Trigger warning. Please do not read this chapter if you struggle with any depression or suicidal thoughts.
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Theo hears a knock on the door.
"Come in." He says.
"Hey." Liam says awkwardly.
"Can I help you?" Theo asks.
"Yeah. I wanted to apologize for being a little much I guess. Mason said I was overbearing and ignored what you wanted. He is pretty honest about things which is good. I am just trying to help, but I understand I may not always be as helpful as I think I am." Liam says.
Theo sighs.
He looks at the Little Alpha who has a look of sadness. He seems sincere and in Liam's defense, it is not like Theo is a normal friend to have. Most people would probably want the help. He just needs some time to adjust to whatever this new world is for him is.
"I know that. It is fine. I just need space right now." Theo says as nicely as he can.
"Ok. I can do that. Does that mean you don't want us around at all?" Liam asks.
Theo hates when he does that. Liam has this look on his face like someone has killed his favorite pet. He is very expressive, and he seems to care a lot about people. Theo just does not care that much about people. Well, not like Liam does at least. He feels like he sort of cares more about this little pack than before, but he still has to be careful with getting attached to things or people. If the dread doctors taught him anything, it is that people and things are temporary. He always remembers that.
"No. I just want to be alone for a while. I do not need to be followed around at school. I may take a break from these hang out sessions. It is not forever Liam. I just want to sort some things out." Theo explains.
"OK, but do you promise to text me or whatever if you change your mind or need help?" Liam asks.
Theo has never promised anything to anyone in his life. That is not what he does. He cannot be bound by promises or feelings of being indebted to people. Unfortunately, since Liam brought Theo back from hell, he is indebted to him. This is part of the reason why he needs to sort things out.
"Yes, but I still live here. You will still see me in the mornings and evenings." Theo says slightly annoyed.
"OK." Liam says.
Liam shuts the door and leaves the room. Theo is not sure why, but he feels kind of bad. He is not one to care about anyone's feelings, but the Little Wolf seems to not be just anyone.
Theo decides to get some sleep.
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Theo wakes up the next morning. He checks his phone and looks at the date. This date he remembers every well. When he was nine it was the day, he let his sister die. Or watched her die really. He normally does not let it bother him, but since coming back from hell he seems to feel everything all the time. He decides today is not a school type of day.
He rolls back over and tries to sleep through the day. Sleep does not come though. He tries but he keeps waking up every ten minutes and checking the clock. He decides to just get up. He showers and waits until everyone has left the house to go downstairs.
He remembers playing as a kid with Tara. She seemed to be somewhat of a normal girl. They fought sometimes. They got along and sometimes they even played together. She was not that much older, and Theo remembers when the dread doctors told him to take her heart, it was not an easy decision. He needed to be convinced that Tara wanted him to do it. That she wanted him to have his heart. He regrets that decision every day. He wishes it were him instead of Tara that died. Maybe that way no one would have bothered Scott's pack and he would be better off dead anyway.
He decides he should probably get out a while. He turns his phone off and heads out. He grabs a little vile he has been saving.
He drives to the bridge where Tara died. He drops the flowers he always does on the anniversary of her death. It feels different today though. He wonders if it is because of hell. Maybe being in hell broke something inside of Theo. He waits for the pain to subside, but it does not. He sits down on the bridge with his feet dangling over the side.
Maybe Corey was on to something? Maybe he has been looking in the past for too long. He has not been solving the problem, but just putting it off. He is the problem. He is the one who has been dragging everyone down. He killed some people and helped create the beast. He needs to start taking accountability for his actions.
Theo looks around and sees it is nightfall. He must have been out her a while. He decides it is only fair to go the same way Tara did. He gets into the water and sits there. It is not the perfect solution, but he did take some wolfsbane to slow down his healing, so he is hoping it is going to work. He is not sure how long he has been here.
He looks up at the night sky and wonders what it must feel like to be apart of something. To feel whole. Right now, he does not want to feel anything at all. He starts to shiver but it does not feel as bad as he thought it would. He imagines Tara feeling cold and afraid under the bridge. He remembers looking at her and her asking for help. He did not help though, he did nothing. He sat there and watched.
What kind of a monster did Liam bring back?
He continues to wait. He does not know how much time has passed but he cannot see much anymore. He can barely hear anything either. What was his purpose in life? What was he supposed to accomplish? It cannot be to kill Tara. That did not help or do anything. Maybe some people do not have a purpose. Maybe that is what he has been supposed to learn all along.
He feels defeated and sad. He cannot want to feel absolutely nothing at all. He has not felt nothing in a while. He used to feel nothing.
He remembers when he first came back to Beacon Hills and nothing bothered him. He was invincible and did not care for anyone. Now look at him.
He must be a real failure as the dread doctors said. He hopes they will not destroy his truck. Maybe they can give it to someone that needs it. It is the only thing he has left. Although, he would not want it if he was someone else. It does not mean the same to anyone else. It is all he has to his name though.
"Theo? What are you doing?" He hears a voice say.
He cannot see much but he sees a light being shined on him. Who is looking for him?
"Sheriff I found him." A voice says.
He hears rustling and a few voices.
"Parrish can you help me and grab that?" Sheriff Stiliniski asks.
