Chapter 3
a month passes bye I wake up one morning feeling sick, I slip from bills arms and run to the bathroom throwing up. I turn the water on so hopefully not to wake him. I didn't realize he had felt me get out of bed. He knocks on the bathroom door.
"love are you ok?"
"yes love I'm fine."
he opens the door and sees me sitting next to the toilet my face pale as a ghost. He kneels beside me and picks me up carrying me back to bed making me lay down.
"love really I'm fine I don't need to lay down."
"my love don't argue with me your pale as a ghost right now."
"i'll be ok I promise."
"no once your feeling a little better you and I are going to the doctors."
"I don't like doctors love I wont go to one."
"your not going to have a choice in this baby I'm sorry"
"how am I not going to have a choice in this love?"
"don't make me involve your fathers"
"you wouldn't do that to me would you ?"
"do you want to test if I will or not?"
"I'm not going love I'm sorry I don't go to doctors I never have and never will I love you but no"
"ok we will see wont we my love"
"I guess we will"
I lay back down and fall back to sleep as it is only five in the morning. Not even thinking he would contact either of them this early in the morning. I sleep for a couple more hours till another wave of nausea hits me and I get up running into the bathroom again getting sick. I had locked the bathroom door this time to keep anyone out. I don't hear either bill or my fathers come into the bedroom.
"shes in the bathroom again"
"yes and I can guarantee she got sick again but she wont go to the doctors."
"did you make the appointment?"
"yes I made one for this afternoon but I don't think I'm going to be able to convince her to go"
"oh shes going"
"the hell I am going."
I had come out of the bathroom but none of them had seen me as their backs are to the bathroom door. They all turn to look at me with concern on their faces. I lay back down on the bed.
"you will be going young lady and there will be no argument about it either am I understood."
"oh there will be an argument I already told my love I don't like doctors and I don't go to them so just because he involved the two of you dosent mean I'm going to just go like you all seem to want me to."
"oh yes it does as your fathers you will be going your still not of age yet and you have to do what your told on certain things."
"I turned of age a week ago dad so nice try."
"wait if you did then why didn't we celebrate?"
"well we don't celebrate because I've never told anyone my birthday is why"
"bill didn't you know?"
"no she has refused for 7 years to even tell me her birthday no matter how much ive tried to get it out of her."
"why would you not tell anyone princess"
"why celebrate the day I was born when I was my mothers worst mistake as she put it so its not worth celebrating."
"now it is so you need to let people know"
"do I have to?"
"yes princess you do we all love you and want to celebrate the day you were born."
"fine my birthday is September 4th."
"dang shes right that was last week."
"told you"
"either way your going to the doctors am I understood we are worried about you."
"fine ill go but not willingly."
"we will go with you and bill I know that it isn't going to be easy for you so we will be there for you."
"ok fine"
I go shower and dress to go to the doctors. After I get dressed we leave and head out to the doctors, as we sit in the waiting room I debate on just getting up and walking out. The nurse calls my name and bill goes back with me. We explain what was going on and the nurse draws some blood then makes me pee into a cup. As I sit waiting for the doctor to come in.
"love don't be mad at me ok I'm just worried."
"I'm not mad I just don't like doctors is all."
"I know you don't love but thank you for doing this"
the doctor comes in with his chart and the results of the tests that were done in the last hour. He looks confused and concerned at the same time which I knew wasn't a good thing to be. Bill takes my hand in his holding it.
"well Miss. Black I'm not sure how this is even happening or possible at this point and it concerns me and confuses me all at once."
"whats going on doctor?"
"your pregnant"
"that's not even possible"
"well you are and I'm not sure how."
"what happens now and how far along is she doctor?"
"shes about a month along now and we need to admit her to do some testing and see if she can carry this baby to term or not"
"im not being admitted to the hospital im sorry."
"love you need to be so we can figure out if everything will be ok with this pregnancy."
"we both now it wont I shouldn't have been able to get pregnant with all the damage I had done so we both now ill end up miscarrying anyway so why get our hopes up on this."
"love please"
"no I'm sorry I'm not going to get my hopes up and then be broken hearted when I lose our child."
