Bucky POV

I was punching the punching bag as hard as I could trying to get myself under control. I kept thinking about Chaz. I then remembered what he said before. He had been getting his memories back which meant that he was wiped and probably had trigger words. I dashed out of the gym rushing to get to my computer I needed to call Shuri.

"Bucky, it is good to hear from you. What can I do for you?" Shuri smiled at me through the screen.

"It is good to see you Shuri. I wish I was calling you under better circumstances. I found my son, he was captured by Hydra. I believe that he has trigger words. Would you be willing to fly out here and take a look at him?"

"We are already on our way." I raised my eyebrows in surprise. "Captain Rogers called when you arrived at the tower."

"Thank you Shuri. It will be good to see you face to face."

"Your welcome. And you as well Bucky. See you soon."

When T'Challa and Shuri arrived at the tower I could feel myself relaxing a little knowing that Shuri can help Chaz. I was leading them to Chaz's room when Steve quickly ran into the hall and pushed me back.

"Bucky you can't go in there."

"Yes I can. He is my son and Shuri is here to help him."

"Fury is in there with him. He is interrogating him. You can't go in there."

I could feel my anger that had dissipated return with a vengeance. "You left Fury alone with him?!"

"I had no choice, you know how Fury is."

"You could have said no and stayed with Chaz as you promised me!" I was livid. "How could you leave him with Fury!"

Then Fury and his agent rolled my son in his bed passed me. My son was sleeping.

"What happened? Steve said that he was finally awake."

"We had to put him to sleep, he was becoming disturbed from the interrogation. We thought it best to sedate him." Explain Fury.

"You drugged my son! Where are you taking him?!" I started after him. Steve grabbed me and pulled me back.

"He is going to a containment cell. One where he can't hurt anyone." Fury explained.

I patted Steve's arm to tell him that I wouldn't do anything stupid so he could let go. He let me go and I asked,

"Did he hurt someone?"

"No, he did not, this is a preventive measure Sergeant Barnes." I nodded my head.

"When will he wake?"

"In an hour you can watch him if you want."

"Thank you."

We all went to watch Chaz in his cell waiting for him to wake. We discussed that Shuri should be the one to talk to him when he wakes. We watched him as he woke up, I could see him thinking out what was going on.

"Do you know where you are?" Shuri asked through speakers. He looked around the room trying to find where she was.

"In the pen." he said in a duh tone. Steve and I laughed. His answer was so much like when he was younger.

"Yes, though I meant the location."

"Shield or Avengers' Tower. That doesn't really matter now does it? I won't ever see the light of day again, so why did you save my life?"

"You are important -" I could see the anger radiating off him. He interrupted her.

"If you think for one moment that I will submit to being tortured and experimented on, you are cockeyed."

"We would never torture you. We would never experiment on you without your consent. We will also never use you as a killing machine." he chuckled.

"What I was saying earlier was that you are important to friends of mine. I am here to get rid of your trigger words."

Just as she finished telling him I could see the panic hit. He started hyperventilating and curled in on himself. I rushed out of the observation room, ignoring Steve's yelling to wait. I opened his cell as fast as I could the door slammed shut behind, locking us in. He looked up and I knew he saw that I was there but I was pretty sure that he didn't see me.

"Please, not the chair." he wheezed out. It broke my heart to see him that way. I knelt down beside him and pulled him into my embrace. It at first panicked him more he struggled to get out of my hold. I pulled his head to my neck like I used to when he was young. He always wanted to breathe in my scent, it calmed him down. He always said that I smelled of peppermint and vanilla. I could feel him start to relax as he breathed in my scent, his breath tickling my neck. I released him when he pulled away. His blue and brown eyes met mine and widened when he looked at me.

"Dad?" hearing him call me dad was a relief that made me feel like flying. Then I remembered I shot him and the drowning guilt was back.

Chaz POV

My Dad just stared at me and looked so guilty.

"Dad? What's wrong?" it was at least five minutes of staring and it was starting to worry me.

"I am so sorry, Chaz." I laughed.

"Oh Dad, it wasn't your fault that I was captured by Hydra. No need to blame yourself." he shook his head and pulled his long sleeve up on his left arm making me notice for the first time that it was metal. I then came to the realization my Dad is the Winter Soldier, the guilt was because he shot me.

"Don't you dare blame yourself." I hugged him tight.

"I almost killed you." he whispered.

"Key word there is almost. I am fine. The super soldier serum works wonders don't you think, Dad?" he laughed and his eyes got their sparkle back. We just looked at each other.

"I guess you're too big to be my little koala bear anymore. Even trade?" he asked. I sucked in a breath as I remembered when he first started that.

I was sitting on my bed in my room crying. I hadn't spoken in four months and Dad was getting worried. I just couldn't speak, I had nothing to say. I couldn't deal with my Mom being gone. My whole five year old world was shattered with her death. I heard my Dad open my door and walk into my room, he sat next to me on my bed.

"Chaz, please talk to me, little koala bear." I whimpered. Mom loved to call me little koala bear.

"Please, Chaz, talk to me." I just laid there.

"How about I make you a deal? Any one of use can call even trade and we will talk to each other. We have to trade similar stories that we have. Will you do that with me? I am calling for an even trade." I turned around looking at him.

"Mom is gone Dad." I sobbed. He wrapped me in his arms and pulled my head into his neck letting me breath in his scent.

"I know, I know. I lost my mother around your age. It was really difficult." I pulled away looking into his eyes.

"How did you get better?"

"I still miss my mother a lot, but my Dad was there and helped me and Aunt Rebecca feel better. I will be here for you whenever you need Chaz because I love you, my son, my little koala bear."

"Chaz, you okay?" his blue eyes looking at me in concern.

I nodded "Yeah I just remembered the day you started even trade. You start it." he sighed,

"I was on a mission with Steve when I fell from a train off a mountain. I thought I was going to die but I survived and Hydra found me. I lost some of my arm but they cut off the rest of my arm and gave me the metal one. They tortured me and brainwashed me putting me in a chair wiping my memory. I was the perfect soldier until they sent me to kill Steve -"

"Uncle Steve, you didn't -" he shook his head.

"No I didn't kill him, Chaz. He helped me get my memory back with the help of Shuri. She was who was speaking to you over the speakers. She is here to help you with your trigger words."

"How do you know about my trigger words?"

"I had trigger words and we figured with your memory how it is, you had them like I did. Ok now your turn."

"It is a little fuzzy but I was playing when I was taken by Hydra. I woke on a table," I closed my eyes as I saw what happened to me. "I was tied down, I-I-I was tortured, experimented on and my memory wiped." I shook my head trying to clear my head but it didn't help, I was back in the lab at Hydra. I could hear the screams of my victims as I tortured them to death with my power. The doctors were happy with my progress. I could feel myself shaking but I couldn't shake myself out of the memory.

"Chaz, Chaz, come back to me son." I heard my Dad say and could feel his hands on my face.

"Open your eyes, Chaz." I opened my eyes and looked at him. I broke down sobbing.

"I killed them Dad, I tortured them to death. They screamed and I just." I sobbed again and he wrapped me in his arms, trying to comfort me. After I calmed down he still held me, "How can you still love me? I'm a monster."

His grip on me tightened, "If you are a monster then so am I."