The Sacrifices one makes
Well thank you to everyone who reviewed it means a lot sorry if Ch. 5 wasn't to your liking but hopefully any loose ends will be taken care of in later chapters, there was one review that asked how it was possible that chuck gave in so easily when he showed Sarah his wound, well the way I see it he doesn't like that part of himself that can't seem to let go of the feelings for Sarah, Ch. 3 mentions this when the revelation that he still loved Sarah made him feel angry, when you love someone for as long as he has, it's not easy to just let go, any and every issue with how I wrote the scene of Sarah and Chuck will hopefully be amended and explained in later chapters, I hope you guys enjoy this chapter in the meantime.
I didn't do this on the last chapter because I honestly forgot but I am doing it now… I DON'T OWN CHUCK
One side of the quarter
"Son of a bitch!"
Casey flipped the table in front of him, his wounded arm protested with the action but he ignored it as he focused his attention on his team, both Sarah and Shaw were licking their wounds both equally as mad as him.
'He was within our grasp and he still got away'
Seven months had passed since the disappearance of Chuck, and team intersect had been having an extremely difficult time locating and apprehending the elusive ex-agent, at times it was as if it where all a game to him and he enjoyed playing it because he already knew how it was going to end, with him getting away and leaving them bruised and battered with their egos in the same condition as their bodies.
'Son of a bitch never mentioned becoming enemy number one around the globe within a couple of months, why the hell did I agree with letting him do this operation?'
Casey had never imagined that within a couple months the biggest enemy to the U.S government wasn't going to be the Ring but Chuck Bartowski, somehow within the span of a couple months Chuck had been able to cause havoc around the world, within the bowels of the underworld there where whispers of a man that brought death and destruction to anything and everything he touched, the ground he walked upon became a wasteland, his laughter though merry would never bring warmth to the individuals that listened instead their blood would freeze as fear consumed them.
Casey shuddered as he remembered the corpses that were found in an abandoned factory near the outskirts of Beijing.
Flashback…
The bodies of the Chinese syndicate could be seen everywhere, both young and old, all but one where dead, his face was pale and his body wouldn't stop trembling, his entire body covered in blood, though alive the young man would never have an ounce of sleep till his dying day.
Casey and his team had been dispatched to the location of the meeting when rumors of an agent named Carmichael began to appear, their orders "retrieve the intersect at any cost", team intersect couldn't have been more than a five minutes late into the meeting but as they entered cautiously they began to see blood splattered everywhere, forty crooked MSS agents could be seen stranded all across the factory, a bullet to the head was the only thing they had in common and in the middle of all the death and carnage the literal heads of the syndicate bosses where in display for anyone who entered.
"What the fuck happened here"
The vile in Casey's throat threaten to come out as he voiced everyone's thought but he pushed it down, out of all the blood spattered scenes he had faced, this was the one that unnerved him the most.
"Casey look for survivors"
Sarah began to run up and down the factory as she ordered Casey to move, her heart in her throat she could feel the panic begin to settle in but she forced her nerves to calm down there would be time for that later right now it was time to collect herself and search for any survivors.
She began to lose hope when out of the corner of her eye she was able to see a young man in the corner trembling unable to calm his nerves his eyes showed utter fear as she got closer she noticed her presence wasn't being registered, she laid a hand on the man's arm and the man immediately retracted himself from her touch
"Casey, Shaw I need you guys over here!"
Sarah focused her attention on the man who was covered in blood, none of it his, his hair was caked with blood and his eyes where unfocused, she could hear him mutter something over and over again
"Sǐshén"
Casey and Shaw hurried to Sarah's side without paying attention to their surroundings it was obvious… their where no survivor's, they saw Sarah checking for any injuries on the trembling figure in front of her and as they got closer they could hear the mumbling coming from the man's lips
"Sǐshén"
Shaw was beside Sarah making sure she didn't miss anything he could tell she was hanging by a thread from her trembling hands, the blood soaked man in front of them seemed to be the catalyst for her mental break down so he motioned to Casey to take her back while he began to think how to handle the situation.