"bill can I speak to you outside"
"yes doctor"
they leave the room and I sit there panicking some as I think of the fact I was pregnant and I was just going to lose the baby anyway. They come back in but this time both my fathers are with them. I look at all of them as they look at me.
"princess we need to talk"
"no amount of talking is going to change my mind on this"
"sweetie we know your scared right now and your thinking the worst I can see it written all over your face."
"please don't daddy I don't wanna hear this I made my decision"
"my love I know your scared right now but think if its possible to get you to term then we will be parents."
"its not possible why am I the only one that is accepting this"
"your only accepting it because it is what you were told princess but if you don't let them run the tests and things you'll never know if its truly possible."
"can I go home please I don't wanna do this I cant do this, I refuse to end up broken because I miss carry mine and bills baby and to see him hurt all over again either I cant do it."
"bells I know you don't trust doctors but I'm asking you to trust me on this, give us a chance to do the tests we need to do."
"I'm not going to get out of this am I?"
"we will accept your decision princess but we want you to have every option available to you and your giving up before you even let them run tests."
"I don't want to be stuck in the hospital I hate them and doctors, I gave in and came here so you all wouldn't be so worried and now your asking me to let them admit me to the hospital."
"love do you trust me?"
"you know I do love"
"then do this love please trust me on this ill be with you till your released and the tests are done ill be bye your side."
"fine"
"ok we need you to go across the street to the hospital and they will be expecting you with the paper work and you will be admitted to the maternity ward with a private room so no one will bother you unless it is needed I promise."
we go across the street and check into the hospital and they take me up to my room helping me change into a gown then I lay down still not happy one bit about any of this. The nurse notices that im not too happy as she helps me.
"sweetie are you ok?"
"I'm ok I just hate hospitals and doctors but I'm doing this for my fiancee more then anything."
"sweetie I promise your safe here"
"I just don't want to go through all this and end up being broken in the end."
"sweetie we will do what we can to make sure that wont happen ok"
"ok"
my fathers and bill come in once I'm settled into bed. I look at them as they sit on the edge of my bed with me. They all three know I am not happy at all right now.
"princess we all know your upset and mad at us right now but I promise we will make this up to you once your out of here."
"I don't see how your going to make up me being stuck in the hospital to me."
"trust us love we will find away"
I fall asleep shortly afterwards as they watch me sleep and talk.
"I don't now what we will do if shes right"
"bill I know right now your scared and as is she but you got to have faith in things."
"she has no faith in anything anymore how can we make her"
"you cant but if you have faith enough for you both things will be ok."
"do you think she is right?"
"I don't think she is because if that was the case she would have miscarried before now there is a reason she got pregnant even with all the damage that was done over the summer."
"I mean I agree there has to be a reason but shes so afraid itll end in us both being broken."
"look at all shes gone through bill of course shes afraid and she has the right to be but she also needs someone or someones to put it right there in her face that she needs to try before just giving up like we did with her today."
"I still cant believe that we got her to agree to be admitted because she was so stuck on going home and not letting them run tests."
"she was stuck on it because she was afraid but with us three talking to her we made her feel less afraid and the fact that we all will be here with her the whole time is another thing that put her at ease enough to let them admit her."
"Severus how can u be here the whole time when you have classes to teach?"
"Sirius our daughter comes first and headmaster knows this and took over my classes."
"ok love…"
he stops realizing what he had just let slip in front of bill. He looks at bill then to Severus.
"wait love are you two?"
"yes bill we are have been for sometime we just didn't now how to tell others including bells."
"I didn't mean to let it slip I really didn't mean too."
"its fine love its time people knew and I'm pretty sure bells is not going to have a problem with it we are her fathers."
"what wont I have a problem with and who are you calling love dad…."
its then I realize who he had called love as I look to him them to Sirius. Bill looks at them then to me as he reaches out grabbing my hand to keep me calm all unsure how I am going to react to this news after everything I had been told today as it was.
"princess me and your dad Severus are together as a couple and have been for awhile we just didn't now how to tell you or anyone for that matter I just hope that your not going to be mad or upset because we both love you dearly and are both your fathers no matter what please understand."
