Crosshairs is about to go upstairs when he sees Drift walking down the stairs, carrying Jamie. He's happy to hear Jamie wants breakfast. Optimus watches the two mechs go into the kitchen, unsure if he should talk to Jamie now.
"You know she's going to cry," Ratchet reminds him, "best to wait until tonight unless you know..."
Optimus and Ratchet level the two mechs alone.
"I hate this," Ratchet and Prime hear Hound as they go upstairs, "All she wants is to be loved but is too shy, and no human in her dimension understands."
"Your idea was good, but then the person she's trying to be friends with would be talking to two people, which would probably make them uncomfortable," Bumblebee points out.
"I don't like the idea of getting her to not bother with humans in her dimension, but you've seen how bad she's been struggling," Cade adds.
"NO HUMAN FUCKING UNDERSTANDS!" Sunstreaker rages, not caring Cade, Izzy, Tessa, and Vivian hear him. They have learned. Sunstreaker doesn't bother excluding them while he rages about humans, but he's seen how much they care about Jamie.
Sunstreaker POV
I hate how there's nothing I can do to help Jamie. It's hard; Jamie and I are not close friends; I don't think she'd let me comfort her. I can only watch and listen to Crosshairs and Drift talk about her struggles. I hate how she still separates her dimension and the rest. Thinking she has no friends because of that. I know Prime regrets how he didn't do more while Jamie was dealing with bullying and having no friends.
I go downstairs to do a little workout, stopping by the kitchen to fill my water bottle. I'm happy to see Jamie eating better food than she has been.
Please let her be in a good mood today.
I do not like how distracted I am during my workout. It's hard not to think about the one human I care about. Cade, Izzy, Tessa, Vivian, and a few soldiers are just lucky I ignore them.
"Hate humans, huh?" Sideswipe teases.
"Yes, I hate most of them. Lucky we're not at the base, so I can kill for the hell of it."
"Calm down, Sunstreaker. Jamie doesn't need this. You know she can sense your anger."
I shove Sideswipe out of the way and go take a cold shower.
Drift POV
I hate watching Jamie go back to her room after breakfast. I know it's not to do any writing or recording. Crosshairs insists we leave her alone for a while. We go to my room and sit on my bed. Crosshairs hugs me, which makes it harder not to cry. I know he hates watching Jamie struggle. How the frag is he not falling apart? I hug him, and we sit in silence.
We left Jamie alone for an hour, but we didn't think she'd be back to sleep already, even though it's noon. I don't like Jamie is up early if it means she's asleep all afternoon. I hate how she already cried today and alone.
"Come on, she'll be asleep for a while," Crosshairs insists.
"No, she cried alone already today."
I get in bed and move Jamie close to me.
Crosshairs POV
Are you going to be ok sleeping with her?
I worry Drift will have his recurring nightmare and while Jamie is with him is a recipe for disaster, or maybe being close to her will keep the nightmare away. I could stay in the room, but that's just weird. I'll check on these two every twenty minutes.
I catch Sunstreaker going up to his room. Sideswipe following him until he sees me.
"It's hard to believe how much he cares about Jamie," Sideswipe comments.
"You're the only one who thought they'd be good friends since humans did them both wrong," I remind him.
"I know, but I didn't think Sunstreaker would have tried to befriend Jamie. Hard to believe he's still trying."
Sideswipe asks if he can go to Jamie's dimension to go to Panera Bread. He could open a portal to the U.S. in this dimension; I'm not going to argue with Sideswipe about the extra steps he wants to take. I'm more worried about how shitty my two friends are doing.
I check on my two friends every twenty minutes for the next two hours before Drift woke up. Actually, I sat by Jamie's room with the door open a tad and would open it enough so I can see my two sleeping beauties.
Drift didn't say anything as he helps me up.
We watch our little lady sleep for a few minutes. There's no way he's going to leave Jamie alone.
"I want you two to take a walk," Optimus suggests more than ordering us, "there's no need to watch her as she sleeps, but I'll stay here if it makes you feel better, Drift."
Optimus Prime POV
I'm troubled by how afraid Drift is to leave Jamie alone as she sleeps. Crosshairs tells me Jamie cried before going to sleep. I think both mechs worry about how Jamie will be when she wakes up and hating how she cried alone.
I'm sorry, I didn't do more to help you, Jamie, now you struggle, and no human in your dimension understands.
Even if she's not crying all day, I know she's thinking about the struggles of talking to people all day and night until she's asleep. I hate even her own family doesn't understand.
Crosshairs couldn't get Drift to stay away from Jamie's room for more than forty-five minutes.
"His nightmare last night had to have been more terrifying than usual," Crosshairs tells me as we watch Drift go into Jamie's room and close the door, "I always try to get him to wake up and calm down, but last night he screamed before waking up."
There's only one thing that would have caused Drift to scream and be afraid to leave Jamie alone even while she sleeps. It's something we're all terrified will happen.
Jamie is up at three but still tired and not bothered with Drift holding her as we watch T.V. Though I doubt she'd be bothered if she wasn't tired and depressed. I hate not knowing what to do to help her get out of this depressed period. Vivien asks Cogman to make one of Jamie's favorites for dinner, and I know Sideswipe got cookies from Panara Bread.
Drift POV
I don't think this is Jamie wanting me to hold her; this is depression and needing comfort. This soon after waking up, damn it. I'm trying not to worry about how much she'll be crying tonight. First concern; how much dinner will Jamie eat?
Cogman made chicken cutlets covered in cheese and chicken rice. He said he thought about making cheese fries but wasn't sure if that would fit with the dinner.
I ended up sharing chicken with Jamie, and these aren't huge like Jamie's dad would make them. She won't even eat her favorite dinner.
Sideswipe POV
I don't like this, and I doubt I'll get Jamie to laugh even if I tell Crosshairs to deck me on the head again. This feels worse than the day Jadin showed up. What that bitch said and other things have been on Jamie's mind, sinking her into a deeper depression, that there's nothing we can do. I feel Sunstreaker becomes angery, knowing this is partly due to what Jadin said.
I hate we can't do anything. Sunny says through our bond.
You know that's how everyone feels. I remind him. But it's hitting Crosshairs, Drift and Prime hard.
I'm not even going to show Jamie the cookies I got. As much as I don't want to, I'm staying out of Crosshairs and Drift's way.
I get Sunstreaker to do another workout with me.
