POV Jellal:

The slam of the door rang in my ears,Gray and Erza ran in together.I am idle because Siegrain has taken all my vital functions and I don't move my legs, I can't say anything, he's holding me by the throat from the inside, threatening me that he will overwhelm me until I commit suicide.

"I don't want to kill myself, I want to live and fight for my dreams, I want to exist for Erza!"

I was sitting, leaning against the wall, another cigarette in my hands were cut too, from broken glass from wine bottles.

"How much did you drink this ?!" Erza was already panicking

"Jellal, what the fuck is wrong with you?" Gray was overwhelmed by the mess

"Say something, please!" She punched me on my chest.I didn't even feel it, I broke down so badly I couldn't explain to Erza how it happened

"I can't talk ... I can't cry"

...

"I don't let you cry, did you understand me ?! "

"God, what was that? That voice, so masculine, harsh and cold. Cruel to me, who could it be? Wait a minute! Siegrain wants to make me aware of what happened before the kidnapping, but what is his purpose? I'll try to stay a little calm, maybe if I don't show fear of him he'll get the fuck off me. "

...

"He looks paralyzed." Here Gray is right

"I'm taking him to the bathroom." Determined Scarlet lifts me up so I can finally move normally.

I kissed her cheek, only in such a gesture I could now say something like

"Thank you, sweetheart".

She smiled, turning her head to the side

"Oh yeah, I know I'm messed up"

I don't like watching Erza pout .

She stripped me naked, and I mentally pleaded several times, "Don't look down" biting my lip.

I swear, if she touched me there, Siegrain would direct my body to attack and I don't want to. I took a shower, cold water is running down my neck, my cut fingers pinch that it is impossible to describe it, but it is not so important when Erza hugs me even more tenderly than the last time I rushed to confess my feelings for her

"what's the difference? After all, I loved her for a long time, she deserved honesty."

...

I woke up wearing a t-shirt and boxer shorts. I look out the window

"Something's wrong. It's too bright for the morning"

I'm reaching for lacrima on the windowsill

"What, it's 1:15 pm? Damn it. In my whole life, I can stay awake for about three days, and now I've slept maybe several hours? I must be very overloaded since my body was demanding that much sleep. "

I walk around the apartment very carefully, I don't trust myself because one undesirable move and Siegrain will kill me.

Erza was baking something in the oven

"How cute she looks, oh my God"

I watched her clothes with delight, black short T-shirt on the straps, sports pants to match and an orange checkered apron

"I imagine her as a wife ... Oh no! I caught myself, it's still way too early, and besides, I don't want her to feel limited and that's how she's doing too much for me. "

"Hi Jellal, I didn't notice you. Are you feeling better?"

"No." I don't feel like believing, he allowed me to speak to Erza

"I ordered an appointment with a specialist for you"

"To whom?"

"Just please don't get mad at me"

"At you? Never in my life, Erza"

"Mph ... You have an appointment with a psychiatrist."

"Hahahahaha ... Oh no! Sorry."

"This familiar volatility" Erza is intelligent, she must have figured out what controls me.

"Don't say his name, it's dangerous!" I fell silent again, I didn't feel the tears falling from my eyes.

Erza can read just the synopsis of my heart to understand what the whole book contains.

"Honey, don't worry. I'm with you, I'll help you. I won't let you give up, do you hear? I won't! Together we can defeat your enemy. " Her willingness to fight for my freedom made me dream about a future with her, she is not an ordinary woman, she is a Queen or maybe even a Goddess.

...