"you should have told me along time ago dad and daddy there is no way I could be mad I love you both dearly and would have been happy that your both happy but keeping it from me for so long don't ever do that to me again."
"we promise we wont keep anything from you again ok princess"
"ok dad"
"now we just have to tell everyone else in the family and see how that goes."
"yea I can see harry s face now."
"oh lord I can to"
we all laugh and smile as we all can imagine the look on his face when he is told what is going on between Severus and Sirius. The nurse and doctor comes in as we all are laughing. We stop and look at them as they come in. the nurse comes over drawing more blood from me as the doctor speaks.
"we are going to run some blood tests tonight then tomorrow we will do an ultrasound and a pelvic examine to see how much damage was done and see how we are going to get you to carry to term."
"what if we cant get me to carry to term then what will we do?"
"we will handle that if we come to it bells, you need to put some trust into us here at the hospital and let us do what we can ok"
"yes doctor."
"I know your scared but give us some time to figure this out"
"yes doctor."
"thank you bells I know this is not easy for you and I am glad your fiancee and fathers are here with you for the support no matter what happens."
"we promised to be here with her and we wont leave her side unless shes in testing we know that right now she needs us all here with her."
"I'm glad she has the support she needs."
I lay back down feeling tired as I fall asleep. The nurse brings in my dinner but I am still asleep so bill wakes me up and I eat my dinner but fall back to sleep shortly afterwards. Bill lays down beside me in the bed holding me as I sleep as he knows I wont sleep that well if he Isn't holding me like he does at home. My dads lay on the couch in the room together going to sleep as well. I sleep through the night to the next morning waking up as the others wake up. As we all wake up mom walks into the room. We all look at her shocked well all of us but bill of course.
"you told her didn't you love?"
"yes I did I didn't want her to worry about us since we were going to be here for a bit."
"im not upset you told her I just hadnt thought about it since everything else has been going on the last day or so."
"its ok sweetheart I understand why you didn't think about telling me your scared and Im glad bill and your fathers are with you but I wanted to be here as well."
"im glad your hear mom I just feel bad it was the last thing on my mind to let you know where we were."
"don't its ok I promise you"
the nurse comes in with a wheelchair to take me down to ultrasound and my pelvic examine as well. I get into the wheelchair trying to hide my fear in my face knowing I was failing at hiding it. Bill kneels beside me taking my hand in his.
"love listen to me, you have this it will be ok if I could id be with you but the doctor thinks its best you do these tests alone which I don't agree with but im going to let it go for now."
"yes love I just wish you were going to be there with me."
"I know you do love and if I could I would be but I cant."
the nurse wheels me down to the ultrasound as I lay there and the tech does the ultrasound. I watch the screen as she does.
"well sweetie it looks like we have two healthy heartbeats."
"two heartbeats?"
"yes looks like your having twins sweetie"
I tear up knowing if they couldn't do anything for me to carry to term it was going to be twice the broken heart then I wanted to deal with. I close my eyes breathing as she finishes the ultrasound and hands me the pictures. I hold them close to my heart. She wheels me into another room where the doctor comes in to do the pelvic examine as I lay there my eyes closed.
"wow there is more damage then we thought there was but from what I can see the babies are in no danger but your going to have to take it easy and be on bed rest towards the end of the pregnancy because there is a chance you could go into early labor and with all the damage I don't now if you will or will not miscarry one or even both babies lets hope that your ability to have your belly grow like a normal woman would hasn't been compromised bells."
"are you saying I could or couldn't carry to term?"
"I'm saying as far as I can tell you will but if your belly dosent grow like it should you'll have these babies early and they will be in incubators for awhile before you can hold or take them home in my opinion I believe an abortion at this point would be better I'm sorry."
"how can you say that when you just said I could carry to term?"
"I say this to save you the heartbreak of the possibility of losing one or both of them bells im being honest with you here."
"I wanna go back to my room and I want to go home please I need time to think"
"of course you can go home ill sign the papers now and when you get back to your room you can change and go I want to see u back in a week."
"yes doctor."
They take me back to the room the evidence of me crying was seen on my face and the fear of everything he had just told me was written all over my face as well. Bill stops talking to the others since he was the only one without his back to me and could see what I looked like the mintue I was wheeled back into the room. I go into the bathroom changing as I put the pictures away in my purse not saying a word as the doctor comes in to release me. I look at them all and then away not saying a word other then this.
