Numb.
I went numb after I received the news that my mother and her husband Phil had been murdered.
I wasn't able to save them, and it killed me that I wasn't able to do anything for them. No less, I knew I was now alone in this world, and I had those bastards to blame.
I silently cursed them for existing. Forever crossing paths with them, and hoped to never see them again. For their sake.
"Hell Bells?" An enticing voice calls, trying to bring me out of my numb state.
"How long has she been like this?" I heard another voice ask quietly.
I don't want to go back, the moment I do, I have to face the world alone. I am not ready. I don't think I'll ever be.
"Since she woke up, Cass. We have tried everything. She won't snap out of it."
This was all my fault.
"Isabella? I need you to come back to the present for me." Another voice soothingly spoke.
No. I don't want to. I like being alone, I like being numb. If I go back all I will feel is pain. I don't want that. I can't handle it
"Woah. Cass, what are you— what are you doing?" A strained voice asks
"Dean, calm down, I think he is trying to help her. Just watch…" another voice whispered, calmly.
Why do they sound so anxious?
"Calm down, Dean, I can feel her pain. Her emotions, they are all over the place. I have to help her. She needs help. That is what I am here — to help…" He explained to them.
I wanted to cry out. To yell at them to leave me alone, but I couldn't find the strength in me to do so. My strength and will left me, ceasing to exist the moment my parents did.
Moving, or doing anything besides lay in this bed, hurt. I felt myself slowly begin to fade away, and I could do anything to stop it from happening.
As I felt myself hug the blanket closer to my body, I began to feel the mattress shift under the weight of someone sitting down next to me.
"Isabella, I know you are hurting, and even though it pains me to do this. I can't watch you waste away. You are needed for a greater purpose. There is a purpose to your pain…."
As the voice spoke, I felt something firmly touch the sides of my forehead, before feeling a hot flash sear into my mind.
"Aaaahhh!!!!"
The sudden noise caused my ears to ring, painfully, only to realize that it was me screaming, as the pain slowly began to diminish before my energy slowly returned.
Then the darkness pulled me under once more.
When I finally did wake up, I was drenched in sweat, and the room was empty.
As I winced as I moved. It felt as if my body had been through an extensive beating. Every muscle existing within my body ached.
Sweat dewed from my head to my toes.
I wondered what had happened to me for a brief moment. Then suddenly as if my head had been submerged underwater, I remembered everything that was happening.
The tears that had dried a while ago, began to reappear as my body slowly began to shake. Pain gripped at my heart as I realized that I would never see my parents again. How do I cope?
Where do I even begin? I feel so lost...