"What happened with Naruto?" Itachi's tone sounded indifferent as if he didn't care about the answer.

"I don't want to talk about it. Just fuck me, Itachi." Sasuke was tired of thinking and rethinking about the conversation he had with Naruto. He had expected it to be hard to start and keep such a relationship but the beginning had been promising. They were getting closer and enjoying each other's company and it seemed that Naruto even started to trust him, trust that he wasn't like his friends. But then Naruto had to figure it out and he had to be so sensitive about it.

If it was just the blowjob mess then Sasuke could fix it with an apology and some minor things that made the blonde happy, after all Naruto was not hard to please. But the other mess he didn't know how to fix. Naruto had realized that Sasuke had sex before and wanted answers and Sasuke didn't want to lie to him since that would only create a bigger mess, still he can't tell him the truth.

A smirk appeared on the older boy's lips as he watched Sasuke spread his legs for him. "Someone's impatient today." Currently he was using Itachi as a distraction, a way to escape the harsh reality so he needed Itachi to just fuck his brain.

"You're always impatient so you can't complain." He didn't bother to hide his irritation in his voice. Why did Itachi have to be so damn annoying at such a time? Didn't he let his older brother tease him enough? Why couldn't he just this once make things easy for him?

"Yes but you know how much I love to tease you." One slender, pale finger slid inside Sasuke's puckered entrance and moved just enough to tease the boy.

"Itachi please…just this once." He was begging with a tired voice already and it didn't even begin. He wasn't in the mood, not really he just wanted to escape.

"Not unless you tell me what happened. He left in a hurry this morning not even staying for breakfast."

"We had a fight, satisfied?" a second finger was added to rub the insides of the smaller boy.

"Why?"

"Because he can't sort his feelings and I'm getting tired of waiting for him to do so." It was only half of a lie because although they didn't fight because of that Sasuke was growing impatient with Naruto.

Itachi seemed satisfied because he granted Sasuke's request.

As Sasuke lay on the cold marble floor in the candle lit bathroom watching the light effects on the ceiling, tears fell down his cheeks. He needed Itachi to distract him; he needed to escape the hell in his own mind.

"He hurts you…I won't forgive him for that." Itachi said thrusting Sasuke gently.

"Move faster." Focusing on the feeling of being filled and split by Itachi as the dick inside him hit his prostate again and again he tried to forget Naruto but it was hard especially since he could still taste the blonde.

It hurt but there was nothing he could do to fix this mess.

Ever since he and Itachi started messing around he knew that their parents must never find out. No one must find out, ever. He didn't understand why, he was only ten, but as time passed he understood that such a relationship between brothers was not only not normal but also unacceptable. He didn't care though. As long as they kept it secret he was ok with it. Now however he blamed Itachi for dragging him into this mess.

What would Naruto think of him if he knew? But if he didn't know he would think that Sasuke was screwing around and would never think to have a serious relationship with him. No, Naruto can't find out.

At school they barely spoke but Sauske caught Naruto look his way a few times. He was a mess not having slept well the previous night. Itachi had fucked him a few times after Naruto left on Saturday morning but it wasn't enough and he wondered if anything would ever be enough from now.

He had been thinking of Naruto as Itachi fucked him and that had never happened before. It had only been him and Itachi during their intimate moments in both room and his mind but now thoughts of the blonde flooded his mind. His smile, his laugh and his frustrated expression during their fight were etched in Sasuke's mind and he could see them clearly when he closed his eyes.

"Let's get that tramp." Sai said when he saw Naruto who was trying to have lunch.

Sasuke's eyes met Naruto's for a brief moment before Sasuke turned to Sai. "Forget him. Look at those losers." His gaze moved to three eleven year olds who were a bit further away. There were two boys and a girl, one boy that looked like a nerd and probably was one and another one who would have looked normal if it wasn't for the oversized knitted blue scarf draped around his neck. The girl looked like a tomboy in spite of her hair tied in loose pigtails. "They need the fashion police to get them."

Neji smirked and Gaara nodded at his comment and that was enough for Sai to go grab the end of the blue scarf. It was too long for the boy and he was dragging it all over the courtyard so the ends were dusty.

Gaara went to grab the only girl in the group and pulled her pig tails while Neji stole the other boy's glasses and was teasing him. Sasuke joined Sai into teasing the boy with long scarf until a teacher came and gave them detention.

After school Naruto passed by him on his way out of the class and stopped a few feet away from his desk. "I didn't think you would stoop so low to pick on younger kids, Sasuke." In an instant he was at Naruto's throat, pinning him against the wall and almost choking him with the hand wrapped around the tanned, slender neck.

