"Do you love me?"

Elliot's face goes white, the waiting plan is not a option anymore and this may make or break everything.

"If I answer wrong, will I lose you again?"

"Let's be clear Elliot, I lost you, you left me."

It felt as if she punched him again. She was two for two and he was going in for round three. Unsure if he will

Be victorious in the end.

"I do love you."

The wind knocked out of her , she asked and wasn't expecting him to give the answer she always wanted to hear. She stands up, moving through the motions, picking up her coat. Olivia's hands are shaking and she needs to leave the cafe and leave it fast. She bolts to the door.

Elliot quickly follows her, trying to not cause a scene as the exit the shop. She looks around as if she is lost and goes down the alley next to the building. Leaning back against the cold brick, her hands go to her chest. Feeling her heart pounding and her erratic breathing. Somehow he has made his way in front of her but she doesn't notice until he says her name.

"Liv…"

It rattles her. Her eyes pop open and she grabs his shirt ,pulling him into a kiss. She is desperate, kissing him deep and hard. Elliot moves closer, his body pressing hers onto the brick. Her body slowly gives out but he doesn't give up. His hands holding her face , holding her up though she is the one to pull back first.

"El." Olivia slowly catches her breath. She can't hold back anymore. Nothing truly is holding her back anymore but her own thoughts that won't stop. He presses her forehead to hers as she runs her hands down his arms. "How far do you live from here?"

He steps back and grabs her hand, moving forward. No words are exchanged as he makes his way to his car and he opens the door for her. The short drive is in silence but she can't take her eyes off of him. It's happening , whether she is ready or not.

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The motions move fluidly , clothes off, kisses of appreciation of her bare skin. Pressing her against the wall of his midtown apartment, he slides the strap of her bra off her shoulder. The cold air hitting her breast, her nipples hard from the sensation.

Elliot takes his time with her, leaning his head down and taking a nipple into his mouth, moaning and closing his eyes. Olivia throws her head back onto the wall, the sensation almost too much to take. It wasn't long till his hand slid down her pants and into her panties. Feeling his way through her slick folds, both moaning in sync.

"Elliot please." With that he finishes undressing her quickly, picking her up by her ass, walking to the room with her legs wrapped around his waist, sucking on his neck.

By the time he lays her on the bed, his erection is almost painful. Years of desire and waiting , she is there, in all her glory, looking up at him with dark eyes.

She props up on her knees towards the edge of the bed , continuing to kiss his neck as she unbuckles his pants. She pushes his pants and briefs past his ass and without looking down she grabs his length. Her eyes grow wide as she strokes him, his head dropping to her shoulder, moaning.

"Show me how much you love me Elliot." Olivia is well aware she hasn't said it back. She isn't ready. She is still dealing with the pain. The pain she desperately wants to forget as she yanks him down on top of her. Needing to feel him, needing to numb the pain she still feels deep down that he left her ten years prior.

He pushes her legs apart with his legs and takes his time sliding into her. Her nails digging into his forearms taking it all in. She whimpers his name softly, unable to keep her walls up, shaking at the feeling. Her legs wrap around him, pushing him deeper into her.

Elliot moans into her ear, rocking his hips,. Feeling how it feels to finally be making love to her. Slowly he builds speed, grabbing her legs.

"Fuck." He whispers , starting to lose control, going faster , his hips slamming into hers. She tightens around him, breathing erratic. Elliot reaches down and finds his way to her clit and rubs it fast with his thumb.

That was enough to send her over the edge. She cries out, shaking and not letting go. It wasn't long after till he followed and moans her name into her ear. Their sweaty bodies clinging to each other, catching their breath.

She looks at him for a long time, not saying anything until she sits up, wrapping the blanket around herself.

"Liv?" He props himself up with his arm and looks at her confused.

"I need to go." Without him being able to process everything she was gone and out the door