What do you guys think so far. I love Ansel he's definitely a character who could've really done good in the show if they had kept him around.

It's been 15 years since the day I lost my brother, and it still hurts as if it just happened. I've come to realize grief isn't something you forget about you just have to learn to live with it.

I love my pack I do, and I no longer want to leave, but even I know it's not easy being bound by duty or love to something that occasionally makes you want to scream in frustration.

Looking at her now this beautiful sad women I see a part of myself in her. The man I was when I though leaving my pack was the right thing to do, I wasn't standing up for myself and letting my fears get the best of me.

My fist are clenching down by my sided as I fight every instinct I have to wrap her into my arms, and I swear I'm almost sure she feels it too. She keeps looking at me, she's trying to tear her eyes away, but she's failing. Occasionally she'll even step forward like she feels the pull towards me before she snaps herself out of it.

"I should go. I need to get home to my children….and my husband." That last part was said hesitantly like she's having to remind herself who he is to her. Rather is because she's mad at him and no longer considers him her husband, or maybe she really does feel the negeri between us.

Before I can respond she run off, but before she runs from sight she turns and faces me. For a moment we just stared at each other each of us daring the other with our eyes to do something. I knew in that moment I could've easily walked up to her and kissed her.

A twig snapping nearby snapped up out of our trance and in a second she was gone.

Suddenly I hear my father say. "I wouldn't if I were you. It'll only end up in heartache for both of you." I turn and he's standing in the shadow of the trees behind me.

I don't bother denying anything. Anyone with eyes could see how we looked at each other, and the tension between us was so strong there's no way anyway near us couldn't feel it too.

Before I can't respond he continues. "You're a wolf and she's a witch. You live in the woods with your pack while she lives in town. Then there's the fact that she has a husband and a family she'll never leave that. So please save yourself the pain." With that he goes leaving me to think.

I know he's right there's no way this'll end without me ending up in pain, but I just…don't think I have the strength to stay away from her.

For 3 days I keep my promise I don't really leave camp to afraid I'll run into her. It's stupid I know the town people never come this far into the woods, but I'm afraid if I leave here I'll be drawn to town. To Her.

I don't know why I can't stop thinking about her. My father's words ring in my head again telling me why I should forget about her, but not explaining how to do so.

I have slipped a little. By making small talk I was able to ask the members of the pack who go into town more than I do, and I learn her name Esther Mikaelson, the women who keeps haunting my dreams.

"Ansel were heading into town Vincent friend had some new swords for us to look at. You wanna come." I turn toward Dagner pondering his question.

I feel the swell in my heart again at the thought of going into town, at the chance of getting to see her. My father's piercing gaze in on me and I know he's waiting for me to say no, to let her go like he said too.

I want to see her, but I know it's wrong. She's dealing with her own stuff right now and she's married. I have a pack to run so I know nothing good will come out of this, I know we'll only end up hurting ourselves. So, I prepare myself to decline the invite.

"Yes that sounds great, a walk into town sound nice." My eyes widen a little as I consider what I just said. I swear I meant to decline but the "yes" popped out of me before I could stop it.

With a shake of my head, I head towards the edge of camp and we begin our walk into town. In the back of my mind, I hear Dagner and his brother talking but I can't hear them over the pounding in my heart.

When we get to town we hear right over to Sid's. He's a swordsmen and probably the only real friend we have in town. We meet him a few years ago after Dagner saved his wife from being raped by someone in the woods. Since then whenever he's has a new shipment of swords from the town over he lets us have first pick.

As we walk into town I barely watch wear I'm going my eyes are peering around hoping to catch a glimpse of her. Were outside of Sid's home when I feel a gaze on my neck and my heart begin to pound. I already know what I'll find when I turn around but the sight of her still takes my breath away.

I wave Dagner and his brother on while I wait outside. This is the first time I've seen her in 3 weeks, and I want to soak in the sight of her. For a while we do nothing but stare at one another neither of us paying attention to the outside world. She's doing the same ignoring her dark-skinned friend next to her.

I feel like I'm about to burst, and finally I can't take it anymore. I look towards the woods and realize were only a short walk away from a spot I go in the woods when I need to be alone, I've never shown anyone this spot, but I find I don't mind sharing it with her.