"I wasn't picking on younger kids just on Konohamaru, the principal's grandson and I only did it to save your sorry ass." He whispered in the blonde's ear so that his friends wouldn't hear. "He always has Ebisu watching him." Letting go of Naruto he returned to his seat quietly. Naruto gave him one last concerned look before leaving the room.

One day Naruto noticed that instead of going home after school Sasuke went to the roof. Naruto never went to the roof. It was the place where the rich kids hang out and going there would be like asking for a beating but this time he figured that Sasuke would be alone. He had already seen Gaara, Neji and Sai leave so there was a chance for him to be safe if he went to the roof.

Opening the door he saw Sasuke leaning against the wall. The raven didn't acknowledge his presence instead he took a drag from his cigarette and focused on the smoke trail that left his lips.

"I wanted to thank you for earlier…you know when you got detention… It ruined your perfect record." Naruto's voice betrayed his discomfort and Sasuke wondered if it was because he was on the roof or because he was talking to Sasuke.

"Don't worry about it but don't come here again. I won't be able to protect you if you do and someone else is here."

"I know." There was a moment of awkward silence before Naruto spoke again. "Why won't you tell me who was your first, Sasuke?" Sasuke was expecting that question to rise up again at some point he just didn't know when. It didn't matter though because he would never really be ready to make the confession.

"What would you do if I told you?"

"I….I don't know." Sasuke looked at him for the first time since Naruto stepped on the roof and took another drag from the cigarette.

"Then I have no reason to tell you." He had no intention to anyway. It was eating him up inside to hide something from Naruto but he didn't see any other way.

Naruto left and went home, leaving Sasuke alone on the roof.

As he lay on his bed he thought about that evening at the swimming pool. He couldn't get Sasuke's lewd face out of his mind as he ravished the raven. Absentmindedly his hand reached his pants and undid the zipper. Closing his eyes he began to stroke his erection trying to get the same feeling as back then but it wasn't enough. His strokes became more urgent but it was not enough, nothing compared to Sasuke's mouth around him. He came in his hand, panting from the effort and pleasure but not completely satisfied.

"Shit." If only Sasuke wasn't so stubborn.

Sasuke had saved him from bullying quite a few times lately, especially from his friends and he even risked detention one time which he was probably punished for at home. That counted for something in Naruto's agenda, it was proof that Sasuke cared about him, that Sasuke meant it when he said that he loved him.

About a week later Naruto was sure his feelings for Sasuke were more than a crush. He came while thinking of Sasuke more times than he could count and he had to do something about it. He had to tell Sasuke how he felt.

There was no way to talk to Sasuke at school since he was always with his friends so on Saturday he dressed in Sasuke's clothes that he borrowed the last time he had been there and went to the Uchiha residence.

It was Itachi who opened the door for him and the raven tilted his head to the side slightly, measuring him from head to toe.

"What can I do for you?" He asked politely but Naruto could tell from his tone that the older boy was not glad to see him again. That was not important though.

"I need to see Sasuke." Naruto said with urgency in his voice.

"He's in his room but I don't think that he wants to see you."

"Please Itachi, let me talk to him." The raven made a step to the side and Naruto passed by him and headed to Sasuke's room. He knocked on the door and was told to enter but once Sasuke realized who it was his expression changed and he became alert.

"I love you." Naruto blurted out.

"Close the fucking door and don't spurt such things when my parents are at home." Sasuke hissed, obviously angry.

"Sorry." In the heat of the moment he had forgotten that these things were supposed to be kept secret from the parents. "But I mean it." He closed the door behind him but was afraid to make one more step into the room. "I'm sure now."

"So?"

"I want us to be more but there's one thought that torments me."

"Who did I give blow jobs to?"

"That and…"

"And?"

"What else did you do?"

"I can answer your second question but not the first one." Naruto felt a knot in his stomach as he waited for Sasuke's answer. He didn't know why the thought of Sasuke having experience with sex at such a young age affected him so much but it did. "He fucked me." Sasuke's gaze never left the blonde, watching his expression carefully. Naruto felt his knees melt under him and he leaned against the door.

"How many times?" If it was a one night stand when Sasuke had been drunk he could probably learn to deal with it. If it was a mistake that Sasuke was regretting, he could learn to deal with that too.

"More than I can count."

"So it wasn't a one-time…" Sauske shook his head.

