The sunrise was peering in to the tent. Jenna's eyes blinked open and she sat up swiftly. Jax was past out snoring on the other side of the bed. She knew that nothing had happen but she couldn't believe she let her slip that far to let him win again. Jenna quickly got dressed and grabbed her purse. She wanted to leave and not say another word about it. Looking around she seen Abel sleeping in his sleeping bag. He looked peaceful and innocent but she had to take him home before Jax woke up and tried to woo her back like he always did. As she gathered Abel's things with in the tent he started to wake up. rubbing his eyes he looked at his mom and ask "What's wrong mommy?" "Nothing hunny. I'm just getting our stuff ready to got home. you can go back to sleep if you want." She said to her son kneeling down to kiss his head in a soft voice . "no i'm up now. but why are we whispering mommy?"he was always asking questions at his age because he just wanted to know. Jenna said in his ear "cause daddy is asleep n its really early. But we do have to go home cause mommy forgot her medication for sissy and you start day camp tomorrow."Abel's face lit up because she had not given him an answer on if he could go or not. It was a day camp that was in charming that all of his school friends were going to and he had to go. He hugged her tightly and whispered in her ear "Thank you Mommy"She could hear his excitement and she knew it would be for the best since she had to start working a regular 9 to 5 at the studio just to keep an income since she was gonna be the stubborn type and not ask Jax for anything. "Don't worry about changing you can stay in your pjs cause its still early."She said softly grabbing his overnight bag and making sure she had everything. Jenna was trying to make this quick as possible cause she didn't want to face Jax after last night. Even though she didn't do anything with him she felt disgusted with herself for giving in and just sticking with the routine they have always had.

Abel crawled out of his sleeping bag in his superman pj shirt and shorts and slips his socks and sneakers on. Jenna smiled as she peered back into the other area of the tent and Jax was still fast asleep. she breathed a sigh of relief thinking she was going to be able to escape with out the banter or the bullshit which ever would come from her choices. Jenna slowly unzipped the outer tent seal so they could exit. She did it slowly just so she knew jax wouldn't wake up. Stepping outside the tent she seen a few people still up from the night before or ones who were just waking up. Jenna just looked up at the sky which was turning a pretty pinkish orange. Pulling out her phone she took a picture of the sunrise. "Good morning." a familiar voice said from behind her. Jenna jumped and turned around to see Happy standing behind her. She had always had a crush on him since he came from Tacoma but she was always Jax's old lady. She gave him a hug and smiled "Good Morning to you too." she said looking around as she seen Abel come out of the tent and zip it up. "You guys headed home?"Happy asked. Wrapping her hair up in a messy bun she said "yeah i forgot my medications. Plus i have to get him use to the new place."that was another thing she would have to break to her son. Which made her heart break at the thought of not going to their actual home but this was for the best. "want an escort?" Happy asked her. He had been up all night from the blow he did with a few of the other guys. Jenna smirked and put her sunglasses. "might as well. I don't want his highness to think i left with out telling anyone." She hated this life but it is what she knew. Looking back she noticed Abel tying his shoes by himself. He usually had a difficult time with that. "want help?"She asked but he shook his head no.

Jenna smirked and said "Ok Mister Independent. Git'r'Done." he was growing up so fast and he was smart and Jenna knew that. She knew he knew more that he lead on. But she was scared of what he may know that would hurt her the most. So she never really talked about it. But today was gonna be the hardest day of her life cause she knew that he might hate her and wanna go home to Jax once he found out they were moving out of the only home he ever knew into a 3 bedroom condo where there was no yard to play in or friends around for either of them really. But she couldn't let her mind slip to that. She noticed he was having issues and she asked "Want Happy to help?" Abel was ready to give up and just tuck it into his shoes or go barefoot. He said with a groan "okay" Happy smirked and knelt down showing him slowly how to do it. Jenna smirked and let some of her own thought and lust creep in her mind as she bit her lip watching Happy with her son. Abel and Happy were like best friends especially when he started running everywhere. She watched them do their special hand shake and smirked at it. "Ready champ?" Jenna asked as she grabbed his over night bag and her purse. Abel nodded his head and took her hand to walk with her. Happy followed a few paces behind her. If Jax only understood the words he said last night that people at his own table wanted her he wasn't lying. He was speaking of himself without outing himself. Happy had been pretty much been apart of Abel's life since he was born and always the one to tail Jenna for Jax since he knew she would always evade the prospects. So he has seen her at her lowest and heard the thing that they spew at each other. Happy pulled a cigarette from his vest and lit it up knowing it was gonna be a long day especially once Jax did wake up from his druken slumber.

As they walked through the back yard Gemma and Nero were sitting on the patio sipping coffee. Jenna tried to avoid eye contact but Abel seen his grammie and had to say good bye. He ran up to her and gave her a great big hug. "you guys are up early." Gemma said raising her eye brow noticing Jenna was wearing Jax's tee. Jenna scratched her head with her car keys and said "yeah i gotta get home and do somethings. I'm sure it's a mess since i been gone. Plus I have to get in a routine since he's going to day camp while i got work in the office." Gemma looked confused and then she realized she had yet to tell Abel as Jenna made a hand gesture across her throat not to say anything. Gemma kissed her grandsons forehead and said "Oh I forgot about that. I'm sure it's not that bad there. But if you need anything call." "I will" Jenna said as Abel ran back to her side. Happy just waved at the couple as he smoked his cigarette. Reaching her SUV Abel climbed into the back seat and quickly flipped the dvd screen down. Jenna bit her lip and knew this was gonna be a hard conversation but she had to woman up and tell her son the truth. "Hey before you get into that. I gotta talk to you." She said leaning on the door and not wanting to look her little boy in his eyes when she said what she had to say. Abel flipped the screen back up and surprised her with "I already know we really aren't going home to daddy's house." She looked stunned and asked as she removed her shade to look at him "How?" She asked him. He just said with full bluntness. "i'm six mom..I know you and daddy love each other but don't need to live together." Jenna shook her head and asked "who did you hear that from?" "Uncle Opie.. I over heard him talking to grammie yesterday when i went inside to get my water gun." He said looking down at his shoes. It is what she did when she wanted to avoid eye contact.

