First off, no this is not a new chapter and I am so sorry about that. But don't worry, I am planning to finish it.
Ummm, hi? I'm back! Hehe 2 years after, but I like to believe better now than never. So, if you ever come across this message, I would like my fellow readers to know I have not abandoned Bloodied petals. I might have thought of it honestly, but when I went back to my account, I realized there were still people reading my story! It honestly made my day and I am so grateful. So here I am, trying to write another chapter and finish my story. Only thing, I do believe that my writing style has changed, and I am afraid of publishing something that would be of lesser quality than the chapters before. Thoughts on that? But yeah, I currently have around 2K written so expect an update sooner or later.
I'm so sorry for just disappearing like this. I do believe I owe you guys an explanation. Funny story, I actually didn't create this account at first, my best friend did. Back in 2018-2019, I had hit a very low point in my life and had used writing as a coping mechanism. Instead of doing homework, I would write which explains why my stories are rather angsty, dramatic and almost only centered on death đAnd although I started writing fanfictions, I had no intentions of publishing them because I thought my writing skills were at best mediocre. English is not my mother tongue (est-ce qu'il y a des lecteurs français? Je pense que vous ĂȘtes au courant Ă quel point l'Ă©criture des deux langues peut ĂȘtre compliquĂ©e, mais bon, la grammaire française est la pire et personne ne peut me convaincre du contraire) and my « friends » would mock my habit of writing since they thought I was no good in English. They would read some of my stories and tell me that sometimes, it's better to give up rather than humiliate myself by still writing in English. "You're good enough writing in French" they would say, "but that doesn't mean it's the case in English." I believed them and eventually thought of stopping and threw everything away. But my best friend took some of the stories I had handwritten and thrown in the garbage and typed them on her computer before creating me an account on this amazing site. She then proceeded to publish the two stories she managed to save and waited for a feedback. And my stories somehow received a lot of love.
She then told me about it, showing me the views and reviews and told me "see, there are people who like your stories. You're a good writer, don't listen to the others." And she gave me the account saying I could do whatever I wished with it. I kept it and even thought of another story based off the unrequited love I was suffering.
Basically, I poured my heart into the stories to make the readers feel something. They were my escape, my mean to deal with the self destruction and self hate I felt.
And when I got better, I tried to distance myself from these stories for they reminded me too much of my past feelings and how I felt in my darkest times. I was too weak to brush them off and just focus on the love I had for my readers and my stories. I just wanted to forget the entire 2018-2019. And for that I am so sorry but now I am back, and ready to finish the fairy tail Hanahaki AU!
See you soon!
Lots of love,
Daphne.