Chapter 6
"That may be true princess, but she has no right to show up here and harass you the way she was acting all concerned as if she cared"
"not but we both seen that she did so it is what it is nothing we can do about it now."
"well, she won't be around anymore the next time I will call the authorities and make sure she is arrested because you don't need to deal with her bullshit princess."
"I know I don't dad what are you two doing here anyway if I may ask?"
"we came to check on you and you know we would probly stop by and make sure that you're ok anyway"
"yes, I figured eventually you or mom would come check up on me just wasn't sure when any of you would."
"I'm glad we did though to be honest"
"so am I because who knows what she would have done had you both not showed up when you did"
We go inside and sit down on the couch talking and drinking some hot tea that dad made for us all. He notices the meatloaf and mashed potatoes in the fridge. I laugh as he comes out with a plate for him and daddy.
"hungry, are we?"
"yes, we haven't eaten yet and I seen you had made dinner for you and bill so I decided to make us a plate this way we could be here with you and eat at the same time is that ok?"
"yes, that is fine I figured you might get into the meatloaf anyway since you could not stay out of it the time, I made it at Christmas one year. "
"you make the best meatloaf princess how I can I help but eat it."
"your right her meatloaf is amazing the best I've ever tasted."
"lord it is not that good at all why is it everyone falls in love with my cooking when I can't even cook that well just enough to make sure we survive."
"princess stop being so modest I'm sure bill loves your food just as much as we do, and you can't tell me he doesn't praise your cooking like we do"
"he does and I tell him the same thing I tell you, so I don't even start with me at all"
"oh, really you're going to ignore all of us on our compliments?"
"yes, I am and nothing anyone is going to do about it so deal with it old man"
"ooo, she called you old man Severus"
"I heard and ouch that hurt princess you can't just call me an old man like that"
"sorry daddy but I believe I just did"
"well, I guess you got told love now didn't you"
"I guess I did get told love but damn when did she become such a smart ass like you and I both"
"long time ago apparently she picked up on that trait quick though"
"of course, she did she is our daughter and if she didn't take after us, we wouldn't know what to do or say now would we"
"very true"
I had finally worn out and fell asleep on the couch as they talked. They notice how quiet I had become, and they look up seeing me sleeping on the couch. My dad picked me up gently taking me into bill and I's bedroom laying me in bed and covering me up. He kisses my forehead and goes to the door where daddy is standing.
"she wore herself out is what she did"
"yes, she did wear herself out and she wasn't supposed to do that because she just had that surgery not too long ago."
"I swear she is going to wear herself out to often if she keeps this up the way she's going, and I know damn well that bill isn't going to like or agree to it"
"I can guarantee that bill has already told her that she needs to take it easy"
"oh, I can too but we all know how well she doesn't listen to anyone because she is too stubborn."
"yes, we all know that she is stubborn"
"I don't think shell ever grow out of being that stubborn to be honest but hopefully one day she will"
"she's only going on 18 love give it time I'm sure once she gets older, she will settle and see things as the rest of us do"
"let's hope she does"
"I'm pretty sure she will but right now with everything she has gone through she's hurting as well all we can do is be there for her"
"we all are here for her and I believe she knows that, but she still blames herself for everything that happened."
"its not her fault at all and she needs to realize this"
"she will love just give it time is all"
There was a knock on the door as they are talking, they look at each other not sure who it could be. I stir a little in my sleep as my dad goes and answers the door. There stood my mother again with an Aurora with her.
"what do you want you were told not to come back here because you're not welcome."
"I came back to collect my daughter is what I came back here for"
"well, you can't do that because she is of age and is living her own life with her soon to be husband."
"what do you mean I can't because she's of age?"
The aurora looks between her and my fathers. He shakes his head before speaking up to say something.
"you're meaning to tell me that u dragged me all the way over here for nothing when the daughter you claimed was being held against her will by her father and his lover is of age?"
"you told them we had kidnapped our daughter?"
"yes, that is exactly what she told me and many others at the ministry"
"so, she didn't tell you about the abuse she put our daughter through every time she went home for the summer and the fact, she sold her to lucies Malfoy this last summer everyday so he could rape and abuse her as well?"
"no, she didn't mention this one bit, is this true anna did you do all of this they are claiming."
No one noticed I had woken up and walked up behind my fathers standing there not saying a word yet to see what she would say.
