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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"Outside of the Slammer, the sound of Newt hitting the walls and the door of the room was still loud, he had thrown the chair around many times and he wouldn't stop to cry and moan./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;""I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you. . ." He murmured, and he didn't stop until the meds made him fall asleep./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"Your room in the Homestead looked weird with you being like that. Newt came closer and touched one of the towels that were covering almost all your body; they were damp, you must have had fever. Your skin was horribly pale and red veins raced across every bit of skin on sight: your cheeks, your neck, parts of the legs, between the towels covering your chest and your belly and the inside of your arms. There was a black spot on one of your arms, the size of a needle, the mark the Grief Serum had made./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;""When are the doors opening?" Alby looked at his clock./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"When he saw you, he hugged you and sat by your side. He spent the whole morning withoug feeling a thing, but there you were. He was looking at a broken girl, he'd never seen anything so awful in his life, not the one he remembered at least. It was wickedly ironce, he had thought once that you were the most beautiful and full of life creature he would ever see, now if was exactly the opposite./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"Huge tears ran across his face, falling into yours, but he didn't care anymore, he was all alone now, nothing made sense. Newt started whispering to your ear./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"When he saw you, he hugged you and sat by your side. He spent the whole morning withoug feeling a thing, but there you were. He was looking at a broken girl, he'd never seen anything so awful in his life, not the one he remembered at least. It was wickedly ironce, he had thought once that you were the most beautiful and full of life creature he would ever see, now if was exactly the opposite./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;"Huge tears ran across his face, falling into yours, but he didn't care anymore, he was all alone now, nothing made sense. Newt started whispering to your ear./p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;""Alex, do you remember when we slept together? The very first time, when we didn't do anything, Jeff had put you to sleep and you told me to stay with you. Do you remember?" A smile full of pain with some mischief appeared on his face. "It took you almost two weeks to let me in again, to actually em style="box-sizing: border-box;"do /emsomething."/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #222222;""Newt, come here." Newt didn't dare to look up, but he knew it was Minho who talked./p
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