her arms around his neck and pulls him closer to her. And soon they've both fallen on the bed... with Touka laying down and Kaneki hovering over her, his blushing face just inches from her own.

I'm terrified.

'A little' he lied. 'Aren't you?'

'I- I don't know...' Kaneki can see the tenderness in her eyes. Something he's only seen a few times, usually whenever she talks about her family or about Yoriko.

'We don't have to do anything you don't want to, Touka-chan... It's Okay'

He braced himself for the rejection but instead, Touka's embrace had only tightened around his neck. She looked at him, through him and he knows very well how bad she was with words.

Yet she's trying, isn't she? The same as him. She opens her mouth to say something, but then hesitates and looks to her side, effectively hiding her face with her hair.

Only then, she begins to speak

'If it's you, Kaneki... then I'm not afraid'

And for a moment, Kaneki is stunned. It's like his mind had stopped working and time was standing still. There was nothing else in the world at the moment. Both had probably already forgotten the homework they were supposed to be doing right now. Isn't that what the half-ghoul was supposed to help her with?

Touka's words still lingering in the air. Her face underneath him was still covered but the heat of her cheeks betrayed her.

She slowly faces him time '...whatever happens between us. It's okay if it's you'

Somehow that was all it took for Kaneki to continue. Whatever hesitations or doubts he had the nights and days before, it didn't matter anymore. That was probably as much of a confession he was going to get from Touka, but he was fine with it. He's more than happy.

He's so happy that he brings himself lower and cocoons her in a tight embrace.

It was tender, the way he held her... and she can't believe it. Does that mean he'll stay?

So many people had left before. Her father, Ayato... but Kaneki... he'll stay, right? The purple-haired ghoul is afraid but she decides it's worth it if it's Kaneki. She could trust him, she thought. So with shaky hands, she pushes him off just enough to meet his gaze and she smiles faintly when she sees the dampness in his eyes. She brushes a few droplets from his cheeks and kisses him slowly this time. Would this be enough?

I love you

She whispers in her mind as she kisses him. I love you, Kaneki... Do you hear me?

Soon enough, gasps of air and lust-filled gazes replaced the tender touches and the warmness of their activity. She doesn't know when and how their clothes had been discarded, they now lay messily on the floor. But now, their bodies are molding together perfectly, in a rhythmic dance she wasn't quite familiar with, but something both their bodies seem to know on their own.

Kaneki was still on top of her, making lewd noises against her skin as he plants wet kisses on her neck, slowly making his way lower and lower and when he's finally reached her nethers, he wastes no time assaulting her folds with his mouth.

She gasps and hides nothing from him. She opens herself wider welcoming the pleasure he is giving her. Why should she feel any shame? When he's clearly giving her what she wants. He holds her thighs with his strong hands, alternating between gentle caresses and squeezes, making her pant audibly in pleasure, he moves to open her wider as he expertly glides his tongue over her wet cunt.

Wasn't it only a few days ago that he's tried this on her? Yet, it seems he already knows her body all too well.

She wants him now, so she tells him.

'Kaneki, enough. I want you now!'

The black-haired male can only grin in his delight. He was more than ready to take her and make him his. Feeling himself harden even more with her bold request, he positions himself up to her entrance and gently teases her wetness with up and down motions of his hardened tip.

'Touka, this might hurt a little' The ghoul beneath him nodded.

He slowly tries to push himself inside, but it feels like pushing against a wall. He knows he's probably hurting her right now, the pain apparent in her face. Her forehead is sweaty and her eyes are shut tight. He pushes some more until he feels half of himself sheathed in warmth, the most amazing warmth he had ever felt in his life.

It takes almost all of his self-control to not thrust himself right then and there. He knows he should take his time, as he hears Touka's breathing quicken and her thighs practically squeezing him in tension.

'Are you... okay?' He grunts, asking her before going any further.

The ghoul doesn't answer him for a moment and instead opens her eyes with creasing brows. She breathes and lets out an almost inaudible 'I'm Okay'. He knows she mustn't be.

He embraces her and kisses her gently, trying his best to distract her from her pain. He moves lower to flick his tongue on one of her perky nipples. This earns him a wonderful lewd melody escaping her lips. He does so repeatedly, giving each of her breasts equal attention. Soon enough he feels her thighs lose their tension and she begins to move her hips upward in a clumsy rhythm of her own.

