It had been 3 hours since 'Loki' had been taken to surgery and Natasha has never felt more scared and anxious in her life it was her fault that the kid's life was hanging in the balance, she should've been more careful, more observant, more alert but she wasn't and now she was paying for her stupidity.
Natasha was in the common room with Darcy, Jane, Thor, and Steve none of them said anything to each other they were all too wrapped up in their own thoughts, Thor wanted to know if the kid in the tower was his brother and what he was up to? Jane was worried about Thor and she also wanted to slap Loki, child or not. He had done some fucked up shit and no one was punishing him, Darcy was just worried about her family. They didn't have the best track record with dealing with trauma but who did? Steve was thinking about Loki's benefits by sending a child to them or even if he was the child what was his endgame to all of this. Everyone in the Common room was present in everything but in mind.
"Ms. Romanoff I would like to inform you that the child has made it out of surgery." Jarvis's voice filled the room. There was a comfortable silence in the room even if the occupants weren't so comfortable.
At Jarvis's words, Natasha and the rest snapped out of their dazed and all ran towards the elevator Jarvis taking them to the medbay no one addressed each other no one said anything. When the doors to the elevator opened Natasha is the first to get off almost running into Bruce.
"Bruce, how is he?" Natasha asked Bruce
"We lost him twice due to all the blood loss but he's fine now should be waking up soon. His room is in room 125." Natasha was the first to start searching for the room with Darcy, Jane, Steve, and Thor all trailing behind her. When they finally found the room "Loki's' small body was drowning in the big hospital dress, he had a little bit more color than he did 3 hours ago, he looked like a fragile doll being hooked up to all those machines and in the middle of the big white sterile bed.
"Brother." Natasha hadn't registered when Thor had come into the room
"This is Loki," Steve asked Natasha couldn't bring herself to ask, she didn't know what to think did Loki stab himself. But the worst part is that she had helped the enemy, the person who caused her best friend pain, killed a lot of peo[le she had just saved him, she had brought him home into her home and she had worried about him and that made her blood boil.
"Yes, this is Loki," Thor said taking Loki's small hand in his and rubbed circles on his hands, Natasha left the room she had brought the enemy into the tower, and Loki could hurt anyone of them and it would be her fault if Loki got a hold of Clint or anyone else that would be on her because she had brought him here and anyone's death would be on her.
Darcy didn't know what to think of the child in the bed being Loki the guy who tried to take over New York, the guy who has tried to kill her and many of her friends was laying on the bed unconscious and he looked like a child but she had to remember that even in his state Loki could be fooling them all and she notice how Steve took fighting stands ready for Loki to attack but he didn't the kid still slept peacefully.
No one knows how long they stayed like that but it must have been long since Darcy's legs gave out and she decided to sit, and Steve's stans were weak, Jane looked tired and Thor was waiting for his brother to wake up. It was a little longer before Loki's eyes fluttered open taking in his surroundings and the sound of the beeping machines before it registered to him that he was in a hospital and London always told him to avoid the police and hospitals and he also went with a stranger but Ms. Natasha seemed nice.
"Loki, brother, you're awake." A loud booming voice said and when Loki turned to the side it was a blond-haired man with blue eyes looking at him with a grin.
"I'm sorry I don't know who you are. Where's Ms. Natasha?" Loki asks as he sees that Ms. Natasha isn't in the room but a lady with dark black hair and she wore glass. There was also another woman with light brown hair, there was also another man with short blonde hair and blue eyes but no Ms. Natasha.
"Brother what do you want with Lady Natasha." The man with long blonde hair asked and Loki didn't know why he kept calling him brother. They weren't brothers," I'm not your brother, I don't know who you are sir." Loki said as politely as he could.
"Loki stops lying, we already know who you are and you're going back to where you deserve to be." The man with short blonde hair said and Loki's eyes went wide and started filling with tears Ms. Natasha said she wouldn't send him back to Ms. Amora she promised, stupid, stupid, stupid he knew he should never trust adults but Ms. Natasha seemed nice and not like other people.
"P-p-p-please d-d-don't send me back to Ms. Amora p-p-please I-I-I-I c-c-can't g-g-go b-b-back s-s-she'll k-k-kill m-m-me, I-I-I-I'll d-d-do a-a-anything, c-c-cook c-c-clean b-b-but p-p-please d-d-don't s-s-send m-m-me b-b-back." Loki was begging, he was literally begging on his knees asking to not be sent back to Amora and that shocked Steve, Thor, and Jane, and Darcy they didn't think he would react this way this didn't seem like something someone could fake even Loki wasn't good enough.
The next thing they know Loki is tightly in a ball rocking back in forth treats streaming down his face as he repeats the same sentence over and over again 'she's going to kill me' well taking deep uneven breaths as he had a panic attack, his eyes glassed over Loki was no longer in the present.
"Loki, Loki, Loki! Brother, it's me Thor no one's going to kill you." Thor said as he placed a hand on Loki's shoulder but Loki flinched away violently as if Thor's touch burned him.
"I-I-I-I'm s-s-s-sorry, l-l-l'll d-d-do b-b-better n-n-n-next t-t-time. D-d-d-don't h-h-hit m-m-me. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Loki repeated over and over again as he scrambled away from Thor and pressed himself close to the wall his heart rate had gone up alerting nurses to his room, he was even shaking as if he was in the cold.