Her heart broke to know her son had to hear it like that. but she wanted to know what else he heard. "Did you hear anything else?" Jenna asked not wanting to cry so she sniffled a bit to cover it up. "Umm..I heard Grammie ask Daddy if his whore was staying long?" Jenna shook her head stunned at what her son heard but before she could say or ask something he asked "What's a Whore Mommy?"Jenna was baffled unsure how to answer this but she knew that she had to. "Umm a whore is a very bad word for a woman that you should never use and will explain when your older. turn your movie on and we will talk at home okay." Abel flipped the screen down and watched his cartoon. Jenna walked behind the car stunned and in shock and all her emotions wanted to scream out but she had to control it and just get through the day. Running her fingers through her blonde hair she pulled it into a quick ponytail and got into the car. She looked at her son through the rear view who was slowly falling back asleep in his car seat to his movie. Jenna started her car and put her shades on knowing it was going to be a long day especially once Jax woke up and found them both gone. Shaking the thought she pulled out on to the street trying not to speed so Happy could keep pace especially after last night.

As Jenna was driving home Tara was laying awake next to Josh Kohn. She hated being next to him but he was blackmailing her to stay. The little girl wasn't really Tara's she was Kohn's but Tara fell in love with the little girl when she met Josh in Chicago. But then she needed out and hoped Jax would help with that as long as nothing happens to the little girl. Tara looked at the clock and knew she had to shower and get ready for her shift at the hospital and Jax to get home. She let her thoughts get the best of her. Cause she wondered if they acted like a couple if they slept together if he fucked her. Her head filled with all the thought she dreaded. But it was her own fault for leaving and to better herself cause it got her into a world of trouble. She slowly crawled out from under Josh's arm and grabbed her scrubs and went to the shower. She made sure it was as hot as she could take it cause she knew what she was doing was wrong but it was the only way to get her life back. Stripping her clothes off she stepped into the shower closing her eyes and remembering what got her in this situation.

Tara was sitting on the edge of her bed. She was suppose to be going to Chicago to go to med school. This couldn't be happening to her. She wasn't ready to be a mother. Plus she knew that Jax had also knocked up the biker whore she hated but wish she could be some days. She waited for what seemed like hours and the pink plus sign was on all 3 tests she had taken. So she texted Jax

Tara: we need to talk

Jax: i can't right now

Tara: I'm pregnant..

Jax: I'll be there over tonight.

Tara put her phone down and fell back in her bed in tears.

Tara started to wash her hair and scrub her body her raw. She started day dreaming.

Tara was laying on a hospital gurney. She was broken and beaten. Josh had done this to her. They were fighting over his need to control her and he was now blackmailing her to make a name for himself in the ATF. Josh came into the room with a smirk. The doctors had no idea that he was the one who did it. Closing the door behind him with a smile he looked at her and said "ready to play along?" "What do you need from me?" She asked just wanting out and him to leave her alone. "You are going back to charming and gonna weasel your way back into Jackson Teller's life and your gonna help me bring the Sons all down." he told her as he removed his coat and sat next to her. "How am I gonna do that?" she asked with tears in her eyes. "use whatever lie you have to or use that false positive pregnancy to your advantage and let him sweat it out. you'll be back in Chicago after the summer and you can finished school and i'll leave you alone forever." Josh said kissing her forehead.

As she turned off the water she heard Josh's daughter crying on the baby monitor. So she quickly dried off and got dressed. Tara knew it was her feeding time and she wanted to let Josh sleep. The less time she had to spend with him the better she thought in her own head. She just wanted to be with Jax and feel safe again even if it was all a lie and she was breaking up a family. As Tara fed the little girl some baby food. Jenna was pulling into the parking garage of her apartment complex. Abel was fast asleep in his car seat. Jenna just shook her head as she parked as she climbed out she lifted her shade as Happy turned off his engine. She walked to the passenger side to grab Abel but Happy was already on it. He had Abel in his arms and he was fast asleep. Jenna smiled at the sight, she and Happy were close but that closeness was on a thin line but Jenna always stayed faithful to Jax and would never want to create heat in the club. Grabbing Abel's bags she said "thanks for everything you do for us Happy. " Happy just smiled and said "eh it's all in a days work. besides I like hanging out with this little guy. " Jenna smiled and bit her bottom lip as they headed for the elevator. Happy could help but look at her ass as she walked. He thought she was thick and a great woman. He knew what a ride or die woman she was but he knew he could never touch no matter how bad he wanted to.

Once the got on the elevator Jenna and Happy shared glances and smiles. The elevator came to a stop as Jenna could feel the tension growing or her stomach growling. "Okay I'll feed you in a second." she said to her belly as she got off the elevator. Happy followed behind with a smile. Upon reaching her apartment Jenna was fidgeting with her keys. She had tried to use Jax's house key to open the door. She felt like a fool and finally got the door open.