'You can move' She tells him, and he obeys.

He slowly pushes himself deeper, and this time, he enters her more easily than before. She's wet and warm and he's about to go crazy if he stops this time around.

He works up a rhythm, sliding in and out of her, and oh! how unimaginably amazing it feels. He feels like he's never known pleasure this intense, as he locks eyes with the most beautiful girl he's ever seen. She's ethereal beneath him. Her face glistening with sweat, her breasts bobbing up and down with the new rhythm with which he's assaulting her. He could worship her like this forever, he thought. Soon enough, he feels a familiar tightness in his stomach, his impending release drawing near.

'Touka, I-I'm about to...'

'Then cum, Kaneki...' She answers between shallow breaths.

He unexpectedly withdraws himself from her and for a moment, Touka realizes how empty she feels now that Kaneki isn't inside of her.

'Wha-' She was cut short by Kaneki's dick against her entrance, he was making circular motions on her clit and she can feel the pleasure marring her senses.

'I want you to feel good too' he whispers in her ear.

She can only accept the pleasure he's giving. She feels him quickening his motions and her wetness only made it easier for him to rub himself against her. She's so close that she's practically shaking.

'Kaneki, I-I'm close...'

'Then cum with me, Touka'

Without warning, he slams himself into her with such urgency that it almost breaks Touka in half, His movements are erratic and rough and it's only now that Touka realizes how badly he had been holding back.

'Ah aaahhh...ah...' She audibly gasps as she's being assaulted. He's moving in and out of her at an agonizingly fast pace that her whole body is tensing, Her climax mere seconds away.

Kaneki slams into her a few more times, each making their bodies slap against each other in the most satisfying way. With his final thrust, she climaxes beneath him and she feels herself tighten at the sensation. She feels him shake against her body as he hugs her tightly. Breathing heavily as he empties himself in her in his own climax.

All too foreign feelings consume her, The tightness, the numbness, the fullness of him inside her... and now, the warmth of whatever it is that Kaneki released inside her.

She feels his body shiver against her and he lets gravity pull him under, they both slam on the bed, bodies heaving and slowly losing tension.

They're both a sweaty mess of tangled limbs right now, Touka hugging Kaneki's warm body against hers. Silence fills her room, nothing but their ragged breathing filling the air.

She looks down at the half-ghoul's face and chuckles when she sees his eyes closed. 'Has he fallen asleep?' She asks herself.

His weight atop her didn't bother her, it was a welcome feeling. Strangely, she doesn't feel cold at all despite being completely naked, Kaneki perfectly cocooning her in his warmth. She feels him shiver though, and he opens his eyes to meet hers.

'I'm, I'm a little cold' He says, smiling.

'I thought you fell asleep, idiot'

'I was just about to...' He closes his eyes again hugs her even more tightly, a contented smile gracing his lips as he does.

Touka moves to free her arms and tries to wrap a blanket on both of them. Kaneki's breathing was starting to even out and she knows he's about to pass out any minute now.

Feeling braver now that he seems to be asleep, she brushes her fingers in his sweaty black hair and whispers softly 'I love you, Kaneki'

As she closes her own eyes, ready for sleep to take over. She feels hot lips graze her ear 'I love you too, Touka' he whispers back. She opens her eyes quickly to find him awake and looking at her.

'Wha- but, but you were asleep! I-' She covers her face with both her hands, hiding the burning flush of her cheeks.

She hears him chuckle.

She's so cute. Kaneki can't help but think.

'Thank you for the confession, Touka'

'It's not a confession! Shut up!' She answers angrily, her voice mere muffles from the palms over her face.

'Sure, sure, whatever you say' He answers her happily as he tries to remove her palms so he could see her. She doesn't budge, though. Her hands practically glued to her face.

'Come on Touka, look at me' She finally releases her face, scarlet red cheeks and furrowed brows greet him. He gives her a peck on the lips before he speaks.

'It makes me happy when you're honest with me, so don't hide, alright?'

She nods and he smiles at her rare acknowledgment.

'Now sleep, you need rest'

'hmmm' She answers weakly as she closes her eyes.

'Goodnight, Touka'

'Goodnight, stupid Kaneki'

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