Theo feels himself hoisted up and pulled from underneath the bridge. He feels something thrown over him and gets escorted back towards the forest clearing.
He looks around and sees himself sitting in a cop car. Why can't cops just leave him alone. He was not bothering anyone this time or sleeping anywhere.
He sees the door open and looks up to see Sheriff Stilinkis looking back at him.
"Do you have someone I can call?" The Sheriff asks.
"No." Theo says.
"Are you sure because I got about 35 phone calls from Liam." The Sheriff explains.
Oh God. He cannot let Liam know any of this. He can only imagine how he would react. Who else would he call though?
"Can I just go somewhere else in my truck?" Theo asks.
"No. Not when I found you under the bridge in the water like that. I have to call someone. You have about 5 seconds to decide on who, or I will be calling the Greyer household." Sheriff Stilinki says.
Theo does not have family or friends. It is not that simple. Everyone acts like he has some people on standby, but he does not. Not anymore. He does not really want to deal with the Greyer's though.
"Can I just leave Beacon Hills?" Theo asks.
Sheriff Stilinski shuts the door, and he hears him on the phone.
Maybe he can make a break for it. He feels too cold though. He is slowly healing due to the wolfsbane. He cannot handle people right now though.
The Sheriff gets in and starts driving. He does not ask where they are going. He should ask about his truck, but it really does not seem to be high on the Sheriff's priority list. The Sheriff comes to a stop and he looks at Theo.
"Hey." He hears a familiar voice say.
Theo turns to his window and sees Nolan standing there. Nolan? He called Nolan.
That is interesting. It is better than Liam though. He gets out and the Sherriff walks him to the door. He says something to Nolan that Theo cannot really hear.
He heads inside and sits down on the couch.
"Are your parents here?" Theo asks.
"No. Do you want some new clothes that are dry?" Nolan asks.
"It doesn't matter." Theo says.
Nolan gives him clothes anyway and Theo goes to change in the bathroom. He finishes drying off and comes out.
"NOLAN. WHAT THE HELL IS THE MATTER WITH YOU? I OUGHT TO KILL YOU." Theo says in anger.
He sees Liam standing there in Nolan's living room.
"Theo, I called Nolan. I was trying to figure out where you were. I know what today is." Liam says.
"How? How do you know what today is?" Theo asks.
"Because I pay attention." Liam says.
Well, this is unexpected. No one has ever really paid attention to him before unless they needed something. However, right now Liam does not need anything. Theo looks at him suspiciously.
"Can you please come home." Liam says.
It does not sound like a question.
Theo does not like being ordered around, but he is really tired. He is always tried, but a lot more now than usual. He reluctantly follows Liam out to his car. Liam starts the car and does not say anything while they drive. Theo is not sure if that is a good or bad thing. He looks mad.
"You know I would have probably lost my sanity if I received a call saying you were dead. I almost lost it today because I knew you were off dealing with this alone. "Liam says.
"I am alone Liam." Theo points out.
"No, you are not. I wish you would stop saying that. Corey was worried about you too. So were my parents." Liam explains.
"Why?" Theo asks.
"Because you matter Theo, and you matter to me." Liam says.
Theo feels weird. He is not sure what the feeling is that he is experiencing. He tries to ignore it but it doesn't seem to be going away.
He sees Liam pull up next to his truck.
"I knew you would want it, so I called Corey and Mason to come get it. They will drop it off at the house. Then we can discuss what is going on. I think it is time. Whether you like it or not." Liam says.
Theo looks at him.
Liam has a very bossy side apparently.
He feels that odd feeling again. He is trying to figure out what it means. He watches while Corey and Mason pull up beside them. Mason waives and gets into the truck. Theo is not very happy someone is driving his truck, but Liam does not seem to be in a arguing mood.
They drive back to Liam's house and Mason gives Theo's keys back to Liam. Mason and Corey do not say anything to Theo, but they waive and drive off.
Theo follows Liam into the house. He gets bombarded with a hug immediately from Jenna. She looks sad but not angry. Dr. Greyer does not say anything, he just nods towards Theo.
Theo goes up the stairs and gets into bed. He hears a knock on the door. He already knows who it is, so he doesn't say anything.
Liam walks in and sits down on the bed beside him.
He hands Theo his phone. He waits. Theo turns it on and looks at Liam suspiciously. He sees a bunch of missed calls and texts go off. He supposes this is some lesson Liam is trying to teach him, but Theo doesn't need a lesson. He does not want people to check on him.
"Little Wolf I do not want to stay her anymore." Theo says.
"Ok, well guess I am going with you." Liam says.
"Liam, no." Theo says annoyed.
"Too bad." Liam says stubbornly.
"You can't go where I am going." Theo says.
"Where are you going?" Liam asks.
"I think I would go back to hell." Theo says.
He never believed in anything before, but clearly hell was a real place. Just maybe not in the way everyone imagines. He is certain he is going to go back to there when he dies. Why not get it over with?
"You are not going to hell. You're going to sleep." Liam says.
Liam slides into bed with Theo and puts the cover over himself and Theo.
"I did not say you were okay to stay in here." Theo complains.
"Well, I didn't say you could go to hell without me. "Liam argues back.
Theo knows what this annoying feeling is now, and he does not like it. Not at all.