'Why would you do this Chuck, why would you turn on your own team?'
Casey could see the tremble in Sarah's figure and steeled himself Chuck needed this, he needed to change her perception of him from the innocent man who wouldn't hurt a fly to a cold blooded killer who wouldn't bat an eye to killing anyone who crossed him, when the time came she couldn't hesitate on pulling the trigger.
'Chuck you better know what you're doing and I hope it's worth all the pain you're going to be causing'
Sarah felt herself fall into a chasm of panic her body was beginning tremble and even though she wanted to stop she couldn't, her body wouldn't listen, it was as If it had a mind of its own, seeing the man soaked with blood made her stomach churn in revulsion, even though her heart screamed at her that Chuck would never do this her surroundings told a different story.
"Sarah, Casey the man isn't responding to anything I ask, he's repeating the same phrase over and over again I don't know what he's sa-"
"Grim reaper"
Sarah and Shaw focused their attention on Casey whose focus was still on the man in front of him
"I only know 3 languages apart from English, my mandarin is a bit rusty but the phrase he's saying means Grim Reaper and its plural meaning one person it seems who ever came to the meeting came alone"
Both Shaw and Sarah felt the blood drain from their faces when they came up with the same conclusion
'Chuck did this on his own'
The silence was interrupted as the man in the corner began to speak
"Tā yīgè rén lái Shāle suǒyǒu rén Tā ràng wǒ huózhe Dànshì wǒ bùdé bù kǎn xià tāmen de tóu"
Casey felt his blood run cold, he understood the sacrifices that one had to make he had made plenty himself but what this man was saying meant one thing he wished Chuck never had to do, sacrifice his humanity, he gulped wishing he wasn't the bearer of bad news but there was no one else.
"He says that there was only one man that came in and he killed everyone but him but there was a condition to his survival…"
Sarah and Shaw felt a chill run down their spine as they listened to the hardened marine speak, they knew there was very little that could frighten Casey and from what they could hear in the man's tone of voice one thing was true, he was scared.
"He told him if he wanted to continue to live he had to cut off the heads of every syndicate boss"
Casey watched as both Sarah and Shaw struggle to school their features but at the end they decided to avoid eye contact with him and one another the unanimous thought.
'Chuck doesn't exist anymore'
Flashback end…
That had been five months ago, ever since then the team was dispatched anywhere that rumors began to grow about a man who was deaths vanguard, since the Ring and Chuck where one and the same thing at the moment, if they were chasing Chuck they were also pursuing a ring base.
"Hey guys seems a little glum in here"
Their attentions where focused on the T.V screen that turned on with a distorted figure speaking, glad that there could be something that could distract their thoughts from their hourly brooding they moved towards the screen.
"Hey piranha got anything for us"
Sarah stood up wincing with the sudden movement but stepped forward towards the screen, the bruises that she wore on her right side of her body protested with all the movement but she refused to show weakness.
'Those fucking goons sure know how to pack a punch wish I hadn't decided to duke it out but I was pissed'
If they didn't know better they could have sworn the figure smiled and even chuckled a little bit
"Well of course I have something for you my beautiful fellow agent, have I ever given you the wrong information, and before you answer that Casey no I haven't, you guys are just too slow and aren't there to capture the bastard"
From the corner of the screen Casey could be seen deflating a bit, the words in his mouth snatched before he could voice them out, he decided to grunt instead and crossed his arms waiting for the meeting to begin.
In that instant the T.V split in two on one side was the distorted figure of the piranha and in the other General Beckman
"What is the status on the apprehension of the intersect"
The piranha started with the report by pulling out some pictures from his data bases, on his side of the screen pictures of various one on one meetings with Chuck and certain drug lords of the Mexican cartel.
