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24th July. Day 2.

Kurt and Finn had decided to get out the house for an hour. it had been a rough few hours for Kurt and he needed out. He needed a few more essentials before his move back tomorrow. Packing had exhausted them both and Finn knew Kurt needed to keep his mind off returning back to Dalton. They parked up to their local drugstore and Kurt turned the engine off before turning to Finn.

"I feel like doing something reckless. You know in the movies where they do something rebellious to cover up how they really feel? Yeah. I want to do something like that." He took of his seatbelt before turning to face Finn. "I feel like just saying fuck it! Get a Piercing? Fuck it! Get a Tattoo? Fuck it! Dying my hair? Fuck it!"

Finn looked at Kurt in shock before raising his hand towards his forehead. "Wait.. what are you doing?"

"Dude, I'm just checking to make sure you're not sick. Are you sick? Do you feel sick?" Kurt playfully slaps his hand away and and rolled his eyes. "Oh fuck you Finn, I'm being serious!"

"Dude, your hair is like your life. You hate when someone even touches it. What is it you use to say every morning?" Finn asks questionably. Kurt smirked before dramatically replying

"Life isn't perfect but your hair can be!"

They both laughed out loud. A genuine laugh was rare from Kurt these days and Finn treasured everyone single one of them. They got out the car and continued the conversation.

"I'll bet you anything you won't dye your hair."

Kurt stopped in his tracks.. Is he really trying to challenge me? Seriously? Kurt raised an eyebrow at Finn before smiling wildly. "Pick a colour." Now this time it was Finns turn to stop dead in his tracks. He turned round slowly meeting his eyes with his brother. He knew his brother never turned down a bet. He was too competitive and it was in his blood. Burt was the same. Cut from the same cloth.

"Oh man if you're a bullshitting me right now I'll be-

"You know what a colour is right BFG? There's red, yellow, pink-

"Blue." Finn smirked before replying quickly cutting Kurt off. Blue was Blaine's favourite colour. Blaine told Finn once it reminded him of Kurt. It reminded him of the first time he laid eyes on him and Kurt KNEW that. His eyes was the first thing he fell in love with. Finn knew it was a big risk saying that colour but he needed to see how he would react.

"Imagine if you walked in with blue hair Kurt? Imagine the look on their fucking faces!"

He thought he had fucked up for a moment. Kurt wouldn't meet his eyes. He started to panic but then Kurt met his with a mischievous look in his eyes and replied short and sweet.

"Fuck it."

They returned home. Finn was through the door first nearly knocking a lamp over on his way. Kurt bet Finn he couldn't carry all the bags inside on his own and Finn took the challenge happily. Kurt smirked before shutting the door behind started to clap like a maniac before running up to Finn and hugging him, nearly knocking him over, Finn grabbed the table to stop himself from toppling over.

"I knew you could do it! I'm so proud of you!" Kurt said happily in a childlike voice. "You're my hero! Wait till I tell all my friends how big and strong you are!"

"I fucking hate you dude!"

"I don't believe that for a second Finn Hudson!" Kurt placed a sloppy kiss to his cheek and started skipping away before shouting back "Watch you don't trip over them bags Finn! Wouldn't want you to break your neck! I can't be a orphan and a bereaved sibling now can I?" Kurt smiled cheekily before entering the kitchen and turning the light on. One thing Kurt was good at was giving Oscar winning performances. Finn entered the kitchen shortly after and starting lugging the bags onto the table. He huffed dramatically before starting to unpack. Kurt smiled gently before walking over and helping him unload. They unpack in silence but a comfortable silence. It was a thing that they had gotten used too and even though they wasn't talking, it wasn't awkward.

"You don't have to act happy around me." Finn broke the silence. "if you wanna talk and stuff or whatever I'm here for you man." Finn shrugged before sitting down and tapping on the chair next to him.

Kurt knew his brother could read him like a book. Kurt glanced towards Finn before giving a watery laugh. He took a deep breath before sitting down to face his brother. "Its okay man, you can say it."

"I don't know how I'm going to survive this Finn, I don't know if I can survive this." Kurt's voice broke but he refused to let the tears fall. He hated letting Finn see him cry.

"Dalton is one thing but my dad? They don't know Finn. I know Jeff will ask how he is. I can't deal with that. I just feel like quitting."

"Look at me Kurt Hummel, diva exstra- Finn stopped. Damn. What was that fucking word again? Kurt had started to smile. God he loved his brother. Finn pointed at Kurt and gestured for Kurt to say the word.

"Extraordinaire?" Kurt said with a grin.

"Yes that!" Finn let out a nervous laugh before carrying on. "Kurt Hummel, diva extraordinaire, ex-cheerleading captain, our best kicker." Kurt giggled before rolling his eyes heavily back into his head. "A badass baker who has a singing voice of an angel." Kurt laughed out loud and Finn grabbed one of Kurt's hands before taking a deep breath and meeting his brothers eyes. It was very rare Finn got emotional but seeing the way his brother was hurting it was killing him.

"In the words of the greatest man ever to grace this earth. Hummel's never quit and if you think for one second that I would let you quit before even starting then I would be the worse big brother in the world wouldn't I?" Finn placed his arms round his brothers and brought him in for a tight hug. He knew he could do this. He just needed the push.