Jax was waking up from his drunken slumber from bike noises and kids. He raised his head and looked at his watch. It was around nine thirty in the morning. He hoped Jenna wasn't up yet cause he just wanted to cuddle her and feel his daughter in her womb. But when he reached for her oversized womb all he felt was nothing. Flopping back down on his pillow he let out a sigh. He wasn't completely sure what all happened last night but he did remember falling asleep next to her and it was nice. He hated lying to her and hated what he was doing to her inside and out but if Jenna found out that Tara had his child she would up and leave and go to Napa where Piney left her land when he died. Rubbing his face he put on grab his Cut and put on his boots. He had to see the carnage from last night and find out what may have happen. He pulled his shades out of his vest and unzipped the tent. Stepping out he seen most of the kids near the playground but didn't see Abel. He silently headed up to the house knowing his mother would know if Abel and Jenna were still here. As he headed toward the house he felt his phone buzz. it was Tara calling him. He stopped in his tracks and said "hey babe." "Don't hey babe me Jackson. Did you fuck her?" Tara shouted at her phone in her car at the hospital before her shift. "Why do YOU go there?" He said with hostility in his voice. "Because you decided to get wasted at a party I couldn't go to because your mother would kill me and send me pictures of you kissing her." Tara said freaking out with everything going on in her world. "For your information no i didn't and I'm sorry. What do I gotta do to make it better?" He asked knowing there were only a few months left with her and then hopefully he could hopefully get his family back.

Tara was looking at herself in the mirror of her visor and said "let me spend the night please. I don't like being alone at my dads its creepy now that its almost empty." Jax rubbed his eyes and said "Yeah Abel's with Jenna during the week i get him on weekends. So you can stay Monday through Friday provided I don't have Abel or have club stuff." Tara smiled as she wiped her fake tears she created to sound upset. This pleased her for two reason, One was that this would get under Jenna's skin if she found out and two she would get away from Josh. She was still nervous about spending the weekends but she had work. "Fine..If you can stop by for lunch provided you don't have dad duty." She said with a sigh she just wanted him to make her feel safe and maybe help her with this problem with Kohn. Jax said "Let me see where my head is okay." "okay But I'll see you tonight though." Tara said flipping her visor up and wiping her eyes. Hanging up her phone she hit a vape pen before getting out of her car and heading in for her shift. Jax hung his phone up and rubbed head wondering how to deal with this. Once he reached the backyard to his moms house he could see the driveway but couldn't tell if Jenna's car was missing. As he reached the back patio his mother, Nero and others were sitting on the deck having coffee and soaking in the California sun. "Good Morning baby." Gemma said getting up and bringing him a coffee with a shot of whiskey in it to help with his hangover. "morning mom." he said taking a sip and then asked "Jenna still here?" "No baby she said she had to go home something about forgetting her meds." Gemma said rubbing her sons back hoping they worked it out but apparently not. Jax was disappointed but he knew he did this to himself. "Oh Okay was hoping to hang out with Abel." He said trying not to seem so disappointed in her leaving.

Jax took a seat at the bar area head still pounding. Jenna and Happy had just reached her apartment. Abel had fallen asleep on the car ride here so happy of course was carrying him. The sight made her smile as she unlocked the door holding it open. "His room is off to the right and the 2nd door on the left." She said is a hushed tone to not to wake Abel up. Happy smiled and went to the right as she just dropped their bags at the kitchen island. Jenna had her own issues even if she wasn't hungover. She grab her weekly medication tray and took her pills for the day drinking a smoothie she had premade and left in the fridge. She thumbed through her phone looking through all the pictures that she was sent after last night. There was one of her and Jax almost looking like they once did. But she couldn't let that thought get to her head. She knew she had to move on and get over him but that would be hard cause no man could measure to her love for Jackson Teller. Happy came around the corner and said making her jump a little "This place looks nice The pornstar got you set up good." "yeah she did..do you and coffee or anything." She offered him. Happy looked at his phone and there were no messages so he said "sure got whiskey to put in it?" he let out a chuckle knowing he hadn't slept yet and it was gonna be along day. Jenna smirked and grabbed a coffee cup and the bottle of jack from her cupboard. she poured a shot into it and put a k-cup into the machine and let it brew. "So its real huh you and Jax are over?" He asked looking around feeling awkwardly but at home almost. The coffee finished brewing and slid it to him. "yup" Jenna said popping the p and the end of it. it was hard for her to admit but in her heart she knew it was over for them. "if you want me to go I can." Happy offered thinking he was annoying her.

Jenna shook the thoughts and said "no your fine Happy. It's just a thought I have to get use to being single and Jackson Tellers Exe. Which means single for the rest of my life." It was the one thought that scared her was being alone. Happy reached across the counter grabbing her hand and said "I wouldn't say that. There are plenty of guys that know you are a good old lady and Jax is dumb for doing what he did." She leaned in and said "Well I am glad some people see that but we all know Jackson will never let another man come play daddy to his kids and let me actually be happy." Slipping her hand out of his she moved her hair from her face. Happy smiled and sipped his coffee then let out a yawn. Even though he was on a high he was feeling how tired he really was. But said "he doesn't deserve to have your happiness Jenna" "and who does? She said looking at him like he had someone in mind in particular. "I don't have names but I do you you deserve more than the trauma you been through." Happy said letting out another yawn. Jenna smiled when he offered up his own name as someone who might make her happy. She liked Happy and loved the relationship that he had with Abel but never thought there would need to be another man in her life. But she wasn't ready to jump into someone else bed. Happy rubbed his thumbing through his phone slowly nodding out. "If your tired you can crash on the couch." She offered looking over at him. She didn't know why she was offering but it would be nice not to be alone in this place since Ima ended up going to Vegas for convention. "Nah I can't do that to you Jenna." He said taking a big gulp of grabbed his hand reassuring him by saying "I can't have my son's best friend in the crew end up in an accident cause you brought us home. Crash on the couch." Happy smiled and asked "what about Jax? What if he comes by?" "i'll handle that besides he doesn't know where this place is yet. But its only a matter of time till he figures it out." Jenna said reassuring him and added "so take ur boots off and ill grab some pillows and a blanket." letting go of his hands she went to the hall closet grabbing an extra pillow and comforter.

