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I've read a couple fics about abuse and it's just really unrealistic with the quick forgiving and the abuser becoming better. Now yes that can happen but for me it just moves too quick and that's not exactly what happens in real life. Being abused is something serious and it should be taken that way. Now I'm not the best writer of course but I try my best. This will be a long story dealing with everything that comes with abuse. How it starts. How it ends. The middle. All of it.
tw: abuse
Santana's P.O.V
THREE YEARS AGO:FRESHMAN YEAR
I walked into my next class which was Algebra ugh math. When I went in I saw the blonde girl from earlier who helped me with my locker. The girl looked up and smiled at me and I blushed. "Ah hey I remember you." She stood up and walked over to me.
"Hey so remember to keep that secret about Lord Tubbington between me and you ok?" I seriously could not tell if this girl was serious or not. I smiled "Secrets safe with me." She smiled back "Great and I didn't introduce myself earlier I'm Brittany." She held out her hand. I shook her hand "Santana."
"So want to come sit with me and my friend Quinn?" I barely knew this girl it she was the only one I knew anyway so far so why not? "Yeah sure." I followed her to where she was sitting by another blonde girl. "Hi I'm Quinn." I waved "Hi I'm Santana." Brittany whispered to Quinn "Hey she's one of us I told her about LT." Quinn nodded "Ah I see." I chuckled and sat next to Brittany.
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It's been about six months since I've been friends with Brittany and Quinn. We do pretty much anything together. We are on Christmas break and at Quinns house having a sleepover.
"I'll be back I'm gonna go get snacks." Quinn said before leaving downstairs.
Brittany seemed a bit off today. She's usually energetic and telling us wacky stories.
"Brittany you ok?"
She looked at me and smiled "Yeah I'm fine. Just upset I didn't get to bring LT he's probably doing drugs again" She rolled her eyes.
I chuckled. After being friends with her for so long I started to see she was serious about these things. "I'm sure he misses you too."
Brittany smiled and I smiled back. There's no doubt I have a crush on Brittany but I won't do anything due to me being scared and not knowing if she even likes girls.
Quinn came back with cookies "Oh yeah now this party's getting started!"
Me and Brittany cheered. "Yeah!"
We are cookies and talked all night about school parents and what we got for Christmas.
"So Brittany crushing on anyone?" Quinn asked out of nowhere.
Brittany cleared her throat and blushed. "Well I uh..."
"Come on."
"Um there's a...a girl."
I was shocked and excited?
Quinn gushed "I knew you liked girls!"
Brittany blushed scarlet red. "S-so you guys don't have a problem with it?"
Quinn shook her head "No my sister is actually gay."
"I don't have a problem with it you're still the same person." I said.
Brittany smiled the most adorable smile I've ever seen. "Ok."
"So...who is she?"
Brittany looked up at Quinn and back down. "I-I..."
"Fine i won't force you I guess." Quinn playfully rolled her eyes and I laughed.
"Quinn sweetie come here!" Quinns mother yelled.
Quinn groaned "I'll be back."
Brittany and I stayed in silence for a while before she looked at me. "I like Quinn." She said quickly.
It took me a second to process that information and I kind of felt my heart drop. "Oh..."
"So yeah that's the only reason I didn't wanna say."
"I see. For how long?"
"Last year. She was the reason I realized I liked girls."
"Oh." I didn't know what to say.
Quinn came back and we went back to talking all night.
PRESENT TIME
No ones P.O.V
Santana remembers the feeling she felt when she wasn't the girl Brittany liked, the twist in her stomach, the pain she felt in her heart. She feels like that everyday now. She cried in the shower all night to make sure her brothers and mom didn't hear.
The next morning Santana got ready for school, she decided to wear makeup instead of wearing the glasses again. She was dreading seeing Brittany.
When she was finished she got a text from Brittany that she was outside.
Santana went down stairs and hugged her mother. "Brittanys here love you."
"Love you too. Oh and don't forget you need to get Mario from school today I won't be able to."
Santana completely forgot about that "Oh yeah I'll ask Britt to drive me."
Mario was Santanas youngest brother and he adores Brittany and Santana could never figure out why. She tries to keep him away from her the best she can.
"Ok tell her I said hi."
"Will do." Santana walked outside and got in Brittanys car.
Brittany leaned over and kissed her "Morning baby."
"Good morning."
Brittany pulled out of the driveway and started driving.
"Um do you think you can drive me to Mario's school later I have to pick him up."
"Sure." Brittany glanced at Santana "I'm sorry about yesterday."
Santana nod tightly.
"I'm just worried about someone finding out. I don't want to hurt you but you do dumb things and I can't help it."
Yeah it's my fault. Of course. Santana thought.
She sighs softly and looks at her lap.
Thirty minutes later they pulled into the school parking lot there was a few minutes till class.
Brittany grabbed Santanas hand and kissed her knuckles. "I love you so much."
Santana willed herself to not cry. "I love you too."
"You shouldn't."
Santana looked at her. "What?"
"I know what I'm doing. I've been doing it for two years." To Santana's surprise Brittany started crying. "I can't stop."
Santana just sat in silence. She knew Brittanys moves. She can be vulnerable sometimes but she won't change her ways.
Brittany looked at her phone and shut it off really quick before wiping her tears. "Okay let's go."
Brittany got out and opened Santanas door and took her hand once again.
