Ok so in this chapter were going to go through the process of Esther and Ansel's relationship.

Last chapter they meet, slept together, and admitted their love for each other. In this chapter were going to see them actually try at a relationship.

I know it may seem like they're falling in love quickly, but sometimes when you meet someone you click instantly and fall quickly. Plus, her and Ansel's relation in the show I believe only really lasted a short time, but was still meaningful to both of them. So that's what I'm trying to relay here.

What do you guys think if I create a story of Mikael and Esther's story. Not sure about them though.

Have you ever felt so at peach with your life? Like everything in it seems to be going great any you wake up every day just happy with how things are going.

Of course, when everything is going perfect is usually when fate decides to screw you and mess it all up. I shake my head getting rid of these thoughts. I know the pain will come soon but not now, and I refuse to think about what will come. I just want to here happy here with her.

It's been about a 3 months since me and Esther have started seeing each other, and I couldn't be happier.

We've seen each other so much and spent hours at the clearing making love, talking and just getting to know each other.

I know that she hated the power that came with being a witch, that it scared her, but that she's learned to see the beaty in being a witch. I know that one of her favorite things to talk about is her love she feels for her children.

Which is why I cant fathom how her husband still acts like she's a bad mother. Then again I'd never say that out loud we have an unspoken agreement to never talk about Mikael.

I also know a lot of little thing about her. Her favorite color is Green. She loves to plant flowers. She has an addiction to sweets. She cant swim, something I've had the delight of teaching her to do.

Honestly I would spend all day with her if I could, but I know she has her children to get back to. Although I notice she seems to spend most of the day with me wanting to stay away from home as long as possible. It makes me wonder how bad things are with HIM. If he's still treating her bad.

I want to ask but again we have an unspoken agreement to not discuss those things.

Finally, we reach the point were neither of us cant deny our worldly duties. She might not want to go home to Mikael, but I know she still needs to mother her children, and I have duties as Alpha to take care of.

I turn towards her rubbing my nose on her neck breathing in her scent. "My love it's time I head back to camp now-"

She shoots up lightning-fast interrupting what I was saying. "Already can't you stay a little longer the sun's only just gone down."

"No, I have a meeting with the pack to go over a few things, besides don't you need to get back to your children" I say to her, and I immediately feel like I've said something wrong when her eyes.

"What's that suppose to mean you think I'm a bad mother who doesn't care about her children or something? God I'm so sick of hearing that I love my babies I just-" She stops talking and lets out an ear-piercing scream, and I just stand there letting her get out her frustration.

I've been waiting for this moment. The moment when the submissive person her husbands words turned her into died out, and the strong women she in underneath come out.

After month of being blamed for her child's death she's finally getting to the point where she's not going to just stand there and take the abuse anymore.

Finally, when her screams turn to sobs I go over and pull her into my arms. "I know this is crazy for you, but this is a good thing. You have no idea how difficult it was watching you just let him walk all over you, and degrade you as a mother. You love your children, and you were just a devasted as what happened to your daughter as he was. Stand up for yourself stop acting weak when you're not."

For a moment after I speak Esther is still and quiet in my arms before she pulls away, and I'm shocked by the look I see. It's something deep and strong and one I've never seen on her before.

With a nod and a kiss to my check she head home. Her head held high with self-confidence I think she forget she still had.

I'd give anything to see the look on Mikael's face when she doesn't just shut up and take his verbal abuse tonight.

2 weeks. That's how long it's been since I heard from Esther, and it's getting to be really worrisome.

I knew after her talk with him she might need a few days to herself, but it's been so long I'm starting to worry he did something to her. Esther swore up and down Mikael's never harmed her or he children, but I also know he changed from the man she once married.

He cold, distant, mad with angry violent outburst, usually ending with him yelling and her and throwing things around. I'm sure it wouldn't take much for him to snap and harm her in his anger.

'I knew I should've gone with her. Just hid outside to make sure things went ok' I chide myself before quickly shaking that though away knowing Esther never would've allowed it. Besides this was a moment she needed to herself, she needed to stand up on her own two feet without me.

'Maybe she doesn't need you anymore. What if things went well and she's happy with him now' My heart clenches at that thought. It's one I haven't let myself think about until now.