Happy finished his coffee with a sigh. He sent a text to Opie letting him know where he was.

Happy: Hey at ur sisters

Opie: Why? Is everything Okay?

Happy: Yeah its okay. Just wanted to make sure she got home.

Opie: When you coming back

Happy: Not sure. Bout to crash on her couch cause im exhausted...She Offered.

Opie: I bet your are exhausted mr 48 hrs. Ill let jax know to expect you later

Happy: Thanks...

Happy turned his phone screen off and rubbed his head. It was hurting after being up the last 48 hours partying. He had taken short naps but the coke kept waking him up not to mention sleeping in the dorms didn't help. He was one for semi-permeance. He didn't settle but for a girl like Jenna he might. But he knew her heart belonged to Jackson. Jenna came around the corner carrying a white down comforter and a couple pillows. Happy heard the shuffling and grabbed the comforter from her. Jenna smiled and said "Thanks couldn't see anything. This couch is comfy I spent the first few nights on it." Happy smirked and followed behind her and said "I'm sure it will be just as good as the dorm bed." Jenna let out a giggle and said "maybe even better." She put the pillows on the couch and felt her daughter kick her hard. Bracing herself she put on hand on her belly and the other gripping the couch. Happy dropped the blanket and went behind her concerned. "You Okay?" he said with angst and worry. Jenna lifted her head and stood up. She said "yeah she just likes using my tummy as her soccer ball. I'm Okay you rest I'll handle Jax if he calls." She said stepping out of his grasp. Happy just nodded and said "thanks again Doll. wake me if you guys need anything." "doubt it." She said never being the one to wake someone up. Jenna smiled at him and headed down the hall. This apartment looked massive but to her it felt empty. Jenna was grateful she had Abel to keep her on the right track. Peering into Abel's bedroom. It was still a little plain but I could be just like home. It already had a car theme from the previous owners so that helped a lot. Abel was big into to cars and bikes he wanted to be a NASCAR mechanic or at least that is what he says this week. He usually changes his mind on what job he wants once a month. Jenna smiled as she walked in being so quiet. She didn't want to wake her sleeping boys. He looked so much like his father when he slept. Jenna just smiled hoping this would go right for her and maybe it wouldn't be a disaster. She tucked him in making sure his favorite stuffed animal was with in reach. She kissed his forehead and tip toed out.

Continuing down the hall she peered into a baby pink nursery all set up but missing décor and personal touches. Jenna looked at the the boxes and garbage bags filled that she still needed to go through but right now she wanted her bed. Even if it was to just lay there. This pregnancy and stress was taking its own tole on her system. Jenna reached the master suit which was right at the end of the hallway next to the nursery. Jenna grabbed her iPad off the dresser making sure the baby monitor worked in the kids rooms she did set up for when Abel came home so she could keep an eye on her children when they slept or just to watch them sleep. Once she laid down and grabbed her pregnancy pillow to cuddle with her belly stopped hurting from the powerful kicks. Jenna set the iPad up on the end table and laid there watching Abel fast asleep. She really hoped and prayed he wouldn't be mad about the changes. He seemed to grasp the concept but she didn't know if this would make her hate him because they were no longer living in their home with Jax. Finally the movement stopped in her belly for now and she dozed off watching Abel sleep peacefully.

As Jenna, Happy and Abel all slept. Jax's had gotten dressed and his head was pounding a little less than it was earlier. But it still hurt and was trying to piece together last night. He could only remember bits a pieces of it. Jax was rolling up sleeping bags and de-airing the air mattresses when Opie came into the tent. Jax looked up and said "what's up brother?" Opie smirked helping him out a bit and said "Happy said he is crashing at Jenna's" This didn't phase Jax a bit he trusted Happy with his family. "take it that 48hrs straight caught up to him." Jax said taking a seat on the ground in the middle of the tent to light a joint. "yeah I guess so. What about you last night catching up at all." Opie said popping a squat near him. "Yes and No. But I'll be fine I got business to handle with Tara later" Jax said taking a deep hit from the joint before passing it to Opie. Opie hit it and said "Jenna thinks Tara is holding something over you at least that was Lyla's pillow talk while I was drunk." Opie took a deep hit off the join and handed it back to Jax. Jax whished he could tell anyone what Tara was holding over him but that would ruin his family even more now than ever. "Nah Tara's not holding anything bruh. She just here to clean out her dads house and she's gone. She's going back to Chicago at Summers end." He hoped that helped with peoples questions a little. But Opie still wondered why his brother would fuck up his family he had. "Well that's good to know then maybe you can get your head right." Opie said with a smirk rubbing Jax's head teasing him like a brother. Jax pushed him off and passed him the joint after hitting it.

