Chapter 2

The next three weeks pass by in a blur. I celebrate my eighteenth birthday, study for finals, hang out with Chahee and my other friend Irene, go to football games to watch Hanbin play, and get ready for graduation.

I try not to think about the club incident again. Because when I do, I feel like a coward. Why did I run? Lisa had barely touched me.

I can't fathom my strange reaction. I had been turned on, but ridiculously frightened at the same time.

And now my nights are restless. Instead of dreaming of Hanbin, I often wake up feeling hot and uncomfortable, throbbing between my legs. Dark sexual images invade my dreams, stuff I've never thought about before. A lot of it involves Lisa doing something to me, usually while I'm helplessly frozen in place.

Sometimes I think I'm going crazy.

Pushing that disturbing thought out of my mind, I focus on getting dressed.

My high school graduation is today, and I'm excited. Chahee, Irene, and I have big plans for after the ceremony. Hanbin is throwing a post-graduation party at his house. It will be the perfect opportunity to finally talk to him.

I'm wearing a black dress under my blue graduation gown. It's simple, but it fits me well, showing off my small curves. I'm also wearing my four-inch heels. A little much for the graduation ceremony, but I need the added height.

My parents drive me to the school. This summer I'm hoping to save enough money to buy my own car for college. I'm going to a local community college because it's cheaper that way, so I'll still be living at home.

I don't mind. My parents are nice, and we get along well. They give me a lot of freedom—probably because they think I'm a good kid, never getting in trouble. They're mostly right. Other than the fake IDs and the occasional clubbing excursions, I lead a pretty sedate life. No heavy drinking, no smoking, no drugs of any kind—although I did try pot once at a party.

We arrive and I find Chahee. Lining up for the ceremony, we wait patiently for our names to be called. It's a perfect day in early June—not too hot, not too cold.

Chahee's name is called first. Luckily for her, her last name starts with 'P.' My last name is Kim, so I have to stand for another thirty minutes. Fortunately, our graduating class is only a hundred people. One of the perks of living in a small town.

My name is called and I go to receive my diploma. Looking out onto the crowd, I smile and wave to my parents. I'm pleased that they look so proud.

I shake the principal's hand and turn to go back to my seat.

And in that moment, I see her again.

My blood freezes in my veins.

She's sitting in the back, watching me. I can feel her eyes on me, even from a distance.

Somehow I make my way down from the stage without falling. My legs are trembling, and my breathing is much faster than normal. I take a seat next to my parents and pray that they don't notice my state.

Why is Lisa here? What does she want from me? Taking a deep breath, I tell myself to calm down. Surely she's here because of someone else. Maybe she has a brother or a sister in my graduating class. Or some other relative.

But I know I'm lying to myself.

I remember that possessive touch, and I know she's not done with me.

She wants me.

A shudder runs down my spine at the thought.

I don't see her again after the ceremony, and I'm relieved. Chahee drives us to Hanbin's house. She and Irene are chattering the entire way, excited to be done with high school, to start the next phase of our lives.

I would normally join in the conversation, but I'm too disturbed by seeing Lisa, so I just sit there quietly. For some reason, I hadn't told Chahee about meeting her in the club. I only said that I had a headache and wanted to go home.

I don't know why I can't talk to Chahee about Lisa. I have no problem spilling my guts about Hanbin. Maybe it's because it's too difficult for me to describe how Lisa makes me feel. She wouldn't understand why she frightens me.

I don't really understand it myself.

At Hanbin's house, the party is in full swing when we arrive. I am still resolved to talk to Hanbin, but I'm too freaked out from seeing Lisa earlier. I decide that I need some liquid courage.

Leaving the girls, I walk over to the keg and pour myself a cup of punch. Sniffing it, I determine that it definitely has alcohol, and I drink the full cup.

Almost immediately, I start to feel buzzed. As I had discovered in the past few years, my alcohol tolerance is virtually nonexistent. One drink is just about my limit.

I see Hanbin walking to the kitchen, and I follow him there.

He's cleaning up, throwing away some extra cups and dirty paper plates.