I've been assuming things went bad, but hat if it didn't. Esther is a strong women who wont stop until she gets what she wants, and right now she wants her husband back. I can imagine her yelling her heart out to him, and he realizes she right and changes back to someone she can love. Esther having her husband back decides she doesn't need me anymore, and doesn't have the heart to tell me so.

Not wanting to wallow in self-pity anymore I head out to do some training with the pack. For the rest of the day that's all I do just train and train, and refuse to let myself think about her. It hurts too much to do so.

3 weeks.

'Come on Ansel you knew this would happen eventually' I think to myself.

I sigh loudly at that though, but I cant even deny it because it's true. I mean I knew this was never going to be something that would last forever, I knew it would end eventually.

I guess I though we'd get more time together before things ended between us. I also though when she ended things, I knew it'd be here who eventually ended things, she'd eventually have the decency to say it to my face. Instead, she just stops talking to me all together.

For some reason I'm filled with anger at her. I know she's married and has a life that doesn't include me, but I deserve better than this. I'm not someone she can use to relive stress and to make her feel better, and throw away when she gets her life back.

I love her and I know she loves me, and I'm not going to sit here and be treated like this.

With a new sense of determination, I stand up calling out to the pack that I'll be back in a while, and then I'm gone.

As I walk towards town I refuse to let myself stop walking, I refuse to think about where I'm going, and what I'm going to do. Mainly because I don't really know myself.

Everyone quiets down as I burst through the trees and into town. For a moment I reminded of that day all those month ago when I first saw her, when my life changed so drastically.

"I'm looking for the witch Esther. She helped my pack awhile ago by healing one of my wolves. I need her serves again." I call out. People start looking around each before one man runs off to get her I assume.

After awkwardly standing here with everyone staring at me I see the same man who ran off return, with Esther and Mikael's walking behind him.

I refuse to look at Esther not wanting to give away how much I still love and miss her, and how angry I still am. Instead, I stare at Mikael's and I'm shocked at how different he seems,

He's not as stiff, and his eyes aren't as cold as before. Instead, he looks just sad and a little defeated, but he also seems calmer in a way.

Mikael's the one who speaks first. "You're the Wolf from before. I heard you needed my wives help again." Even his tone is different not as condescending and smug.

I nod my head slowly. Not trusting what I'll say if I open my mouth.

I watch as he turns toward Esther, and again I watch them have a heated debate about me. Except this time something different happens… He reaches out and creases her check in a loving way, and I cant help but watch as she leans in for a second before snapping her head back and nodding in agreement at him.

Then they both turn towards me, and I finally cant help myself and I find myself staring right into her eyes. I see anger and annoyance and yes some love to, but it's obvious she's not happy to see me.

When I realize they're both just staring at me I turn and walk back towards camp with them following me.

It's only as I'm walking I realize the trouble I just got myself into. I told them I need her to heal someone, but we haven't had an attack since last time, and as far as I know we don't need any healing.

'Crap. Crap. Crap what the hell am I going to do.' My thoughts are in a frenzy as I struggle to come up with a plan.

There going to realize I lied when no ones injured, and what will I say then. I mean I can't just – Bash.

That's it Bash is an ally from another pack. He was injured by a local witch pissed when he rejected herm his Alpha asked me to watch him until they found her since she made more attempts on his life.

Relief course through me as I now have some sort of plan. One I'm sure will work perfectly. Esther will heal him, he had a painful rash with boils on his skin, and I'm sure I can get word to her to meet up later. If she wants to end things with me she can say it to my face.

There's no way it can go wrong.

Well, it went wrong Immediately.

I called Bash over explaining I found a witch to help heal him, something he was happy about. Esther well she's pissed, and I suppose a little vindictive.

Guess what happened. She made some bullshit excuse about needing space as the amount of magic could hurt anyone not directly involved in the spell, and sent me over to stand near him.

Near Mikael.

As you can imagine standing next to your secret lovers husband is one of the most awkward things any man can experience.

Suddenly Mikael speaks up. "My wide thinks I should apologize. Apparently the last time I spoke to you I was rude or whatever. I was going through some stuff and took it out on you. My bad."

God I want to hi this ass. He spoke to me like I was beneath him and this is his version of any apology. Damn how does Esther put up with this man.

Not wanting to say anything, mainly because I'd probably cuss him out, I just nod at him hoping were done talking.

Sadly, he's not done and continues talking. "Look it was after the death of MY daughter, and I was just overcome with grief and sort of taking it out on everyone. I'm sure you can understand-"

I should've kept my mouth shut if I had we probably wouldn't be here right now.