"no, they are lying there is no proof of any of this"
"NO PROOF REALLY MOTHER NO PROOF THAT YOU ABUSE ME SUMMER AFTER SUMMER THEN THIS SUMMER LET SOMEONE MUCH OLDER THEN ME TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME EVERY DAY RAPING ME AND DAMAGING TO THE POINT I CANT HAVE KIDS AND WHEN I DID GET PREGNANT THAT DAMAGED CAUSED ME TO LOSE BOTH MY BABIES I WAS CARRYING AND I HAVE THE PAPERWORK OF ALL THE ABUSE AND THE DAMAGE DONE BY THE RAPE!"
"young lady please calm down and may see this paper work of all of this please."
"I hand the aurora the paperwork as he looks through it and she realizes she's screwed.
"well, this right here is very much proof enough to arrest you and lucies and that is what I am going to do."
He arrests her as she screams that ill pay for what I just did as he drags her away taking all the evidence and pictures with him to show to the court. I watch them disappear slowly as my dads turn to me not realizing I had saved all that evidence in hope of making her pay one day.
"princess why didn't you tell us you had all of that proof against her before now"
"I thought she would just let me alone, so I let it go but now that she pulled what she did I was done playing her victim game she was playing so"
"very smartly played princess I'm proud of you for what you just did that couldn't have been easy for you"
"princess next time you come behind us like that warn us, so we at least know your there especially if you're going to yell like that."
"sorry daddy"
"it's ok sweetie you just startled us is all"
I go back into the bedroom and lay down curling up underneath the blanket falling back to sleep hoping to shut out the world for a while. Having done what, I just did cause me more pain than I needed now, and I knew it did, but I also knew it had to be done. The loss of losing my babies was already killing me more then I wanted to admit, and our wedding was approaching fast. I still had not even gone dress shopping for my dress, and I knew bill was going shopping tomorrow for the tuxedos with my dad's and the others for groomsmen I just did not have the energy or the motivation to go shopping for a wedding dress. I wanted my babies back, but I knew I could never try again, nor could I have them back. I wake up screaming in pain and anger. I had locked the bedroom door to keep anyone out. I felt I needed to suffer through the pain and that of this. I heard them knocking on the door wanting in, but I blocked it all out and sat there rocking back and forth in pain.
"bell sweetie let us in don't put yourself through this alone"
"molly we have tried to get her to let us in but for some reason she wont and whatever spell she has over the door is too strong to be broken through."
"send an owl for Fred and George maybe they can get through to her more then we can at the moment I know why she's doing this"
"why"
"she thinks its her fault she lost the babies and she's making herself feel all the pain and hurt without someone there hugging her or holding her telling her it wasn't her fault"
"it wasn't her damn fault why would she put herself through this when it wasn't"
"deep down she may know that it wasn't but right now it's her grieving process and we can't just force her to see it wasn't."
"so we let her torture herself like this and do nothing for her?"
"we can't do anything else now can we when apparently she's a greater witch at locking spells then anyone of us is"
"there is only one other witch I know that might get through it but she's at school at the moment I don't think we could get her here"
"you mean Hermione, don't you?"
"ill be right back love I'm going to nab Hermione and the others because I can't just bring Hermione and not the others you know id catch all kinds of hell for that one."
"yes, I know you would love but hurry please"
I lay back down and fall asleep leaving the spell intact as I curl up and just pass out in exhausted. I do not hear Hermione and the others show up with my father. I do not even hear when Hermione breaks through the spell I had on the bedroom door. They all stop seeing me passed out asleep in the middle of the bed as Fred and George rush through the door as well.
"she's asleep again what do we do know."
"I think all of you kids need to crawl up there and lay with her is what I think so when she wakes up shell see she's not alone and your all here for her"
"before we all do that does anyone want to explain to us what happened and why she's so upset?"
"she miscarried both babies. "
"oh no she's got to be hurting right now"
"she is this is why she needs everyone here with her but I also now you all have school except for Fred and George of course."
"molly if they are needed here let them stay if anyone questions it, I will put a stop to it as the headmaster of Hogwarts."
Everyone looked up not even realizing Dumbledore had followed everyone here to the house.
"when did you show up"
"just a moment ago when I learned some of my students went missing with my potions master in tow of those students, I knew it had to have something to do with bells"
"thank you albus I know that this is an important year for them but seems this is not a good year for bells once again and its hurting bill to watch her like this."
"we will get her and bill through this molly just keep the faith things will get better and we need her better before next month since it is her wedding and Sirius and Severus's wedding as well"
"that is true"
"so, if it takes them being here and sending homework back and forth then that is how we are going to do it and they will still all graduate on time."
