So it's going to be forever.
Yes, it was.
You can tell me when it's over.
It'll never be over.
Best people in life are free.
Peter was free, her freedom, her love.
You can hear it in the silence.
She missed him.
Eternally.
We haven't seen each other in a month.
Well, it was longer than that.
Longer than a month.
Longer than an eternity.
I want him back.
And she didn't realise the truth.
The truth.
I had a dream.
It was them, in the future, well her future without him even if she wanted him to be a part of it so much.
He understood the fantasies.
We're the new romantics.
Ha, romance.
Because that was them.
Wasn't it.
It keeps me alive.
He was alive.
He actually was.
Was it a contorted dream, some sort of hallucination?
She wasn't convinced even if he made her believe it.
I spent all the love I saved.
She wondered if all the love she put into the relationship was worth it.
It was.
It was oh so worth it.
She loved Peter more than her heart could take it and the dreams she had…
They were magical.
She wished she had them with him.
You could be happy.
She was happy.
Deep down she was.
She loves him.
And he loved her.
She wanted him.
And he wanted her.
That was the way it was meant to be.
Hello from the other side.
There was no other side.
There was only one side.
Carla was by his side.
And Peter was Carla's side.
They were a side.
Together is harmony.
Except the memory.
The distant echo.
The way she cried herself to sleep.
The way Peter was in hospital she couldn't breathe.
Or maybe it was his breathing that was strained.
It was ok that she didn't know.
Cage after cage.
Entrapment.
That was what it was
Not that she minded.
She loved Peter.
So much.
Sometimes she couldn't breathe because of the love she had.
I wanna see you as you are now.
His love.
His passion.
Her love for him.
Worth it?
Not sure.
That was ok.
I don't quite know
That was because she didn't know.
How to feel?
Or how to live her life when he was in this position.
She would find out though.
Eventually.
How to say.
How does she say what's on her mind when she has these feelings?
These feelings of not knowing what to do for the best.
The wrong decision could end up being the worst for the rest of her life.
How does she make the right decision?
She doesn't know.
And that was ok.
How I feel.
How does she feel?
No.
She wasn't doing this again.
Second-guessing herself.
Not worth it.
It never would be.
If I lie here.
The thump of his heart was worth it.
The rest was a dream.
Nothing would change.
She knew that now.
She would still have him.
That was worth it.
This whole thing was worth it if she still had Peter at the end of it.
Oh simple thing
Her love for Peter was a simple thing for the people outside her relationship to him.
But for him and her, it was complex.
She thrived in that complexity.
They both did.
Where have you gone?
"Please don't leave me"
"Never"
I need somewhere to begin
Their future was the beginning.
The beginning of their eternity.
Their beginning.
That was something to live for.
Right?
Fresh poison each week.
Through the struggles of his alcoholism.
She would always be there.
Like she was now.
Him lying in this hospital bed on the verge of giving up.
She was there spurring him on to fight.
Fight for the things which were important, she said.
And that's what he did.
But I love it
The truth was she loved helping him.
She thrived off the simplicity of it.
But the complexity?
Sometimes she didn't know how to handle it herself and that was hard.
How does one cope with the challenges of another?
Support.
Love.
Endearing attitude.
That's what kept her alive.
Take me to church
"Will you take Carla Connor-"
"Are you sure you want this?" she cuts in, she smiles.
"I do"
Another thing which they would be saying in due course.
Wait for you to come home.
The confetti and party poppers went off.
That was their future signed and sold now.
That was them.
At this moment now.
I will remember how you kissed me.
"I love you. You know that right?"
"Of course, baby, I love you more than the world itself"
She believed it.
She had to believe it.
Take me into your loving arms
Swaying on the dance floor.
Loving every minute.
Loving every second.
That was what was worth it.
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
The twinkling of the disco ball replicating the stars of the night sky.
Worth it.
In every way, it was worth it for them,
In memory
The memory of the past.
"Are you ok?"
"Um," she falters, glancing down to her feet and avoiding his gaze "Yeah?"
He wasn't convinced.
"Ok" he responds simply knowing she would tell him in her own time.
We can't bring her in this world, shoulda knew
"What do I do?"
"I don't know love, it's your choice I will support you"
"You're in here though-"
"And you're out there making the most of her life. That's what's worth it"
"And you'd be ok with-"
"Whatever you want to do I'll be there, I'd never take that choice away from you or influence that"
Don't have to be reserved in a booth.
"Now?"
"Now" she nods glancing to Jenny who rings the bell "We have an announcement"
Everyone looks on expectedly.
"We're pregnant," Peter says putting an arm around her middle a chorus of applause, he kisses her "Our future"
"Our future" she muses.
Been a lover, been a cheat
That was him.
He was a lover.
A cheat in the past.
Determine to change.
Carla knew that even with the flaws.
That's what made him special.
Her love.
But I made you terminate my baby
"Maybe we should get rid of it?" he questions, she felt hurt about this.
"Really?"
"Yes" he confirms "We're hardly stable are we, I don't want the same mistakes as I had with Si"
"Ok" she comments feeling hurt she didn't want to give up here "No"
"What?"
"No" she shakes her head "We can do this"
"Seriously?"
"Yes I'm not giving up at the last hurdle, never"
I'm not unhinged or unhappy, I'm just wild.
"I mean I don't mean to doubt you"
"Well you do though"
"Ok" he laments wincing slightly which she doesn't notice "Fine"
"Is that all you have to say?"
"Carla-"
"You don't want this baby do you?"
"I never-"
"Shut up" she snaps with a glare, "I'm not unhinged Peter, I'm ok now we can do this it'll give you something-"
"-To fight for?"
"Yes"
"Ok..ah!" he winces, she sighs walking over and chucking the pills at him "Thanks"
"I know how it feels" she softens with a small smile "The scar will heal, it'll take time. You're healthy now and that will come out on time"
"Almost like Siamese twins"
"I wouldn't go that far"
Under the chemtrails over the country club
"Hmm" he hums, placing a hand over her bump, she looks up at him and smiles. They both gasp "Was that the first time?"
"I think. I mean the last time I felt the slightest movement but that?!"
"Ha!" he chuckles slightly with a smile "We'll be ok"
"I hope so"
We can do anything if we put our mind to it
"Congratulations"
"Hey" her voice automatically softens as she hums slightly, she glances to Peter how kisses her on the lips "It's ok"
"What do we have then?"
"A little girl" she muses, he beams
"One of each, that's something worth living for"
"Exactly. We will be ok won't we?"
"Always. From now on the future is worth fighting for"