"Not really. I mean I lost someone before. My twin brother actually and I was grief-stricken too, but I never assumed my grief was stronger than my fathers or anyone else who loved him just as much as I did. Your wife carried that child within here for months and spent hours birthing her, and years loving her. I think it's safe to say she understand your grief. You lost one person you loved by chance, and when you loose her you'll know it's your fault." I tell him, and I take pleasure in the surprised look on his face after my rant.

He open his mouth to say something to me, but it's cut off my Esther and Bash returning. Esther refuses to look at me and quickly grabs Mikael's hand and heads off.

I've prepared for this though. I turn around towards Bash and when I'm away from them I cup my hands over my mouth and let out a bird call my father taught me how to do. It was a signal me and Esther created that lets her know I want to me at the clearing within an hour.

"What are you doing with this witch. I mean thanks for having me healed but it was obviously an excuse to see her. You two kept sneaking glances at each other when the other wasn't looking." Bash says suddenly.

I keep my face blank not giving anything away even though on the inside my nerves are on edge at another person finding about me and Esther. After staring blankly at him for a minute Bash sigh before heading back to camp, he doesn't look back at me. Like he knows I won't be following him.

So, I knew Esther was mad, and I knew I should've come to town like that asking to see her, something I promised I'd never do.

It's just I deserve better than this. I deserve better than to be ignored for weeks and for her not to have the balls to end things with me to my face, something that's obviously not going to happen.

After 3 hours of sitting there with no Esther in sight my anger rises, and I stomp my way back to camp refuses to be treated like this any longer.

Over the next few days, I'm sure my pack wonder what's gotten me in such a foul mood. I'm barely keeping my anger at bay, and keep snapping at people over little things. It's not until I realize I'm acting no better than Mikael taking my anger out on people that don't deserve it, so I decide I need to deal with this.

I cant keep taking it out on them when they did nothing wrong, and I cant keep living in this limbo state wondering if I still have a claim on Esther's heart or not.

So, I wrote her a letter explaining all my issues with her. How hurt I was with her ignoring me, how if she wanted to end things I deserved to hear her say it to my face, and explain why I came to town.

And explain how…..how I think it's best we end things. God it hurts to even write that out, because I know my hearts still hers and I don't want to lose her, but I also cant keep going like this.

I quickly run towards town, signal her and leave the letter under a rock in the clearing. Then I head back to camp and await her reply.

When it finally comes an hour later it only says two words.

Meet Now.

My heart if trying to climb out of my mouth, it's smart enough to know this meeting isn't going to go well and wants to save itself the pain. I know I'm being dramatic I mean-

"Ahhhhhhh." My though is cut off as soon as I step into the clearing and Esther start tearing my brain apart with her magic.

Esther start in on me Immediately. "HOW DARE YOU? You think you're going to leave me, and you cant even say it to my face you write a letter like a coward. I though you loved me Ansel. God you're just like Mikael-"

I snap my head up at that and catch her shocked and guilty look. I guess she didn't mean to say that, but honestly I'm way past caring.

My anger had boiled to the surface, and is threatening to implode.

"Did I leave you after your child died? No. Did I blame you for it and treat you like crap? No. Who did all that, oh yeah HIM." I scream at her.

For a second I feel guilty when she flinches back at my harsh tone and words, but I'm on a roll and can't be stopped.

"Let's see what I did do. Well, I loved you, talked with you, let you cry on my shoulder when your grief overwhelmed you, helped you realize your self-worth and helped you find the confidence to stand up to your husband. Which by the way I see went well, I guess he realized you were right and is all in love with you again. Nice hope you two end up happy guess I'm being pushed aside since it's been a month since I last spoke to you." After my rant I'm breathless and I feel empty inside after getting all that out.

For a moment it's quiet, neither of us saying anything. After a while I cant take it anymore and turn to leave when Esther call out.

"Please don't go. I'm not ready for this to end, I'm not ready for you to leave me." Esther voice sounds so small I cant help but turn around to hear what else she has to say.