"I don't think its about me getting my head right Opie. I think she's finally done with me and I can't blame her." Jax said being real with himself. Opie never thought he would hear those words come from Jax but maybe last night something happened that Opie didn't want to know about. "Bruh you know she loves you and always will. I just think she need to find herself. She been an old lady, a pornstar, a mom. Jenna's done anything and everything we have asked her for the last ten years since we were all kids and she got your crow." Opie said knowing the tolls doing club stuff and old lady shit was a toll on a woman. He learned that with Donna his first wife who begged him to leave the club after his last jail stint before Lyla. Jax knew what he had put Jenna through even putting her in the path of bullets with the Irish when they stole Abel from them. But Jenna prevailed it all. She just was broken now from all the broken promises the false hope the lies everything that she had lived with. Jax knew he was the sole reason she was so broken and didn't know how to make it better. Well he knew one way but he didn't want to give Tara up either till he figured out her game too. The two boys shared the Joint till it was down to nothing and got everything rolled up and packed up into Gemma's Garage for the next camp out.

The Guys were all sitting around a table in the second Garage that held as a man cave and talking and laughing. Jax looked at them in their merriment. He just felt like sulking a bit longer in misery because that's what he felt like he was in without Jenna. Opie was about to join the guys and looked at Jax looking on. "you coming bro?" Opie asked. "nah i'm go on a ride. I need to sober up a bit more and clear my head." Jax said having clear intentions to ride to the porn studio and get Ima to tell him where Jenna was staying. Part of him wondered if Happy was getting some of Jenna, despite the trust he had for the both of therm. But his insecurities were eating at him since he knew he was the reason they were like this. "Want company?" Opie offered. Jax knew this was something he had to do alone. Shaking his head no he said "nah I'll call you when I get back around though." Opie just nodded and waved. Jax fixed his cut and went to his bike. Grabbing his helmet he stuck the key in the ignition and drove off. As he was driving off Gemma and Nero were sitting on the front porch swing sharing a joint together. "ten to one he's going to talk to the pornstar to find her address out." Gemma said knowing her son very well especially after she over heard some of the drunken talk at the bonfire after Jenna had gone to sleep. "i don't doubt it Mami. That Boy kept his distance but their eyes said it all when they looked at each other. They still love each other." Nero said passing the joint back to her.

It took Jax an hour to get to the Studio from Gemma's House. That was enough time to gather his thoughts. He needed to find out how to get Ima's trust to give her the address. He needed to know what was going on just to know. He had trust for Jenna and Happy but his mind couldn't stop telling him that she was fucking happy right now. Even though they were all still sleeping peacefully except for Abel he was up in his room playing with his cars on the floor. He had already looked in on his mom whose eyes were stained with mascara from her tears and she was asleep. Abel had taken his own tour around the house and seen Uncle Happy sleeping on the couch. So he decided to go back to his room to play quietly till the adults woke up. This rooms was different from the room he had at home but It was good enough for him. He found a tv remote on his dresser and turned on the little flat screen hanging in the corners on the wall. Cartoons we on so this made the house less silent and scary for him, while he let the adults sleep. Abel was a good kid with good manners and Jenna tried to keep him that was but wasn't sure how well that would work.

Jax got off his bike after parking near Ima's sports car. Heading for the door. He knew Ima was the only one who worked Sunday's for production and doing stuff for the fan sites. She was one of the few girls other than Lyla and Jena that had a work ethic and liked making money 7 days a week. That girl was addicted to the money and more than anyone knew. As Jax was walking the halls Ima was in the bathroom shooting up. One of the guys she was seeing got her hooked on it but she hid it from Jenna and everyone. She could hear footsteps and quickly finished shooting it into her veins faster than she would have like giving her a good buzz to betray anyone at this point and not realize it. She hid all her tools in her purse and threw on a black sweater to hide the needle marks. Ima gathered her things and headed out into the studio area. She spied Jax and knew he had to be looking for her. She ducked onto one of the sets and set her laptop up at the desk she had a cam show to do in a few. Ima kept a routine to keep her money solid to pay for her habit and life styles. Jax could hear the sounds of heels on concrete and followed them to where Ima was. Ima looked nervous and a bit scared. She knew what he was capable of especially when it came to what was his. These two always fought with each other because they both had their own ideas of what made Jenna happy. Ima looked at him dazed but still setting up her laptop "Jackson" She said peering over under her lashes. "Ima" He said taking a seat at the desk chair where she was intending to sit so start up her laptop. Ima just rolled her eyes at him and asked "what do you want Jackson?" as she turned the laptop towards her. "well we both know what I want but only you and a few other have the answer now my mother and my crew wont give me her address. But I thought If i brought you something sweet you would help me." He said throwing some thumb bag of pure liquid heroin on the table.

Jax knew she was a user when he found her overdosed on their couch when she was suppose to be watching Abel and Jenna. "I don't do that shit no more." Ima said lying to herself but she didn't want to lose Jenna. Jenna was the only one who was really keeping her here. Jax grabbed her arm rolling up her sleeve rolling up her sleeve. "oh yeah that looks real fresh." She jerked away rolling her sleeve down and said "look I can't she will kill me." "And she will kill you have you fired and make sure you never work again if she see those." Jax said making his point. He knew what Jenna did to ladies she had flings with and later found were on heroin or anything harder then pills. Ima looked down and said "Look all I can say is Charming Views Apartments down by the beach front. Her car is always on the thrid level. I can't let her find out I told you Jax please." She was begging on her knees ready to do what ever he asked of her. Jax just smirked standing up and said "you'll be safe but you can keep your distance from my family now." He left the baggies there for her pleasure and got back on his bike. Those apartments were just newly built for the city. It had a great view of the water. Getting on his bike he sped off. It would only take him 20 minutes to get there from the studio. He seen Happy's bike parked next to Jenna's SUV. It made him wonder what was happening. But he couldn't go in since he didn't know the apartment number. so he called her phone hoping to catch her in the act.

