Chapter 5
They finished out a busy week. They had a lot of cases, but they were easy to solve for the most part. Amanda was staying with Liv. She had picked up her things and given up the apartment. When Olivia saw where Amanda had been living, she vowed no matter what happened between them, she would never let her live there again or any place that wasn't safe.
After work Olivia told Amanda to use her key and head on upstairs. "Go on upstairs and I'll wait for the pizza. Can you handle making the salad or at least starting?" Amanda said she could do that. When she got off the elevator, there was a man standing up against the wall across from the door. She was unsure what he wanted. She started to put the key in the door, "Who are you?" Amanda turned around, she hadn't lost her smart mouth, "None of your fucking business. Who the fuck are you?" He smirked, "Does Liv know you have her keys?" Amanda blinked, "These are actually my keys. You know Liv?"
He extended his hand, "Brian Cassidy." Amanda looked at his hand and refused to shake it. She didn't like him. "How do you know her?" He put his hand in his pockets, "We met at SVU, became friends, and you know we hook up from time to time." Amanda froze right there, "Oh ok! Well when she comes give her these and you enjoy the pizza." Amanda handed him her keys, walked off, and got on the elevator. Hearing that was the first time that made Amanda face the fact she had feelings for Liv.
She couldn't go downstairs because she would run into Liv. She went to someone else. Amanda stood at the door and knocked. When the door opened, "Can I stay with you?" Alex invited her in, she didn't know what happened. Her first thought was Olivia finally talked to her and told her the truth. They sat down, "You want something to eat?" Amanda just shook her head. "Amanda what's wrong and where is Liv?" Amanda sighed, "Please don't call her. I know she's your friend but I don't want to see her." Alex agreed, "I won't but you need to talk to me." Amanda explained what happened and exactly what Brian Cassidy said.
Olivia got off the elevator juggling everything. "Hey let me help you!" Olivia smiled, "Hey Bri! Why didn't you go inside with Amanda?" Brian laughed and jingled her keys, "She left and I didn't want to just go in without your permission. Olivia grabbed the keys, "What do you mean she left?" She opened the door, thinking Brian was joking, "Amanda!" She set everything down and Brian opened the pizza box, "I told you, she left. She told me to enjoy the pizza and got on the elevator."
Olivia knew Brian and was slowly learning Amanda. She knew Brian said something that set her off. "What did you tell her?" Brian told her about their exchange, Olivia was upset with both of them. "Brian you had no business telling her that, no wonder she left. Now I don't know where she is." Brian smirked, "You like her! Liv she's young!" Olivia looked at him, "We've always been friends, don't make me stop now." Brian apologized, the one thing they never did was interfere with each other's real relationships. Brian and Olivia just fucked and that was the end of the story.
It was late and because Olivia was upset, Brian didn't leave. "I can help you look for her. It's my fault, but her mouth just set me off. That's not exactly the thing you say when you meet someone. You're losing your touch." Olivia rolled her eyes and thought, "Maybe she went to the precinct." Before they could leave her phone rang, "Liv it's Alex. Your kid is sleeping on my couch." Olivia sighed in relief and Alex heard it in her voice. "I'm sorry and I know you were worried. She was upset and I knew she was safe here. She didn't want me to call you and I didn't want her to run. She wouldn't eat and when went to do the dishes, she fell asleep. Brian and her had a run in." Olivia sighed, "Yeah and since he caused this he's coming to get her.
They went to Alex's place and Amanda was asleep on the couch. Olivia thought she looked sad, "Pick her up Bri." Brian asked, "What if she wakes up?" Olivia shook her head, "She won't, she sleeps like the dead. Take her to my place." She looked at Alex, "It's time to be honest with her Liv. She will either agree or you can be friends, but she was upset. Liv she must have some feelings towards you or What Brian said wouldn't have upset her that much." Olivia knew she was right. She went back to her place. She met Brian at the door, "Liv, I'm really sorry, when she's awake, I'd like to apologize to her."
Olivia looked in the guest room and the bed was empty. She moved to her room and found Amanda in her bed. She took off her shoes, covered her up, and went to take a shower. When she came back Amanda was still asleep, she brushed her hair back. She had the weekend to talk to her.
