I do not own Hetalia okay? I don't have much else to say here so enough of this A/N, on with the fic!
October 1st 1918
(From the diary of Katyusha Braginsky)
Well I was told of the news today. Vanya is alive. I want to say okay but I do not know. I mean I know he is alive and was told of his condition and the fact he will never walk again, never play with Nikolai in the ocean like he always loved to, well not feel the waves like he did and swim after the boy. Natalya tells me he loves the water and often rides on Fredka's back when he goes into the deeper water. He missed being able to do that with Vanya, with him away for so long but now this is not going to ever become a reality. I do worry about how Vanya will take this. I have seen and taken care of disabled veterans back when I was working as a nurse in England. Some of them had families to go home to, others not. And I worried about both. It was very hard for them to do the basic functions of life. Fredka assured me that he would not lose his job and that Mr. Seward would help and keep Vanya on. Not like he needs to walk much in that anyway and anything that he couldn't do, Fredka would be more than willing to do.
But it was often the very basic functions of life, getting around, dressing even using the bathroom was something most paralyzed veterans had a hard time doing and I often helped them with it. And while he doesn't look it, Vanya is very proud yet very sensitive. I do not want him to think that he is being a burden on me. Or think that I am choosing Matvey over him and become jealous. I mean he is so sweet and looking for a job that I do not want him to become discouraged or have his flashbacks. He keeps going on about wanting to move out and not be a burden on Natalya and Fredka. Neither one has said that and Natalya is very grateful for his help with the children. It is very tiring work to tend to three young children. And with Fredka, he was furious his brother went to war but just so happy he's alive. However that is just with a slight limp and change to his vision and some shell shock and Matvey feels like a burden. He has confessed so much to me. The panic attacks, the nightmares of that soldier he killed defending his men, just so much he saw and has done. And no matter what I told him, I know Vanya worried about those he took into the hospital for treatment. He confessed his guilt in letters to me and from what Major Bonnefoy wrote, it seemed that he was more concerned about their safety than his when that attack happened. While I am so proud of him for that, I worry for him.
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