Jenna who was sleeping soundly was awoken by "Tennessee Whiskey" She knew that was Jax. He probably just realized they were gone. She peered at the clock it was ten am. rubbing her face she grabbed her phone answering it "yes Jax." "what are you doing?" He asked sitting on his bike by her car having a cigarette. "I was sleeping." she said looking over at the tablet seeing Abel playing cars with Happy in his room. "your son is in his room playing cars." she added "Where is Happy?" He asked with an evil smile hoping he would hear him. Jenna sat up rubbing his face realizing Jax was on some paranoia trip. "Last I knew on my couch. Where I left him. What's this about Jackson? She asked as she crawled out of bed to pee. "Nothing. Just me being stupid. Why don't you come to the peir and talk?" He said speeding away from her car head to the pier so she never suspected he was there. "why can't we talk on the phone Jax?" She asked a little annoyed knowing what stupid him was thinking of. "cause I just want alone time with out everyone watching use Jen. I wanna have a real conversation to see if there is any hope for us." He said parking down at the pier. He hoped she would say yes and just pity him for a moment even after last night. Jenna rubbed her face and said "Fine I'll wake Happy to watch Abel. Give me like ten fifteen minutes to get ready." Jax seemed please and said "take your time I'll be here." Hanging up her phone she went to pee and change into a summer dress . She wasn't going to give him any hopes. Jenna planned to tell him how she felt and what she expected after this moment for their lives.

She peered in watching Happy and Abel playing. "you two having fun?" She asked. Abel turned his head and Jumped up to hug her. "Uh Huh.. I didn't want to wake you. So Uncle Happy woke up and made me some cereal and came to play cars in here so you and siss could sleep." He told his mother taking her hand leading her to his matchbox and hot wheel car set up. "He evened set up my tracks." Abel said letting go of her hand and wiping his nose. Jenna just shook her head as Happy looked like he was enjoying these cars just as much as Abel was. "Well that was nice of Uncle Happy. Can I steal him away for a second though?" She said messing her sons hair up playfully. Abel just rolled his eyes and fixed his hair and said "yeah I gots to fix my hairs now." Jenna tried so hard not to laugh but she motioned for Happy to come out in the hall. Happy got up off the floor and said "I'll be right back and we can race for pinks my charger verses your jetta." Abel just nodded watching the adult go have an an adult conversation. He wanted his family back and would do what ever it took for that to happen. But he also wanted his mom happy as was mad at his dad. But even at six almost seven he knew they loved each other no matter what they went through. Jenna headed down to the hall to the kitchen living space and gathered her keys and thought. Happy came out making sure that Abel wasn't spying on them. They were close enough to couch but neither did. Jenna whispered just incase little ears heard "can you watch Him for a bit? Jax wants to talk with out the world watching us I Guess. I think this is something to do with Tara. But I will be down at the pier so I'll be close. But keep your phone handy please." She asked with her head pretty much running everywhere of where all this was going to lead to.

"yeah thats fine I like spending time with little man. Maybe I can even get him to help me set up that security system you were talking about wanting." Happy said. He loved spending time with Abel. He had no kids of his own so Abel was like a son to him almost. Jenna smiled and said "great.. Thank you so much. Food in the fridge. Beer and liquor are in the mini fridge in my room and the weed is in my top drawer. But I shouldn't take that long. He sounds like he is on one of his insecure ventures now that weve been apart for a weekend. So I must be fucking one of his club members. ya know." She hit her THC Vape pen hard taking a huge rip. She froze when Happy moved a piece of her bangs from her face as he said "yeah I know which phase your talking about. So he thought you and me were fucking?" To him it would be nice to show her what a real man wa like and not the little boy Jax was acting like. But he knew where her heart lied. She sighed and said "Yeah i'm guessing he called expecting to hear us in the sheets together. But I will be back. Don't let Abel know who I'm meeting with. I don't want to give him hope that me and Jax will reconcile right now. Because i know that not what i want right now." Happy just nodded in agreement and said "I understand. i'll keep him busy. I'll even try to get him down for a nap if your gone to long." "Like i said i shouldn't be that long but i appreciate you happy" She said before kissing his cheek and heading to the door to leave

As Happy went to go back and play with Abel. John Kohn was down at the beach he had followed Jax here after spotting him near the porn studio. He was taking pictures for a nonexistent case right now. He was just using Tara for Leverage and to find out more about Jackson and possibly kill him to have Tara to himself. As Josh took pictures Jax was answering text messages from Tara

Tara: Hey wyd

Jax: Nm, hanging with Abel. Do you need me?

