Hey guys, CJ here-though that's a ridiculous thing to say considering you can clearly see that-and I just wanted to update you all on the status of RWBY0, since many of you who don't follow me on Twitter more than likely don't know what's been going on. As you all can clearly see, I have absolutely missed the stated release date for this fanfic, and for that I greatly apologize. At first, I wanted to give it an additional week so fans who didn't have Rooster Teeth First memberships could both see the finale and fully digest it. But then, after that some other issues began to rear their ugly heads.
The most minor problem with all of this was that I had a last-minute epiphany where I wanted to alter and improve on certain aspects of my story, such as bringing back the huntsman academies but altering them to better fit in with the guild system, the number of episodes/chapters per season, the number of planned seasons for RWBY0, etc. It was through the discussions with my friends on our various ideas for our individual RWBY rewrites, and it was only after bouncing these ideas that I came to realize that parts I originally thought were nearing their final stages were actually still in infancy. So, I will admit to that flaw on my part, my poor insight and grasp of my ideas was the first strike. (Before I continue onto the next part, I should warn you guys that it involves talks of suicide/attempted suicide, so if you feel uncomfortable reading that, you can skip the next paragraph and continue to the one after that).
The second and most significant problem was that on Twitter, I got involved in some pretty nasty drama with a former friend of mine. I won't get on here and give you the whole rundown of what happened as I don't want to perpetuate any drama any further and am simply telling you all so you can grasp the situation, but to put it short…it wasn't pretty in the slightest and the effect it had on me was big. I was harassed, slandered and just all around insulted over something that wasn't even the full story, and that put me in a place I hadn't been in since middle school…a very dark place. I'm not going to sugarcoat it you guys, I became suicidal during that whole thing and was going to try and end my own life as a way to try and get away from it all. My mental health was just that bad. Luckily though, I had some good friends with me throughout that entire ordeal and their encouragement and care helped me push those horrible thoughts away and it's because of them that I was able to make it through all of that. But it was needless to say that my mind wasn't in any condition to really focus on writing a RWBY fanfic and so I had to take some time off to try and get myself back in the right headspace. I'm sorry that though.
And the third and most relatable issue with all of this was that I just couldn't find the time to actually sit down and write the damn thing. It was like every single time I had planned to try and work on this project, something came up in my life where I just couldn't put my full focus into this thing, or I couldn't find the time to type it up. I hate this so much because it really is a terrible excuse for me to not meet my own preestablished deadlines for this thing and in turn I'm just further disappointing those who were actually looking forward to this story and what I had to offer as a writer or even those who just wanted something of mine on the menu to critique and/or "rip to shreds". And for that, I deeply apologize to all of you for not being more organized with this in the past.
Combine all of that with the fact that I somehow have a very perfectionist mentality when it comes to my works where I want them all to just come together like a neatly assembled puzzle, yet at the same time, my imagination and mind goes absolutely crazy and I end up being gravitated towards my other-and original-projects like my book and my trading card game. Needless to say, I'm just a complete and utter mess, but I am trying my hardest to better these detrimental behaviors and better myself as a writer and deliver a product worthy of the faith and love you all have been showing up to this point. I truly don't want to end up making the same mistakes that RWBY proper, where I pants this story and come up with what happens next on the spot, we've all seen how royally that screwed up RWBY and I will NOT let my own rewrite fall victim to the same failings. I want to have a map set up for where RWBY0 is going so everything flows properly and smoothly, I want it to be a single cohesive story and the best version of itself that it can be when I give it to you guys.
So yeah, as you can clearly see, things just have not been going right for me, both in terms of the conditions for writing this fanfic and in terms of my personal health in general. But the real issue here is that on top of all of that is the simple and sad realization that I'm just losing steam when it comes to RWBY0. I don't know what it is, but I just don't feel that same passion that I initially had for it when I was first constructing it and was putting out the background information, so that helped things even less. However, after all the talking and hyping I've been doing for this thing and for those who have been genuinely curios and/or intrigued by just what the hell RWBY0 has to offer, I owe it to you guys and myself-to teach myself resolve as a writer-to get out at the very least, ONE 25 episode season of RWBY0. Afterwards, I'll have to see for myself if the passion is still gone or if it's been reignited. If the fire has ben lit once again, I shall continue with RWBY0 for another season. But if not, then I will simply leave it be on my end and will simply let it end there or maybe even put my mind-baby up for adoption, who knows? But to bring this long-winded post to an end, I've decided to move the final date much further than I normally do, in order to give myself a much wider window of opportunity to not only work on RWBY0, but to also get everything on my end together. Said due date is June 19th; a very special day for me, my birthday, and it will be posted both on Fanfiction and on AO3. There will be no post on here telling people when the chapter is up, as it would literally just be a quick little thing going, "the chapter is up". It'll be up on both sites somewhere between 2-2:30 Eastern Time/Eastern Daylight Time and the document/story will be called, "RWBY0 Season 1".
If after all of this I STILL don't have anything ready, then I'm just going to cancel all RWBY0 related projects on my end and put the whole thing up for adoption for anyone who can give this story the love, dedication and focus it deserves. Once again, thank you all who have stood by me up to this point and those who're still continuing to put up with all my nonsense. I promise you all I will work hard to try and provide you with the best version of RWBY0 that I can offer you as a writer and hopefully what I create can live up to your expectations and mine. I hope you all have a great day or an even better tomorrow, and hopefully, I will see you all on my birthday of June 19th, take care and please bear with me this final time as I work to give you all absolute the best product I can offer you.