"Do you want some help with that?" I ask.

He smiles, his brown eyes crinkling at the corners. "Oh, sure, thanks. That would be awesome." His sun-streaked hair is a little long and flops over his forehead, making him look particularly cute.

I melt a little inside. He's so handsome. Not in the disturbing Lisa way, but in a pleasantly comfortable sense. Hanbin is tall and muscular, but he's not all that big for a quarterback. Not big enough to play ball in college, or at least that's what Irene once told me.

I help him clean up, brushing some chip crumbs off the counter and wiping up the punch that had spilled on the floor. The entire time, my heart is beating faster from excitement.

"Jennie, right?" Hanbin says, looking at me.

He knows my name!

I give him a huge grin. "That's right."

"That's really awesome of you to help, Jennie," he says sincerely. "I like throwing parties, but the cleaning is always a bitch the next day. So now I try to clean a little during, before it gets really nasty."

My grin widens further, and I nod. "Of course."

That makes total sense to me. I love the fact that he seems so nice and thoughtful, so much more than just a jock.

We start chatting. He tells me about his plans for next year. Unlike me, he's going away to college. I tell him I'm planning to stay local for the next two years to save money. Afterwards, I want to transfer to a real university.

He nods approvingly and says that it's smart. He'd thought about doing something like that, but he was lucky enough to get a full-ride scholarship to the University of Michigan.

I smile and congratulate him. On the inside, I'm jumping up and down in joy.

We're clicking. We're really clicking! He likes me, I can tell. Oh, why hadn't I approached him before?

We talk for about twenty minutes before someone comes into the kitchen looking for Hanbin.

"Hey, Jennie," Hanbin says before he goes back to the party, "are you doing anything tomorrow?"

I shake my head, holding my breath.

"How about we go see a movie?" Hanbin suggests. "Maybe grab dinner at that little seafood place?"

I grin and nod like an idiot. I'm too afraid to say something stupid, so I keep my mouth shut.

"Great," Hanbin says, grinning back at me. "Then I'll pick you up at six."

He goes back to being the party host, and I rejoin the girls. We stay for another couple of hours, but I don't talk to Hanbin again. He's surrounded by his jock friends, and I don't want to interrupt.

But every now and then, I catch him looking my way and smiling.

I'm floating on air for the next twenty-four hours. I tell Chahee and Irene all about what happened. They're excited for me.

In preparation for our date, I put on a cute blue dress and a pair of high-heeled brown boots. They're a cross between cowboy boots and something a bit dressier, and I know I look good in them.

Hanbin picks me up at six o'clock sharp.

We go to Fish-of-the-Sea, a popular local joint not too far from the movie theater. It's a nice sit-down place, not too formal.

Perfect for a first date.

We have a great time. I learn more about Hanbin and his family. He asks me questions too, and we discover that we like the same types of movies. I can't stand chick flicks for some reason, and I really enjoy cheesy end-of-the-world stories with lots of special effects. So does Hanbin, apparently.

After dinner, we go see a movie. Unfortunately, it's not about an apocalypse, but it's still a pretty good action film. During the movie, Hanbin puts his arm around my shoulders, and I can barely suppress my excitement. I hope he kisses me tonight.

When the movie is done, we go for a walk in the park. It's late, but I feel completely safe. The crime rate in our town is negligible, and there are plenty of streetlights.

We're walking and Hanbin is holding my hand. We're discussing the movie. Then he stops and just looks at me.

I know what he wants. It's what I want, too.

I look up at him and smile. He smiles back, puts his hands on my shoulders, and leans down to kiss me.

His lips feel soft, and his breath smells like the minty gum he was chewing earlier. His kiss is gentle and pleasant, everything I hoped it would be.

Then, in a blink of an eye, everything changes.

I don't even know what happened or how it happened. One minute, I'm kissing Hanbin, and the next, he's lying on the ground, unconscious. A large figure is looming over him.

I open my mouth to scream, but I can't get more than a peep out before a big hand covers my mouth and nose.

I feel a sharp prick on the side of my neck, and my world goes completely dark.