"so, you're saying we can stay here and be able to still do and turn our homework in"
"yes, harry that is what I am saying I think it is for the best to be honest because I can see how bad bells needs all of her family with her and your all her family"
"thank you, headmaster,"
"no need to thank me it is what is best at the moment and I don't see any problem with it being done this way if no one else does"
No one else spoke up to argue with headmaster they all knew better. He leaves to announce what had just been decided so this way no one can say they were not informed of what is happening. My friends all invade the bed with me as they all somehow wrap arms around me. I stir and open my eyes as I see them all staring back at me, I freak out for a moment not registering who they all were because I am half asleep till I hear Harry's voice.
"bells its just us your ok go back to sleep"
I fall back to sleep and sleep till bill comes home as he enters our room and stops. He looks at our bed that is full of not one but three of his brothers, harry, Hermione and his sister as well and all of us are cuddled in a pile all asleep. My dads come up behind him as he scratches his head some.
"ok when I left no one was here but I come home to my bed being invaded by my siblings, harry and Hermione what in the hell went on while I was at work?"
"bells needed them so Severus brought them here and told them what had happened and Dumbledore told them they are staying here from now on to be with bells and can do homework from here and send it back to the castle so your stuck with the lot for a while bill."
"if it is going to help my love then I'm fine with it although I wish it wasn't my bed, they overtook"
"let's move them the other two rooms so you can lay down with bells and hold her for a while."
They all three move all the others slowly without waking them somehow as bill then crawls into bed with me and pulls me into his arms as I curl into his chest. I look up at bill as he holds me close.
"hi my love"
"hi love did you sleep alright the way you all were piled together it didn't look comfortable at all"
"I slept alright, and it was, but I know that they are just worried about me so its ok"
"well, I haven't slept so why don't you take a nap with me and let me hold you I've missed you so much"
"I'm good with that love I don't want to move from your arms anyway"
We both fall asleep together not even realizing the others had woken up after being moved. They all stand in the doorway watching us fall asleep together. They all leave the house going up to the burrow to bug mom to let us sleep for a while as they know we both need it. We wake up two hours later so bill could go do his shopping. I get up putting my robe on making my way to the living room to see all the guys gathered in the room waiting.
"you all are going shopping together?"
"yes, princess we all need tuxedos for the wedding, so we decided since they are here for awhile wed all just go today and get them, so we don't have to worry later on"
"that is true it would be much easier"
"that it would but we should be asking you when you're going to go wedding dress shopping because you haven't don't that yet"
"I'm not going right off I'm just not in the mood right now so let it go please and have fun on the shopping trip ill have dinner done when you all get back"
"princess"
"dad don't I said what I said, and I meant it now leave it alone I don't even want to talk about it"
"princess sweetie you can't just avoid it till last minute"
"I can if I want too so, please stop talking about it"
"bestie"
"don't Fred please don't"
I go back into the bedroom shutting the door sitting on the bed my head in my hands as bill comes out of our bathroom all dressed and ready to go but stops when he sees me. He sits beside me his arm wrapping around me as my fathers come into the room.
"love is you ok?"
"yes, love I'm fine go have fun with your boy's day out don't worry about me"
"princess you know damn well you're not alright especially with the conversation we just tried to have with you"
"let it alone dad and I mean it I'm not going to say it again"
"what conversation love?"
"the one about me going wedding dress shopping I asked them to let it alone for right now and they all kept pushing so I came back in here I'm just not ready right now and I need a little bit of time."
"alright love I won't push "
"thank you love"
They all leave to go shopping and I clean the house top to bottom, and I make sure the two extra bedrooms have enough beds one for the girls and the others for the boys. I then set about making dinner as it is almost dinner time, and they should be back soon. I am finishing dinner when I hear a noise coming from the living room and I go to look just to find lucies.
"what the hell are you doing in my house get out now"
"oh, sweetie your mother sent me here to collect her loving daughter why would I leave."
Just then the men come in from shopping and stop seeing lucies standing a short foot from me and bill rushes over to my side as do all the others making a shield around me. I breath easier as they do know he could not get through all of them to get to me.
"lucies, I suggest you get the hell out of our home and leave my wife the hell alone from now on I don't care what her mother thinks or wants. "
"you think you can just tell me to leave her alone and I'm going to do so?"
"dam right you are lucies you aren't going to be able to get through all of us or are you that stupid "
"oh, there will be a time and place she won't have this kind of protection and I will get to her then and you all will rethink speaking to me like this."
"she will always be this protected don't ever think she won't because she has people who love and protect her unlike her so-called mother ever did"
"we shall see wont we"
He leaves and I slump to the floor closing my eyes as the anxiety attack that hit when I first seen him was in full affect and I could not control it like I wish I could. Bill kneels and holds me close knowing what is going on and knows all he can do is hold me tight in his arms. Dad goes and checks on dinner removing it from the oven for me finishing what I was doing. About twenty minutes later I come out of the attack still in bills arms. Everyone is sitting looking at us as if I were not going to come out of it.