"please just take me home I want out of here now"
we all go home no one says or pushes me to say anything knowing something wasnt right but didn't want to push me even if they wanted answers. I go home and go up to my room laying down curling into a ball. Bill watches me from the doorway concerned.
"I wanna now what the hell that doctor said to her cause now shes not even speaking to anyone and I can see how scared she is on her face."
"we all want to know son but who is she going to talk to is the quiesten"
"let me try bill"
"ok Severus please I'm worried right now and I cant stand watching her try to deal with it all by herself."
"princess"
"dad please I don't want to talk I want to be alone right now I cant deal with everyone coming at me."
"its just me princess talk to me please everyone else is worried."
"you think I'm not, you think I want to be told I could or couldn't carry to term, that I would need to be on bed rest for the last part of my pregnancy then have you should just have an abortion thrown at me so that I wont be heart broke if I lost one or both babies."
"wait both babies?"
"yes its twins and that damn doctor gave me news I could possibly carry till term if I took it easy and did bed rest but he then tells me to just abort because of all the damage I had down there from the shit I went through over the summer, do you think I needed to hear him say to just abort the children I never thought I could possible have , no I didn't but he did say it and that broke me even worse then I thought it would and I cant face bill and tell him this."
"he should have never said that to you princess."
"no but he did so I have to either decide to keep them or abort them with in the next week he wants a decision next week when I go back to see him."
"oh hell no your not going back to him again we will find you another doctor I wont stand for someone treating you like that one bit that is bullshit and my daughter doesn't deserve that."
he gets up going downstairs and telling everyone what was said and why I was wanting to just be left alone. Bill runs upstairs and pulls me into a hug not letting go of me. I break down and cry into his chest screaming in pain and anger. He holds me as the others come running knowing those screams of mine all too well. They stop watching as bill holds me as my body rocks with sobs. They all sit on the bed with us. I lean down and pull out the ultrasound pictures handing them to bill. He smiles seeing our twins then he hands them around.
"your dad is right love you wont be going back to that doctor I knew there was a reason he refused to let me go with you for those tests and know I find out it was to tell you to just abort our children knowing you may not ever be able to become pregnant again."
"I don't want to abort our children ill take the chance and do what I have to do to carry them to term this could be our only chance to have children and I'm not giving that up."
"neither am I love all I care is you will be ok and ill have you and our children in the end."
"I know love but when he said what he did it hurt me and I couldn't tell you what was said because I just didn't now how too."
"its ok im just glad that you opened up to your dad."
"which reminds me Severus and Sirius"
"yes molly?"
"yes molly?"
"I'm glad you two are happy together and are supporting your daughter as a couple."
"wait how did you know we haven't told anyone but princess and bill."
"I'm not stupid you two"
"dad shes right she isn't stupid anyone can see how you two look at one another and thats how I already knew that night at Hogwarts when we were all in my room."
"wait you knew princess yet you led us on as if you didn't."
"yes well its a daughters right to do that when you thought you were hiding something from me like that."
"ok Severus she takes after you on that bit"
"that she does I cant deny that one"
"nope I take after you both in some ways and in some ways I take after you both so deal with it."
"we have no problem dealing with it princess it makes us proud"
"well I guess now we have two things to tell the others tonight at the weekly supper don't we."
"that is tonight isn't it love"
"yes it is love"
"they will be here shortly actually and dinner is almost done so I think we all should head down and wait for them to arrive."
we all head down into the kitchen and sit around the table talking as the others all arrive an hour later as mom sets the table.
"hey everyone"
"hey bells you ok you look as though you've had a rough day"
"more like a few rough days, but I'm alright"
"you sure?"
"yes I'm sure no worries"
"ok"
"so everyone me and Sirius have something to tell everyone and then bill and bells have something to tell as well."
"whats"
"me and Sirius are a couple."
Everyone looks at them as they hold hands everyone is in shock at the announcement. We all wait for someone to say something but then harry is the first to say anything shocking everyone sitting around the table.
