The night time... A time where one can truly be alone. The night sky... A beautiful effervescence fills the sky as the stars appear close together. Yet in reality they couldn't be any further. The night, where the human soul and the stars in the sky coalesce into a bitter sweet comparison. Alone... We sit alone in our beds every night in hope of escaping what we call reality. Why? The truth is something we have within ourselves. But we'll never grasp it because we hate the truth.
Inside of Hildreck's tent he sits there alone... Alone? Why alone? We'll never know. He feels a weight on his chest. A tight chest... Alone he sits with a tight chest, shivering from anxiety. A pit deeper than any shovel could dig. Any regular man would attempt to escape. Yet one with a broken mind will continue to sit in that hole. Content with loneliness. Why won't you go to sleep? Do you hate me that much? Running away? I thought yo-.
*inhale* "SHUT UP!!!" *exhale* His breathing speeds up as if he woke up from a night terror.
"Tsk... These dreams are getting crazier and crazier... Im going for a walk."
The pink haired man puts on a jacket and begins to walk around the barren wastelands. The sounds of the creatures roaming the night echo throughout the empty, hollow canyons of the ashlands. He finds a spot to sit on a cliff as he takes in the scenery. The moonlight reflects off the cascading waterfall. Hildreck begins to reach out to the sky.
"Lumi-chan... I'm so alone. No matter where i run. No matter who i turn to... Nothing can stop me from running away. I run away from myself everyday because of what i did to you. I'm... I'm nothing but a selfish, talentless man."
Messiah grips a bundle of grass blades between his finger tips. The wind blows as he lets them go. They dance in the wind without a care in the world. Letting mother nature decide its fate. Free of choice... Free of its own will... Free of burden. Don't you want to be free Hildreck?
"I... I told you to shut up already! I don't want to be free! I... Just want to be worth something... I want to... Damnit! I don't even know what i want anymore."
The water sliding off the cliff begins to tremble as loud and deep footsteps can be heard across the land. The source gets louder and louder as a figure appears off in the distance. A figure as tall as the sky with a body as wide as the ocean. The moon wanes as the sand falls into a patch of sand. Loosing its sense of self. Being just one grain of sand in a group of millions... Id hate to be that grain of sand. Alone in a world of others, abandoning its sense of self and becoming part of the collective. Alone... Yet together.
The eyes of the young man get heavier... And heavier... He closes his eyes as he drifts off to sleep while lying on a jagged cliff.
-in the world of dreams-
It is said that the world of dreams is a gateway to ones subconscious. If so... Then why would our brain trap us in such a hell? Words and sounds bounce around inside the human skull... Repetitive... Cacophonous sounds... Twisting and distorting into things inhuman. Becoming a nightmare for those who fail to discover the things that make them them... Horrific... Ugly... Horrendous... Sinful... It's all ugly. There's nothing beautiful about you. Why run away? Are you scared of facing reality? Escaping? Are you escaping?
Stop escaping
Stop escaping
Stop...
Why havent you stopped yet?
Listen to me.
Listen to me.
LISTEN TO ME
IGNORING ME?
LISTEN TO ME HILDRECK
MESSIAH
MESSIAH
You're... Ugly
Hideous
Empty
Sinful
Horr-
"SHUT UP!!! P- please... Please shut the hell up..." The room expands. A blank... White room.
The words echo... And echo... And echo... No windows. No sound but yourself. A setting bound to drive a normal man insane. Nothing but a faucet dripping... Nothing but a hospital bed. Nothing but a girl lying in that bed. Free of sin... Free of choice.
Tears form around the iris of Hildreck. His eyes embrace the tears of sorrow that trickle from his eyes... To his cheek... To his chin.
He stares at the pink haired girl in the bed. "L-Lumi-chan! Wake... Wake up... Please wake up Lumi-chan!"
He begins to shake the unconscious girl as the wires attached to her body slowly begin to loosen. The water from the faucet drips more and more.