My eye stare into hers as I nod towards the woods silently asking her to follow me. I can see her debating within herself fighting against the part of her that knows she shouldn't, and the part of her I know must feel the pull between us.

This is it the moment our lives are going to change forever. Either she follows me, and we see were this go, or we ignore it and try to move on with our lives. I wonder if we can live with ourselves if we do that, if we never explore what could've been.

Finally, she gives a small smile and begins to move towards me, but she's stopped by her friend. I move towards the edge of the woods and when I turn I see them arguing with one another, and her friends gesturing towards me harshly.

For a moment I'm afraid she's not going to follow me, but I see her jerk her arm from her friends hand and head towards me.

We don't speak as we walk into the woods, it's quiet until we reach the clearing and I see her gasp at the beauty before us. The sun is shining on the water making it sparkle, the waterfall is beautiful, and the flowers are in full bloom.

"It's beautiful." She whispers walking closer to the water, and closer to me. She's close enough for me to touch, and after so long of being denied I do just that.

My hand falls to her cheek creasing it, and I feel warmth spread through my body and her shudder. Her hand cover mine and she turns her head into my hand.

"I can't….I.. I'm married. God I shouldn't even be here right now-" I know she's right, but I don't want her to talk herself out of this, so I interrupt her with the one thing we both want.

I pull her into my arms, and I kiss her. Pouring every ounce of passion I feel towards her into, and it's not long before I feel her responding with equal passion.

"Oh Ansel. I've been wanting to do that since I laid eyes on you." She whispers, and I smile feeling happy at her words. I wish to respond so I can tell her how much I've wanted this to, but before I can she pulls my lips back towards her.

We fall into each other then. Kiss and creasing every part of each other's bodies once our clothes come off.

It's never been like this before. I've had lover before, but none have made me burn inside like she has. I know in this moment my heart is hers. I know that I've already fallen in love with her.

It's the sound of sobbing and someone repeating "what did I just do" that wakes me up.

I'm on my back on the wed grass. I can feel the sun shining down on me, and hear Esther crying next to me. She's already dressed and she's sitting there facing away from me, her shoulders are shaking with the force of her sobs.

My hand reaches out with the attempt at comforting her, but she jerks away as if I burned her. She whips around and I see her eyes filled with tears, and an angry look on her face.

"YOU. This is..This is your fault. You made me do this." She screeches out, and suddenly I'm angry too. She can regret this all she wants I can't control how she feels, but she's not going to make me into some bad guy.

"I made you do this, and tell me exactly how I did that. Did I make you feel the connection between us? Did I make you spend the last few weeks thing of me like I thought of you? Did I make you follow me into the woods, even though your friend tried to stop you. Did I make you kiss me with so much passion? Did I force you to make love to me? No, I didn't you did this because you wanted this just as much as I did. As I still do." I'm breathless after my rant.

With a huff I turn around and start gathering my clothes to redress. I feel her staring at me, and I'd give anything to see if her mind, to know what she's thinking.

This time it's her who's hand fall on my shoulder, and me who moves it off, Knowing I need to know how she feels I turn to face her. I don't say anything I want her to make the first move here.

"Your right I don't know what's wrong with me. This just isn't how my life was supposed to go. I was never supposed to lose a child, and be estranged from my husband. Or here falling in love with another man who I barely know. I just feel so God I don't even know. How am I so drawn to you?" Esther asks. She grabs my hand and kisses it.

"I know what you mean. It doesn't make sense why two people with such different lives are connect in such a way, but we are. Esther I want to be here with you, and I'd love to get to know you, but I'm not going to force you into anything. Let's make a deal both of us are going to go home and think about rather we want this, and if you do meet back here at noon in 3 days' time." I tell her.

She doesn't say anything, and it worries me. I really wish I knew what she's thinking. I lean down and kiss her check before I finish dressing and walk towards the woods.

I only make it a few before I feel her grab my hand and turn me around. Before I can say anything she crashes her lips to me in a locking kiss.

For a few minutes we do nothing but hold each other to afraid to let go. Eventually we need to breath and we pull away. She gives me a look, one that has so much meaning behind it.