Tara: No just bored and thinking of you was hoping for a quicky tbh

Jax: Well you can have a quickie or two tonight. I'm on dad Duty

Jax stopped texting her when he saw Jenna walking towards him. Jenna was wearing a white sundress that flowed in the find and revealed her bump. She didn't look pleased to be having this conversation but knew they needed it to resolve whatever awkwardness their might be a future events. Yes it was just the weekend but Jenna wanted to make her intentions clear so she didn't lead anyone on. Jax smiled as the wind kept blowing some of her hair from behind her ears. Jenna still kept her resting bitch face on and leaned against the railing across for him. She wasn't giving him any satisfactions right no. She was just hear to have this conversation with him. "So what are we here to discuss Jax?" She asked him slightly annoyed at what he was thinking previous to this. Jax pulled out a cigarette and lit it handing it to her before pulling one out for himself. He didn't allow her to have cigarettes while pregnant but he knew her craving for it wasn't being helped due to the stress he was putting her through. Jenna took it taking a drag of it she still eyed him with suspicion of what was going down here. Jax took a drag and said "I just wanted to talk Jen without everyone watching if a fight might happen." Jenna smirked and let out a laugh before saying "we would still fight without them watching. So what specifically do you want to talk about Jackson." They both knew this statement was true their early years were spent fighting and fucking. But now she needed stability and safety and routines for their kids. Jax went to reach for her hand and she rejected it. He looked down at the wood planks like a kid and said "i wanna know what our future holds Jennavieve. I wanna know if our family will be whole or if I need to actually let you move on and be happy in your life with our kids."

This hit Jenna right in her heart. Having a real family not a broken one is all she ever wanted. She wanted to be a wife a mother have a family and live that life. But she couldn't trust Jax in the area of where Tara was concerned. Even then it was more for her lack of trust for Tara and all her backstabbing ways. Jenna took a longer drag off the cigarette and made him look her in the eyes. "Our family was whole Jackson. We may have been fighting and barely shared a bed but we were fine. Then you fucked her and got caught up in HER again. I'm not asking you to step back form Abel our or daughters life when she is born. But when it comes to me don't worry so much I am a big girl I can fend for myself." She said trying to make light of her own feelings. She knew these steps she was taking toward finding herself was stepping away from him. But she needed him to know she would always love and care for him because he fathered her children. He helped give her purpose in life and she would be eternally grateful for that. But she need to find who she was with other and if she could even attempt happiness with another. "I know you are Jen. But you are the mother of my kids so I will forever worry about you." He said looking her in her eyes. The baby started to kick again and Jenna made a face, a face Jax knew all to well. Before Jenna could fight him he rested his hand on her belly and asked "have you thought of any names for her?"

They had discuss several but never landed on one they really liked. Jenna just took a breath in as he touched her belly and said "I still like Courtney Grace and Paisley Renee." Jax just smirked knowing those were names she wanted when Abel was a girl. It was to name her after high school friends that were no where in Charming they all got out of the small town and leading big lives. "Well I like Carly LeAnn And Samantha Grace." Jax said looking up from her belly to her eyes. Hearing the name Samantha made her eyes well up with tears because Samantha was the name of a dear friend of theirs who was a playmate for them as a couple to who overdosed two months after Jenna found out she was pregnant. Samantha was Abel's favorite babysitter until he got older and like hanging out with some of the guys from the club and their kids. The baby started to kick Jax's hand and Jenna said "You hear that little girl you have a name now. Samantha Grace." Jenna wiped her eyes as the baby stopped kicking and Jax stepped back. She was trying to laugh the tears off and said "well now that she has a name. Can we get back to the point?" Their kids in urtero or out knew when their parents were fighting and always found ways to bring them back together. She continued on to say "I know you love me and always will, but you love her two and.." she paused to say it cause it hurt her a lot to be honest in her feeling at the road they were on and said "I think we owe it to ourselves to discover who we are without each other. We can co parent our children and be civil. But I honestly think we owe it to ourselves to find ourselves and then if the future aligns we can be a family. But if not I just want you and the kids and myself to be happy for once. We all deserve it."

These words crushed him on the inside but she was right. Neither of them had been happy with themselves since she got pregnant with Abel. He was sleeping with hundreds maybe even thousands to find himself. Sometimes it felt wrong others he was just drunk and wanted to fuck. Jenna started to walk to the end of the pier knowing those words would take a second to set in for him. Jax was a step behind her. Those word wounded his pride and his self esteem a little bit. But she knew she wouldn't be saying it if it were true. He did love Tara too, but he loved his family more. But maybe they did need to find themselves again separately. Maybe it would be better for them. But his biggest fear was her being happier with someone else when she found herself. Jenna watch the waves crash into the pier enjoying the sound the breeze and sunlight. She looked like a sun kissed Angel standing there Jax thought to himself as he walked toward her. He stood next to her and said "what if we find happiness in others?" It was the first time he asked this question to her. It was a road he didn't want to travel down that road but he needed to know. Jenna raised her sunglasses and said "then we will still be great parents to our kids and be happy for one another. Though I don't think I will find myself happy with anyone honestly. It seems like everyone I fall for has their own issues, make false promises or love someone else." That last remark stung a bit knowing it was pointed to him. He didn't know that Jenna found out through one of the porn stars that Ima was in love with someone she met at a convention and that she been hiding him from Jenna while she was pregnant.

Jax placed his hand on hers and grasped it and said "even if it does let me be the first to know please." Jenna looked down at their hands and pulled hers away after a few and said "I can promise you that one. But Like I said its gonna take a lot to find myself." as she took her sandals off. She wanted to feel the sand between her toes and feel some peace of mind after opening up even that little bit to him. Opening up to anyone was a sign of weakness to her because that meant they had the control and she didn't like giving up the control of her life. Life just seemed to start to overwhelm her as of late with everything going wrong. Jenna headed down the steps to the right of them and started to walk in the sand. she stopped to where the waves were crashing and just looked out making her wishes she held in her head that she never shared of everything she truly wanted in her life and who she wanted in her life. But those were secrets she couldn't share because she didn't like feeling weak. Jax watched her just standing there wondering what she was thinking about. He would pay a penny for her thoughts right now because that is all he ever wanted was to know how she really felt. But he knew he would never hear those after everything he put her through in their almost ten year romance. But he knew he had to let her fly and do her. Looking at his phone Tara was blowing it so he just left Jenna on the beach. He didn't know what else to say to her after she said that. As he walked back to his bike he noticed a car next to his. It was one he had seen before outside Tara's. She said it was one of her cousins helping her. Jax looked around to see if he could spot this cousin.