"Well general" Casey started
"Piranha was able to find information on a Ring operation that was going to be located in the city of Juarez apparently out little boy, Chuck, was getting tired of the Europe Scene and decided to jump back on this continent"
Out of the corner of his eye Casey could see Sarah stiffen and relax as soon as Shaw took her hand into his letting her know everything was going to be alright.
"The meeting was going to take place in an abandoned hotel, Piranha was able to figure out the perimeters of where the hotel could be by the traffic cameras, we were able to find the location quickly because it seems Chuck has this little game he likes to play with us called 'Can you catch me'"
Casey hated this game, mostly because it meant that Chuck was in more danger than he had to be, but also because they kept losing, over and over again just when they would think they had won Chuck was somehow able to escape, the first time they ran into each other was in Russia two months after Beijing, he was able to escalate the walls on either side of the cramped alley by using parkour, even as they began shooting at him he was capable of dodging the damn bullets all the while laughing as if he enjoyed the thrill, each time after that it had become crazier and crazier, in Spain Chuck hitched a ride on a crazed bull as the herd started causing mayhem, in France he jumped off the Eiffel tower and saved himself by throwing a rope around a metal beam and hoisting himself up, team intersect could only watch as he once more used parkour to escape, but out of all the times that Chuck had escape the one he hated the most was when as they were chasing him around New Delhi the kid was able to get away simply because a freaking cow laid down on the street causing a huge traffic jam, Chuck had been on a motorcycle while they were in a car, Casey never imagined hating anything more than he hated communism but now there was, it was Chuck's laughter.
"Chuck was able to obtain plutonium from a seller in Juarez, Senior Juan Pablo Fuentes, when you hear people say you can buy things for cheap in Mexico they aren't lying, we suspected Chuck was going to buy the plutonium for a cheap price and sell it to war lords in Afghanistan for a higher price, when we got to the meeting the transaction was still taking place, as Sarah and I made our way closer to get a better shot, Sarah accidently stepped on a faulty floor board the sound was registered by all the people present thus the shootout ensued and Shaw, who was still in the van as backup, sprinted to the building and gave chase to Chuck who decided it was better to leave during the shootout."
Casey let Shaw tell his side of the story
"While Sarah and Casey took care of the henchmen I ran ahead of them with my gun in hand, I took out a couple of the people who were shooting at us but my primer goal was to catch the traitor-"
Shaw felt Sarah tighten her hold on his hand, and regretted what he said, Sarah could deny all she wanted but he knew Chuck still held a spot in her heart the same way his deceased wife held a spot in his, it had been six months since the last time they slept together, the first time that they did it was difficult since they both wished they were with someone else they never did anything like that again after their first experience, they kissed and heavily at times but that was as far as they would go both were not willing to move on it was hard for him but excruciating for her, Sarah loved a man that was alive and dead at the same time while he loved a woman who was dead in every sense of the word.
"As I ran after Chuck in the building, I started to shoot at him but it felt as if every bullet I shot would simply faze through him, eventually I ran out of bullets and I was able to corner him inside a closed off room which was when he took out his own gun behind his back and aimed it at me"
Both Casey and Sarah had heard this story on their way back to castle but they still couldn't hide the shutter they felt as Shaw retold the part of having Chuck aim a gun at him
"Just as I thought I was going to die, Chuck decided to mock me"
Flashback…
"Well agent Shaw it seems we are at a fork in the road"
Chucks voice held a tone of cheerfulness but Shaw knew better as he stared into Chucks eyes, they were empty, they held no life and even though that was what he wanted when Chuck was under his tutelage seeing those eyes devoid of emotion made his stomach churn, Chuck was never meant to kill his emotions like him, Chuck was meant to be different he was supposed to be the beacon of hope that showed you could be an agent with your emotions in tacked.
"Chuck if you're going to kill me than do it"
Shaw was not going to let Chuck enjoy this moment he wanted this to be over with, he could finally be with his wife where ever she was.