At a visit to a psychiatrist, I felt uncomfortable. He asked me questions that I didn't want to answer

"It is not easy to talk about myself when I do not remember everything"

After 45 minutes of lying on the couch in his office, I found out what was wrong with me : I suffer from Anxiety Neurosis caused by Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, when I had a terrible childhood and when I was a prisoner and I also have Dissociative Identity explained to me and Erza that subconsciously, my personality is cut off under the influence of three main feelings that is, Hate, Fear, Rejection

"It all might make sense. I was 13 when Siegrain first showed up. The one who trained me warned that Psychic Magic is not a joke and what I create out of my emotions can turn against me, taking advantage of my weaknesses but I did not listen, I daringly performed the act of evil work sitting in my head, steeped in anger towards me and Erza.I hurt myself, with that kind of magic, it was a huge mistake that I let him play reality manipulation, if he only wanted he would take over my life and consume all my knew perfectly well my situation that I had committed crimes, he also brilliantly made me despair when I lost contact with Erza for seven years, I almost hanged myself then only Ultear and Meredy were able to save me from a suicide attempt...Okay, I think too much, that's enough "

...

I have been given anti-anxiety medication, I have to inject it into my neck before going to bed. It was supposed to go to the brain faster,I did not object when the doctor told me to stay home until the end of September, a little vacation would be useful.

Erza suggested me a walk before we go back to my apartment, walking among the trees, I felt a throbbing in my head again, and worst of all, my body stiffened.

"Jellal!" Erza was pushed back a few meters from me

On the coat sleeves I see red, winding stripes

"Binding Snake?"

I am overwhelmed by a purple aura from which he has completely emerged

"But what is it? This outfit, I hate it! Damn hood, gloves and that mean way of being."

"Is that ... Jellal from the Tower of Heaven ?!" She, too, could not understand what this situation meant

"Some percent of you are both telling the truth about me. However, I am the one who has been pulling Jellal by the strings for several years Hahahahaha!"

"What do you want from him, Siegrain ?! He's suffered enough because of you!"

"Because of me? Hah, you're funny my dear Scarlet." There was nothing I could do when he caught her

"Let go of me, you jerk!"

"I am revealing one of your lover's secrets"

"Don't tell her that!" I screamed at him

"Oh, are you so ashamed of your sins? Confess to her that you wished to take her by force before sacrificing to Zeref and then slit her throat in hatred for alleged abandonment."

"What? Is that true, Jellal ?!"

"... Yes, but it's not what you think either! I didn't know what I was thinking, I was blinded in the darkness. In fact, I would never hurt you and I'm grateful to Natsu for stopping me then, you know about it, Erza! "

"Whatever you were thinking back then, it doesn't matter anymore, it counts here and now."

"Enough, because you make me sick" Siegrain released her and approached me with a chilling, murderer's look

"Get away from him!"

"Erza, don't do this!" After a while I coughed in agony

"How naive are you, do you want him to bleed out?"

"What?"

"By hurting me, you are hurting him. We're one, did you forget what the doc told you? Dissociation!"

" This can not be"

"Erza, he's right. You can't fight him, you'll kill us both."

"Then what can we do with it?"

"I don't know. The stupidity of adolescence is irreversible, I hate myself for it!" I felt him press against me

"It was great to play with you and Ultear"

"What did he say? Impossible, he must be mocking me!"

"Ultear cast a curse, but it was only to reverse your were set to resurrect Zeref, yes that's true, but I am the product of your hidden, repressed memories that she couldn't access!"

" I do not believe that"

"You cowardly bitch, you were too polite little son, mother the Red-haired Witch Tetyana, who put a sigil on your face of her blood written on her pregnant belly so that you could be born alive ..."

"Don't torment him anymore" Erza was already crying

"... Your daddy Armand Fernandes, but he was a servant and your torturer, because he had sick ambitions that you would become a soldier and you wanted him to be proud of you."

"Stop it! I really don't remember any of this."

"I already know what you can remember about your former life ... Nika!"

"That name. No! The gate of the subconscious mind was suddenly opened: Bosco, everywhere fire, corpses and crucified adults. I remember! I remember running away as much as I had the strength in my legs. I was holding a bundle with a small child in my hands, I was chased by the Slave Hunters of the Zeref Cult ... No, please!I just wanted to save her from them, what have I done ?! "

"Do you remember her?"

"Siegrain, please! I'm fed up, it hurts!"

