hey everyone I am sorry about the long wait.So as you all know I have been dealing with a lot of family and personal issues the last year. In my last post I promised to explain.

Before I tell you what is going on in my personal life I want to give a quick update on the other issues.

My aunt who has been battling cancer for the last year just gave us some good news. The last year she has been fighting three types of cancer. Colon, stomach, and Cervical. Last may she had have a full hysterectomy, two colon surgeries and a tumor the size of a soccer ball removed. Because of covid we have not been able to see her in person. Well this week her doctor informed her that they will be doing two more rounds of chemotherapy and as long as everything continues to look through that She will be done with it. they have scheduled the surgery to reverse her colostomy bag for the end of May. After that she will have regular checkup but be declared in remission.

My other Aunt...Aunt A also had another scare at the beginning of March. they found a tumor in her breast. She has fought a previous battle with breast cancer and has been in remission for 19 years. So finding a tumor was a very scary moment. However we finally got the biopsy results back and it was not cancer.

As for work-well things are going okay we have one open position but it is a part time evening's and we have causal staff that are picking up all the open days.

As for the personal issue that sent me over the edge... My husband left me. we have been married almost 5 years and have been together for 9 years. I came home from work to find him and his belongings gone with no warning. Over the last month I found out he is living with his ex. That he told his colleagues at work a month previously that we were separating amicably and that he was moving closer to his two sons.

He has two sons with two different women. His oldest son is autistic and he has limited contact. his youngest we get every other weekend and two months during the summer. the youngest ones mother and I have become close friends.

A few days after he left she called to check on me and I found out he had told her a week before we were separating. A week later she and i found out he had moved in with his oldest son's mother

Here is the thing I had no idea anything was wrong. Everything seemed perfectly fine the previous night. We didn't fight or have any issues that I was aware of. so all of this has really thrown me off balance.

To top all of that off he has blocked me and refuses to speak to me so i have no idea why.

However over the last month since he left I have discovered that he had been planning this for months, that his ex has been "helping" him manage his money, that he quit his job (he told me he was just using some vacation time before he lost it), that he and his ex had been talking on the phone 4-6 hours a day that i wasnt aware of (i knew they were in touch because of his son and he usually just put it on speaker because he claimed he didn't like talking to her), that he had been telling most of his friends and family that we were separating, and that when he had told me about his best friend offering him his garage to work on his motorcycle...he really hadn't.

So on top of his abrupt departure from my life I have had to deal with finding out about all of this other stuff and loosing a child i have helped raise since he was a year old. As for that, the child's mother has made it very clear that as far as she is concerned I am still his mother and we are trying to work out visitation. Even if he doesn't agree.

So yeah that is everything. I am still not prepared to start writing at this moment but I dont intend to give up on my writing. I am going to take another couple of weeks to recenter, refocus and grieve but I will be back.

I am so sorry for the wait but I need to be in a better place to write something worth reading.