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Chapter 4

I was leading them back to my hut. The place I called home, where I had planned to be until I came to terms with the grief I felt. I let them inside and led them to my table. I made coffee and served them some vegetables from my garden. We of course engaged in small talk, no one wanting to bring up the attacks. I asked Finn how Rose was, and I asked Poe if he kept in contact with Zorii.

"She is actually travelling to the planets that were the most affected by the war" he said as he sipped his drink. "Who would have thought she would leave the spice running game to help people in need" he chuckled.

"Yeah, a bit of a pay cut, don't you think" Finn exclaimed. He smiled knowing he would get a rise out of Poe.

You could see the expression change on Poe's face. He had feelings for Zorii since before we had met her. We never knew the history there. I don't actually think he would ever tell us.

"I think I'll go let Chewy know where we are, see if he wants some vegetables from Rey's garden". Poe rose from the table as he spoke.

"That would be a good idea. I can pack some up for your trip back to the base. I have lots" I stated. Standing up to grab some more. I had quite a large garden for only one person.

"Thanks Rey. That would be great. Better than what we packed for the trip" Poe left the hut and closed the door behind them. I can imagine that although the Resistance had won the war, their rations would be fairly low. They are probably eating similar dehydrated rations that I ate every day on Jakku. I shuttered at the thought of them.

When Poe left, the atmosphere in the hut changed. I could feel Finn's gaze on me.

"Rey, why are you lying?" he didn't move from his chair as he said this. Eyes focused on the back of my head. I wasn't sure how I would get out of this one.

"Lying about what?" I turned to face him. His expression still the same, unimpressed. I had to remember he was force sensitive. He could feel when I wasn't truthful.

Finn really was a true friend. The compassion he constantly showed me, when I hardly returned it. I would be wise to trust him. But I don't think he would understand. I walk around to the brown chair I had previously been sitting in, my hand trailing across the hard wood of the table as I walked. Maybe I should confide in Finn….

I sit down to face him. "I've been having reoccurring dreams… well nightmares really" I say with a bit of hesitation.

Finn leaned forward in his chair slightly. "Ok so, what kind of nightmares? Nightmares about Palpatine? Your grandfather?"

I look down and slide my hands from atop the table to my knees. It's as though I am a shy little girl again. "No… but I am on Exegol" I told him. Finn places his hand on my shoulder, and I turn to look at him.

"Rey, its ok. You can tell me" He could sense the hesitation in my voice.

"It's about Ben" the moment his name leaves my mouth he leans back into his chair , hand sliding off of my shoulder and Sighs.

"Rey.." he says in an agitated voice.

"No Finn, listen. You wanted to know; I am trying to be open with you". He purses his lips waiting for whatever I was about to say.

"It's as though I am living that experience all over again. One minute we are holding each other, then the next he is collapsed, and I am catching him. He is cold and there isn't anything I can do to bring him back" I begin to tear up as I talk about his death.

"I feel like a piece of me has been ripped out Finn. An empty hole in my chest, and I can't do anything to fill it" Finn takes my hand as I begin to cry.

"How can you say that though Rey. He murdered Han, his father right in front of us. He murdered so many of our allies" He exclaimed

"That was Kylo Ren, Supreme leader of the first order. But at the end of it he wasn't Kylo Ren anymore, he was Ben Solo, son of Leia Organa and Han Solo, a Jedi. He helped me defeat Palpatine. I wouldn't have had the strength without him" I try to get him to understand.

"Rey this still doesn't tell me about your injury. I know you didn't fall on some rocks or down a cliffside" He questioned. I could tell he was trying to change the conversation away from the topic of Ben. I wasn't sure how he felt. In the beginning, I thought me may have had feelings for me but then he found Rose.

"I've been having the same dream for over a year now except for the other night. In that dream I was being ambushed by someone... and Ben was talking to me, helping me, only there was someone else there I didn't know about. He pierced me with his saber." I look down and place a hand over my stomach. "It was the first time I heard his voice in a dream and the first time someone else was there"

Finn looked at me, he was clearly concerned "and when he stabbed you, you felt it and can still feel the wound outside of your dream? How does that even work?" He questioned.

"I don't know… But I would rather keep this between us. I don't want to tell Poe or anyone in the resistance" I explained. He understood. He even looked a little happy that I confided in him and only him. He deserved so much more; I wish I could be the friend that he wanted me to be.

"Between us" he said as he placed his hand on my knee. "But I still don't know if I'll ever fully understand the connection you had with..." he paused and sighed slightly "Ben solo".

I wouldn't ever expect him to understand the connection I had with Ben. We were a dyad, a rare connection in the force. I Truly missed him, even if our encounters weren't always amicable. We were always at battle trying to persuade the other to join them.

I hear chewy and Poe approaching my hut. It's easy to know when those two are around. They open the door and enter my small home. I stride over to Chewy and give him a hug, he lets out a small cry. "I missed you too chewy" I told him.

"Finn, we need to get going. We should get back to take care of a few things before Rey arrives" Poe stated.

They gathered their things and I packed them some vegetables to take with them. Talking to Finn felt like a weight was lifted off my chest. He was the first person I had confided in since Leia or Luke. I walked them back to the Falcon and disappear into the skyline.

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I finished the day and started getting ready to sleep dreading the dream I knew to follow. I started tidying and putting my clothes off to the side for tomorrow. I felt a ting of pain in my abdomen as I put them down.

"Your still in pain" I drop my clothes to the floor at the sounds of his voice. I turn my body around looking for him. "I can feel it too" he said.

"Ben?" I question. I don't search franticly for him as I have done before.

"I can't see you... Rey… I wish I could see you" he said with such sadness in his voice.

"Ben, where are you?" I questioned.

"I… don't know..." he said. "I feel weak though" I was anxious at the thought of him weakening.

"Can you see anything? Maybe if you describe your surroundings, I can find you… help you" I waited for a response, but he never answered.

After five minutes of silence I called his name again, "Ben?" I exclaimed.