Chapter 5

WARNING- THIS STORY CONTAINS MATURE THEMES SUCH AS SELF HARM AND ABUSE, PLEASE DO NOT READ IF THIS MAY UPSET OR TRIGGER YOU IN AN WAY

I have suffered with self harming before not long ago, and please if you or any of your friends/family are going through it, get help and just remember it DOES get better and you're not alone. I'm always here if you need any help I'll understand xx

Disclaimer- I do not own 'Twilight' or any of the other books written by Stephanie Meyer. All characters mentioned in this fanfic belong to the wonderful author and not me (although I wish Jacob aka Taylor Lautner belonged to me )

This story is set in New Moon, just after Edward left Bella and she is depressed and lonely.

Jacob's POV

I knew that Bella wasn't telling the full truth about how she'd injured herself. I had been her best friend for months now and I could tell when she was lying, she had that guilty look on her face whenever she lied and that's the same look she had when she told me she fell down the stairs. I wasn't stupid, there's no way you could get a punctured stomach from falling, someone must have hurt her or there was definitely something she wasn't telling me.

I couldn't help but feel hurt, knowing she'd lied to me, we had gotten really close after that idiot Edward Cullen had left her and I'd thought we told each other everything. Clearly not though, I think sadly.

I had kept quiet the whole time we were waiting in the hospital, not wanting to speak to Bella after she'd so obviously lied to me. Suddenly, she speaks up.

"Look, Jacob, I'm sorry" she says, so quietly I can hardly hear her.

."For what exactly Bella?" I ask, hoping she'll admit to lying about her injury.

"For not telling the truth"

"So now you admit you were lying" I say, annoyed at her.

I wait for her to say something back to me, but she stays silent for a few minutes. I look over at her, only to notice she's crying with no sound, tears falling down her cheeks. I didn't mean to upset her, I had only been hurt about her lying to my face, it hurts me to see her crying like that.

I as her what's wrong, worried,

"No-nothing" she says, in between sobs, and I can tell she's lying again.

She just sits there, still crying and she looks so sad and worn out that I get off my chair and go over to her, hugging her comfortingly. I stroke her long, brown wavy hair gently, and she stops crying, soothed.

"Look, Bella, I care about you, ok? You're my friend and I don't like seeing you upset like this" I say, desperate to see her happy again like she used to be, before Edward had left and all the shit after, with her mom dying.

I want to know what's going on, and if she's ok, I really really care about her and hope she cares about me too.

"Now are you going to tell me what's going on?" I ask, softly.

She looks back at me, studying my face as if to check if she can trust me. I look into her eyes to prove she can.

"Fine, after we get out of here though" she answers.

"Of course" I say, glad that she's going to tell me the truth.

The nurse calls her name and I go to the room with her, whilst the doctor checks her over. They say she's got a broken leg after the x ray results, and is given a cast and a ankle shoe.

Once we're out of the hospital, I speak up.

"So are you going to tell me in the car or what?" I ask.

"No that's go to the beach" she answers.

" Our special place?"

"Yep" she says with a smile.

We head over to the piece of driftwood where we first met, and Bella is quiet for a while, thinking deeply. She wraps her arms wound her chest and looks off into the distance sadly, with a forlorn expression on her face. I recognise that look, and instantly know she's thinking about him.

When we first became friends all those months ago, she was absolutely broken, she tried to hide it, but I saw through her act. She would be talking about something and suddenly she'd break off what she was saying, and hug her chest sadly. She was missing him, and was still hurting.

I'd always been cheery around her though, and as more time passed, she started to heal slowly. She'd smile genuinely and laugh occasionally, and I knew that being around me helped her feel happier. My company made her forget about Edward and she enjoyed hanging around with me just as much as I enjoyed hanging around with her.

Like I said she was getting better slowly, but she still thought about him often and whenever she did, it made her sad and longing for the past. I could kill that idiot, I really could. He made me so angry, he was lucky enough to get Bella in the first place, and then he leaves her in the middle of the woods with no proper explanation, except he 'doesn't want' her anymore.

A few days after he'd left her, I remember Charlie calling Billy, worriedly, explaining how Bella hadn't been the same since, she wasn't eating or drinking, and she would stare into space all the time.

Billy had been concerned for his best friend's daughter too, and he had talked to me about it. I had offered for her to come round ours and hang out with me, and she'd declined it at first, too depressed to do anything or go out anywhere. But, after about a month, she had changed her mind and came over and we had hung out in the garage. We'd got along really well since the start, and we'd been really close friends ever since, I made her laugh when she didn't feel lie laughing, and she was grateful for that.

"Thinking about him again?" I ask, already knowing the answer.

"Yeah" she replies, sadly.

I swear that idiot never did deserve someone like Bella, him and his weird blood sucking family were hated by everyone. They had all left for Carlisle's new job and hadn't even thought about how it would affect Bella, how selfish can you get? While they were living in some sunny place, Bella was hurting and still missed Edward.

"Just forget about him, he never was good enough for you anyway, Bella" I say honestly.