"Awe that wouldn't be fun agent Shaw and you know how I love having fun, haven't you noticed my little game of Catch Me If You Can"
Shaw's features demonstrated just how confused and Chuck could only laugh at their stupidity
"Haven't you noticed how easy it's been for you to find me ever since that one time in Russia, haven't you ever wondered how it's possible"
Chuck could see the wheels turn in the agents head
'Why has it been so easy? Before it would take us weeks before catching a whiff of his location, now it's a matter of days'
Chuck began to giggle like a little school boy who had just found a new toy to play with
"I can see those wheels turning agent Shaw, ever since that one fateful day In Russia I began to crave that adrenalin rush you guys provide for me, so ever since that day I've been leaving little bread crumbs here and there on purpose so that your little friend the piranha could catch me"
Shaw tried to hide the surprise on his face but by the time he was able to school his features it was too late
"Hahahahaha you thought I didn't know about him"
Chucks maniacal laughter resounded around the room and Shaw had to fight the shiver he felt go down his spine
"Oh you poor, poor bastard I knew you guys where fucking idiots but I didn't know it was this bad"
Chuck wiped away the tears in his eyes with the hand that held the brief case, his SIG- Sauer P229 still pointed at Shaw, Chuck simply shook his head in disbelief
"Agent Shaw one thing you guys probably don't know is that I was the one who taught that prick everything he knows, I wasn't a recluse in college you know? I was a hacker back in the day I just never used a moniker I preferred staying hidden, any who as I was saying piranha was able to contact me through a web chat he begged me to teach him so I did it's a tale as old as time now and I am surprised he never told you that tidbit of information, the only reason he's still alive and not buried in a ditch somewhere is because I allow him to live, he makes these little squabbles fun"
Shaw was pissed, pissed at the fact that the piranha had not shared this information with them, pissed at the fact that Chuck was enjoying everything that was occurring, and pissed that at the moment he couldn't do anything.
"So what you're saying is that the reason why you're able to get away is because you're the one planning these little meetings?"
Chuck simply smiled at how clueless Shaw was to everything
"No you dumbass the only thing I plan on is seeing you guys where ever I have a meeting, getting caught depends entirely on luck, if I am able to escape than I am lucky and if I ever get caught well I guess my luck just ran out"
Insanity could be seen on Chucks features, the darkness had consumed him and there was no saving him now.
"Agent Shaw as I've said I like our little game because so far I have gotten away without a scratch but you know what? I want to up the ante"
Chuck ejected the mag and did the same for the bullet in the chamber he put the mag in his pocket and put the gun away behind him, Shaw couldn't get a read on him and stayed still
"Well Agent Shaw, come on, I don't have all day, chaos to cause world to burn, you know that sort of fun stuff, I would really appreciate it if you would start oh I don't know HITTING ME!"
The last part he shouted, and Shaw was unable to dodge the fist that smashed across his face dazing him
"Come on Agent Shaw that was barely a love tap"
Shaw shook off the haze in his head and ran towards him going for the body so as to pin him against the wall, Chuck simply smiled as Shaw lifted him from the waist and smashed him towards the wall on the opposite side of the room, Chuck coughed out a laugh
"THAT'S WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT!"
With that said Chuck brought down his elbows on top of Shaw's exposed back causing him to loosen his grip around Chuck's waist which he took advantage of by taking a hold of Shaw's shoulders and repeatedly ramming his knee in Shaw's sternum enjoying the sound of pained grunts
"You know, id thought you would be tougher, guess I was wrong"
Chuck couldn't hide the laughter in his voice, Shaw had this coming for a while now. Shaw pushed him back and gave himself space thus ensueing the fist fight that Chuck craved at the moment.
Shaw got in as close as he could and threw an uppercut which was evaded, Chuck took advantage of the close proximity and using his elbow he aimed for Shaw's temple it landed and Shaw stumbled back, not wanting to quit the momentum he had, Chuck followed the elbow with a flying knee towards Shaw's sternum, Shaw blocked the knee but was still sent flying backwards, Shaw put up his guard as Chuck began the onslaught of punches, Shaw stepped back to gain some room but that was a bad idea as Chuck dropped low and swept Shaw's legs from under him causing him to drop to the floor and for the air in his lungs to escape, Shaw hated that Chuck simply stood there as if waiting for him to stand back up, getting back to his feet he brought his guard up once more and began his own onslaught of fists but each punch was both blocked and redirected by Chuck.
