Kim's POV
"You've never liked me. Not even when we were kids, long before either of us were even old enough to know what the word homophobic meant." I say throwing keys on my kitchen table. "I wasn't supposed to like you. Our parents didn't like each other, therefore we weren't either." JJ says and I scoff. "Yeah well no one gave me the memo. I don't hate you because of who you decided to marry, I couldn't care less about that. I hate you because growing up, you were one of the main reasons that I hated myself. All I ever wanted growing up was to be your friend, but eventually I realized it wasn't going to happen and that Nicole and I? We were on our own and just because I was forced into religion growing up, doesn't mean that I'm still that way or even worse a homophobe." I rant, crossing my arms over my chest. "God. Okay, the truth is, I was jealous alright? By the time I was 12 years old my entire family had fallen apart. My big sister dead, my mom depressed, my dad had left. I was jealous because you had everything that i wanted. You still had your big sister, you had loving and caring parents. You got to go to bed every night with a smile on your face, I didn't have that. Once we were adults, you were off to Chicago and I was off to DC, every once in awhile I heard things about you. Like that you were a flight attendant and then that you were a patrol officer and then that you were engaged to Adam, so yeah I made some assumptions, that I still haven't totally debunked yet." She says and I pull Hailey over to me, gently kissing her. "I'm not a fucking homophobe, I've been dating Hailey for almost two years." I say rolling my eyes, and the look on her face almost, almost makes everything worth it. "You were right Kim, the look is priceless." Hailey says, Emily nodding in agreement. "Now can the two of you make up, I'm tired of being benched." I say looking between JJ and Hailey. "I'm sorry that I hurt you so badly." Hailey says begrudgingly. "And I'm sorry about the things I said, I didn't mean them." JJ says that I nod. "Good, now we can go back to work." I say picking my keys up again. "Before we get back to the District, there's another thing I need to say. I never went to bed with a smile on my face, I went to bed wondering if tomorrow was finally gonna be the day that my mom got the balls to leave my father." I say on the drive back to the district. "Did she?" JJ asks quietly and I shake my head. "Kim watch out!" Hailey screams and my first instinct is to look to the, where a car is coming right for us, or specifically me, by the time my brain registers that I need to hit the gas peddle, it's too late. I cover my face right before everything goes black.
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this is kinda the bad thing I mentioned, but don't worry it's gonna get worse