A/N I don't own twilight or the characters
So I don't like how Bella heard edwards voice I know that's how her and Jake got together in the first place but it was a little to much for me and I hate that she used him so I'm not making that a thing in my story -
Bella POV
Just Jake and Bells that's all he wants from me
Was to just be us, no interruptions, no third wheel, no hesitation , sounds so simple .
Easy as breathing .
But why did it sound so scary? To just be with him nothing standing in between us, I love him He knows I love him but that wasn't enough cause he wanted all of me fllaws and all .
But that was just it I gave myself fully to someone already...and they took me and broke me.
And that's when I realized I wasn't holding on to Edward because I still wanted him, I was holding on to him because I was scared, giving Edward up meant giving Jacob a chance to hurt me .
But Jacob helped fixed you're loves you . I can always count on my subconscious to put her option in, but she was right he did help fix me
But I was messed up mentally it wasn't even about Edward . I have issues ...
Issues I never even thought to solve i got so many insecurities, so afraid of being abandoned, Not being worth fighting for or being loved the way he loves me.
And it started with Renee and Charlie,
I been staring at Jacob for the past five minutes, I didn't know what to say so I said the truth .
" I'm afriad " i whispered wrapping my arms around myself like I have been this past 6 months I shrugged my shoulder " I'm afriad of getting my heart broken again ...like before..." I took a deep breath trying to stop the tears from falling "cause it hurt me so bad I'm afriad to vulnerable and I'm afriad of you and the way that you make me feel..." my that I was desperately trying to hold back finally fell down my cheeks
"But I do ...I do want you more then anything but Jake I'm fucked up...I have issues real issues that isn't fair for you to deal with them"
He look right into my eyes "Bella baby no one is perfect I meant what I said flaws and all I just want you your the only one I see Bella ask Quil and embry it drives them crazy" he chuckled.
"I have abandonment issues " I stated
"I know" he said taking a step closer to me
"Im needy and I overthink"
" I know" he tucked my hair behind my ear
" Danger follows me everywhere I go"
" I know" he wrapped his arm around my waist
I looked up into his eyes "god I love you Jacob"I whispered
He smiled my Jacob smile " I know " he whispered back before placing his lips on mine, giving me the most tender most sweetest kiss I have ever had, no tongue, no urgency, no fear, no third person, just Jake and Bells and fuck did it feel good
"I love you more" he said against my mouth
I shook my head smiling against him "not possible "
We spent the next thirty minutes. Kissing telling each other how much we meant to each other
I pulled away glancing at the clock on my night stand "Jake it's almost three am and we never even talked about what Victoria said "
He groaned against my throat " can't we talk about it later I'm *kiss* a little *kiss* busy right now *lick* " I giggled hitting his arm.
"No you gotta tell me what happen " pushing him away from me. Sitting against my headbored, I don't even remeber heading toward the bed during our make out session but I didn't tell him that, didn't need to make him more cocky then what he already is
Jacob sat next to me grabbing the ends of my hair playing with it .
"Okay okay so the redheaded bitch was at the edge of a cliff we was chasing her then outta no where she turns around and is all Demoney and evil saying that other bloodsuckers are gonna hunt for you because your blood dosnt only sing for douchward whatever the fuck that means we figured she was just lying "he said
I stared at him raising a eyebrow " douchward really Jake"
"Opps did I say that out loud my bad " he said sarcastically , I rolled my eyes
" well she wasn't lying Edward told me before I was singer basically my blood was like his own person brand of heroin I was addictive I guess but that dosnt explain why other vampires would want me "
" maybe she was lying about that part trying to scare us to throw us off of her and focus on looking for other bloodsuckers" Jacob said yawning
"Maybe ...I think I should uh call Alice to check in see if she can tell me why Victoria would say that" I said hesitantly not wanting to get him upset again
"As much as I don't like it I think your right call her in the morning " Jake said
" okay I will " I said getting u see the covers I watch Jake get up and walk toward the window .
"Where you going Jake" I said yawning I was struggling to keep my eyes open
" I was gonna go home bells"
"No stay please you'll hear if Charlie comes home and gets up right ? "I asked
"Yea but are you sure your okay with it"
I nodded my head to exhausted to talk I lifted the blanket behind me I felt his warm body press against me he kissed the top of my head " goodnight my bells I love you "
That was the last thing I heard before sleep took me
I woke up sweaty and hot, I felt something heavy on top of me,I slowly opened my eyes to see a russet arm draped around my middle and a hand covering my breast, I giggled even in Jacob's sleep he's gotta push the boundaries.
I felt him stir behind me I felt something hard poking my ass I moaned softy when I felt a warm open mouth kiss on my shoulder going up my neck, to my ear "Mmmm Good morning beautiful " I turned my body to face him I was met was a beautful smiling Jacob.
"Good morning What's that smile about " I asked him Poking his cheek he just smiled wider
"This is a Fantasy come true bells I dreamt of waking up with you for so long you have no clue how happy I am right now "
I glanced down looking back up at him with a eyebrow raised " uhh I think it's pretty obvious Jake we're not the only one who woke up this morning " I said blushing
He belt out a belly laugh " oh god bells that was hilarious"
"Seriously Jake is that normal I meant it was like that before you woke up" this only made him laugh more
"That my beautful Bella is morning wood that's what happens to guys"
"Oh " my blush deepening in my cheeks
" it's okay bells you'll learn about little Jake later on " he said winking
"Little Jake " I asked in disbelief
" yep that's was I call him you don't have names for your uhh lady curves" he asked wiggling his eyebrows
"No You big goof" I said giggling
" hmmm we're gonna have to fix that I'll think of something maybe Jacob's play ground Or Jacob's hidden treasure" he said grinning
"Something is seriously wrong with you" I said teasing him
" no what's seriously wrong is that we been up for five minutes now and I haven't kissed you yet" he said smirking
"Hmmm that is a problem how do we fix that"
" oh I have a few ideas" he pressed his lips to mine softly moving slowly against mine
I pulled away from him smiling " I love you Jake"
" I love you baby" my stomach flipped when he said "baby"
I looked over at my clock it read 10 am then I remembered that I was in bed with a boy on a Saturday and Charlie had no work today
" shit Jacob you gotta get outta here Charlie gonna shoot you " I shout whispered pushing on his hard chest with all my strength, but it was like pushing on a wall a sexy sculpted smooth lickable wall,
"Chill bells your dad checked on you when he got in witch was a hour after we fell asleep and he left about an hour ago to fish with Charlie never even came in here were good "
I sighed in relief " okay good"
"now where we're we" he said leaning for a kiss, suddenly I remember I didn't brush my teeth yet, Jacob leans in as I clamp my hand against my mouth .
Now Jacob I kissing my knuckles "bwels yer lips fell wired " he mutter against my hand I chuckled " sorry Jake morning breath be right back "
I got up running to the bathroom
" you know I don't care about that I just wanna kiss you " he yelled as I closed the door
I washed up brushed my hair in a ponytail I walk back in a room when my phone rang
" Jacob see who it is probelty dad checkin on me"
He grabbed my phone on the side desk and started growling ,
" what's wrong Jake who is it your shaking calm down baby"
"Alice Cullen she had a vision and there all coming tonight " he said reading my text
A/N let me know what u thunk