Josh had already moved to the beach with his daughter. They were splashing in the water playing. He had his camera of course still taking picture of Jenna walking the beach in the process. He could se Jax checking out his car. But wasn't in Jax's eye sight for him to see. Jax shrugged it off and finally picked up Tara's call. "I told you I was on Dad duty. What is wrong with you?" He asked sitting on his bike watching Jenna standing still with the water gracing her feet softly. She had taken only a few steps towards the water but he couldn't see anyone else around. "Nothings wrong I got off early I'm at your place and you guys are not here." Tara said standing in his and Jenna's bedroom of their house. She was thumbing through the stuff Jenna left behind nothing that was her style at all. "that's cause I took him to the beach before Jenna picked him up. She and I agreed the pier was a mutual distance between house." He said thinking fast. Tara just said "Uh Huh.. Well I am here. So I will hop in the shower while I wait for you to come home." She knew where he really was josh made sure to keep her updated with photos even though she hated knowing how vile he was being about digging into their lives and Ruining Jax and Jenna. Though she didn't care about Jenna she cared about Jax and his feelings which meant Jenna was included in those. Jax said "as soon as she gets here I'll be there." He hung up and lost sight of Jenna. He wanted to make sure she wasn't going to to anything dumb but he had to deal with Tara before she went running her mouth about the past. Jax revved his bike and drove off.

The sound of the bike meant Josh was good to get close to her without breaking his cover or Jax seeing him. Jackie his daughter was running and splashing. She started to go full speed and Josh couldn't keep up, until she face planted right next to Jenna. Jenna had just been watching the water and walking feeling the sand in her toes. She could hear people laughing and kids having fun. She thought of happier times and knowing today was the end of something that was older then their son. It made her heart hurt and made her cry. Yes she still had the kids but all she wanted was their family back. But she couldn't forgive Jax this time. As she was wiping tears she hears a little girls cry. A little girl had faceplanted in the sand next to her. She smiled getting down to the Childs level and helped brushed her off. The little girl wanted up So Jenna picked her up and let the little girl cry on her. "shhhhh its okay lets go find mommy or daddy to make it better." Jenna had a mothers instinct to sooth the child. Jackie sniffled and soon wiped the tears hearing her father call for her. Josh shouted for her as he headed toward the direction he seen her little feet prints. Josh seen Jackie in Jenna's arms and smiled. He was pleased to see the child was okay and Jenna had found her cause this meant he could talk. "thanks for grabbing her. She's just started running." He said reaching for Jackie

Jenna handed the little girl over to him and said "well she sort of face planted next to me actually. But I remember those days. My son use to just run walking was never a think still isn't some days." She said tickling the little girls cheek to make her giggle. Josh smiled and raised his shades seeing his daughter laugh and said "looks like you get to go through that phase again" He said noticing her sizey bump under her sundress. "yeah not looking forward to that. Especially if she is like me." She said holding her bump. Josh smiled and said as he kissed his daughters forehead "well I got Lucky her mom was a relatively normal and good hearted woman. Do you got a name picked out yet?" Jenna smiled looking around for Jax but he was gone. But she didn't want to think of where he was going. Bringing herself back in the moment she said "Actually yeah. Her father and I just picked one out before he went to check in on business." "Oh yeah..must be booming business to be working on a Sunday." Josh said with a smirk. Jenna pulled a business card from her bra and said "companionship and porn are always booming. Come check our club out. if you tell'em jenny sent you. You will get a get the best night of your life." Josh looked at the card and smiled. "well i definitely will need some companionship. I am out here for the summer helping a friend move somethings. Is there anyway your companionship is offered in this." He asked as his little girl started to fall asleep on his shoulder. Jenna just stepped back and said "being sic month pregnant kinda puts you on the shelf. But I am sure we kind find someone suitable for you."

Looking down at her phone she got texts from Happy asking if she was okay. Jenna looked back up at him as she walked backwards and said "I gotta go pick up my son from the sitters. But i promise you'll find someone you like." she said before turning around to go back to her SUV. Josh smiled and shouted "Hey you never told me the name you picked out." Jenna just laughed at said "Samantha Grace." She got a funny feeling about him so she didn't even bother buckling she texted Happy that she was on her way home. As she drove off she got a funny feeling about this Guy after his smile seeing and hearing what her business was. That was a creepy smile only Kyle Hobart ever gave her. Josh was at the beach still He was putting Jackie into her car seat. He was just admiring the card and Jenna's name on it. This was one step closer to a bigger well and digging into Jackson Teller's life. He just now had to find ways to get around her when she was alone. He could see what Tara talked about when she talked about Jenna. But he saw her beauty and she reminded him of Jackie's Mom who didn't deserve what happened to her when she passed. So he felt a little sorry about her what she was going to go down for and what hell Jackson Teller and Tara were going to allow into her life. Now he felt like he had to save her from this but keep his self in check before going off the deep end.

Hope you enjoy this. Took a bit to write but glad i got it done. Some of these stories tear out of my own memoies thoughs and things that have been buried forever. So i apperciate everyone who read these and keeps reading. I know that most people see Jenna as weak but she's growing it it may take time to grow her but she is growing. So please keep reading

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