"I'm going to have to ask you to leave the child's room." A nurse said as she escorted them out of the room even if Thor protested they got kicked out.
"I don't think that's Loki," Darcy said there was no way Loki could fake that kind of breakdown even if he was that bat shit crazy, that meltdown was really no doubt that kid in that room was terrified for his life about this Amora person.
"He could just be acting for all we know," Steve said
"Steve, that was a real panic attack no one could fake that," Jane said just then the elevator door opened and Natasha stepped out with Clint, and Tony.
"So, that kid in that room is Reindeer Games," Tony said as he stepped close Natasha had filled them in on everything.
"Yes?" Darcy said
"What do you mean yes is it that bastard or not?" Clint growled, he wanted to punch that sick bastard in his face until he asked for mercy which Clint wouldn't give him, he didn't deserve to live, he didn't deserve mercy.
"He's currently having a panic attack and saying not to send him back to Ms. Amora," Jane said
"Oh, come on he's totally faking it, he the God of Lies for fuck sake," Tony said
"No, this was real, his heart rate raised, he was struggling to breathe, even Loki couldn't fake this," Jane said and then the nurse who took them out of the room came rushing towards them well really towards Natasha.
"We need you to go calm your son. He's having a severe panic attack and has thrown up. We don't want to give him a sedative in case he's allergic." The nurse says and Natasha follows her to the room with the rest of the Avengers, Jane, and Darcy right behind her.
When Natasha entered the room she saw Loki on the bed his medical gown was drenched in sweat, his vision unfocused, he was shaking violently, he kept muttering words too soft for Natasha to hear, Natasha slowly made her way to Loki's bedside giving him enough time to see if he would jump out and attack her but he didn't he was still tightly wrapped in a ball unresponsive, the nurse moved away to let Natasha talk.
"Loki, Loki, can you hear me, it's Ms. Natasha if you can hear me blink okay." Natasha said and she saw Loki blink so that was good," Loki, I need you to copy my breathing okay, in and out slowly." Natasha said breathing in and out that way Loki could copy, his breaths at first came in hiccups, then sniffles before he was breathing evenly.
"Are you okay now?" Natasha asked
"I don't want to go back, you promised I wouldn't go back." Loki said looking at Natasha's eyes filled with tears," Send you back where?" Natasha asked, thinking Loki meant Asgard which he would go regardless," Back to Ms. Amora's." Loki said as he used the back of his hand to wipe his tears away," And who said you were going back to Ms. Amora's." Natasha asked and she saw Loki point to Steve who was now more interested in his shoes.
"Well, Steve was wrong no one is sending you back to Ms. Amora's. Loki do you know anyone in this room?" Natasha had to ask of course in front of her was a sweet, innocent, clueless, traumatized kid but this could all be part of Loki's plan to strike them when they won't see it coming. Instead of a malic, crazy look appearing on Loki's face, he looked confused and studied everyone in the room," I'm I suppose to Ms. Natasha?" Loki said now, turning to Natasha still confused and curious about who the people were to him.
"Yes, you should remember who we are after everything you did to us. You wanna pretend that you don't remember us? Or are you just playing games?" Clint sneered at Loki causing him to tense," I-I-I'm s-sorry s-s-s-s-s-sir b-b-but I d-d-d-don't k-k-k-k-know w-w-who y-y-y-you a-a-are." Loki stuttered he didn't know anyone in the room except Ms. Natasha he wasn't lying, he truly didn't know anyone.
"Oh, good everyone's here. I see you're up Loki." Bruce said as he entered the room and saw all his teammates in Loki's bedroom.
"Can I talk to all of you outside?" Bruce said to the Avengers who all nodded before leaving the room but not before Natasha was stopped by Loki's small hand," I'll be right back I promise." Natasha gave Loki's hand a squeeze before joining the others outside.
"How did you know that was Loki?" Natasha asked Bruce, she knew she hadn't told Bruce Loki's name at all," He woke up when we were transporting him to the OR and told me his name. I was confused and asked him if he knew me and he shook my head so I had him get a MIR and a CT when he left the operating table and also had his blood tested to confirm he was actually Loki and it came back positive. He has amnesia." Bruce said
"So that little kid in there is Loki and he doesn't remember shit of what happened who we are or who Thor is?" Tony asked he wanted to make sure he was hearing what Bruce was saying and that he didn't imagine what he was hearing.
"Yeah, basically."
"So this is Loki but not Loki at the same time?" Darcy asked
"We've already gone over that Darcy that he is in fact Loki just not the Loki we now," Jane said
"So what do we do with him?" Steve asked
"I have to got tell my father that I've found Loki," Thor said
"What about the Amora chick?" Darcy asked the kid seemed pretty traumatized at the thought of going back to live with the woman.
"I don't know Lady Dary but my brother can't go back in her hands." Thor answers and he can't take Loki back to Asgard because if he did he knew his justice would not be jest who knew his brother had to serve for what he did but he would do it accordingly and when he remembers his past misdeeds.
Sorry for the delay in the chapter it is long but I was having creators block for a whlie so I din't know what to write.