Drip
Drop
Drip
The young man shakes her more. "Im alone without you Lumi, truly alone... I want you to need me Lumi!"
I want you to want me
I want you to hear my cries
I want you to be with me when i die.
Do you want me?
Do you hear my cries?
Do you want to be with me?
You dont.
You dont want me.
You don't want to hear my cries
You want me to be alone
Im... Truly alone Luminaire.
With no one to turn to.
I WANT TO SCREAM
BUT NO ONE WILL HEAR ME
"Wake up." *shake*
"Wake up." *shake*
The girl opens her eyes and gives Hildreck a deadpan stare. "No... I won't wake up for you. You're a coward."
A selfish bastard
"T- take that back you bitch!" Hildreck says through clenched teeth.
"No... I wont wake up for you. You're a coward."
His hands journey towards the woman's neck as they wrap around her trachea. "I SAID TAKE IT BACK DAMNIT!!!"
"You're alone brother. You killed mom. You couldn't save me. Dad died for you. You couldn't save me. You're going to kill me next? Are you scared of me? Or is this another pathetic attempt of running away. Escaping yourself. Escaping your responsibilities. Do you hate me that much Hildreck?"
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" His grip tightens as blood trickles from her neck.
"You can't keep running away Hildreck.
You're nothing but a sinner. A self centered coward. A spineless husk of a man. You're alone. You're always going to be alone."
Die
Please... Die
The body goes limo signaling the death of the girl. He now sits there alone with a leaky faucet.
Drip
Drop
Drip
"I don't want to be alone... I didn't want to kill my sister... Hey... Come back to life. come back. Come back. COME BACK!!!" His body goes limp as the cries of a pathetic man echo within the cacophonous room.
The tears get denser and denser as the room floods with the essence of sadness. His screams get louder and louder with no one to hear them. He screams louder... Yet no one hears them.
He yells louder... Yet no one hears them. Maybe this is what true loneliness feels like.
A soft voice bounces throughout the empty room. Calling the young mans name.
"Hildreck"
"Hildreck... Wake up!"
*FLASH*
Hildreck's eyes begin to open in the real world as the person calling his name gets louder.
"Hildreck! Messiah!" They call
He fully opens his eyes as the person calling his name becomes apparent.
Nana looks down at the sleeping boy. "Uhm... Are you ok Messiah?"
After realizing the person who came to his rescue, he wraps his arms around her waist. She flails her arms around in confusion and slight embarrassment.
"H-hey! What are you do-"
"Please... I- I just want someone to hold onto right now."
More tears begin to form which shocks Nana. He grips tighter and tighter.
"I... Feel so alone Nana."
*FLASH*
The cool and crisp air of a hospital room... The feeling of safety... A place of innocence. In this room lies a mother with her newborn baby. She holds the baby securely in her arms as it coes and babbles in its mothers arms. It's warm and delicate hands... Its soft and playful voice.
She nuzzles the baby. "My sweet little daughter. Nana... This world is filled with pain and sadness. People grow up alone every day with no one to turn to. They need someone to want them... To feel like they belong on this earth. Nana, my child... I want you to love someone. Love someone and give them hope. Save as many people as you can with your kindness. No matter the adversities you face and the hatred you experience. Please... Keep some of my love in your heart my child... And change their heart for the better."
*FLASH*
Nana snaps back to reality with a new realization. "Mom... So thats what you meant."
She looks the young man in the eye as she plays with his hair. "If... If you need someone to hold onto. I'll be that someone. I'll be that rock for you Hildreck. That shoulder for you to cry on. As long as you feel the warmth of my heart... Neither of us will have to be alone anymore."
His grip tightens as she holds the man closer to her. The sun begins its slow journey over the horizon. But to their surprise the figure that was once off in the distance is right in front of them. Its a giant aragami with the face of a tortoise and the body of a monkey. Truly a hideous amalgamation.
Nana and Messiah both head into battle stance as they prepare to fight this colossal size aragami.