Then she's gone

"Ansel where'd you go we've been looking for hours. You had us worried man," Dagner exclaims when I step into camp. I wave him off mumbling an excuse about need time alone and how I went for a walk.

Make sure to ignore my father's gaze. I'm sure he knows what I was really doing. I don't want to deal with his judgement right now, so I make sure to avoid him.

I make my way to my tent crashing down on my blankets. A nap really does sound good right now.

"Ansel." My father calls to me stepping into the tent. I sigh is annoyance. I mean I just want a few minute alone right now; my heart feels so heavy.

"I know what you're going to say, and I really don't want to hear it. I'm a grown man I don't need you to approve of my actions. I'm really tired so can we not do this please?" I ask and it's silent for a few seconds until I hear him sigh, and finally he leaves me alone.

'Why the hell is time working against me.' I think for the 10th time today.

Over the last 3 days I've done nothing but think of Esther, and what decision she'll make. I tell myself I need to make my choice but in my heart I already know what I'm going to do.

My mind keeps me on-edge imaging all the different scenarios about our meeting at the clearing.

Ranging from me showing up and her not, and I'm let feeling alone and heartbroken. This one keeps me up at night, and has my heart clenching in pain.

Or I show up and she's there but it's only to tell me she's changed her mind, or was just joking about loving me. I can barely breath when I have this one. Honestly I'd rather she's just didn't show up if this was the only option.

Next is when I show up and she tell me she loves me, and is leaving her husband to come live here with me. I do even bother to try and stop the tears when this one happens. It's exactly what I'd love to hear, and yet it's the one without even the smallest chance of coming true.

She loves me. I mean she said so herself, and you can't make love to someone the way she did if you didn't love them, but I know she'd never leave her children. Honestly I get the feeling she'd never leave her husband either.

She still loves him, and I know she loves me too. Except with him she's had years and gone through the birth of 3 children, and the loss of one. While it's currently tearing them apart it's also what created a bond between them that I'll never match, at least not in the same way.

So, what am I even doing. I mean I'm actually considering getting into a relationship with a married women with kids knowing nothing will ever come from it.

What will I get from this relationship. A few week, maybe month if we both push it, only for us to one day just end it. I love her and while I know it'll hurt when she leave, and I know eventually she will, I know I can't even fathom how much it's really going to hurt. I'm not prepared for the real pain.

Yet I still hope more than anything she's going to be there.

I look up a sun to see the time, and realize I have less than an hour until I get my answer. After 3 days of waiting, I can finally know if I get to have her.

The only thing keeping me distracted is my father. I swear it's like he's know I'm waiting on her and has gone out of his way to me in my face distracting me. We've gone on walk, practiced sword fighting, and at some point he'll sit with me at the top of the hill waiting for me to speak.

For the last 2 days I've said nothing, but as we sit here now I find myself speaking.

"Did you regret loving us? I mean you must've known the pain having twins would bring, and then when you knew he's die. I just is it stupid to love someone, and have them in your life even though you know your heart will be broken." I blurt out question after question at him.

I didn't even mean to say that, or ask so many question, but I need to know. I think he's the only person who might understand what position I'm in.

"No, I don't regret it. You were my babies it was worth it completely. Every moment of pain was worth it because I get so many moment of love. Knowing I'd lose him eventually made me want to love him even more, and treasure the time we spent together even more." Father says.

I find myself unable to speak because that's it. This is exactly what I've been thinking about Esther. I know it's going to hurt eventually when it ends, but I need to at least have her in my life for a time.

I need to spend some time being able to love her before I have to let her go.

I hear my father sigh. "So, I guess this mean you're going to see your little witch. I suppose I understand. Just try not to make a mess of this in case we ever need to go into town again, I don't want it to be awkward." He leans over a kisses my forehead before heading back to camp.

When I look up at the sky again I realize I might actually be late since I can see it's past noon.

My body acts on it's on and before I know it I'm running towards the clearing desperate to see her. The need to have her in my arms is maddening.

Except when I burst through the trees the clearing is empty. She's not here.