'When did Chuck flash'
During the entire time they spoke Chuck had not given the tale tell signs of a flash and even as they fought Chuck had been able to use different sorts of martial arts, Shaw was pulled out of his thoughts when Chuck made an uppercut motion hitting his gut and lifting Shaw off the ground, Shaw felt a rib crack and all the air in his lungs was once more forced out causing him to fall to his knees.
"Booooooooooring come on agent Shaw I bet agent Walker would have given me a better fight than this"
Chuck didn't want to knock him out just yet so he opted for another way to get Shaw angry and slapped him across the face.
"Look, I don't have all day and I really want to blow off some steam, have I ever told you that I really don't like you in fact I despise you, I'm pretty sure you know why I left?"
Shaw didn't answer, he didn't have to, Chuck had the uncanny ability to read people whenever he wanted to.
"I will take your silence as a yes, I will tell you this, what you have been informed of isn't the whole reason, it sounds pathetic but since the moment I received this little tool in my head I had been nothing but a slave to a government that would sooner kill me than give me my freedom, the one who held the leash to this little pup was none other than Sarah Walker, or should I call her Sam"
Chuck made it seem as if he cared one way or the other but quickly shook his head
"Doesn't matter, as I was saying, the beautiful agent sure knew how to keep me in line, giving me the idea that somehow there was something between us, pushing me away then bringing me close over and over again, telling me all those lies, that I was special that I could be anything I wanted to be"
Chuck spit on the floor as if disgusted
"I'll tell you one thing, I believed everything she told me, up until the moment I heard your little conversation in your apartment, after that, everything I thought was true crashed and burned, the video of Casey coming into my home to put me out of my misery was tough and it did push me off the edge but the whole reason why I was there in the first place was because Sarah pushed me towards it"
Shaw could hear everything but he couldn't get his bearings he was too dazed and the pain in his ribs was too much.
"So you're mad she chose me instead of you"
Shaw knew it was a bad idea to make Chuck angry but he really wanted to gloat, he preferred a slap or a punch to the face but instead he received a cold laugh that chilled him down to the bone.
"Oh agent Shaw, you're partially right I was angry but want to know something?"
Shaw couldn't stop the punch aimed at his gut causing him to hunch over
"I have you to thank Shaw, I found my calling, I'm pretty good at being bad and you should see the fear I cause by simply walking into a room, man it's exhilarating and the woman that work for me oh their like bitches in heat I seem to recall one who was working for me a while back she had a cute face and her moans where music to my ears too bad she was a traitor"
Chuck brought a finger to his chin as if he was trying to recall some lost thought
"Hmm the name is on the tip of my tongue, ah yes I believe you know the name, Mrs. Evelin Shaw"
Shaw felt his body tense up, lifting his gaze to meet Chucks, hoping to find some sort of sign that he was lying but to his dismay he couldn't find it.
"Uh Oh seems like Lil old Evelin never told you she was undercover, I use the word 'was' because when I met her I killed her for her deceit she wasn't working for the benefit of the Ring, she was giving information to the CIA her death was faked by Graham so that she could enter into the ranks of the Ring and to make sure everything was spotless he sent an agent who had no idea what was going, you know this agent as Sarah Walker"
Shaw felt his world shatter and was having trouble voicing his thoughts
"Oh Shaw, Shaw, Shaw guess the agency never told you of how your wife accepted this mission knowing the risks, any way as I said when I met her I took her out for some dinner, shared some wine, and then we fucked, oh that was fun and then the next morning I drugged the juice we were having for breakfast with a very concentrated dose of truth serum and she spilled everything from how she stilled loved you to how she was the mole sending Ring information to you, after she told me everything I took out my trusty SIG- Sauer P229 and put a bullet in her head"
Shaw couldn't move, the main reason was because he felt a couple of his ribs fractured, another reason was the shock that had entered his system, his wife had been alive she was the mole that had contacted him all those years ago, he tried to reason with himself that maybe she had not been because of the fact that the Ring didn't take prisoners, seeing Chuck chuckled only confused him more.