"Now you see what kind of garbage you were before you met Erza? You dumped a two-year-old girl in a cold chapel, you killed her! "

"Jellal ... What is he talking about, who is Nika ?!"

"Answer your beloved."

"...My younger sister." I blamed myself for what I did to her.

I left her and tried to escape, but I was hit on the head, it made me forget about my family home and concentrated on being a slave because they erased my memory!

"Do you think you will get rid of me? Never wait. I will destroy you, whenever possible. Your mind is so powerful with the forces of darkness that it has painted your own death."

"What, are you more than that?"

"That's right. I am the herald of your end, the Messenger of Satan, and I will decide when you die, Jellal. You say you regret your sins, but in fact, you've been in them since childhood and nothing will change that." He whispered it in my face

"You're not taking it from me!"

"Erza, let me finish, will you?"

"Anything quick."

"Today, as always, Jellal got a lesson in life. I wasn't going to kill him, just scare him and do a little cleansing. You know, such fun on the nerves and he won it today. You have to accept that he will never be normal to end."

"I love him so I'm not afraid"

"Lovely, make him smile more, then he looks better...I would have forgotten since I was playing I was lying to Jellal too"

"What the fuck?" It surprised me

"I felt you would react that way. Your little sister is alive. She was raised by the Crocus witches, and you saved her that day."

"It was mean of you."

"You're also mean. Take care of yourself."

Siegrain connected with me, back.

"I already know he won't go away. I won't call him my enemy either."

...

A month has passed.I returned to the missions, unexpectedly got a report that changed the course of history.

"Jellal, this might sound kind of weird ..."

"Come on, Erik please."

"I saw a girl from this dodgy guild, she had half-long wavy red hair and a soft face version of you."

"Where are you going?" Meredy asked, shocked

"I have to deal with this myself."

The moment I ran out of the hotel, I found her: It really was her "God, thank you for your mercy"

We didn't exchange a word, she used magic on me, thinking she was in danger of something bad. At first I avoided her spells, but I took a very painful blow, she threw a poisonous plant with a vine, it burned from my hand to the bends at the elbows but I had to tell her the truth.

"Abilities after the mother, right Nika?"

"What?"

"Don't worry. I'm not going to go into your life, I just wanted to say ... I'm glad you're alive and I'm sorry I abandoned you."

"I do not understand!"

"You were born in Bosco. When you were two, the Cult of Zeref was kidnapping children and killing parents, ours as well."

"Zeref? He's not here anymore"

"We've been through a lot through him."

"Who are you?!"

"Your ... Big Brother"

She immediately hid the plants from the spell and took something out of her pocket.

"What's your name?"

"Jellal."

"It's you. You wrote this card! I have been carrying it for as long as I can remember, the witches gave it to me."

"I know you can be angry with this."

"Wait! Please take this. Ointment for your burns." She handed me the jar without meeting my eyes

"I don't deserve this."

"I insist take it!"

"Fine thank you."

"No! It's me, thank you and I'm sorry. Apply it three times a day, under a bandage for eight days. Well, I'm sure I want to talk about it, but now I'm not ready. I ... will go!" I could only hear her cry, it was new to her and it was a relief for me.

"A bit of harmony."

... The End.

Author's note:If you trusted Siegrain, you made a big mistake.

He lies to the very end, the only real thing he said is about Jellal's family.

"Coming out of his body, a separate personality" is symbolically shown. I experience a Dissociative Disorder myself, and it looks like this to me that the additional alter is trying to manipulate the situation.

The human mind is separated from itself as a result of past trauma. It is very difficult for such people to fight for their lives at the beginning, they are distrustful, isolate themselves, they are afraid of practically everything, because they do not know how to fully control the body.

Often times, they cannot find the right type of therapy for themselves, and it is also very difficult to choose medicines.

Regarding Mother Jellal's Witchcraft: This topic will be brought up again.

She had orange hair color (Ginger, I don't like that word a lot)

She gave both Jellal and his younger sister her olive-green eye color :)

You will learn about everything soon in the 7th story

I hope that you liked it