Pain. God so much pain. That's all I feel sitting here on the wet grass. It's been hours since I got to the clearing and found Esther not waiting for me.

I know I should get up and head bac to camp, but I cant bring myself to leave just yet. I don't know why I mean we said we'd mean at noon and the suns starting to go down now.

I knew this could happen. This as the point for both of us to take some time and think about rather this is what we really want, but I guess I didn't really think she wouldn't at least show, even if it was to reject me I thought she'd show.

I'm getting up and about to head back to camp when I hear a twig snap under someone foot, and I get foolish hope swell up inside me. No one else knows about this clearing, and there's never a reason for anyone to be walking in this direction.

Except when I turn towards the entrance to the woods it's not Esther who walks out its her friend. Her friend who look surprisingly upset at me, but that look melts away when she sees the beauty of the clearing. It always manages to put people at ease one of the reason I always come here when I need to relax.

"Where is Esther." I ask to her. She whips her head around to be, almost like she forgot I was there. In an instant I see the look of anger on her face return.

"She's not coming." She says and I cant even hide the look of pain on my face. She sees it I know she does, and for a moment she looks smug. Then that look falls followed my one of pity.

"God stop looking like some lost puppy. She's not coming because her baby Elijah is sick. Considering the last time, a child of hers got sick she died, you can imagine she's on edge right now. She knew you'd be wondering where she is, so she sent me with a letter." After she's done talking she reaches into her dress and pulls out a scroll of paper.

When I reach for it she snatches it away. She looks conflicted like she had something to say but doesn't know if she should. Finally, she sighs and say, "Don't you think you should be the strong one here. Esther, well I think she really loves you even though she knows she shouldn't. I can see she's not strong enough to stay away from you, so you need to be strong and stay away from her."

I bark out laughing at that. "Oh, you must not have been in love like this before if you think I have any strength either. You would understand what it's like to love someone so much, to fell like they're apart of you. To not be able to stay away. I know how this is going to end, but anytime spent with Esther will be worth it to me."

She just stares at me, and this time when I reach for the paper she lets me.

"You have no idea what your union with Esther will create. A new being never seen before." Why do witches say such cryptic things. After that weird sentence she turns and walks away.

I don't wait even a second before I tear the letter open and begin to read.

My dearest Ansel,

I'm sure you worried when you got to the clearing and I wasn't there, and you probably feared the worst. That I realized I didn't love you, and I didn't want this, but that's far from the truth,

My baby boy Elijah is sick, and I've been taking care of him. Mikael has been going crazy with worry. After the last time our child became sick well, I guess he's just scared history will repeat itself. It won't I already have the potion ready to heal Elijah.

That's not the point though. Over the last 3 day I spent so much time thinking over everything and I've come to a conclusion.

I love you. I don't know why you came into my life, but you're here and I want noting more for you to stay as long as possible. I'm not sure how long that'll be but I'm going to treasure every moment.

The thing is you're my choice. There's nothing making me feel like I have to choose you for a better life like with Mikael. I'm not saying I don't live him because I do, it's just I wanted a husband who could give me a good life and support me, and he gave me that and eventually I fell hard for him. I don't know what will become of me and Mikael.

With you though there's no reason I have to pick you, and that's exactly why I do. It's my choice I'm doing this for no reason other than it makes me happy, you make me happy.

So don't worry Elijah should be healed by tonight, and I can sneak away tomorrow afternoon to come see you.

Until then my love.

'She loves me.' I think repeating this thought again and again. I don't think I've ever been so happy.

All fears I have about this disappear in an instant. Yes this is still crazy, and I know it'll end eventually, but I also know I won't regret it. I know that I will always treasure the moments and memories I have with Esther.

I cant wait to see her, to get to know everything about her, and to get started on making memories with her.

The next day when I'm waiting for her to appear my heart is beating rapidly in excitement and fear, and then I hear it.

"Ansel. Are you there?" My love calls out. Then she's there standing before me for the first time in days, and I can't control myself.

She's in my arms in a second, and my lips are on her in less than that.

I feel complete.

So, Esther and Ansel have begun their affair, and are already madly in love. What do you think so far.

I've thought about how I want this story to go, and I think we only need another 2 chapter until this is complete.