Gordon was absent for most of the rest of Virgil's stay in the hospital. Fortunately, that stay wasn't very long, just one more night and Virgil suspected Grandma had had a word to the doctors to achieve that.

He slept most of it, comforted by the sound of Scott's breathing. His brother had to stay in a little longer considering his three days of non-responsiveness, but Grandma intervened and sent Virgil home to the Island.

It felt like banishment.

But he also felt like he deserved it for worrying his family so much.

At the time it had seemed the only logical course. He had to stay with Scott.

Just had to.

Stepping out of the situation clarified it for him somewhat and gave him his family's perspective, ever so clearly.

He vanished into his studio for two days.

Gordon had come home with him, obviously still playing the big brother tango thing that he and John obviously used as some kind of strategy to herd Scott and himself. It was somewhat ridiculous, but he could now see why.

There was more guilt, on top of guilt.

The paint was angry.

On the third day there was a knock on his studio door. "Virgil?"

John.

Virgil closed his eyes and sighed. Scott was returning today and the paint splattered all over the canvas he had been prodding since six in the morning was going nowhere.

There was a lot of blue.

So much blue.

"Virgil?"

He put down his paintbrush and realised there was also a lot of blue on him. He brushed at his shirt, but half of it was dry and the other half just smeared and made it worse.

All blue.

"Virg?"

"Come in." It was resigned.

The door unlatched and John peered into the room, eyes exploring in that critical way his little brother absorbed everything until they latched onto Virgil. "Hey."

"Hey." Virgil grabbed a rag and scrubbed off the wet paint on his hands. His skin crackled where some had dried.

Those eyes fixated on him, drifting down to the ankle and the crutches on the floor.

John sighed. "Virgil..."

The engineer connected the dots and pressed his lips together. "I'm fine. Stop worrying." To emphasise the point, he dragged over the stool he had been using for most of the morning and planted his butt on it. "See."

John's eyes lowered a little, but he didn't back down. Instead, he shut the door behind him and made his way over to Virgil. Grabbing another stool, he sat down next to him in front of the painting from a blue sculpted hell.

John's aquamarine eyes both blended and clashed with the colour scheme. "I sense a theme." It was said lightly, almost an invitation to truce.

"It sucks." The blue was smeared in streaks over more streaks. It spoke of canted speed and pain. Paint cracked again as Virgil tightened a fist.

It didn't go unnoticed.

"It wasn't your fault." Ever so quiet and calm.

And days worth of frustration and guilt surfaced. "I have the equipment, John. I should have scanned. One little scan and so much hurt could have been avoided."

"Fine. We will add infrastructure scans to our standard procedure. Name the type and we will do it."

The simple statement brought Virgil up short.

John raised an eyebrow. "You expected something else?" His expression softened. "No one is blaming you, Virgil. No one but yourself."

"Scott almost died."

"But he didn't."

"John..." He let his head drop. "I can't..."

A hand landed on his shoulder. "Virgil, you don't have to. Scott will be fine."

Virgil swallowed and turned back to his painting. An absent smear of blue with a thumb. He frowned and pushed himself to his feet. A finger here, another smear there. He grabbed his palette and added some red, still finger painting. White and a touch of Payne's grey, more blue and more white and for a moment he lost himself in the process.

"It's Thunderbird One." It was said quietly, but with awe. "How did you do that?"

Virgil didn't answer, grabbing a brush and, using the point at the end of the handle, scratched in the casual detail of his big brother's 'bird.

Lines he knew ever so well.

A fingernail of red and blue and Scott appeared aboard the facsimile of the rocket plane.

Virgil shuffled backwards on one foot. "I can't fly her."

He heard the frown rather than saw it. "Yes, you can."

"No. No, I'm not Scott. Never Scott." He turned to face his little brother as the emotions poured onto his face, raw and desperate. "I can't lose him, John. I can't."

Aquamarine eyes widened. "Virgil?"

Realising exactly what he was saying, Virgil turned away and put the paintbrush down and swallowed his fear. "You're right. I'll write new procedures. It won't happen again." He grabbed a rag and concentrated on scrubbing the paint off his fingers.

But John was having none of it, he grabbed Virgil by the shoulders. "Now you listen to me. You have four brothers. Four, Virgil. If the worst happens. We will work it out." Those hands tightened. "We. Will. Work. It. Out." John pulled him into his arms and he was being hugged ever so tight.

John's shirt was smooth against his cheek.

Virgil closed his eyes.

"I'm sorry." It made it past his tight throat.

John didn't respond other than to hold him even tighter.

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