"I'm fine sorry if I scared anyone, I didn't mean it I tried to control it I really did"
"baby don't be sorry or try to explain we all understand all we care is your ok we know why it happened and I got to you before you hit the floor too hard this time"
"I know but seeing everyone staring at me like that when I come out of it makes me feel bad is all"
"they are just worried is all love its ok"
"princess dinner is done and still warm I made sure of it so we can all go eat if you want too"
"you all can I need to lay down so ill eat in a little while but everyone else please go ahead and eat."
"love you need to eat too "
"I will love I promise just right now I can't I'm still shaken up from the anxiety attack"
"ok love as long as you will eat something later"
"I will I promise "
I crawl into bed and lay down covering up as they all go out to the kitchen to eat. I hear them all laughing and joking around with each other. I curl up in tears wishing I were like them that I could be happy and just not be so broken and torn apart. I get up and get dressed sneaking out the back door. I disparate to Hogwarts and go inside. It is the middle of the night, but I do not care. I forgot that dad had come back to school last night till this weekend. I do not hear him come up behind me as I look around and then enter the room of requirement. I go in seeing a big bed snacks and books all around as if it were what I needed. I curl up on the bed and pull my knees to my chest. I did not even realize that dad had followed me into the room.
"princess did you tell anyone else you left the house"
"no, I didn't dad I just snuck out while they had dinner laughing and joking with each other I couldn't take it no more"
"sweeties talk to me"
"why daddy I cannot do this more, I can't stand tying him down unable to have children anymore. I can't just let everyone around me see the fact I am falling apart and no longer want to be apart of this world because of how broken I am. "
"princess you're not broken, yes you're grieving right now, and everyone understands that completely I get that but listen to me everyone loves you so much"
"I can't even go wedding shopping and the wedding is next month how good of a wife will I ever be if I can't make myself go shop for a dress"
"sweetie if you want, we can go together and not tell anyone else so no one will see the dress till the day of"
"why do you care so damn much daddy"
"cause my daughter and I love you and I want to see you happy"
"but daddy I'm not happy well to a certain point but I do love bill and want to be his wife but right now I feel he deserves better"
"he doesn't though sweetheart you two are perfect for each other"
"then how do I get through this?"
"we all will get you through this I promise you that"
He sits on the bed and pulls me into his lap just letting me cry into his chest. He comforts me and just holds me like any father would do for their little girl. I do not hear anyone else come into the room of requirement. I had fallen asleep in his arms. I stir as he starts talking to the others.
"when did she get here"
"she's been here for a couple hours I happened to see her apart in and followed her to the room of requirement and I just came in to talk to her"
"I don't know why she won't speak to me about things"
"bill she's afraid she can't because you see things differently because of what she went through she's always afraid to express her feelings to anyone I am lucky to even had gotten things out of her"
I wake up at home in mine and bills bed with his arms around me I snuggle into them as he wraps me tighter against him not letting go. When he does this, I know he is not asleep, and I look up at him. He smiles down at me.
"hi my love"
"hi love "
"I'm sorry I took off I just didn't now how to talk to you "
"just talk love like you normally would let it all out let me help you through this you're not alone because I am grieving also. "
"I'm just afraid I'm going to wake up one day and all this would be a dream, that I don't deserve to be with you or have this many people caring about me or wanting me to succeed all the time. How can I keep going when I keep failing? "
"you're not failing my love you're just trying to grieve, and all these things keep coming at us at once, so I understand why you're feeling the way you are right now"
"things need to just stop coming at us like this I can't take much more"
He kisses me softly and I kiss back
"love your dad told me he's taking you dress shopping tomorrow"
"he wants to I'm just not just I am ready for it"
"go love it'll do you some good I promise you; you need to get out of the house and away from all this crap going on"
"ok Ill go love but I can't guarantee ill find a dress tomorrow"
"if you, don't you don't love I'm not going to push you but remember you can't, be naked walking down the aisle I mean id love it but not everyone will"
"oh my god love your horrible"
"I may be, but you know I am right"
"yes, but so not even right you're the only one to see me naked"
"very true my love"
The next day I get up and get dressed in something comfortable as I sit to do my hair as I brush it. I notice it is falling out. I know that I am over stressed and that is why its falling out again. I sigh softly I did not see bill watching me from the door.