Olivia fell asleep and sometime later she felt hot, really hot. She blinked and realized why she felt hot. Amanda's leg was over Olivia's legs, her hand was on her boob, and her body was hugged up close to her. Olivia knew she moved in her sleep, but thought this felt perfect. She felt Amanda's breathing change. It was fast and she looked up in Olivia's eyes and jumped back. Olivia turned on the light. "Oh shit! Sergeant Benson, I'm sorry." Olivia laughed, " Calm down!" Amanda thought, "Wait! How did I get here, I…" Olivia narrowed her eyes at her, "You ran! If you were mine, your ass would be on fire." Amanda didn't know what she meant. Olivia patted the bed, "Amanda, we should talk."
Amanda didn't like the way that sounded, she liked Olivia and from what Brian said, Olivia probably didn't feel the same. "I started a relationship with Brian twenty years ago. We were both young detectives and it was just sex. He wanted more and I didn't. He left SVU and it was still sex and it's what we agreed to. I've known Alex that long too. I fooled around with my roommate in college, so I've had more experiences than you. I have you by 20 years."
Amanda listened, she wanted to know. "Ok. What else Liv." Olivia laughed, "You are going to make me do all the talking." Amanda shrugged, "Alex took a bullet for me. I always thought she was cute and I was helping her heal. Things happened, but we weren't into each other like that. I liked things that she didn't. The things I like are the reasons I'm alone and sometimes have sex with Brian. We even had a wild threesome Amanda. I don't want to lie about my past." Amanda got a little more comfortable, "What do you like?"
Olivia was scared, "Before I say anything, I want you to know, I like you and I'm attracted to you. I have been since I met you at the academy. I kept up with you without you knowing. That's how I know about your smart mouth." Amanda smiled. "If you don't feel the same way or like what I'm about to say, I will respect it. If I can't have you the way I want, I still want you to stay here, be safe, and be my friend. Do you understand?" Amanda said yes, but was a little worried. "It's ok Liv, just say it."
Olivia took a deep breath, "I want to be the dominant one. I want a relationship with domestic discipline." Amanda heard the words, but didn't fully understand, "So you want to be in charge of me. Aren't you that now Sergeant?" Olivia smirked, "You are such a smart ass. I have rules Amanda. Be respectful, honest, safe, listen to what I say, and take care of us as a family." Amanda shrugged, "It doesn't seem that unreasonable." Olivia shook her head, "Well, maybe it isn't, but when you break my rules, there will be punishment."
Amanda got it then, "Ohhhh! Wall sit, attention, wall sit. Am I right?" Olivia giggled, "Yeah, but also time out, stand in the corner, soap in your potty mouth, grounding, and spanking." Amanda's blue eyes got big. "So, I'm really a kid. Liv, I wasn't punished as a kid." Olivia raised her eyebrows, "That's your problem." Amanda moved closer and Olivia was surprised, "Have you wanted to spank me?" Olivia shook her head, "Oh yeah! That's why I made you wall sit, I wanted to tear your ass up for rolling your eyes." Amanda sighed, "What do you spank with?" Olivia said, "Well since you've never been spanked my hand first, but then a ruler, a belt. We build up to it, but it also depends on what you do."
Amanda was curious, "Can give me an example?" Olivia smiled, "Sure, because you've done a lot. Rolling your eyes would get my hand, but that stunt you pulled in the park or tonight with Brian, would have been a belt." Amanda put her head back on the pillow, she needed to think. "So it's only if we are in a sexual relationship we do this and if I say no, we can still be friends?" Olivia shook her head. "Can I think about it?" Olivia brushed her hair back, but nothing really intimate. She didn't want to start that. "Absolutely, I don't want your decision now. I was hoping we could hang out this weekend, have fun, no pressure."
Olivia laid back down and Amanda turned to her. "Liv?" Olivia looked at her, "Yeah." Amanda rolled over, "What if you want to spank me and I don't want you to?" Olivia responded, "Then we talk about our feelings together. Amanda you still have a say. We would have a safe word, that you can use even if I'm spanking you and you want it to stop. You always get to say no, but eventually if you don't submit, it could cause problems in our relationship." Amanda thought about Olivia, she had only helped her and she didn't even know her. "Liv?" Olivia thought she was so cute. "Yeah." Amanda smiled, "Can you still hold me, because I really liked it?" Olivia smiled, "Sure. Come on, but until you say yes, keep your legs on your side and your hands off my boobs." Amanda fell out laughing.