AN: hey guys! i'm so sorry if you've been waiting for an update but i've been so sick and busy with school work and this is the first time in a while that i've felt up for writing. ib is crazy hard. if you guys have any ideas or any suggestions as to how you want the story to go, just message me or add it to the reviews and i'll surely take it into consideration! you guys are literally the best for sticking around. sorry for the short ass chapter, better ones coming up soon! hope y'all are keeping safe :) love you guys
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Previously: I can't even be bothered to hide my tears as I rush out of the room at the Lodge. It hurts, but he's better off without me. It hurts more than it did with Edward but this time it's different. It almost makes no sense, but now I can say Edward's name and it doesn't hurt. I try it out by whispering "Edward." And I'm fine. I don't miss Edward anymore. I can't.
BPOV:
I don't hurt at the thought of Edward. Odd as it is, seeing a man like Damon save me from the very mess that Edward dragged me into opened my eyes to a truth I wasn't prepared to see before. Maybe Edward didn't care and maybe it's about time I should. Charlie, I mean my dad, doesn't believe me though. He thinks that I should leave Forks, and this time I can't argue my way out of it but I can make a compromise. I'll go to Mystic Falls or whatever it's called if Charlie lets me take my Harley Street 750 that I paid Jake to refurbish. He wasn't happy about it and made me promise to learn how to both ride and fix up a bike with Jake just in case something happens.
And it's done, I'll be leaving Forks for Mystic Falls soon.
But one thing kept bothering me. How did Damon save me if he was a human? Was he a human? He couldn't be. What was he? Not a vampire. He wasn't marble-hard like the Cullens nor was he ice-cold.
DPOV:
It's been weird. I see her in my dreams and I wonder if she'd run if she knew that I was a vampire. I don't know if she knows but I can't help but let myself hope that she'd still look at me with that heart-warming look of trust and belief as she did before. I wondered what she knew about the Cold One and what he was. She didn't seem to be surprised. I don't think so at least.
I think about her more than I should and I just want to see her one more time. Should I go back for her? But before I could even consider my options Stefan burst through my door looking somewhat distraught, but with Stefan, you just never really know.
"Damon, what the fuck is up with you."
"Why Stefan, whatever do you mean. I'm doing perfectly fine and looking ruggedly handsome as always. Go to Elena. She might need something, maybe "
"No, no. Something's different. I can't say exactly what it is but you're less….you."
'What is that even supposed to mean Saint Stefan. Fuck this, I'm going to the Grill. You coming?"
"Huh? Wait you are asking me to come with?"
BPOV:
It was nice to get out of my funk and actually rejoin the land of the living. Working on my bike with jake really helped get my mind off of both Edward and Damon, but not completely. I couldn't help but wonder what Damon was. He defeated Laurent so easily and I always thought that vampires were basically indestructible.
"Hey Bells."
"Oh, hey Jake, you startled me."
"So Bells, wanna take your bike out for a ride for the first time yet, or are you still nervous."
"Jake, c'mon. How about tomorrow?"
"Now I know what you're trying to do here. You can't delay this any longer. Your Dad is on my ass about this. He wants to leave Forks for the Mystery Fall place as soon as possible"
"I'm not sure I wanna go, Jake. I just started feeling better. What if I go all dark and twisty again the moment I leave Forks. And I mean I just got to know Paul, Seth, Sam, and all the other guys. I can't leave just yet."
"Ah, Bells. You're a part of the pack now. Even if you leave, which mind you, I don't want you to, you'll still be one of us. Just without the whole wolfie thing."
I rush to wrap him in a hug. "I'll miss you Jakey"
"Shhhh you can't call me that in front of the guys remember. Now, you know almost everything there is to know about this bike you just need to ride it. Let's go, no discussion. C'mon"
He pulls me up from where I'm sitting on the floor near my bike.
"Ah, fine fine. No need to be so pushy, Jeez."
I climb on the bike with some apprehension, and while I know what to do, I hesitate.
"Okay, I can do this. If I can survive a bunch of hungry ass vampires, a bike is nothing. C'mon Bella." I whisper to myself. I look at Jake and he nods in encouragement. I rev the engine and take off with Jake right behind me on his Honda. I stumble a little at first with the clutch but once I get it, it's glorious. The cool breeze is against my face and flirting with my hair and I'm in love. I forget everything, Edward, Damon, leaving Forks and I just enjoy the feeling of being free. For the first time since I came to Forks, I'm inexplicable happy just by myself.
I hear Jake hoot behind me and I can't help but let out a laugh. And it is in this moment that I make a promise to myself that I'll put myself first in Mystic Falls, I'll be happy. I can't be with anyone friends or more if I don't love myself, and I'm gonna work on that. Because I deserve that.