She takes a breath before continuing. "I'm sorry I haven't gotten back to you everything has been so confusing lately. When I went home that night Mikael's was his usual cold self and I exploded on him, it felt great. I made him leave and I didn't hear back from him for a few days, I couldn't call you in a way it hurt to have him leave I couldn't let you see me like that. He came back and he's been all over me lately saying he's sorry and how he misses me, and how when he really listened to what I say he realized I was right. I…I was just say happy to hear have my husband back I couldn't come see you. I want you both, and I know that selfish. Your right you deserve better than that."

"So, your weren't trying to end things when you stopped talking to me." Is honestly the stupidest thing I could say after everything she said, but is somehow the only thing that came out of my mouth. I need to know how she feels about us.

Esther rolls her eyes before smiling a little at me. I guess it's nice she finds my stupidity amusing. "No, I'm not ready to let go of you. Even with things with Mikael's improving I still need you in my life. So, I'm sorry and I hope you'll forgive me." Esther says.

I give her a few seconds to stew in her anxiety waiting for my reply, but I can't hold back anymore.

It's not long after that were on the ground tearing each other's clothes off and holding each other until the sun goes down.

I'm so happy right now I don't see how it could ever end.

Well, I was wrong. My happiness faded quicker than I though it would, and I knew nothing of the real pain that comes with losing my love.

After that day when me and Esther agreed to keep seeing each other I thought we were going to be good. That it would be like before.

Damn I don't know how wrong I was. I guess it's because one major thing is different is that unlike before Mikael's isn't acting cold and hateful towards his wife, and is trying desperately to reclaim what they once had.

Esther told me Mikael was trying, but I didn't realize how much that would affect us. Maybe I didn't want to realize it, realize how much closer I was to losing her.

Usually, me and Esther could meet almost every day and spend hours together. Now I'm lucky if I see her more than twice a week for 2 hours. She's run into my arms and make love to me for hours, and she still does but there this resistant to her now.

It's like a part of her, the part of her heart that belongs to HIM, doesn't want to be here. I used to be her escape from her troubled home life, but not her home life is good, and she doesn't need to escape like she used to,

When she kisses me, it takes her a second to let go of them, to relax and to remember her love for me. She makes love to me but occasionally after I see the guilt in her eyes.

The worst is that I know I'm not the only man she making love to anymore.

Esther of course tried to hide it, but one downside to being a wolf is the enhanced sense of smell. So, when she came to meet me one day smelling of sex and HIM, unable to meet my eyes, I knew exactly what she'd been doing.

I knew I should've let it go, and I tried. I just couldn't squash my jealousy. I couldn't stop picturing the women I love letting another man tough her like I do.

It let to an awful screaming match both of us saying things we regretted immediately. It also let to some hard and rough love making. Both of us screwing out or anger and frustration.

We have this ritual now the first thing she does when she get here is remove her clothing, and we swim naked in the cool water. I know she knows I'm trying to remove his scent from her, but she never says anything. She lets me wash her, and I let her wash me too.

We smile at each other both desperate to cling to what we now we must let go of. Neither one of us having the strength to let go.

I'm already in the water naked and just floating at the top when I hear her step into the clearing. I hear her giggle at the sight of my naked body, and her clothes rustling as she quickly removes them.

I also smell his scent All over her. Something that's become more frequent as of late.

We don't talk about how things are going with him, but I don't need her to say it to know it's going well.

Sometimes she'll get this dreamy look on her face and I know it's him on her mind. She still makes time to see me, and I know she's happy here with me, but I also know there's a part of her waiting to go back to his arms.

I'm snapped out of my thoughts as I feel her hands on my shoulder rubbing them, and I let her hands run on my body warming me up. It's not until she tries to reach between my legs that I move so I'm standing in front of her to stop her.

"My love what's wrong." She ask, but I hear it in her voice she knows.

The last few times I've seen her there's been this tension between us, a space neither of us want to explore. We haven't made love during out last 4 visits. She can't anymore I guess the guilt is too much now.

Sometimes she'll look at me and open her mouth like she has something to say, and I prepare myself to hear those dreaded words, but she cant do it. She closes her mouth, makes an excuse to leave, kisses me goodbye and run to. Home to her family.

"I love you so much you know." I tell her and I see the slight quilt in her eyes again, but I still sees the love there too, and it gives me hope that we can continue to-

To what meet in secret, sneaking around, pretend like we aren't holding on to a relationship we both know it past it's prime.