"Well Shaw"
A swift kick to his face once more made Shaw's world spin
"It was a blast catching up with you, tell your fellow agents and your boss about this little game we have going on, let your bosses know that if they try to send any other team other than you guys she will be receiving a box with their body parts stuffed in it"
Flashback end…
Sarah and Casey kept their eyes on the floor, Shaw had not told them everything when they were on the way back to castle so it was their first time hearing everything, Sarah in particular felt her thoughts jumbled into a mess, Shaw's wife had been the woman she was sent to terminate, Graham had not given her a name just a picture Evelin is the only one that fit Chuck's story, after so many years the truth had come out, she had not killed anyone for her red test, she wanted to feel relived but she couldn't because of the fact that Evelin had still met her end.
"I see agent Shaw, my condolences for your wife, I would like to let you know I was not aware of director Graham's involvement in any of this"
The general didn't know what to say, she was never the type to give consolation, deciding that it be best to continue the briefing she cleared her throat
"Is there anything else?"
Casey once more stepped forward
"We saw Bartowski exit the room and gave chase after him we thought we had the upper hand when he had his back against the wall at the end of the hallway, we had our guns on him and told him turn around and to put the brief case down, he did so without hassle we then told him to put his hands behind his head, he did so without issue once more"
Casey rubbed the wound on his arm feeling his anger rise
"The bastard had a throwing knife on him, when he put his hands behind his head he was able to grab it and throw it at my arm incapacitating me it seems that it was coated with chemical that caused instant paralyses, Walker fired when she saw me go down but by the time the first shot was fired Chuck was already in front of her and was capable of taking the gun from her grasp, using the handle of the gun he knocked her out cold, he proceeded to grab the suit case and walked away"
Sarah decided to stay quiet as Casey left out some details of the whole ordeal like how she had not fired immediately, she had hesitated and that was why she had only shot once, Casey also left out how before Chuck knocked her out he was able to pin her to the wall and give her a heated kiss which he ended as fast as he started and then knocked her out.
The room was quiet, everyone was stuck in their own thoughts including the general, when Chuck proposed the plan in the beginning she was against it until he told her that plan B was to actually go rouge, only difference between plan A and plan B was that Plan A was sanctioned, in this moment in time only three people knew of Chucks involvement with the Ring her, Casey and the president every other agent was given the order to shoot on sight, Beckman knew that this operation was causing pain to the team but it was a needed sacrifice, ever since Chuck entered the ranks of the Ring they had been able to take into custody many rogue agents not only that they had also been able to take down a base all under the pretext that team intersect was just that good when in reality Chuck had been the one serving everything on a silver platter.
"Alright team you're dismissed"
With that the general cut the feed leaving the team to their own vices, Casey stayed quiet as the environment turned hostile and it was all aimed at the figure on the screen
"Piranha care to tell us why you didn't tell us how you were connected to Chuck"
The cold tone in Sarah's voice reminded the team who Sarah was, the Ice Queen was making an appearance at the moment, the figure in the screen gave a sigh in response.