"Why is it so important to you though? I love you, isn't that enough?" Sasuke didn't want to sound desperate, if there was one thing he learned from his father that was to control his expression and hide his emotions. They were essential survival skills in the Uchiha household.

Both Itachi and Sasuke learned from a young age to control themselves and stay cold and proud even when their whole world was crumbling, when they felt like crying their eyes out or when their hearts were torn apart.

"Of course that means a lot and I want us to date." Getting up from his bed, Sasuke went to where Naruto was standing and cupped the tanned cheeks. Naruto melted under the touch and wrapped his arms around Sasuke's waist. The raven closed the distance between them in a gentle kiss and Naruto's grip around him tightened. He kissed Sasuke back with hunger and need and felt the temperature in the room rise with every kiss and touch.

After a while Sasuke pulled back. "Are you feeling better?"

"Yeah…" but that was not entirely true because Naruto was overwhelmed by insecurities.

"Do you want to stay here tonight?" Naruto nodded although he had never planned to stay when he came.

"Will I get the guest room?"

"Of course." Naruto looked a bit disappointed and that didn't go unnoticed. "But you can sleep here if you want. I want to make it up to you for not being able to tell you what you want."

Sasuke announced his parents that Naruto will be sleeping over since they had some school work to do and the blonde was properly introduced to Fugaku and Mikoto as the new exchange student from Suna. Mikoto began to overwhelm Naruto with questions that made the blonde feel quite lost since he had never prepared answers beforehand but luckily Sauske interfered and saved him by telling his parents that they had homework to do so they'd be going upstairs and start working.

Itachi watched everything unfold from the side and said nothing until Naruto reached the stairs. The older boy grabbed his arm, stopping him in his tracks.

"Don't hurt him anymore." Was all Itachi said but Naruto sensed in his tone that it was meant to be a threat not a request.

"What's wrong?" Sasuke asked him once they were in the safety of Sasuke's room away from prying ears.

"I can't help but think that I'm not good enough for you." He had that thought before and brushed it off but Itachi had brought it back by telling him that he had hurt Sasuke. He never meant to do that.

"Why?"

"Because I hurt you."

"I hurt you too. I want to make it up to you though. Come here." They lay on the bed and Sasuke wrapped an arm around him holding him tight. It felt good and right but it was not what he expected it to be when you have a boyfriend. Were they boyfriends now? Could they be when there so many insecurities and secrets? "Naruto?" Sasuke broke the silence that settled between them.

"Hm?"

"You never told me about your parents. What happened?"

"Mom died when I was born and dad when I was five in an accident. Kurama and I moved with our godparents. They were nice but Jiraya was a porn writer and Tsunade was an addicted gambler and Kurama said they were a bad influence for me so when Kurama turned eighteen we went back home and he started working.

"That's really thoughtful of him. I can tell that he loves you a lot."

"He does. I think he's the best brother I could have had."

"Does he know about the bullying?" Naruto shook his head.

"I can't tell him that. He'd be concerned and he tried so hard to get me in Konoha saying it's the best school in town."

"I'm glad he did because I got to meet you." Sasuke pressed his lips against Naruto's but this time it was more than the usual peck, he poured all his feelings for the blonde in one kiss and when he tried to pull back Naruto pulled him in another needy kiss. He didn't want this bitter sweet feeling to end, ever.

"So what now?" He asked the raven when they parted for air.

"What do you mean?"

"What are we, Sasuke?"

"What do you want?"

"I feel like you'd slip away from my fingers if you weren't my boyfriend."

"What do you mean? I wouldn't leave you."

"Maybe but you'd belong to someone else." Sasuke was at a loss of words to comfort Naruto. What could he say? That it was just sex? Because it wasn't, there was love too and still is but a different kind of love. That he regrets it? He doesn't although this relationship had complicated things with Naruto.

So instead he said. "I'm sorry I hurt you." It hurt Sasuke too, his heart ached to see Naruto hurt. He wanted Naruto to smile like he did on that day at the pool. He wanted to see that smile again and he wanted to be the one who made his blonde smile but he was the cause of more pain.

"What are you afraid of?" Naruto asked him with pleading eyes. Sasuke looked in those mesmerizing blue eyes and caressed a tanned cheek.

"Of losing you."

"You think I'd leave you if I knew?" Sasuke nodded and Naruto's expression changed to concern. What exactly did Sasuke think of him? He was just a simple boy and he didn't have the values of people in high society. He would never leave Sasuke because he loved him, he knew that now. He would learn to accept Sasuke's past as long as Sasuke kept his promise to him and was faithful to him.