AN: New chapter this is quite a slow burn and the chapters are lengthy thats why it takes so long to update.
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Kisses...
A week later.
Santana has become more distant and Brittany has chosen to ignore it because she is honestly sick of it and since Santanas brain is MIA there's no point in even trying to talk to her. Devon hasn't been home in a week but Santana didn't seem to notice and Brittany didn't care but what she did care was when Myles asked if mommy still loved him whilst tucking him in bed. Thats when she stormed into the bathroom. "Santana Marie Lopez!" She shouted stopping in her tracks when she saw Santana snorting the white powder that drove in between them "What the hell!" Brittany practically screamed.
"Its just a little white line I'll be fine." She brushed off wiping her nose afterwards.
"Santana I'm over it at first I thought it was a tiny slip up and the drinking here and there was okay but now your doing drugs again after it almost killed you. I can't san I can't ." Brittany started to cry. "You have one week to get it together before me and the kids are moving out. Did you know Myles asked if you still love him. Luna poor Luna she's scared of you San you used to be the only person she would speak confidently to but now she's scared of you. Cruz is so distant now to I can't reach him, I've had at least 5 calls from the school about him fighting. Devon is at her dads I hope I haven't seen her in a week anyway. Brandons called as well. But you're so far gone you don't even see it and I miss you San." Brittany ranted kissing Santana on the forehead before leaving.
"I miss me too." Santana whispered. Tears streaming down her face. She let out a breath and walked into her bedroom, tears springing back as she saw Brittany far away from Santanas side as humanly possible. "I love you my Britt-Britt." She whispered sliding into bed and closing her eyes wishing this devil wasn't clawing its way back into her life.
The next morning was a Saturday thank God. Brittany had always been an early riser so she rolled out of bed letting Santana stay in bed. She went to make breakfast, the house was silent it was 7:30 and all the kids were like Santana in the fact they liked their sleep even Cruz who wasn't biologically hers and Milo who went to sleep at 8:30 and normally didn't wake up till nine. The only other person in the house was Luna, she was quite really quite like you wouldn't know she was in a room unless you saw her. Which is odd considering she's 8 . Brittany decided to make smoothie bowls since she kept seeing them on her instagram starting up the blender she turned around to get the bowls, jumping out of her skin when she saw Luna sitting at the kitchen island, "Lulu. You scared me." Brittany breathed her hand on her heart.
"sorry," Luna whispered. Looking down her curls falling over her face like she was trying to hide herself behind her hair.
"Its okay Luna Q, I just wasn't expecting to see you. Is there anything you need?" Brittany asked leaning across the island.
"At school they said I was a crack baby and they kept making fun of me and mommy, I just wanted to know if that's true." Luna asked never making eye contact once.
"No it's not true not at all." Brittany reassured going round to comfort her. "Don't listen to them me and your mommy had you out of love and what anyone else says is never going to change that."
Luna nodded, "is there anything wrong with me?" She asked thinking about when the kids at school calling her defected.
"No Lulu you are perfect." Brittany said pushing Luna's hair behind her ear.
Luna didn't look convinced, "is there a test I can take maybe go to the doctors? just to make sure." Luna tried. Getting slightly upset.
"Yeah of course we can I'll book you an appointment." Brittany said desperately trying to calm her daughter.
Luna hugged Brittany, "thank you momma."
The two set the table and placed the smoothie bowls and toppings on the table when Cruz slugged in and Santana with Myles on on her hip rubbing his eyes, all their messed up Brittany couldn't help but snap a picture, "Good morning, sleepy heads." She laughed. Receiving grumbles in response.
Fabray residence
Quinn and Amelia were sitting at the table while Amelia went on about some boy called Jenson. "And I love him but I haven't told him because I'm scared he wont like me back but I was speaking to Tomas and he said that he totally likes me back but I think Tomas has a crush on me so he could be lying since he always sends ,e message asking about my day at school." She explained for like the 100th time. "i just love Jenson and I want to marry him and have his babies."
Quinn's eyes bulged, "Honey you're a little too young to know what love is I mean you only just turned 14."
Amelia rolled her eyes. She loved her mom but she babied her a lot. "In March mom. If its not love, then what am I feeling?"
"Sweetie I think it's just a crush." Amelia huffed, "Anyway your dad will be here soon so go get your shoes on." Quinn said.
Amelia looked at her mom, "Mom dads not the plague you don't have to make that face every time you say talk about him."
"Oh honey you clearly don't know your father."
After Amelia left Quinn didn't know what to do she had the doctors appointment with Devon later but write now she decided to write her book she had already gotten notes from her mother so she just had to write them out. 20 minutes go by and there's a knock at the door followed by several knocks. "Im coming!" She shouted annoyed.
She opened the door to be met with a hysterical Devon. "Oh honey whats up?" She asked guiding her into the house.
"Im late." She sobbed.
"No honey you're early the doctors appointment isn't till 3 and it's 11." Quinn said confused about the breakdown.
"No not that I'm late for my period and I'm scared." She sobbed some more.