"And this is why we save over 500 dollars a month.. who needs to pay out the big bucks when I have my brother ay?" They both laughed before breaking apart. Kurt started to rub his tear stained face before biting his lip nervously and looking away

"Thank you Finn. For everything." Finn looked towards the ground. He could feel himself tearing up. No dude, pull yourself together for Kurt. He sighed. He wished he could take the pain away and then he got an idea.

He clapped his hands once before jumping up causing Kurt to raise a hand to his heart.

"Jesus fucking Christ Finn you nearly-

"Are you feeling rebellious still Kurt?"

Kurt placed the newly bought hair clippers down and stared at himself in the mirror. Damn. I look completely different. Kurt tilted his head to the side to get a better look. His sides were shorter and faded half way leaving the other half long and layered that fell onto his face, it was styled but messily and damn it looked good. He looked good. Not to mention it was blue.. but not just any blue.

2010 Katy Perry wig blue. Electric blue. Can see from a fucking mile away blue.

Kurt ran his fingers through his freshly dyed hair and he felt the most confident he had ever felt in his whole life. He looked fucking hot. Kurt grinned before he heard banging against the door.

"Dude, did you just switch the clippers on or did you actually fucking do it? I know you said you can't rush perfection but damn I'm dying here!" Finn yelled out. He tried the bathroom door but it was locked. He started to pace back and forth before he heard the bathroom door unlock and open. Finn opened his mouth but the words wouldn't come out. He was well and truly dumbfounded.

"So? What do you think." Kurt asked questionably with a hand on his hip. The look on Finns face was priceless.

"You know what dude, if we wasn't brothers-

"Don't you even dare finish that sentence Finn Hudson!" Kurt choked out in shock.

"You look fucking smoking. I don't even think I would need to be into dudes to want to-

"Okay! Okay! I'm done now you can leave!" Kurt started pushing a bellowing Finn out his bedroom door.

"You know I'm right Kurt! I can see it in your face!" Finn fought back, grabbing Kurt by his wrists and started to push himself back into the room. Kurt finally gave up and and held his hands up in the air surrendering.

"Fuck man, I can't wait to see their faces tomorrow! They are going to shit bricks!" Finn exclaimed loudly before he started to dance around like he was dying to use the bathroom. He was so proud of his brother. He knew what his hair meant to him and he could honestly say he's never looked better.

"I feel so much more free Finn. Like who knew cutting your hair and colouring it could make you feel this way? Fuck. If I knew it would make me feel this good I would do done it years ago!" Kurt shook his head and grinned "I feel like a totally different person Finn. I know it's only hair but it was my hair! It was everything to me. It was the only thing I've always kept the same and now it's gone. New hair, new me right?" Kurt was genuinely happy about himself for the first time in along time. Finn smiled lovingly before his brain started to work overtime. He had a thought.

"Dude, you should totally do that." Kurt looked up confused. "What do you mean?"

"Well you just said you feel like a totally different person right?" Kurt nodded "Right?"

"So why don't you be a different person?" Kurt sat there for a moment. He knew what Finn was getting at and to be honest it wasn't a bad idea. I mean he was a brilliant actor and if he didn't want anyone to see his emotions he learnt how to control that the past year.

"Think about it man! You go in there not giving a shit! New hair don't care right?" Finn waited in excitement before sitting facing his brother. "I know the one thing you fear the most Kurt is letting them see you broken. The whole school knows what you did Kurt. I know there's a no bullying policy but that doesn't stop the talking Kurt." Kurt smirked before looking back

"you're a genius you know that Finn?"

"Duh. I'm not just a pretty face!"

Kurt woke in a sweat. His heart was racing as he gasped for breath. Nightmares were a constant thing for the past year. Reliving the same moment over and over again.

His hands was on Kurt's naked body, placing kisses down his back. He could smell his scent. It was strong, floral and nothing like Blaines. He pushed his tip of his cock inside Kurt's puckered skin. He leaned down and slowly whispered into his ear

"You're going to enjoy this, I want the whole fucking school to hear you. Do you understand?" Kurt licked his lips before letting nodding his head in agreement.

"I want you to say it. I want you to say how much you want me Bambi. How much you've always wanted me. Trust me, all the heartache will be worth it for our little arrangement." Kurt closed his eyes, he knew what he had to do. This was necessary, he had to do this. It wasn't forced it was a choice. He took a deep breath before answering the man.

"I want you to fuck me Sebastian, I want all of you. Please."

The pressure increased quickly as he thrusted forward fast and bottoming quickly. Kurt let out a chocked moan as Sebastian's eyes rolled back into his head. "Fuck."

Kurt let out a choked sob. He wished he could forget about that day. He would do anything to forget about that night. He sat up and grabbed his phone. 23:46. Fuck. He threw himself back down, his head hitting the pillow doing so. He started to count

One, two, three, four, five

He counted up to two-hundred and forty-six before his eyes got heavy. Dalton was just round the corner, just over nine hours and he'll be back there. He drifted off soon, hoping that the nightmares would fade away.

*Amethystdragonmir requested blue hair*