"What do you mean?" she asks.

"Well, you're smart, pretty, kind and funny, He didn't deserve to have you."

Oh god, what had I just said? It probably seemed like I had some pathetic crush on her now, I think, embarrassed. I can feel my cheeks heat up quickly.

"You know Jacob, normally I'd be flattered but you do realise you're super biased" she says instead.

I sigh, relieved that she didn't think I was flirting with her.

"So what happened today then?" I press her, realising she still hadn't told me and that we'd been delaying it even further.

"Where do I start?" she asks quietly.

"From the beginning" I answer, wanting to get the truth out of her.

She tells me about how after her mom died, Charlie had turned to drink. About how he'd come home from work one day and had slapped her across the face and how after that, he'd beaten her everyday when he could, using different methods. She explains how today, he'd gone further than he ever had before, and had stood on her leg on purpose and that's how it had broke because the bone had snapped.

By the end of the explanation, I'm left shocked and angry.

"Charlie beats you? I ask, disgusted.

"Yeah.." she says.

Charlie? Surely he couldn't ever do such a thing, I knew he'd taken Renee's death badly, and was struggling, but hitting Bella? What the actual hell? I'd known Charlie my whole life, my dad always meeting up with him and he was so nice. He'd always loved and cared for Bella, and I remember how excited he was when she was moving to Forks to live with him. It didn't make any sense why he'd beat his own daughter, and intentionally hurt her.

I'm so shocked I can hardly speak, it's like my whole world has fallen apart, even though it's Bella who's getting beaten, everything I'd ever known had changed, the kind best friend of my Dad was a psycho who beat my best friend!

After, I've thought about it for a while, I'm not shocked anymore, just angry, Angry at Charlie, how the hell could he do that? He was evil and I felt like I had to protect Bella from him.

"You're telling me your own dad has been beating you for months and you haven't said anything to me or to anyone? You just let him hurt you again and again everyday and take the pain like it's a normal thing to happen? What the hell Bella!"

I rant, angrily, not aware of what I'm saying. Deep down, I know this isn't Bella's fault, I just can't believe she hadn't told anyone, especially me. Poor Bella, how long had she lived in fear of her own dad? I can't imagine what that must be like because my dad had always been nothing but kind and supportive towards me and my sisters.

"Jake, calm down" Bella says, looking scared.

I immediately realise what I've done, Bella was getting beaten by Charlie and she was scared of him and his angry temper and I had just shouted at her angrily, she must be terrified.

'How could I be so stupid?' I think, regretfully.

I pull her into a hug and whisper into her ear.

"I'm sorry, I was just shocked that's all, I can't believe Charlie would do something like that", I say.

"It's fine" she answers, forgiving me.

"What are we going to do now Bella? I ask, distressed.

"Nothing" she answers simply.

I stare at her in shock, we had to do something. I couldn't just let her go back home and have him continue to beat her, what happens if she got killed? Alcohol made Charlie out of control and angry, who knows what he could do to hurt Bella? He could easily go too far and then it'd be all my fault if she was dead, I'd have known about it and not told anyone.

"Nothing? You can't just go back home and let him carry on beating you Bella."

"I have to".

"What?" I ask, confused as to why she can't say anything to anyone, didn't she realise she was in danger?

"He said that if I told anyone, he'd kill me" Bella says, starting to cry.

I'm left reeling, Charlie threatened to kill Bella? The old Charlie would have never done anything like this, he was so drunk and hurt that he was turning into someone cruel and scary.

"He said that?" I ask, sucking in a sharp breath.

"Yeah" she says, shaking.

"You can't tell anyone though, Jacob" she says, fearfully.

I look at her, shaking and scared, her eyes wide in fear of Charlie and his beatings. I know that I should probably tell someone, anyone but who would I tell? And it's not like they'd believe me anyway, a stupid 15 year old boy claiming that the well known Chief of Police was beating his own teenage daughter? Yeah, right, they'd think I was crazy. Anyway, I didn't want to get Bella in even more danger than she already is, if Charlie found out she'd told me, he'd hurt her badly so I decide to keep my mouth shut.

"But if you don't tell anyone, then you won't get any help" I protest, feeling helpless in this situation.

"I don't need any help" Bella says, determinedly.

"Fine, I won't tell anyone" I promise.

"Really?" Bella questions, not expecting me to agree so easily.

"Yeah, only because no one would believe me, they'd think I was making it up. The Chief of Police abusing his very own daughter?" I reply.

"Ok" she says.

I shuffle over to where she's sitting, huddled up on the driftwood and I hold her hand, looking out at the sea in silence. I wonder how the hell I'd got myself into this mess, one minute Bella was calling me to tell me she needed me to drive her to the hospital, and the next minute I'm harbouring her dangerous secret, not knowing what else to do, feeling more helpless than I ever have done before.

Ok, so I know this chapter was just going over what had happened in the previous chapter, I hope you still liked it. I thought it was important that I write from Jacob's POV so you can know how he feels about the whole thing, his thoughts and emotions. Please review x