Is it cool that I said all that?
Is it chill that you're in my head?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
Is it cool that I said all that Is it too soon to do this yet?
'Cause I know that it's delicate
It seemed like time stood still at the moment, Jackson hadn't taken his eyes off the trees outside and Stiles hadn't taken his eyes off of Jackson. Stiles felt that this couldn't be a good sign. Jackson was taking too long to answer, which meant when he did, it might not be the good news that Stiles wanted to hear. Stiles opened his mouth to say something, but Jackson spoke.
"What do you want to be?" asked Jackson, turning from the window to look at Stiles.
"I like you, Jackson. We have been doing this for two years. I haven't been with anyone else, I know you didn't ask me to not be with anyone else but it was like I couldn't. I wouldn't mind it being us, just us." Said Stiles, Jackson sighed as he rubbed his hands over his face. He knew this conversation would happen. There wasn't any way you could do something with someone for two years and things not develop or change, but Jackson had hoped that they wouldn't.
"I like you too, Stiles. I do but there is Lydia and the people at school. I know everyone loves Danny, but what if they don't like it so much if it's me or what if they don't like it when it's you? Those thoughts play out in my head so many times. What if my parents don't like it or what if you dad doesn't? There are so many things to think about. Lydia as well." Said, Jackson, as he pulled his hands away from his face to look at Stiles. Stiles' head was down looking at the carpet, Jackson moved to him, sitting on the floor in front of him and lifting his head to look at him.
"What?" asked Stiles softly.
"Stiles, can I have time? Can we keep things how they are? Just for a little longer. I like you, Stiles." Said Jackson running his thumb over Stiles' lip slowly, Stiles looked at him and kissed the thumb gently before nodding.
"Fine, but I will not forget, Jackson. These are things that we need to figure out." Said Stiles, Jackson nodded. Jackson didn't want to have this conversation again, but he was sure that Stiles would bring it up again. From the two years they have been doing things together, Stiles had been known to focus on something and not let it go until something resolved it. It was endearing to Jackson when it wasn't things that involved him, when they did, it was scary. Stiles moved down on the floor in front of Jackson, leaning into him and kissing him on the lips as Jackson wrapped his arms around him, pulling him tight to him. This was a welcomed distraction now, he didn't want to think or talk about how serious this could be. Those thoughts scared Jackson more than he would like to admit. He asked Danny many times how he got so brave to come out and Danny had just told him that he felt it was time. Jackson wasn't sure it would ever be time for him to tell people he is bisexual. Least he didn't think there would be a time, but then Stiles entered his life as something more than an annoyance. He felt something in that kiss on the bus, something that he tried to force into a feeling with Lydia every time since, while there was something there, he couldn't recreate it. He thought maybe it was a fluke, but then moments like right now, with Stiles pressed against him. He knew there was something missing from his relationship with Lydia and with Stiles, it was like a complete feeling. The fear of the unknown people kept holding him back, he knew Stiles was ready but Jackson wasn't. He pulled away from the kiss for a moment, smiling.
"Want me to stay tonight? Think of it as a treat for keeping us a secret for a bit longer." Said Jackson softly, running his thumbs across Stiles' cheeks. Stiles let out a soft sigh and nodded. Jackson didn't offer to stay over much, he said that he didn't want to risk it but Stiles had noticed lately that he had been staying over a lot lately.
"Yes, please." Said Stiles as he leaned into Jackson, kissing him on the lips gentle. Jackson wrapped his arms around Stiles and held him close to his body, he pulled off his own shirt, so Stiles wasn't the only one shirtless. The skin to skin contact was a welcomed edition to the moment for both, Stiles dragged his nails down Jackson's back, causing the other male to growl playfully, his eyes flashing blue for a moment.
"Being naughty, Stilinksi." Said Jackson with a smirk, causing Stiles to shrug.
"That a problem?" asked Stiles with a smirk, licking his lips.
"Not at all, but tonight was just about getting you off and tomorrow night, how about we go to that diner you like in the next town? Like a date?"
"Really?" asked Stiles curious shock written on his face, Jackson never offered to take him out like this. Usually they went with the other guys, it had been their cover for a year now. The guys in the pack just going out to eat and see a movie, no one questioned when Stiles was sitting between Scott and Jackson in a booth. It was normal then, it was the perfect cover for moments to feel like dates when they weren't.
"Yea, no chance of anyone seeing us there. Plus think of it as another treat for keeping us a secret." Said Jackson with a smile, he willed himself to keep adding that part in there. Like by saying he was giving Stiles "treats", it wouldn't let the other know just how much he wanted this.
"I would like that." Said, Stiles, as he kissed Jackson on the lips, Jackson smiled into the kiss as he stood up, pulling Stiles with him using his beta strength. They continued kissing as Jackson placed Stiles down onto the bed. Jackson moved to take his pants off so he was just in his boxers as he crawled into the bed beside Stiles. He didn't say another word as he pulled the covers over them both, pulling Stiles into him as the little spoon. Stiles knew Jackson wanted to sleep, the fact that Jackson didn't want Stiles to return the blow job favor made him feel good about what they had going. He felt that maybe Jackson would end up picking him when it was time. Maybe Stiles could get what he wanted and wouldn't be the one getting hurt, least he hoped.