"I've never made any before, I don't see why I should this year." Karai moaned as she sunk into the couch next to April, glass of red wine in her hands.

"Come on, don't you have any goals for this year?" April asked and Karai pretended to think for a moment before answering.

"Get a new roommate?"

"Rude." April glared at the dark haired woman who cackled in response.

"Seriously though April, people have the same resolutions every year and it's always the same thing, stop drinking, stop smoking, lose some weight, join the gym, get a boyfriend, ecterra..." Karai trailed on, noticing that April shifted slightly when she mentioned getting a boyfriend. "You're not already thinking about getting another guy are you?"

"What's wrong with that?" Karai rolled her eyes and took a swig of her wine before answering.

"Look, Harry was great, sweet but...and the guys would kill me for mentioning it to you...but you spent a lot of time away from them and the lair and the whole kunoichi lifestyle...they missed you but they were happy for you to have a bit of normalcy in your life and happiness after you lost your job...they were coming to terms with maybe they wouldn't see you again one day."

"I…" April didn't know what to say, Karai's words and the unusual sullen look on her face hurt her. "I didn't realise I was spending so much time away…"

"And of course one turtle took it worse than the rest."

"Donnie…"

"Poor guy was heartbroken that you had replaced him," she teased.

"Replaced him?"

"Oh come on, Harry was like the human version of Donatello...just extra boring."

"What do you mean by that?"

"Exactly what I said...you dated the human version of the turtle that you apparently have no feelings for, who has been crushing on you since he was a teenager."

"And what about the turtle who has a crush on you?" April couldn't help but throw in Karai's face, feeling both flustered and angry.

"Oh you mean Leonardo? My boyfriend ?"

"What! When?"

"Just over a year." Karai shrugged.

"How did I not know about this?"

"When we first got together we didn't want to tell anyone and when I was going to tell you, you and Harry got together and then you were always with him here and I couldn't exactly bring a giant turtle to the apartment with him around so I spent a lot of my time in the lair until you two broke up...hey, maybe your new year's resolution or whatever could be to fix things with Donnie."

"He seemed fine when we spoke the other day...when I apologised for everything I did and said to him at New Years." April explained, her face heating up slightly.

"Well he's not going to tell you how he really feels if he knows it's going to hurt you."

"Donnie's my best friend, he tells me everything."

"He used to tell you everything." Karai said and April opened her mouth to reply but instead she just sighed.

"Have I pulled away from everyone?"

"Yes...Leo was actually going to speak to you about it a few months after you and Harry started dating."

"Why didn't he?"

"Because I told him not to...it wasn't going to be a nice conversation, he was angry, mostly just because of how hurt Donnie was," April frowned deeply as Karai spoke, "he didn't mind that you had pulled away from them, but he thought that you would come and explain to them that you would be spending less time in the lair and with them...but you never told them, they just started seeing you less and less as time went on."

"Maybe it would have been for the best if you let Leo yell at me."

"Honestly...I didn't see much point, I didn't think you and Harry were going to last much longer after that."

"Really? Why?"

"Um...I dunno, he was boring and after all we've been through in our lives I thought you would want someone who would be a lot more exciting but apparently not." Karai shrugged.

"I liked him, Karai, he was…"

"Normal?"

"Different." April shot back.

"Hm okay," Karai said before an evil grin spread across her face, "so, if you want, I can give you some insider information on what the turtles have under their shells, although I do only have first hand experience with one of them."

"Well, I think I'm ready to turn in for the night…" April said as she stood up.

"Oh come on, you're the one who wanted to know!"

April ignored her and kept walking to her bedroom. She did not want to hear details about Leonardo's penis, she also knew that if she knew what his looked like, her thoughts would only turn to...

She shook her head as she thought of what else she and Karai had talked about. She pulled out her phone and checked through it, looking for every call and text that she had sent the guys during the past year. She hadn't text or called Raph since August, she hadn't text or called Leo since around the same time, Mikey was in September but she and Donnie text each other at least every other day but their calls were much less frequent.

She tried to remember when the last time she'd been down to the lair was, aside from New Years and she honestly couldn't remember, maybe the guys birthdays?

She would head down to the sewers tomorrow and talk to Donnie again, getting some first hand information from one of the turtles that she had been pulling away from and started thinking of a plan.

April officially decided that she was going to spend however long it took to build back up her relationships with the turtles, especially Donnie.