"Are you dying all your life? Broken, beaten and tired of... You wanted to learn but don't know how. Diagnosis: Sudden Life! Can no one revive me now? Feels like I'm walking into the light." ~ RISE AGAINST
Finally a Kate centric chapter. Just my take on what might have gone through her head following the shots being fired in the Lorry Park. Pretty angsty.
Chapter was inspired by the song 'Sudden Life' from Rise Against.
Hope you enjoy :)
Floating in the clouds, giving up the fight, a voice is calling out, I'm walking into the light.
Distant shouts,
Raised Voices,
Drop the gun.
No, you drop the gun!
Final warning.
Beep, beep, beep
Last chance,
Drop the gun!
Drop it!
CRACK!
BANG!
Searing pain,
Burning through,
All I can feel.
The fury of the sun.
Falling down,
Broken and beaten.
Blackness.
Beep, beep, beep
So cold.
Can't breathe.
Hurts,
Everything hurts.
Jo
Offers a weak smile.
She's scared,
I can see it in her eyes.
Thinks I don't notice,
It's going to be okay.
You're going to be fine,
Help is coming.
Please be okay,
You are going to be okay.
She keeps telling me,
You're going to be okay.
I'm not so sure.
Beep, beep, beep
Still so cold,
Ice in my bones.
The current takes me.
Carries me away.
Everything Hurts.
Whispers fading.
A voice soft and caring,
I love you.
I love you Kate.
I think I love her back.
Beep, beep, beep
Sirens,
Blue lights,
Bright flashes,
A warning sign.
Shouting,
She needs help,
Who?
Who needs help?
Beep, beep, beep
So cold,
Everything hurts.
Steve.
It's gonna be alright mate.
I'm scared,
Of the shadows,
World gone static.
Trying to breathe.
But it hurts so much.
Just stay with me,
You're going to be okay.
No bets,
I try to joke.
No one laughs.
Whispers of a warm farewell.
I'm really scared,
Think I'm dying.
Eyes heavy.
It hurts,
Hurts so much.
I just want it to stop,
Keep breathing,
I remind myself.
But do I want to?
Beep, beep, beep.
Tears fall,
Hot and salty.
Don't cry.
Don't cry for me.
Take your candle.
Stay with me mate.
But it hurts,
Everything hurts.
I'm so cold,
Body closing down.
Eyes close,
Voices fade.
Giving up the fight.
NO!
He takes my hand.
Shouting,
Through the tears.
Stay with me,
Stay with me Kate!
Please stay with me!
I don't know if I can.
Can't breathe,
Fading to darkness.
Beep, beep, beep
Overlapping voices,
Strange noises.
Waves of sound.
Can't move,
Bright lights flicker.
Can you hear me?
Many faces,
Blur to static.
Tunnel vision,
Of the Great Beyond.
Beep, beep, beep
Still hurts,
So much.
Too much.
Walking into the light.
Can't breathe,
Can't hold on.
Rhythm slowing down,
Lines fade.
Flat line.
She's crashing!
Silent screams,
So dark.
So cold.
Shadows taking over.
Darkness beckons,
Then nothing.
Taken by the light.
Are you dying all your life? Broken, beaten, tired of... You wanted to love but don't know how. Diagnosis: sudden life! Can no one revive me now? Feels like I'm walking into the light...
Beep, beep, beep
Images flashed across her mind, they flickered and whirred as if from an old film projector. The light faded and everything felt so strange and distant.
Beep, beep, beep.
Kate didn't know where she was, couldn't remember what happened. Swaying in the darkness, she couldn't put the pieces together. Her head felt heavy, wrapped in a thick fog, she couldn't find her way through.
Beep, beep, beep
Her thoughts swirled, caught in the wind and blown away before she'd had the chance to make sense of them. Faint whispers called out, but she couldn't understand. There was only confusion. She was so tired.
Beep, beep, beep.
The only constant was the steady beeping and the sharp whiffs of disinfectant that pricked at her nose. Starched sheets rubbed against her skin and somewhere in the groggy depths of her mind she made a connection.
Beep, beep, beep
Kate groaned quietly, she knew where she was now. Hospital. She tried to open her eyes, but her muscles didn't want to obey. Her head felt heavy, and she was so tired, she couldn't think, everything felt jumbled. She wasn't even sure she was actually awake.
Beep, beep, beep.
She tried to remember what had happened, but everything felt so hazy. She couldn't move, couldn't make her brain work, it was as if she was no longer in control of her body, trapped in the darkness.
Exhaustion took hold, god she was so tired. She tried to fight it but it was no use. She slipped back into the grips of sleep.