"Oh honey." Quinn gasped pulling Devon into a hug. "Its okay you're gonna be okay." She tried.
"How is this okay?"
"Because if you are, I'm here for you I was a mom at 16 I get it and I can help you look at the different options better then I did. Your mom and dad are here you too. Nutsy you have a great support system."
Devon nodded wiping her tears, "I know I'm just so scared what if I am and then I fail or give them up and then regret it like you did? How am I going to tell my mom she's gonna freak and she's already on some downward spiral and I want to help her but I can't get within two feet of her because of miss perfect dancer."
"Stop stressing we will fight every battle as it comes and I will always be here for you. But I do have to ask you is Trevor the father?"
Devon froze for a moment, "No." She said quietly.
"I thought you said he never went in you but f he's not then who is?" Quinn asked even more confused.
"Romeo." Devon stated simply.
"Wait what?" Quinn asked mega confused.
Devon sighed, "I just didn't want Trevor to be the last person to touch me." She whispered tears falling.
"oh honey." Quinn cooed pulling her into a tight hug.
SANTANA STUDIO.
Santana sat at the writing table in her studio, willing herself to write, but nothing was coming out. Then she found the red wine she stashed in it and walked over picking it up. She laughed at how pathetic she was being but she still unscrewed it and took a big swig then going back to her bag taking the heroin needle out and piercing her skin. Half an hour and the wine bottle later she had a song. Wobbling into the recording booth, clumsily placing the head phones on she closed her eyes.
I got no excuses for all of these goodbyes
Call me when it's over, 'cause I'm dying inside
Wake me when the shakes are gone
And the cold sweats disappear
Call me when it's over and myself has reappeared
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely
Momma, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please, forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
I'm sorry to my only love for the why that I have dealt
For not loving you the way I saved inside my head
And I'm sorry for the fans I lost who watched me fall again
I wanna be a role model, but I'm only human
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know why
I do it every, every, every time
It's only when I'm lonely
Sometimes I just wanna cave and I don't wanna fight
I try and I try and I try and I try and I try
Just hold me, I'm lonely
Momma, I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
And daddy, please, forgive me for the drinks spilled on the floor
To the ones who never left me, we've been down this road before
I'm so sorry, I'm not sober anymore
I'm not sober anymore
I'm sorry that I'm here again, I promise I'll get help
It wasn't my intention, I'm sorry to myself
she sobbed to herself, then passed out on the studio floor.
Doctors appointment
Quinn and Devon had just gotten out of the exam room. Quinn was trying to comfort a hysterical Devon who had just been told she is in fact pregnant. Quinn can't help but see herself in this situation.
"Quinn what am I going to do?" She sobbed. Everything was so real now she was having a baby at 16. She couldn't do this. "Quinn I can't do this I want my mom, I just want to forget and be done I don't want a baby I want to be normal again like before mom OD'd I want to be 3 again Quinn please." She sobbed. Breaking down in the doctors waiting room.
"Oh baby girl I know I know what you're feeling but let's get you back to mine and relax you and then we can talk about. Whats going on" Quinn said leading Devon to the car. Sending Santana and mike a text saying Devon will be at staying at her tonight. Mike respond straight away with an okay and there was no reply from Santana which was odd but Quinn ignored it she really didn't want to play that game again with Santana. Not knowing where she is, if she's dead or alive. She can't do that again. It took years of therapy to get over seeing her blue lifeless body on the bed. Right now her attention was on the soon to be teen mom.
Brittany.
Brittany was able to get Luna a doctors appointment at 6 so here she was sitting down waiting for Luna to be done. They had to have a private doctor because of their fame made it difficult for them to go anywhere. The doctors wouldn't let her go through incase she influenced Luna or something. She had tried to contact Santana but got no response and put it down to her being in the studio since she did get a next saying she will be held up in the booth to get her album finished.
an hour later Luna came walking out her curls covering her face again. The nurse following behind with a bag of some sorts. Brittany stood up and walked over to her tai=king Luna's hand. "I take it you're her mother?" The nurse asked, smiling.
"Yes is everything okay." Brittany asked smiling.
"Actually can you follow me to my office please." Brittany nodded and sat in the chair opposite the desk. "Well Miss Luna here seems to have GAD which is Generalised Anxiety disorder. Which is quite rare for a young child, so its mandatory we had to ask if everything is okay at home and she said it was so I'm quite confused where its come from."
"Well we are in the lime light a lot and I think the kids at school are giving her a hard time." Brittany explained.
"Ahh yes for someone so young that can be a lot so we have some medication she is to take when pill when she wakes up after breakfast and then one when she gets tucked into bed to ensue she can sleep peacefully and there's also an inhaler she will need on her at all times to be safe." The nurse explained.
Brittany and Luna left the doctors, Brittany sent a text to Santana telling her to call her asap but got no response.
the song is sober by Demi Lovato. Santana is getting deeper. i love the Quinn and devon relationship. we saw more of Luna TBC i love you XO di