"your hair is falling out again isn't it love"
"yes, love it is and I wish it wasn't I don't want to be bald for our wedding"
"you won't be my love I promise you that"
"how wont I because if it keeps falling out, I will be"
"my mother has some shampoo up at the burrow and ill get you some so we can try it for your hair"
"ok my love"
"your fathers are both in the living room waiting for you"
"do I have to do this"
"yes, love it'll be good for you to go have a father daughter day with them"
"what about all the other girls they need their dresses"
"moms taken care of all that so you wouldn't have to my love"
"mom thinks of everything doesn't she"
"yes, she really does love"
"ok I'll go I guess"
"thank you, my love,"
I get up and go out to see my fathers waiting on the couch talking to everyone else. As I come out, they all look up at me. I smile softly and go to the door.
"you ready dads cause if not I'm going back to my room"
"alright let's go then"
We leave and disparate all the way to England and I am not sure why, but I let it go as my fathers wanted to make this day special for the three of us. We arrive at a big wedding dress shop as I stand and stare
"dad this place is too expensive I was just going to go to the thrift shops around dragon alley"
"no, you're not I am paying for your dress and your father agrees you are to have the best this is your wedding day"
"I can't ask you to do that"
"you're not asking I'm doing it because you deserve the best."
"but "
"princess I agree with him so arguing isn't going to do you any good just accept it"
"fine I suppose I have no choice in this"
"nope you don't princess"
"ready to go in princess"
"I guess so"
We all walk in and I look around slowly as a salesperson comes over to us. I listen as my father speaks to the person.
"we are shopping for our daughter's wedding dress and there is no budget anything she wants is what she will get so please show us everything or whatever you think would be good for her. "
"we just got in some new gowns that are top of the line and a high price tag but if you say anything we can go look at them and let you all choose which ones to try on"
"lead the way"
We follow her and she shows us the new gowns and my eyes stop on a off the shoulder white gown that has beading and gems all along the bodice and the skirt, it is sleeveless also. My dad's notice I am staring at it and smile.
"can she try the one she's staring at on first please."
"of course, she can sir's, if you'll follow me this way sweetie, we will get you into the dress."
I follow her into the dressing room as she helps me try the dress on and it fits like a glove, I stare at myself in the mirror a smile coming across my face. The sales lady smiles as she sees how stunning I look.
"with the way this fits you sweetie you can take it home today its perfect if this is the one you choose that is."
"I think I found my dress, but I know my dads want to see me in it, so we best let them see. "
"we walk out into the area where they are sitting as they both look up and stop staring in shock at me as the salesperson also puts a tiara veil on me with the dress. I investigate the mirror and smile.
"princess you look stunning"
"I think this is my dress, but I don't know if I should get it or just settle for something less showy"
"princess if this is your dress, you're getting it there is no need to settle for something less then you deserve."
"how much is this dress?"
"this dress is one of a kind actually and is brand new off the showroom so it will cost one hundred thousand pounds."
"nope I'm sorry I can't get this dress dad it's too much"
I watch as my father pulls the money out and hands it to the sale lady as she smiles and goes to process the sale. I stare at him and he knows I am not happy right now because I had said no but I knew this was my dress, but I was going to just go with something cheaper. The sales lady helps me out of the dress and puts the dress into a dress bag and then the tiara veil into a box handing them to my father as I come out from getting dressed again. We leave the shop and go to lunch.
"I don't understand why you just did that"
"because it was your dress, and I was not going to let you just settle for something less then that knowing how happy that dress made you"
"it was expensive"
"princess your very worth it so don't try to argue it's too late"
"but "
"no buts"
we eat lunch then apparat back home. They take my dress and tiara to their house as I go into mine and bills house not looking happy at all. Bill looks up as do the others but do not say a word as I slam my bedroom door shut behind me. My dads come in behind me as I do and they both know I am not happy now, but I was not going to argue either.
"ok what did you two do to my soon to be wife to be that pissed."
"we bought her dress"
"how much?"
"one hundred thousand pounds"
"say what that's expensive"
"it may be, but you didn't see how she lit up when she was wearing the dress and it is a one of a kind no other one has been made like it and its brand new off the showroom floor."
"I can see what's got her so pissed but if its her dress she wanted why is she so upset"
''she was going to settle for a less expensive dress but we both knew it wouldn't be the same nor would she be as happy with it"
"you paid for it even though she said no didn't you "
"yes, I did "
"now I understand why she's pissed right now"
"she'll get over it"
"do you think she will?"
"yes, she will bill she just doesn't think she's worth that much"
"well, she's priceless in my eyes so I don't think the price is what's got her upset, but I can't be sure"
I lay on our bed closing my eyes as I fall asleep not even wishing to speak to anyone till, I could calm down. I did not understand why my father had just spent so much money on me as if its nothing. I did not think that I was worth that much even if it was for my wedding.