"as long as your both happy I accept it."
"really harry your not mad or anything?"
"nope how I see it is your both happy and I believe everyone here can see that plus your both bells dads , she needs you both."
everyone smiles and agrees with harry which causes them both to tear up some. I get up slowly and hug both my fathers in a group hug as they wrap their arms around me.
"ok so what is bills and bells announcement?"
I look to bill as he looks at me, I move and sit back down beside him as he takes my hand squeezing it in his. As he speaks telling everyone knowing I didn't want to do it.
"well as you all know we were told that bells wouldn't be able to carry children because of the damage done over the summer, but for some reason we found out three days ago that she is pregnant with twins."
everyone stops and looks towards us the shock apparent on their faces as they take in what was just said the first person to speak was Fred.
"your pregnant bestie?"
"yes I am Fred"
bill passes the ultrasound pictures around as everyone smiles and takes a look at them then they all come over hugging us and congratulating us on the babies. Harry was the one to notice how I sat there even though I did hug back he noticed I was off some.
"ok this is suppose to be a happy moment bells whats wrong ?"
my father Severus speaks up knowing I didn't want to talk about what had happened at the hospital because it still hurt me to even think about that conversation.
"harry the doctor who took care of bells at the hospital was very rude, he refused to allow bill or anyone to be with her for the tests they ran to make sure she could carry the babies to term. He then at the end of it even though he told her it was possible as long as she was careful he proceeded to tell her to just abort the babies."
"why in the hell would he do that?"
"he told her that he didn't see the point if something happened where she had them early and she could possible lose one or both so to save herself the heart ache of that happening she should just get it over with now."
"that's cruel and not right of him to do"
"we know this and it will be handled I done told her she wont be going back to see that doctor the next time me and Sirius will find her the best doctor to help her."
"I'm sorry this happened to you bells, what he did and said should have never happened, I know you had to be scared and needed someone to be there with you, him isolating you alone is wrong."
"its ok harry ill be alright but I wont abort my babies knowing this could be the only chance me and bill have to be parents cause of all the damage that has been done."
"I don't blame you I really don't bells we all support you and are very happy that your both getting this chance because we all know how much it tore you apart when you were told you wouldn't be able to have children and now your pregnant."
"it really did tear me apart but now I've got this chance and im going to do whatever it takes to make sure my babies are born healthy."'
"good and we are all here for you"
then mom speaks up changing the subject as she notices I was starting to panic some over the conversation.
"on another note I hope you all are going to be ready to go shopping for wedding fits the first few days of your two week Christmas break because bill and bells are getting married on Christmas this year and we are having it at Sirius's place again."
everyone smiled as the announcement of our wedding was made, as if they were all waiting on that.
"we all will be ready its about time we get to see bells be happy like she deserved and we all know her and bill belong together."
"yes we do and we do love one another very much and we all both so lucky to have this huge family even if we arent all blood related we are all still a big happy family"
"yes we are and we are all very happy to accept Severus into the fold of this family as well."
"I thank you all for accepting me into the fold of this family"
I decide to speak up
"there wont be one but two weddings on Christmas"
"two weddings princess?"
"yes mine and yours and dads wedding as well"
"wait how did you know that I had asked your dad to marry me bells?"
"I'm your daughter I have my ways of knowing things and it dosent help that you two decide to discuss things when you think I'm asleep and when bill went to the bathroom the last night in the hospital."
"I told you she wasn't asleep"
"I swear she takes so much after the both of us at times"
"that she does love"
everyone bursts out laughing as my fathers just look at me in shock. I laugh and lay my head against bills shoulder.
"so unless you two agree to have your wedding with me and bill I'll wait till summer to get married and make you all wait too."
"no we arent waiting till summer, Sirius and Severus your wedding is on Christmas as well."
"well looks like molly Isn't giving us a choice on this is she"
"no because she dosent want to make bill and bells wait till summer and I agree with them so we can have our wedding the same day if it is what princess wants and its ok with bill."
"its fine with me whatever my love wants I'm going to make sure she gets"
"love you don't have to do that I don't expect much but I just want to see my fathers happy like we are and them being married will make them both happy."
"then its settled"
"yes it is."