"I have loved every minute we spent together, and I don't think I'll even love someone like I love you. God it hurts knowing you cant say that same, and I'm not mad about that I'm happy. You have someone to hold your hand in pubic, someone who can tell everyone how much he loves you, someone to give you all the children you want to love. You deserve that, and Esther no matter how much I love you I cant be the one to give you that." I have to stop speaking for a moment my throat feels so tight.

I take a second to look at her and I'm surprised to see here with her eyes and mouth wide open.

For a second I'm confused wondering how my words shocked her so much, until I start to really think about what I'm saying, and I realize I'm the one who's ending things between us.

I always figured it would be here, that I'd never have the strength to leave her. I guess he though the same thing to.

My mouth wont open up now that it knows what I'm trying to say. For a moment I'm tempted to take my words back, but I think about 3 days ago.

I was going for a walk deep in the woods thinking about Esther when I heard her laugh. I though it was a gift from the spirits, that she was walking through the woods and we happened to run into each other.

Until I hear a man's laughter, followed by children laughter too.

My heart hurt so much as I realized she was with her family, and even though I knew I shouldn't I still made myself look.

She was standing in a field with her baby on her hip both of them laughing at this little butterfly that kept landing on his head. Mikael and her oldest son were running around laughing with each other.

They were happy, just a normal happy family. She was happy. Happy in a way she never was with me.

I know Esther loves me, and I'll always be in her heart. I just looked at her and realized that I don't need to be in her life anymore.

"I always though I'd be you who did this. I never knew I would want to leave you, but I do. I want to leave you because I refuse to hold you back anymore. I refuse to make you feel guilty and to feel bad about yourself anymore. I release you Esther please be happy." When I finish talking it's quiet. Neither of us sure what to do next.

Finally, I can't take it anymore and I swim to the edge and gather my clothes. My plan is to dress and just head back to camp, wallow in sadness for a while before trying to move on from this.

My is cut short when I hear Esther call out my name. When I turn she's standing at the edge of the water in all her naked wet glory.

Before I can say anything to her I feel her lips on mine. Kissing me with everything she's worth, her arms wrap around me tightly, and I know I should push her away and just leave.

I just… I'm weak, and I want this one last time with her. To show her how much I love her and to really say goodbye.

Afterward we don't say anything. We get dressed, give each other one last kiss and go our separate ways.

It's been 5 week since things ended with Esther and they been the most peaceful and painful weeks ever.

Painful. After loosing the love of my life, it was life another part of my heart had been ripped from my heart. My pack was the only thing keeping me going. I knew then needed their Alpha, and this kept me going.

Peaceful. This one surprised me, but I'm at peace because I know I had her love once and that I always will. Knowing that you loved someone, and they loved you back is a feeling nothing can beat. I know I helped her. I know I was the thing that brought happiness into her life at a time when she so desperately needed it.

I just feel peaceful knowing she's happy now, and at least I got the time with her that I did.

I'm sitting outside looking through our latest haul of weapons when Dagner says something that makes be go stiff.

"Oh, Ansel by the way that witch who healed Bash is waiting outside for you. Said she needs to see you about an attack on a townie. I guess they think it was one of us or something, as if we'd do that." Dagner says it like it's no big deal because to him it's not.

I'm up and out of my seat before I can stop myself. I want to see if it's really her. I know Dagner would never lie to me, but I also know Esther would never come here.

Except when I get there it's really her. She standing there looking just as beautiful as always. I force myself to stay where I am not trusting myself to be near here.

Finally, she speaks. "Ansel I was hoping we could talk about something. Don't worry there was no attack I just needed an excuse to get you out of here. Look just walk with me I don't want anyone to hear us." When she stops talking I just nod in agreement.

She start walking and I follow. It's not until she stops do I realize were close to the clearing. I don't thinks she meant to start walking there, but it's our place and it's where we always go to be alone.

She shakes her head a little before taking a sharp right turn deeper into the woods in an area we've never gone before.

Finally, after a few minutes she abruptly stops and turns to me, and finally I get a good look at her and see she's not looking so good.

She looks kind of pale, and her eyes have bags under them like she's not sleeping well. She's looks like she's ill.

"Are you sick, maybe you should go home, and we can talk later-"

"I'm not sick. Ansel I'm pregnant." She interrupt me and I feel my world go black.

Yeah Esther's pregnant, her and Ansel's affair has ended. Suck because I was rooting for them.

Next chapter will be the last. We get to finally see how Ansel feels about fatherhood, and how he deals with not being near his son.