"Agent walker, Agent Shaw and Colonel Casey do you have any secrets that you wish not to divulge"
Sarah was about to retort but the figure in the screen didn't let her
"All of you have your secrets, don't think I don't have my own, yes Chuck was the one who taught me everything I know but that doesn't mean I haven't gone my own path and come up with new ways of hacking it's been years since we have talked to each other, do you guys actually believe I don't have contingency plans for everything that could happen, Chuck is many things but he isn't all knowing he isn't some fucking god no matter what the rumors say about him, you seem to forget why I'm in this team in the first place, when the general introduced me to this team I was in big trouble I hacked the wrong people and now my head is worth a fortune in certain parts of the middle east, Russia and North Korea, the general offered me a deal, for protection all I had to do was help this team find my teacher who apparently had gone rogue, there was no fine print that said I had to tell you my whole fucking life story"
Neither Shaw nor Sarah could argue against his logic in reality there wasn't any importance to the fact that Piranha had some sort of connection to their old partner, Casey stayed quite he knew that Chuck was good, these six months that have passed have showed him just how outclassed he was by Chuck, 'piranha' and Chuck were the same but at times even he forgot Chuck was the one behind that screen
"Shaw you said that Bartowski wiped the floor with you but it didn't seem like he had flashed what do you mean by that?"
Shaw was glad to be pulled out of his thoughts
"Casey when I first met him he would make a certain gesture, his eyes would cross and for a split second he was wide open to an attack, but when I met him this time he had no openings all his moves where swift and deliberate they didn't seem robotic like how I remembered them"
Casey was going to have to question Chuck on that when he got to his apartment
"Something doesn't seem right, Piranha find whatever footage you can find on Bartowski three months ago make sure it's a worldwide search we need to figure out when this new occurrence started"
With that Casey stepped out of the room giving Shaw and Sarah privacy
"Well guys I'll see you when I see you"
The screen went dark and the two were left alone, the silence was uncomfortable, both had so much to say but they didn't know how to start
"Sarah"
"Shaw"
They both said at the same time and Sarah nodded her head indicating she wanted Shaw to go first
"Sarah, when Chuck told me about my wife how she had been alive, I believed him but as soon as I calmed down the logical side of me concurred that Chuck must be lying, she couldn't have been alive, I buried her"
Sarah at that moment wished she had gone first, taking in a breath she started
"Daniel, Chuck was right about one thing, Graham did send me to kill your wife, she was my red test, I was given a picture and a location no name, no history or affiliation, for the past couple of years all my targets had detail descriptions on their files the only one that wasn't was Evelin, your wife"
Shaw could only stare at Sarah as she confirmed what Chuck had told him, a part of him wanted to be angry but Evelin was the one who had chosen to go along with the mission Sarah was only a tool in the grand scheme of things, letting out a breath he stared down at his hands
"Sam, I'm not angry at you, you are innocent in this whole ordeal, the real bad guy here is Chuck he is the reason why I will never see my wife alive, I use to think there was a chance of bringing him back alive but it seems that's not the case anymore"
Sarah knew where this was going, she knew that Chuck had just made the mark on his back more prominent on Shaw's mind
"Sarah, these few months together have helped me cope but one thing we both know is that I will never stop loving my wife whether she is alive or dead, it's the reason why I've never taken off my ring, so I believe it would be better to end things here"
Sarah wanted to feel hurt, she wanted to fight for this relationship but she wasn't going to because Shaw was right, this whole "relationship" was simply them trying to cope Sarah didn't feel her heart shatter she didn't feel like crying in fact she felt nothing, the one man who she had truly loved had taken care of that, funny thing was that he didn't do it on purpose, going by what Shaw had said in his report Chuck was already at the precipice because of the way she had treated him the termination order was simply the last straw so when he fell down the abyss he had unknowingly taken her heart with him.
"Daniel what do you mean there isn't a chance of bringing him alive?"
Sarah knew what he meant but she still didn't want to believe it
"I mean that if I have the shot I'm going to take it and I will not feel bad for sending him to hell"
Shaw exited the meeting room leaving Sarah to her thoughts no one notice the cameras in the room focusing and refocusing, on the other side of the screen Chuck sat and watched Sarah as she ruffled her hair a habit she had when stressed, his heart ached for her but everything hinged on the idea that he was irredeemable Shaw was on board and Sarah was following.
"I am so sorry Sarah, I'm sorry for everything"