The sun peeks through the blinds and lands on her. Everything about her is beautiful. I have been up for almost an hour. I don't want to get up because I don't want to wake her. My mind drifts back to last night. I'm still in a complete state of bliss. I can't believe that San admitted that she has never stopped wanting me just like I've never stopped wanting her. I think about how amazing last night was. I can't even put into words how amazing honestly. After we came inside, we had sex in the shower, and before we fell asleep more sex. I crave her touch, just to be close to her, the intimacy. To me it's always been more than sex with Santana. No one knows me the way she does, it feels like our souls dancing, like the feeling of the sun on your skin the first thing in the morning, like a breeze on a hot summer day. I'm convinced I was made for her. All the time we spent fighting growing up lead us to this space where I wouldn't want to be who I am now without her right here next to me. I'm not sure what this is, and I'm going to try hard not to be an overthinker. But I just really want her here always like this, sleeping like a baby in my bed. I hear what sounds like a knock at the door. I try to slip out of bed as softly and quietly as possible grabbing my robe on the way out of the bedroom. I look out of the peephole and see Brittany standing at the door as I tie my robe. I open the door and walk into the hallway, closing the door behind me.
"Santana is asleep in my bed, so I just wanted to let you know that before you come in." I said knowing that she was already judging me.
"I don't have to come in. Santana is in your bed like you guys slept together because she likes cuddles and is sad or like sweet lady kisses and scissoring?" She asked with that signature sad Brittany look on her face. I really want to tell Brittany that we had sex, she knew we had sex when we were younger. I mean we were all young and stupid we all slept around. Rachel is the only one who only had sex with one person in our circle. Brittany, Santana, and I all got around.
"Both actually." I said suddenly feeling the need to be overprotective.
"So, are you guys dating?" She asked knowing that this conversation was only going in one direction and that was downhill fast.
Before I can get anymore words out Santana opens the door. I turn around when I hear the door and before I even know it, we were all standing in my living room. Me in just a robe, Santana wrapped in my white bed sheet, and Brittany with this blank expression on her face. "Brittany what are you doing here?" I ask as I sit down on the couch, Santana following me leaving me in the middle as Brittany sits beside me.
"I just came by because I was in town. I really just wanted to ask you about Santana." She said as ran her fingers threw her hair.
"Whelp, I couldn't be better. You can see yourself out." Santana said back with a bite as I can she her noticeably get angrier by the moment.
"I think we should take this time to be open and honest about our thoughts and feelings." I said trying to ease the tension. We all just sit there in silence before I decide to break it again. "I think I'm in love with Santana. I think I always have been, but I just didn't want to admit it because you two were always together. When I could have admitted it, I wasn't ready yet." I feel Santana slide her hand into mine as our fingers intertwine.
"And I think I am in love with Quinn. Secretly, I have always wondered what would have happened if I fell in love with Quinn instead of you first. I realized I loved you both when we had sex for the first time. Brittany, you always felt like home in a person, but Quinn, you have always been like Heaven on earth. It was just an unspoken rule that we would move on after we had sex. When I saw you dating girls, I wasn't shocked at all just a little hurt. But the truth is that we weren't in the right place to love each other and now I think we are." She said as she tightens her grip on my hand. I feel this peace rush over my anxiety riddled body.
"I'm not gonna lie and say this doesn't hurt. And not because of the obvious reason but because you guys deserved a chance to see if all those what ifs could be something real. We aren't kids anymore. It's not okay to hurt the people you love and for that I'm sorry to both of you. I know that hurting one of you is like hurting both of you. I hope we can all get to a place where we can be close again but most of all I hope you two get the chance you deserve to see where this goes. We've all been best friends since we were kids. I don't want to lose that, and I can give you all the time you need if you decide we can mend our friendship. I just don't wanna go through life without either one of you." Brittany finally telling us exactly how she felt about it all. She gets up and says her goodbyes, gives me a hug, nods her head at San and with that she left. Santana and I sit in a comfortable silence on my couch for a while.
"How about a shower and we go grab some food?" I asked. Santana's eyes light up.
"So, you're in love with me?" She teased. A smirk extends across her face.
"I'm thinking waffles and maybe…" before I can get the rest of the sentence, she has me pinned down, back on the couch while she is on top of me.
"You wanna play these games? I play them better. How about I have you for breakfast to remind you that you in fact are in love with me? I think that's a good plan." She whispered in my ear with one hand holding my wrist down and the other one holding my thigh.
"If you want waffles and sex, just say that Santana. Don't tempt me with a good time! I'll fuck you so good you'll want to make me brunch instead of us going to my favorite spot around the corner." I kiss her lips and feel her smile against my mouth. We don't stop kissing until we both are breathless. "Fine! I'm in love with you but if you don't feed me in the next hour S, I'm gonna be very grumpy. So if you want a quickie, come on!" I watch her laugh uncontrollably before getting up and grabbing my hand to help me up. As I watch her it's like for once in my life, I've opened my eyes and happiness is crashing down all around me instead of uncertainty.