They walked to the entrance. Santana got stuck in her own head as she does daily.
"I'm gonna head to class I have to talk to my teacher." Brittany said and kissed Santanas cheek and walked away.
Santana went to her locker and stared at it. Thinking about how she met Brittany there. How if she didn't have trouble with it she would've never met Brittany...probably.
"Penny for your thought?"
Santana jumped at the familiar voice and turned around. "Oh Quinn you scared me."
"Sorry." Quinn said.
"It's fine I was just um daydreaming."
Quinn nodded "Hey so yesterday-"
"It was nothing."
"Where did your black eye go?"
Santana sighed "I just used makeup to cover it up it's no big deal as I said yesterday."
"Right." Quinn ran her hand through her hair. "Look I know we aren't exactly friends anymore but you can tell me anything."
"We were never friends Juno now please leave me alone." Santana had to put up that barrier she couldn't risk Quinn knowing more than she did.
"I just want to help."
"With what Quinn? There's nothing going on so whatever suspicions you have you can just shut them down now."
"Santana I know you didn't get that black eye from your brothers."
Santana froze for a second. "Where else Quinn?"
Quinn shook her head "I don't know but I could tell you were lying to me yesterday."
"We haven't spoken since last year and i would like to keep it that way. Stay away from me and stay away from Brittany."
Quinn looked a bit hurt "Fine. You're right sorry." She walked away.
Santana turned back around and opened her locker.
THREE YEARS AGO:FRESHMAN YEAR
Santana was at Brittanys house waiting for Quinn to show up. The girls were having another sleepover.
Brittany and Santana never brought up her liking Quinn after the other night.
"Hungry?" Brittany asked Santana
"No I'm fine." Though she would never tell anyone she was really upset that Brittany didn't like her.
"Look San if you're uncomfortable with me liking girls you can just say so you know?"
Santana was shocked for a second, did she really think that? "What? No no I'm not uncomfortable it's fine. Why would you think that?"
"Well you've just been acting differently since I told you and-"
"Britt" Santana cuts her off "I am one hundred and ten percent ok with you being gay. Actually I think I might be as well..."
Somehow Brittanys eyes widen a bit "Oh wow...that's cool heh."
Santana wondered if she should tell Brittany she liked her but at that moment Quinn walked into the backyard.
"Hey losers what's up."
"Hey Quinn." Santana and Brittany greeted her.
Quinn sat her bag down "So shall we get our swimming on?"
Brittany smiled "Hell yeah."
The girls all got in the pool and swam for hours that day playing games, spilling secrets, and just having fun.
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PRESENT TIME
Santana sat in class nervously. She had barely seen Brittany all day and that was unusual considering she has lost her classes with her. Santana had been worried something happened to her.
When the bell rung she left class. It was lunch so she went outside and thought about calling Brittany but she knew Brittany hates when she calls her.
After a few minutes of looking outside she went back inside. She sighed as she walked down the hallway. She's in her senior year of high school in an abusive relationship with a girl she's madly in love with no matter how much said girl hurts her in many ways.
They had talked about graduation, Brittany wants Santana to move in with her when she goes to New York. Santana never wanted to go to New York she would rather go to her dream college Yale. Mainly she didn't want to live with Brittany because she fears she just might end up in the hospital at some point.
Now Brittany hits her any chance she gets and has been starting to do it at school which makes the fear of living with her greater.
Santana heard shuffling in the janitors closet which brought her out of her thoughts. She walked closer to the door debating if she should open it.
Then the door opened and she saw Rachel who was a friend but not a friend. Santana didn't know her all that well. Rachel saw Santana and her eyes went huge. Rachels hair was a bit messy and her skirt was wrinkled.
"Wow someone finally wanted to get in your pants. Congrats Berry." Santana said with a smile that quickly disappeared when she saw Brittany come out as well.
"What the fuck." Santana said and Brittany looked up and froze.
"San." Brittany half whispered.
Santana walked away before she started bawling right in the middle of the hallway.
Brittany followed her quickly. "Santana it's not what it looks like."
"Oh really?" Santana said with a new found confidence "Because it looked like you were fucking Rachel Berry."
Brittany sighed "Baby."
Santana shook her head. "Why?"
Brittany shrugged "She asked."
Santana stared at her. "I'm sorry? She asked? Oh because some girl ask you to fuck her you just what? Do it?!"
Brittany suddenly stopped looking sorry and smirked. "You know what yeah. You haven't been putting out I have to force you every time because all you want to do is complain and quite frankly it's annoying."
Santana looked down "Well maybe if you would just ask you wouldn't have to force anything."
"The fuck did you just say to me?"
Santana's heart rate picked up. "N-nothing I just-"
Brittany walked closer to her. "Look I don't know where you're getting all this new found confidence from but don't forget your place."
Santana nodded.
Brittany forced her to look at her. "Who do you belong to?"
"You."
"Exactly. Now you let another slip up like that happen again I will fucking beat the shit out of you. Understand?"
Santana's body shook with fear "Y-yes."
Brittany wiped Santana's tears "Great now lunch is almost over get to class." Brittany says before kissing Santana's cheek and walking off.
Santana sniffed and walked to class when she turned the corner she saw Quinn. Again.
Santana rolled her eyes "Fuck are you stalking me or something?"
Quinn stared at her "I heard everything."
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